Page 17 of Fear Nothing


  The surf was so slow that you would have to work hard to catch a wave, and the ride wouldn’t last long. It was almost a neap tide, though this was the fourth quarter of the moon. The surf was a little sloppy, too, because of the onshore wind, which was blustery enough to cause some chop out here, even though it was all but dead in town.

  Offshore wind is best, smoothing the ocean surface. It blows spray from the crest of the waves, makes them hold up longer, and causes them to hollow out before they break.

  Bobby and I have been surfing since we were eleven: him by day, both of us by night. Lots of surfers hit the waves by moonlight, fewer when the moon is down, but Bobby and I like it best in storm waves without even stars.

  We were grommets together, totally annoying surf mongrels, but we graduated to surf nazis before we were fourteen, and we were mature boardheads by the time Bobby graduated high school and I took my equivalency degree for home education. Bobby is more than just a boardhead now; he’s a surf mensch, and people all over the world turn to him to find out where the big waves will be breaking next.

  God, I love the sea at night. It is darkness distilled into a liquid, and nowhere in this world do I feel more at home than in these black swells. The only light that ever arises in the ocean is from bioluminescent plankton, which become radiant when disturbed, and although they can make an entire wave glow an intense lime green, their brightness is friendly to my eyes. The night sea contains nothing from which I must hide or from which I must even look away.

  By the time I walked back to the cottage, Bobby was standing in the open front door. Because of our friendship, all the lights in his house are on rheostats; now he had dimmed them to the level of candlelight.

  I haven’t a clue as to how he knew that I had arrived. Neither I nor Orson had made a sound. Bobby just always knows.

  He was barefoot, even in March, but he was wearing jeans instead of swim trunks or shorts. His shirt was Hawaiian—he owns no other style—but he had made a concession to the season by wearing a long-sleeve, crewneck, white cotton sweater under the short-sleeve shirt, which featured bright quizzical parrots and lush palm fronds.

  As I climbed the steps to the porch, Bobby gave me a shaka, the surfer hand signal that’s easier to make than the sign they exchange on Star Trek, which is probably based on the shaka. Fold your middle three fingers to your palm, extend your thumb and little finger, and lazily waggle your hand. It means a lot of things—hello, what’s up, hang loose, great ride—all friendly, and it will never be taken as an insult unless you wave it at someone who isn’t a surfer, such as an L.A. gang member, in which case it might get you shot dead.

  I was eager to tell him about everything that had transpired since sundown, but Bobby values a laid-back approach to life. If he were any more laid back, he’d be dead. Except when riding a wave, he values tranquility. Treasures it. If you’re going to be a friend of Bobby Halloway’s, you have to learn to accept his view of life: Nothing that happens farther than half a mile from the beach is of sufficient importance to worry about, and no event is solemn enough or stylish enough to justify the wearing of a necktie. He responds to languid conversation better than to chatter, to indirection better than to direct statements.

  “Flow me a beer?” I asked.

  Bobby said, “Corona, Heineken, Löwenbräu?”

  “Corona for me.”

  Leading the way across the living room, Bobby said, “Is the one with the tail drinking tonight?”

  “He’ll have a Heinie.”

  “Light or dark?”

  “Dark,” I said.

  “Must’ve been a rough night for dogs.”

  “Full-on gnarly.”

  The cottage consists of a large living room, an office where Bobby tracks waves worldwide, a bedroom, a kitchen, and one bath. The walls are well-oiled teak, dark and rich, the windows are big, the floors are slate, and the furniture is comfortable.

  Ornamentation—other than the natural setting—is limited to eight astonishing watercolors by Pia Klick, a woman whom Bobby still loves, though she left him to spend time in Waimea Bay, on the north shore of Oahu. He wanted to go with her, but she said she needed to be alone in Waimea, which she calls her spiritual home; the harmony and beauty of the place are supposed to give her the peace of mind she requires in order to decide whether or not to live with her fate. I don’t know what that means. Neither does Bobby. Pia said she’d be gone a month or two. That was almost three years ago. The swell at Waimea comes out of extremely deep water. The waves are high, wall-like. Pia says they are the green of translucent jade. Some days I dream of walking that shore and hearing the thunder of those breakers. Once a month, Bobby calls Pia or she calls him. Sometimes they talk for a few minutes, sometimes for hours. She isn’t with another man, and she does love Bobby. Pia is one of the kindest, gentlest, smartest people I have ever known. I don’t understand why she’s doing this. Neither does Bobby. The days go by. He waits.

  In the kitchen, Bobby plucked a bottle of Corona from the refrigerator and handed it to me.

  I twisted off the cap and took a swallow. No lime, no salt, no pretension.

  He opened a Heineken for Orson. “Half or all?”

  I said, “It’s a radical night.” In spite of my dire news, I was deep in the tropical rhythms of Bobbyland.

  He emptied the bottle into a deep, enameled-metal bowl on the floor, which he keeps for Orson. On the bowl he has painted ROSEBUD in block letters, a reference to the child’s sled in Orson Welles’s Citizen Kane.

  I have no intention of inducing my canine companion to become an alcoholic. He doesn’t get beer every day, and usually he splits a bottle with me. Nevertheless, he has his pleasures, and I don’t intend to deny him what he enjoys. Considering his formidable body weight, he doesn’t become inebriated on a single beer. Dare to give him two, however, and he redefines the term party animal.

  As Orson noisily lapped up the Heineken, Bobby opened a Corona for himself and leaned against the refrigerator.

  I leaned against the counter near the sink. There was a table with chairs, but in the kitchen, Bobby and I tend to be leaners.

  We are alike in many ways. We’re the same height, virtually the same weight, and the same body type. Although he has very dark brown hair and eyes so raven-black that they seem to have blue highlights, we have been mistaken for brothers.

  We both have a collection of surf bumps, too, and as he leaned against the refrigerator, Bobby was absent-mindedly using the bottom of one bare foot to rub the bumps on the top of the other. These are knotty calcium deposits that develop from constant pressure against a surfboard; you get them on your toes and the tops of your feet from paddling while in a prone position. We have them on our knees, as well, and Bobby has them on his bottom ribs.

  I am not tanned, of course, as Bobby is. He’s beyond tanned. He’s a maximum brown sun god, year round, and in summer he’s well-buttered toast. He does the mambo with melanoma, and maybe one day we’ll die of the same sun that he courts and I reject.

  “There were some unreal zippers out there today,” he said. “Six-footers, perfect shape.”

  “Looks way slow now.”

  “Yeah. Mellowed out around sunset.”

  We sucked at our beers. Orson happily licked his chops.

  “So,” Bobby said, “your dad died.”

  I nodded. Sasha must have called him.

  “Good,” he said.

  “Yeah.”

  Bobby is not cruel or insensitive. He meant it was good that the suffering was over for my father.

  Between us, we often say a lot with a few words. People have mistaken us for brothers not merely because we are the same height, weight, and body type..

  “You got to the hospital in time. So it was cool.”

  “It was.”

  He didn’t ask me how I was handling it. He knew.

  “So after the hospital,” he said, “you sang a couple numbers in a minstrel show.”

  I touched
one sooty hand to my sooty face. “Someone killed Angela Ferryman, set her house on fire to cover it. I almost caught the great onaula-loa in the sky.”

  “Who’s the someone?”

  “Wish I knew. Same people stole Dad’s body.”

  Bobby drank some beer and said nothing.

  “They killed a drifter, swapped his body for Dad’s. You might not want to know about this.”

  For a while, he weighed the wisdom of ignorance against the pull of curiosity. “I can always forget I heard it, if that seems smart.”

  Orson belched. Beer makes him gaseous.

  When the dog wagged his tail and looked up beseechingly, Bobby said, “No more for you, fur face.”

  “I’m hungry,” I said.

  “You’re filthy, too. Catch a shower, take some of my clothes. I’ll throw together some clucking tacos.”

  “Thought I’d clean up with a swim.”

  “It’s nipple out there.”

  “Feels about sixty degrees.”

  “I’m talking water temp. Believe me, the nip factor is high. Shower’s better.”

  “Orson needs a makeover, too.”

  “Take him in the shower with you. There’re plenty of towels.”

  “Very broly of you,” I said. Broly meaning “brotherly.”

  “Yeah, I’m so Christian, I don’t ride the waves anymore—I just walk on them.”

  After a few minutes in Bobbyland, I was relaxed and willing to ease into my news. Bobby’s more than a beloved friend. He’s a tranquilizer.

  Suddenly he stood away from the refrigerator and cocked his head, listening.

  “Something?” I asked.

  “Someone.”

  I hadn’t heard anything but the steadily diminishing voice of the wind. With the windows closed and the surf so slow, I couldn’t even hear the sea, but I noticed that Orson was alert, too.

  Bobby headed out of the kitchen to see who the visitor might be, and I said, “Bro,” and offered him the Glock.

  He stared dubiously at the pistol, then at me. “Stay casual.”

  “That drifter. They cut out his eyes.”

  “Why?”

  I shrugged. “Because they could?”

  For a moment Bobby considered what I’d said. Then he took a key from a pocket of his jeans and unlocked a broom closet, which to the best of my recollection had never featured a lock before. From the narrow closet, he took a pistol-grip, pump-action shotgun.

  “That’s new,” I said.

  “Goon repellent.”

  This was not life as usual in Bobbyland. I couldn’t resist: “Stay casual.”

  Orson and I followed Bobby across the living room and onto the front porch. The onshore flow smelled faintly of kelp.

  The cottage faced north. No boats were on the bay—or at least none with running lights. To the east, the town twinkled along the shore and up the hills.

  Surrounding the cottage, the end of the horn featured low dunes and shore grass frosted with moonlight. No one was in sight.

  Orson moved to the top of the steps and stood rigid, his head raised and thrust forward, sniffing the air and catching a scent more interesting than kelp.

  Relying perhaps on a sixth sense, Bobby didn’t even look at the dog to confirm his own suspicion. “Stay here. If I flush anyone out, tell him he can’t leave till we validate his parking ticket.”

  Barefoot, he descended the steps and crossed the dunes to look down the steep incline to the beach. Someone could have been lying on that slope, watching the cottage from concealment.

  Bobby walked along the crest of the embankment, heading toward the point, studying the slope and the beach below, turning every few steps to survey the territory between him and the house. He held the shotgun ready in both hands and conducted the search with military methodicalness.

  Obviously, he had been through this routine more than once before. He hadn’t told me that he was being harassed by anyone or troubled by intruders. Ordinarily, if he was having a serious problem, he would have shared it with me.

  I wondered what secret he was keeping.

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  Having turned away from the steps and pushed his snout between a pair of balusters at the east end of the porch, Orson was looking not west toward Bobby but back along the horn toward town. He growled deep in his throat.

  I followed the direction of his gaze. Even in the fullness of the moon, which the snarled rags of cloud didn’t currently obscure, I was unable to see anyone.

  With the steadiness of a grumbling motor, the dog’s low growl continued uninterrupted.

  To the west, Bobby had reached the point, still moving along the crest of the embankment. Although I could see him, he was little more than a gray shape against the stark-black backdrop of sea and sky.

  While I had been looking the other way, someone could have cut Bobby down so suddenly and violently that he had been unable to cry out, and I wouldn’t have known. Now, rounding the point and beginning to approach the house along the southern flank of the horn, this blurry gray figure could have been anyone.

  To the growling dog, I said, “You’re spooking me.”

  Although I strained my eyes, I still couldn’t discern anyone or any threat to the east, where Orson’s attention remained fixed. The only movement was the flutter of the tall, sparse grass. The fading wind wasn’t even strong enough to blow sand off the well-compacted dunes.

  Orson stopped grumbling and thumped down the porch steps, as though in pursuit of quarry. Instead, he scampered into the sand only a few feet to the left of the steps, where he raised one hind leg and emptied his bladder.

  When he returned to the porch, visible tremors were passing through his flanks. Looking eastward again, he didn’t resume his growling; instead, he whined nervously.

  This change in him disturbed me more than if he had begun to bark furiously.

  I sidled across the porch to the western corner of the cottage, trying to watch the sandy front yard but also wanting to keep Bobby—if, indeed, it was Bobby—in sight as long as possible. Soon, however, still edging along the southern embankment, he disappeared behind the house.

  When I realized that Orson had stopped whining, I turned toward him and discovered he was gone.

  I thought he must have chased after something in the night, though it was remarkable that he had sprinted off so soundlessly. Anxiously moving back the way I had come, across the porch toward the steps, I couldn’t see the dog anywhere out there among the moonlit dunes.

  Then I found him at the open front door, peering out warily. He had retreated into the living room, just inside the threshold. His ears were flattened against his skull. His head was lowered. His hackles bristled as if he had sustained an electrical shock. He was neither growling nor whining, but tremors passed through his flanks.

  Orson is many things—not least of all, strange—but he is not cowardly or stupid. Whatever he was retreating from must have been worthy of his fear.

  “What’s the problem, pal?”

  Failing to acknowledge me with even as little as a quick glance, the dog continued to obsess on the barren landscape beyond the porch. Although he drew his black lips away from his teeth, no snarl came from him. Clearly he no longer harbored any aggressive intent; rather, his bared teeth appeared to express extreme distaste, repulsion.

  As I turned to scan the night, I glimpsed movement from the corner of my eye: the fuzzy impression of a man running in a half crouch, passing the cottage from east to west, progressing swiftly with long fluid strides through the last rank of dunes that marked the top of the slope to the beach, about forty feet away from me.

  I swung around, bringing up the Glock. The running man had either gone to ground or had been a phantom.

  Briefly I wondered if it was Pinn. No. Orson would not have been fearful of Jesse Pinn or of any man like him.

  I crossed the porch, descended the three wooden steps, and stood in the sand, taking a closer look at the surrounding dunes. Scattere
d sprays of tall grass undulated in the breeze. Some of the shore lights shimmered across the lapping waters of the bay. Nothing else moved.

  Like a tattered bandage unraveling from the dry white face of a mummified pharaoh, a long narrow cloud wound away from the chin of the moon.

  Perhaps the running man was merely a cloud shadow. Perhaps. But I didn’t think so.

  I glanced back toward the open door of the cottage. Orson had retreated farther from the threshold, deeper into the front room. For once, he was not at home in the night.

  I didn’t feel entirely at home, either.

  Stars. Moon. Sand. Grass. And a feeling of being watched.

  From the slope that dropped to the beach or from a shallow swale between dunes, through a screen of grass, someone was watching me. A gaze can have weight, and this one was coming at me like a series of waves, not like slow surf but like fully macking double overheads, hammering at me.

  Now the dog wasn’t the only one whose hackles rose.

  Just when I began to worry that Bobby was taking a mortally long time, he appeared around the east end of the cottage. As he approached, sand pluming around his bare feet, he never looked at me but let his gaze travel ceaselessly from dune to dune.

  I said, “Orson haired out.”

  “Don’t believe it,” Bobby said.

  “Totally haired out. He’s never done that before. He’s pure guts, that dog.”

  “Well, if he did,” Bobby said, “I don’t blame him. Almost haired out myself.”

  “Someone’s out there.”

  “More than one.”

  “Who?”

  Bobby didn’t reply. He adjusted his grip on the shotgun but continued to hold it at the ready while he studied the surrounding night.

  “They’ve been here before,” I guessed.

  “Yeah.”

  “Why? What do they want?”

  “I don’t know.”

  “Who are they?” I asked again.

  As before, he didn’t answer.

  “Bobby?” I pressed.