In an office that might have been on the ground-floor of the Tower of Babel, it was so massively constructed, we were presented to our old schoolmaster, who was one of a group, composed of two or three of the busier sort of magistrates, and some visitors they had brought. He received me like a man who had formed my mind in bygone years, and had always loved me tenderly. On my introducing Traddles, Mr. Creakle expressed, in like manner, but in an inferior degree, that he had always been Traddles's guide, philosopher, and friend. Our venerable instructor was a great deal older, and not improved in appearance. His face was as fiery as ever, his eyes were as small, and rather deeper set. The scanty, wet-looking grey hair, by which I remembered him, was almost gone, and the thick veins in his bald head were none the more agreeable to look at.
After some conversation among these gentlemen, from which I might have supposed that there was nothing in the world to be legitimately taken into account but the supreme comfort of prisoners, at any expence, and nothing on the wide earth to be done outside prison-doors, we began our inspection. It being then just dinner-time, we went first into the great kitchen, where every prisoner's dinner was in course of being set out separately (to be handed to him in his cell), with the regularity and precision of clock-work. I said aside, to Traddles, that I wondered whether it occurred to anybody, that there was a striking contrast between these plentiful repasts of choice quality, and the dinners, not to say of paupers, but of soldiers, sailors, labourers, the great bulk of the honest, working community, of whom not one man in five hundred ever dined half so well. But I learned that the "system" required high living, and, in short, to dispose of the system, once for all, I found that on that head and on all others, "the system" put an end to all doubts, and disposed of all anomalies. Nobody appeared to have the least idea that there was any other system, but the system, to be considered.
As we were going through some of the magnificent passages, I inquired of Mr. Creakle and his friends what were supposed to be the main advantages of this all-governing and universally overriding system? I found them to be the perfect isolation of prisoners--so that no one man in confinement there, knew anything about another, and the reduction of prisoners to a wholesome state of mind, leading to sincere contrition and repentance.
Now, it struck me, when we began to visit individuals in their cells, and to traverse the passages in which those cells were, and to have the manner of the going to chapel and so forth, explained to us, that there was a strong probability of the prisoners knowing a good deal about each other, and of their carrying on a pretty complete system of intercourse. This, at the time I write, has been proved, I believe, to be the case, but, as it would have been flat blasphemy. against the system to have hinted such a doubt then, I looked out for the penitence as diligently as I could.
And here again, I had great misgivings. I found as prevalent a fashion in the form of the penitence, as I had left outside in the forms of the coats and waistcoats in the windows of the tailors' shops. I found a vast amount of profession, varying very little in character, varying very little (which I thought exceedingly suspicious) even in words. I found a great many foxes, disparaging whole vineyards of inaccessible grapes, but I found very few foxes whom I would have trusted within reach of a bunch. Above all, I found that the most professing men were the greatest objects of interest, and that their conceit, their vanity, their want of excitement, and their love of deception (which many of them possessed to an almost incredible extent, as their histories showed), all prompted to these professions, and were all gratified by them.
However, I heard so repeatedly, in the course of our goings to and fro, of a certain Number Twenty-Seven, who was the favourite, and who really appeared to be a Model Prisoner, that I resolved to suspend my judgment until I should see Twenty-Seven. Twenty-Eight, I understood, was also a bright particular star, but it was his misfortune to have his glory a little dimmed by the extraordinary lustre of Twenty-Seven. I heard so much of Twenty-Seven, of his pious admonitions to everybody around him, and of the beautiful letters he constantly wrote to his mother (whom he seemed to consider in a very bad way), that I became quite impatient to see him.
I had to restrain my impatience for some time, on account of Twenty-Seven being reserved for a concluding effect. But, at last, we came to the door of his cell, and Mr. Creakle, looking through a little hole in it, reported to us, in a state of the greatest admiration, that he was reading a Hymn Book.
There was such a rush of heads immediately, to see Number Twenty-Seven reading his Hymn Book, that the little hole was blocked up, six or seven heads deep. To remedy this inconvenience, and give us an opportunity of conversing with Twenty-Seven in all his purity, Mr. Creakle directed the door of the cell to be unlocked, and Twenty-Seven to be invited out into the passage. This was done, and whom should Traddles and I then behold to our amazement, in this converted Number Twenty-Seven, but Uriah Heep!
He knew us directly, and said, as he came out--with the old writhe--
"How do you do, Mr. Copperfield? How do you do, Mr. Traddles?"
This recognition caused a general admiration in the party. I rather thought that everyone was struck by his not being proud, and taking notice of us.
"Well, Twenty-Seven," said Mr. Creakle, mournfully admiring him. "How do you find yourself today?"
"I am very umble, sirl" replied Uriah Heep.
"You are always so, Twenty-Seven," said Mr. Creakle.
Here, another gentleman asked, with extreme anxiety: "Are you quite comfortable?"
"Yes, I thank you, sirl" said Uriah Heep, looking in that direction. "Far more comfortable here, than ever I was outside. I see my follies now, sir. That's what makes me comfortable."
Several gentlemen were much affected, and a third questioner, forcing himself to the front, inquired with extreme feeling: "How do you find the beef?"
"Thank you, sir," replied Uriah, glancing in the new direction of this voice, "it was tougher yesterday than I, could wish, but it's my duty to bear. I have committed follies, gentlemen," said Uriah, looking round with a meek smile, "and I ought to bear the consequences without repining."
A murmur, partly of gratification at Twenty-Seven's celestial state of mind, and partly of indignation against the Contractor who had given him any cause of complaint (a note of which was immediately made by Mr. Creakle), having subsided, Twenty-Seven stood in the midst of us, as if he felt himself the principal object of merit in a highly meritorious museum. That we, the neophytes, might have an excess of light shining upon us all at once, orders were given to let out Twenty-Eight.
I had been so much astonished already, that I only felt a kind of resigned wonder when Mr. Littimer walked forth, reading a good book!
"Twenty-Eight," said a gentleman in spectacles, who had not yet spoken, "you complained last week, my good fellow, of the cocoa. How has it been since?"
"I thank you, sir," said Mr. Littimer, "it has been better made. If I might take the liberty of saying so, sir, I don't think the milk which is boiled with it is quite genuine, but I am aware, sir, that there is great adulteration of milk, in London, and that the article in a pure state is difficult to be obtained."
It appeared to me that the gentleman in spectacles backed his Twenty-Eight against Mr. Creakle's Twenty-Seven, for each of them took his own man in hand.
"What is your state of mind, Twenty-Eight?" said the questioner in spectacles.
"I thank you sir," returned Mr. Littimer, "I see my follies now, sir. I am a good deal troubled when I think of the sins of my former companions, sir, but I trust they may find forgiveness."
"You are quite happy yourself?" said the questioner, nodding encouragement.
"I am much obliged to you, sir," returned Mr. Littimer. "Perfectly so."
"Is there anything at all on your mind, now?" said the questioner. "If so, mention it, Twenty-Eight."
"Sir," said Mr. Littimer, without looking, up, "if my eyes have not deceived me, there is a gentleman present who was acq
uainted with me in my former life. It may be profitable to that gentleman to know, sir, that I attribute my past follies, entirely to having lived a thoughtless life in the service of young men, and to having allowed myself to be led by them into weaknesses, which I had not the strength to resist. I hope that gentleman will take warning, sir, and will not be offended at my freedom. It is for his good. I am conscious of my own past follies. I hope he may repent of all the wickedness and sin, to which he has been a party."
I observed that several gentlemen were shading their eyes, each, with one hand, as if they had just come into church.
"This does you credit, Twenty-Eight," returned the ques -tioner. "I should have expected it of you. Is there anything else?"
"Sir," returned Mr. Littimer, slightly lifting up his eyebrows, but not his eyes, "there was a young woman who fell into dissolute courses, that I endeavoured to save, sir, but could not rescue. I beg that gentleman, if he has it in his power, to inform that young woman from me that I forgive her her bad conduct towards myself, and that I call her to repentance--if he will be so good."
"I have no doubt, Twenty-Eight," returned the questioner, "that the gentleman you refer to feels very strongly--as we all must--what you have so properly said. We will not detain you."
"I thank you, sir," said Mr. Littimer. "Gentlemen, I wish you a good day, and hoping you and your families will also see your wickedness, and amend!"
With this, Number Twenty-Eight retired, after a glance between him and Uriah, as if they were not altogether unknown to each other, through some medium of communication, and a murmur went round the group, as his door shut upon him, that he was a most respectable man, and a beautiful case.
"Now, Twenty-Seven," said Mr. Creakle, entering on a clear stage with his man, "is there anything that anyone can do for you? If so, mention it."
"I would umbly ask, sir," returned Uriah, with a jerk of his malevolent head, "for leave to write again to Mother."
"It shall certainly be granted," said Mr. Creakle.
"Thank you, sir! I am anxious about Mother. I am afraid she ain't safe."
Somebody incautiously asked, what from? But there was a scandalized whisper of "Hush!"
"Immortally safe, sir," returned Uriah, writhing in the direction of the voice. "I should wish Mother to be got into my state. I never should have been got into my present state if I hadn't come here. I wish Mother had come here. It would be better for everybody, if they got took up, and was brought here."
This sentiment gave unbounded satisfaction--greater satisfaction, I think, than anything that had passed yet.
"Before I come here," said Uriah, stealing a look at us, as if he would have blighted the outer world to which we belonged, if he could, "I was given to follies, but now I am sensible of my follies. There's a deal of sin outside. There's a deal of sin in Mother. There's nothing but sin everywhere--except here."
"You are quite changed?" said Mr. Creakle.
"Oh dear, yes, sir!" cried this hopeful penitent.
"You wouldn't relapse, if you were going out?" asked somebody else.
"Oh de-ar no, sir!"
"Well!" said Mr. Creakle, "this is very gratifying. You have addressed Mr. Copperfield, Twenty-Seven. Do you wish to say anything further to him?"
"You knew me a long time before I came here and was changed, Mr. Copperfield," said Uriah, looking at me, and a more villainous look I never saw, even on his visage. "You knew me when, in spite of my follies, I was umble among them that was proud, and meek among them that was violent --you was violent to me yourself, Mr. Copperfield. Once, you struck me a blow in the face, you know."
General commiseration. Several indignant glances directed at me.
"But I forgive you, Mr. Copperfield," said Uriah, making his forgiving nature the subject of a most impious and awful parallel, which I shall not record. "I forgive everybody. It would ill become me to bear malice. I freely forgive you, and I hope you'll curb your passions in future. I hope Mr. W. will repent, and Miss W., and all of that sinful lot. You've been visited with affliction, and I hope it may do you good; but you'd better have come here. Mr. W. had better have come here, and Miss W. too. The best wish I could give you, Mr. Copperfield, and give all of you gentlemen, is that you could be took up and brought here. When I think of my past follies, and my present state, I am sure it would be best for you. I pity all who ain't brought here!"
He sneaked back into his cell, amidst a little chorus of approbation, and both Traddles and I experienced a great relief when he was locked in.
It was a characteristic feature in this repentance, that I was fain to ask what these two men had done, to be there at all. That appeared to be the last thing about which they had anything to say. I addressed myself to one of the two warders, Who, I suspected, from certain latent indications in their faces, knew pretty well what all this stir was worth.
"Do you know," said I, as we walked along the passage, "what felony was Number Twenty-Seven's last 'folly'?"
The answer was that it was a Bank case.
"A fraud on the Bank of England?" I asked.
"Yes, sir. Fraud, forgery, and conspiracy. He and some others. He set the others on. It was a deep plot for a large sum. Sentence, transportation for life. Twenty-Seven was the knowingest bird of the lot, and had very nearly kept himself safe, but not quite. The Bank was just able to put salt upon his tail--and only just."
"Do you know Twenty-Eight's offence?"
"Twenty-Eight," returned my informant, speaking throughout in a low tone, and looking over his shoulder as we walked along the passage, to guard himself from being overheard, in such an unlawful reference to these Immaculates, by Creakle and the rest, "Twenty-Eight (also transportation) got a place, and robbed a young master of a matter of two hundred and fifty pounds in money and valuables, the night before they were going abroad. I particularly recollect his case, from his being took by a dwarf."
"A what?"
"A little woman. I have forgot her name."
"Not Mowcher?"
"That's it! He had eluded pursuit, and was going to America in a flaxen wig and whiskers, and such a complete disguise as never you see in all your born days, when the little woman, being in Southampton, met him walking along the street--picked him out with her sharp eye in a moment--ran betwixt his legs to upset him--and held on to him like grim Death."
"Excellent Miss Mowcher!" cried I.
"You'd have said so, if you had seen her, standing on a chair in the witness-box at the trial, as I did," said my friend. "He cut her face right open, and pounded her in the most brutal manner, when she took him, but she never loosed her hold till he was locked up. She held so tight to him, in fact, that the officers were obliged to take 'em both together. She gave her evidence in the gamest way, and was highly complimented by the Bench, and cheered right home to her lodgings. She said in Court that she'd have took him single-handed (on account of what she knew concerning him), if he had been Samson. And it's my belief she wouldl"
It was mine too, and I highly respected Miss Mowcher for it.
We had now seen all there was to see. It would have been in vain to represent to such a man as the worshipful Mr. Creakle that Twenty-Seven and Twenty-Eight were perfectly consistent and unchanged, that exactly what they were then, they had always been, that the hypocritical knaves were just the subjects to make that sort of profession in such a place, and they knew its market-value at least as well as we did, in the immediate service it would do them when they were expatriated, in a word, that it was a rotten, hollow, painfully suggestive piece of business altogether. We left them to their system and themselves, and went home wondering.
"Perhaps it's a good thing, Traddles," said I, "to have an unsound Hobby ridden hard, for it's the sooner ridden to death."
"I hope so," replied Traddles.
CHAPTER LXII
A Light Shines on My Way
THE YEAR CAME ROUND TO CHRISTMAS-TIME, AND I HAD BEEN at home above two months. I had seen Agnes fr
equently. However loud the general voice might be in giving me encouragement, and however fervent the emotions and endeavours to which it roused me, I heard her lightest word of praise as I heard nothing else.
At least once a week, and sometimes oftener, I rode over there, and passed the evening. I usually rode back at night, for the old unhappy sense was always hovering about me now --most sorrowfully when I left her--and I was glad to be up and out, rather than wandering over the past in weary wakefulness or miserable dreams. I wore away the longest part of many wild sad nights, in those rides, reviving, as I went, the thoughts that had occupied me in my long absence.
Or, if I were to say rather that I listened to the echoes of those thoughts, I should better express the truth. They spoke to me from afar off. I had put them at a distance, and accepted my inevitable place. When I read to Agnes what I wrote, when I saw her listening face, moved her to smiles or tears, and heard her cordial voice so earnest on the shadowy events of that imaginative world in which I lived, I thought what a fate mine might have been--but only thought so, as I had thought after I was married to Dora, that I could have wished my wife to be.
My duty to Agnes, who loved me with a love, which, if I disquieted, I wronged most selfishly and poorly, and could never restore; my matured assurance that I, who had worked out my own destiny, and won what I had impetuously set my heart on, had no right to murmur and must bear--comprised what I felt and what I had learned. But I loved her, and now it even became some consolation to me, vaguely to conceive a distant day when I might blamelessly avow it, when all this should be over, when I could say "Agnes, so it was when I came home, and now I am old, and I never have loved since!"
She did not once show me any change in herself. What she always had been to me, she still was, wholly unaltered.
Between my aunt and me there had been something, in this connexion, since the night of my return, which I cannot call a restraint, or an avoidance of the subject, so much as an implied understanding that we thought of it together, but did not shape our thoughts into words. When, according to our old custom, we sat before the fire at night, we often fell into this train, as naturally, and as consciously to each other, as if we had unreservedly said so. But we preserved an unbroken silence. I believed that she had read, or partly read, my thoughts that night, and that she fully comprehended why I gave mine no more distinct expression.