time in his life, he had a sense of personal history.
     His mind raced on, entranced by what he had learned, and fascinated by
     how much more there could be to learn. He had heard the debates about
     slavery and believed in his heart that it must end one day. What
     concerned him was what happened then. He shared Jass's fear that his
     people of the South might be reduced from slavery to live in
     circumstances similar to so many in the North, and he knew now that the
     only possible way to avoid this lay in education. He had to be ready, his
     people had to be ready, for the glory days of freedom that must surely
     come.
     Unknown to anyone else, Cap'n Jack became the most avid student at the
     college. He squatted at the back of every class, his books on his knee,
     partly covered by a little rug, listening intently to every word that was
     said. He soaked up knowledge.
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    There was much he didn't understand, Greek was beyond him, but he picked
    up a few words of Latin and French. This actual book learning was of
    little importance to him; what mattered was the discussion that the books
    provoked, and he understood that simple reading, in itself, was not
    enough. It was where the knowledge took your mind that was paramount.
    Because he had no formal basis of learning, it was not, in any sense, a
    rounded education, but he became a jackdaw of knowledge, piecing together
    scraps of information until they formed, in his mind at least, a
    representative whole.
    During the breaks, Jass and Cap'n Jack would travel together, to New York
    once, which frightened both of them a little with its pure, hectic energy,
    and to Connecticut, where the dazzling colors of fall made both of them
    gasp in wonder. They went to Delaware and stayed with George's family,
    where Cap'n Jack was allowed to sleep in the main house, albeit in a
    little attic room with one of the family's white staff, and was treated
    as an equal servant. It disturbed Jass, for the Pritchards were a caring
    family, committed abolitionists, who employed blacks and whites on an
    equal basis. They did not force their beliefs on Jass, except by example,
    and the excellent example they set made him feel guilty, for this was the
    world that Cap'n Jack had envisioned, in the days of Jass's youth, and
    then Jass had believed it was eventually possible. Since the death of his
    father, he had come to believe that this utopian ideal was not possible,
    not in the South at least, perhaps because he thought it might be
    destructive to what he was supposed to maintain.
     To Cap'n Jack it was another revelation. This was the way things should
     be and could be, the way he had envisioned them without any evidence that
     they actually existed somewhere, except in that vague, dreaming Up South
     of freedom that the slaves imagined the North to be. Freedom itself was
     not enough, he knew that already: Without some basis for advancement,
     which was contained in that simple word educashun, freedom was only a
     beginning. But, oh, what a glorious start. Now Cap'n lack fiercely
     regretted his rashness in refusing his papers of manumission when James
     had offered them. He understood he had been motivated by his need for
     revenge on James, but the vengeance had been foul to him, and what he had
     lost was precious beyond his dreams.
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     He thought that he might ask Jass for his freedom. No one knew what had
     happened between the two of them on that fateful day in James's study,
     except perhaps Sally, but he had refused the offer, and he was sure Sally
     knew that too. And part of him was wary of raising the matter, because
     without Easter life was meaningless to him. He could easily tell Jass
     that the ol' Massa had promised him his freedom, which wm true, and Sally
     would confirm it, but even if Jass accepted it, he would never free
     Easter-she meant too much to him, and he would be scared of losing her.
     And he knew Jass had changed, He knew that the responsibilities of his
     new role had subverted Jass from the Massa Cap'n Jack had tried to train
     him to be. It was never spoken between them-they seldom spoke of
     important things anymore-but it was evident in Jass's manner and actions.
     And in his relationship with George.
    Journeying back from Delaware, in George's company, Cap'n Jack allowed a
    little of his new knowledge to show, by quoting Shakespeare to them.
    George was intrigued, but Jass, to Cap'n Jack's surprise, was angry.
    "For God's sake, where did you team this?"
    "In class, with you, Massa," Cap'n Jack replied.
     "Don't ever let anyone know. Forget what you have learned," Jass
     demanded.
     "Where's the harm in it?" George asked, as surprised as Cap'n Jack at
     Jass's reaction.
     "There are those in Alabama who would lynch him for it," Jass replied,
     and inwardly cursed Cap'n Jack for not keeping whatever it was he knew
     to himself.
     They rode in silence for a while, and then George looked at Jass.
     "How can you bear to live with such a system?" he said. And Jass
     exploded.
     "Because it is our system," Jass cried. "You know nothing about us; you
     have never come to us to see how we manage things. You hear some ghastly
     stories about wrongs that are done by some to a few slaves, and you
     indict us all. It isn't like that; it isn't what you think it to be."
    He struggled to control his temper, because he liked George.
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     "Put your own states in order, find jobs for your own blacks, feed your
     own niggers first, before you tell us what to do. "
     George was proud of his family and the way they lived. "Some of us have,
     I think," he said, gently.
     It marked the beginning of the end of their friendship. They stayed
     roommates to the end, and were polite to each other, often more than
     that, but they avoided serious discussion of the division both knew
     existed between them.
     Both graduated well, and said fond good-byes, and knew they would not see
     each other again.
     The eager youth who had gone to college came back as a man, and the
     despondent slave who had gone to the North came back as a literate,
     educated teacher.
    Coming home was wonderful. Nothing much seemed to have changed, though a
    great deal had. Florence was bigger now, although Jass smiled and thought
    of it as a village compared to the great cities he had seen. The hotel had
    been destroyed in a fire, and a new and grander one was replacing it. A
    few folk remembered and waved a greeting as they trotted through the main
    street. They galloped the final miles home, along a path they had ridden
    so often, and just as always, Jass brought his horse to a halt when they
    were in sight of the mansion.
     He stared at it for a few moments. The racecourse had fallen into
     disrepair, since it was no longer used. Jass had no strong interest in
     racing or breeding, and Tom had realized good money 
					     					 			 by the sale of the
     pedigree stock. Murdoch had gone with Glencoe to Colonel Elliot, and
     Monkey Jack with them. Otherwise everything was as it always had been,
     the fields white with cotton, the gangs working. The house stood on the
     hill, the twenty-one graceful columns sparkling white in the afternoon
     sun. For all Jass appreciated his years away, for all he had grown and
     matured, he felt like a boy again, looking at home as he always did on
     his way back from school, knowing he was safe again, knowing he would be
     loved.
     Cap'n Jack was beside him. Things had not been easy between them for the
     past year. Knowing of Jass's displeasure, Cap'n Jack had become ever more
     secretive about his learning, and guarded his tongue in conversations
     with Jass, in case he should offend.
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     Jass had tried to apologize to Cap'n Jack, but only for his anger, not
     for what he had said. He knew the slave had continued to learn, and
     disapproved of it strongly, for the danger it represented to the man who
     had brought him up, and also to himself, as that slave's Massa. Above
     all, Jass did not want change.
     But now it was different; now they were at the end of their long journey.
     He turned and smiled at Cap'n Jack.
    "Race you," he said. Cap'n Jack was ready.
    Both men spurred their horses and galloped home.
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    Sally was pleased with him. His years away had given him the authority she
    had hoped for, the time to mature, and there was a bonus too. Jass's
    liberal ideas about slavery had been of considerable concern to her. Sally
    took the simple view. She had always seen slavery as a necessary
    institution, and while she cared quite deeply for many of her blacks, it
    was as illiterate, incapable children who needed the firm guidance that
    the whites could provide. As with a child, or a pet dog, she could not
    bear the idea of sending them out, free, into a white man's world, for she
    believed that few of them had the skills to survive in that world, and she
    had heard the horror stories from the Northern states, magnified and
    gaudily colored in the Southern retelling, of poverty and destitution.
     "Freedom" seemed ridiculous to her, if it brought with it such
     deprivation. She had no patience with whites who treated their blacks
     badly, for she believed, as a devout Christian, that it was the
     responsibility of the strong to protect the weak. She believed, as
     devoutly, that since blacks could not be sent back to Africa, the
     institutions of the South, benevolently discharged, were their best
     alternative. Abolitionist literature was proscribed in the South, but
     Sally was an educated woman, and she was able to glean, from discussion
     and discourse with
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    travelers, and the few Southern sympathizers to the cause whom she met,
    and with Cap'n Jack, her dear friend, what the arguments for emancipation
    were, and thought them sentimental.
     She talked a great deal with Cap'n Jack, about the North, about
     abolition, and wondered if she was simply rationalizing, finding
     justifications for an abhorrent condition, but had found some simple
     beliefs in her heart. The basic creed of abolition was that all human
     beings had the right to be free, but were blacks human beings? She did
     not regard them as animals, but she did not believe they had souls. They
     were, in her mind, special creatures who, like Lucifer, had fallen from
     God's grace and were without the sense of personal discipline that might
     restore them to His favor. Left to their own devices, they were idle and
     shiftless, children of the jungle, indulging animal passions and
     instincts. Without a firm guiding hand, they could easily destroy the
     order, the industry, the civilization, that Providence had destined good
     Christian whites to bring to an unruly world.
     The economic arguments against slavery seemed to her to be the most
     ridiculous. Abolitionists, Cap'n Jack told her, believed that the South
     wanted to maintain slavery because it provided an endless supply of cheap
     labor.
     Sally was astonished. Cheap? Slavery was not cheap, at least not at The
     Forks of Cypress. Parson Dick was easily worth a thousand dollars, if not
     more, and a good field hand might be five hundred. Then there was the
     cost of feeding and housing them, of providing medical care, of tending
     the young and nursing the old. She did some rough calculations in her
     head and decided that to run the plantation with paid labor might be more
     economical than with slaves, certainly as far as the household staff was
     concerned. But then all those slaves would be free, and would bring chaos
     where there had been order, and the whites would have abandoned their
     covenant with God.
     She thought she might like to visit the North one day to see for herself.
     Certainly, the effect on Jass had been salutary. He no longer talked
     about the possibility of an eventual move away from slavery but seemed
     instead to have espoused the status quo. Which was all to the good in
     Sally's mind. For
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    better or worse, they had cast their lot with the South and it had been
    good to them; they were Southerners, and to question slavery, or any
    aspect of their glorious civilization, was tantamount to treason from an
    economic point of view, and heresy from a religious one.
     She no longer worried herself unduly about Jass's undiminished fondness
     for Easter. If he needed an outlet for his passions, for he was a young
     man in his prime, she was relieved that he had settled on the reliable
     Easter and had not become a rake, or libertine, indulging himself with
     any slave woman who was at hand. The relationship was settled and
     discreet, and while there had been some mild, amused gossip about it
     "behind the fans" before Jass went away, for it indicated his loss of
     virginity, now it was no longer of any scandalous value and was seldom
     if ever referred to, even by the inquisitive chatterbox Becky Perkins.
     Indeed, it was Sally herself who had raised the matter with Mrs. Perkins
     one afternoon when they sat on the veranda taking tea, for she wondered
     how much Lizzie knew.
     "Lizzie is an innocent gel," Mrs. Perkins replied, fanning herself
     vigorously and unnecessarily, for her black boy was waving a larger fan
     over her head, and in any case it was fall, and there was a chill in the
     air.
     "An innocent gel who understands little of the baser desires that men are
     prey to," Mrs. Perkins continued, her vowels Anglicized these days in
     imitation of a visiting English duchess she had met. "And it is better
     for all concerned that she remain innocent, don't you think?"
     Sally thought so and said so. Mrs. Perkins nodded agreement. "We women
     understand."
     She paused for a moment, then raised her fan and spoke behind it.
     "And so much better," s 
					     					 			he whispered, "for their eventual union."
     There it was, in a nutshell. Now, above everything, Sally's ambition for
     Jass was to see him married and with children. She would prefer his bride
     were someone other than Lizzie, but Lizzie seemed to be the only
     contender. Jass was charming to the many other young ladies who came to
     call on him in increasing numbers, but he seemed to have no interest in
     them
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    as potential partners. If Sally had not known about Easter, she might have
    worried that Jass had no libido at all or, horror of horrors, that he
    might end up like young Antony Beaumont, who had disgraced his family when
    caught by his father in an abomination with a black field hand. Mr.
    Beaumont had taken a whip to his son and left a pistol in the young man's
    room, in order for him to do the decent thing, but Antony had behaved like
    a cad and had run away with the field hand to that Sodom of the south, New
    Orleans. The breathless gossip about this had made Sally even more
    grateful for Easter.
     So there was only Lizzie, but even in her case, Jass showed no real
     desire to extend their relationship beyond the rather complex friendship
     they enjoyed.
     "There's plenty of time," Jass had said, when Sally raised the matter at
     dinner one evening. "I've only been back a few months. "
     Neither Sally nor Mrs. Perkins thought there was plenty of time-it had
     already dragged on quite long enough-and so Sally found herself in the
     unlikely position of being in alliance with Lizzie's mother to bring
     about a union that Sally did not entirely relish.
     "Time is getting on," Mrs. Perkins said, and she was not referring to the
     day. "Lizzie has many suitors. If Jass is not careful, some other young
     man will snap her up."
     It wasn't true. Sally knew that. Lizzie had very few gentleman callers
     and spent as much time as she could with Jass.
     "Snap her up!" Mrs. Perkins said again, snapping her fingers and causing
     several of her attendant slaves to rush to her, to see what she needed.
    Lizzie was riding with Jass, but had she been with her mother she would
    have agreed, for she was pining for Jass to snap her up. The young man
    whom she was quite fond of had gone away to college and had come back four
    years later as the husband of her dreams. Partly this was ' because there
    was no one else, but mostly it was because he was now a very handsome and
    mature young man who was still gentle and caring but with an edge to him
    that Lizzie adored. He never forced his opinions on her, or on anyone, but
    had a sure authority about him, so that if he disagreed with something,
    or thought
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    it wrong or improper, she knew immediately what he felt, and wild horses
    would not drag him from that opinion. Lizzie loved this, for it gave her
    the freedom to do whatever she wanted, and if she stepped over the line,
    which she seldom did for she was careful with him, he would firmly, if
    gently, put her in her place. The only thing he could not be drawn on was
    the possibility of their marriage.
     "There's plenty of time for that," he said, whenever she raised the
     subject, which, when he first came back from college, was quite often.
     She had pushed him quite hard at first.
     "Why, Jass," she said. ' "I had thought your intentions toward me to be
     honorable."
    "Oh, they are," he told her. "Entirely honorable."
     "Well, surely, you do not expect me to wait for you forever?" Lizzie
     primped herself a little. "I have so many suitors, and I do not intend
     to be left on the shelf."
     She certainly did not intend to be left on the shelf, but that was where
     she was heading, she thought. Most of the other young men she might have
     wed were married now, and the few who weren't showed little interest in
     her except as a jolly friend (for Lizzie, secure in the hope that Jass
     would eventually ask for her hand, could be very jolly at parties, when