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Why hadn’t her aunt stopped her? Was it because she wanted to give Victoria the chance to try to find love—and happiness—as difficult as it might be?
At least Aunt Eustacia had provided Victoria with a means to keep herself from getting with child.
But now she was gone too.
To her chagrin Victoria’s eyes filled with tears, and she felt the telltale sign of a dripping nose. She hated to cry. She was a Venator, and she’d cried more in the last few days than she had the year after Phillip died.
Died?
No. Not died. She had to acknowledge the truth. It hadn’t been an accident. And he hadn’t simply died.
She’d killed him.
She’d killed him with her naivete, her selfishness, and her bravado. Her lies.
Her lies.
And with her own hand.
A stake to the heart, as she’d done so many other times before—and since.
Blindly she reached for a handkerchief and wiped her nose, her cheeks, her chin. It was soaking when she pulled it away. In the dim light from the moon that shone through the villa window, Victoria could see her wet face reflected in the dressing table mirror. Her eyes were dark and shadowed, and her dark hair fell in horrible snarling curls around her face and neck. She looked like a Medusa. A hollow-cheeked, sad Medusa.
The only thing she had to be thankful for was that she’d killed him before he’d fed on a mortal—thus before he’d damned himself and his soul.
Suddenly, she became aware that the door of her bedchamber had swung silently open just a bit. Just wide enough for her to see a narrow, pale face glowing in the low light.
“Lady Nilly?” Victoria asked, hastily swiping the back of her hand over the last trails of tears.
The door opened enough for the slender woman to come in, silent and thin as a wraith in her lacy white night rail. A prickle began at the back of Victoria’s neck…not a chill, but an apprehensive sense.
“What is it?” she asked, coming to her feet, reaching automatically for one of her stakes, even though she knew…she knew Nilly was all right. But…
“I’d forgotten…I have a message for you,” said the older woman, her voice oddly hollow. Her eyes were wide and luminous in her long face, her fragile hand clasped to the fabric of her wrapper, her pale hair falling behind her narrow shoulders in a ghostly shadow.
“From the one who bit you?”
“Beauregard. Master Beauregard,” breathed Nilly, and Victoria saw a hint of fanaticism in her eyes. They lit like candles, her lips tipped up at the edges, and she seemed almost as if she were in a dream. “Master Beauregard…says…he has returned something that belongs to you…and that he expects you will return what you have…of his. Or…” Nilly’s voice faded. Her words launched Victoria to her feet, suddenly scrabbling through the pockets of her man’s coat. Of course! At the mention of Beauregard’s name it came back to her. She pulled out the copper armband, wondering how she could have forgotten where she’d seen the etched insignia: on Sebastian’s skin.
Perhaps she’d not wanted to remember seeing that mark on him.
But it was there.
“What does he have of mine?” Victoria asked as she turned back, just in time to see Lady Nilly slip silently to the floor.
She was at her side in an instant, feeling the older woman’s neck on the unwounded side. Her heart was still thumping, and the odd, tense smile had faded from her lips. Reaching up onto her dressing table, Victoria fumbled for a little vial of smelling salts and pressed them under Lady Nilly’s nose.
Almost immediately the woman stirred, coughed, and twisted her face away. Her eyes fluttered open. To Victoria’s relief they were clear, and she seemed surprised to see Victoria.
“What are you doing?” she asked, pushing herself into a seated position.
“Are you feeling well?” Victoria asked, helping her to her feet.
“I’m quite all right. I don’t know how I…” Lady Nilly looked around in bewilderment.
“Let me help you back to bed. ” Victoria did, and as they moved at a snail’s pace down the hallway, she realized what Beauregard had that belonged to her.
The answer was not something she wanted to contemplate, but it was more than possible. It was likely.
After all, she’d dropped the necklace near the Door of Alchemy, and Lady Nilly had been near the door when she was bitten.
But that meant that Beauregard had been there when she was fighting the other vampires near the front of the villa.
And he’d left.
By the time she helped Nilly back into bed, she saw the faint tinge of gray in the east. The sun would be up in less than three hours, perhaps sooner. Beauregard had the necklace, so there was no need to go haring about the city tonight.
Tomorrow, in the daylight, she’d take the copper armband to Wayren and Max and see what they thought. If copper rings were important to Lilith’s Guardians, what would an armband mean?
She didn’t consider showing it to Sebastian, Victoria realized as she began to drop off to sleep, clothed only in her shift and with cold, bare toes. She’d shown and shared so much more with Sebastian…yet she wouldn’t seek him out for help in relation to Beauregard.
Suddenly she was wide-awake again, staring out her window at the dark gray night.
Sebastian loved Beauregard. Last autumn he’d asked her if, knowing how he felt about his grandfather, she’d kill him in front of Sebastian. Victoria hadn’t known the answer then…and she didn’t know it now.
She knew that Beauregard was malevolent and selfish…but some of Sebastian’s arguments had crept into her mind and sat there, mocking her. He couldn’t bear to know that his grandfather, whom he’d learned was a vampire only once he’d grown to adulthood, would be damned to Hell for eternity with the well-placed strike of a stake.
Would Victoria hesitate to place that stake because of her feelings for Sebastian?
Her fingers had grown cold. Her feelings for Sebastian were nebulous and wispy, and she dared not contemplate them now…perhaps ever. But surely, surely…they weren’t strong enough to keep her from doing her duty, should the moment arise?
Of course not.
Beauregard was an undead. He deserved to die, or at least to be turned into dust and sent to wherever he must live out eternity. It was Victoria’s responsibility to rid the world of vampires whenever she had the opportunity.
Nothing would keep her from her task. Not even the golden angel named Sebastian.
Victoria must have dropped off to sleep at some point in the labyrinth of her thoughts and debates, for she dreamed of things: slow, sensual, curling, arousing things…dark, strong, metallic, angry things…loud, putrid, frightening things.
She woke, not because of the dreams, she realized belatedly, but because Verbena stood over her bed. Her hands were on her shoulders, as if she’d been shaking her.
“My lady. My lady, you must awaken. ”
Victoria sat up abruptly, the last vestiges of the nightmares dissolving and clarity resuming in her mind. “What is it?”
Verbena handed her a small paper. It was tiny and rolled, as if it had come from the tiny container on a bird’s leg. A quick glance at the window told Victoria that Myza wasn’t there, waiting to bring a response back to Wayren. It was daylight, well past sunrise.
She unrolled the paper, her mouth dry. Come at once.
She didn’t wait to change her damp, wrinkled clothes, just yanked on the man’s coat she’d worn the night before and left. It took Victoria less than thirty minutes to get to the Consilium. Oliver drove her in the carriage and let her off many blocks away, after ensuring that they hadn’t been followed.
Crossing herself as she dashed onto and then off the altar inside Santo Quirinus, she hurried through the secret door of the confessional, leaped lightly past the rigged middle step in the hidden hall,
and ran down the revealed spiral staircase.
Ilias was waiting for her near the fountain. His face was grave, the lines next to his mouth deep and cutting. “Follow me. ”
She hurried behind him down a stone-cut corridor through which she’d never had cause to go before. When he stopped in front of a door and gestured for her to precede him in, she did.
As she opened the door, Hannever looked up, gave her a brief nod, and moved his short, wiry body out of the chamber as if to leave her alone.
The room was small, but well lit and warm. A rug covered the floor; a bed lined one wall. Victoria’s chest felt tight as she walked in, toward the unmoving figure that lay under the blankets. Harsh breathing filled the room, as if it were the last gasps of life coming from the man on the bed. Indeed, when she stepped closer and saw his face, smelled the blood, she knew that was exactly what it was.
The last gasps of life.
A small cry escaped from the back of her throat, and she reached out to touch him: his straggly, half-braided red hair, the brawny arm that lay crossed over his barrel chest.
“Zavier,” she murmured. “What has befallen you?”
A quiet movement behind her told Victoria she was no longer alone; whether Wayren had already been in the room when she’d arrived or had just come in, she didn’t know. “’Tis desperate he is,” she said in her calm voice. “Ylito and Hannever have done all they can. We will know by tomorrow if he will stay with us. ”
“Or if we will be hanging another portrait in the gallery. ” Victoria’s voice cracked. Not another. Not so soon. She lifted her face to look at Wayren. “What happened?”
“He went after Sebastian. And Beauregard. ”
Victoria’s stomach dropped like a stone. “No. ” He wouldn’t have.
Oh, God, yes, he would. She hadn’t forgotten the look of betrayal on his face. The stunned hurt. The disbelief.
Was this another death that would be laid at her door?
Another that could have been prevented if she had made different choices?
Bloody hell, she’d done nothing wrong! She’d not brought Sebastian here. She’d not betrayed them.