No one is there to give me the kiss so pure with love
The pieces of my shattered soul, together I can no more keep
I can’t breathe, I can’t live without you, my love
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
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I miss your crooked smiles, your honey sweet voice
Your mind reading, your color shifting eyes
Your humming me your lullaby to sleep, so angelic, so nice
Your playing piano, your vast knowledge, everything makes me sigh
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
Besides the pain of losing you there is another worry
I think your memories are fading, I may forget you
You took away all your pictures, your gifts, your things
This only gave me pain and I know to you too
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
I never could get used to your perfection
And when there is a fear of forgetting it
I have become completely numb, completely restless
I will have to work out some way to remember it
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
On my way back with Jessica, that other day
I saw some people which I thought I knew
They seemed dangerous, still I couldn’t stay away
It will make me remember you! That I never knew
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
When I progressed towards them I heard you
So clearly as if you were right there beside me
I know you would have stopped me, if you had been really there
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Like the voice of you in my head which had then warned me
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
Thus I worked out my way of remembering you
Whenever I approached danger I would hear you
Your sweet voice melted in my ears, reminding me of you
With me your presence I felt, as if it were really you
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
There was only one reason I could think of hearing your voice
Because you loved me, you wanted to keep me safe always
But it affected me otherwise, I now wanted dangers to rise
So that I will be able to hear you, forever, always
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
I now made a plan with Jake
I learned to ride motorbikes
He didn’t know my original plan
I was just looking for danger to hear your voice
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
During my this planning
Jake was trying to come near me
He had started to like me
But of course, I couldn’t love him
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
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Nor could I get away from him
I absolutely needed him
This made me feel so guilty
For myself, I was just using him
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
Hearing your smooth velvet voice, feeling the perfection of it
Smoothened the sharp edges of the burning hole in my chest
I could do absolutely anything, go to infinite limits to hear it
Because only it gave me happiness, it was my only cause of rest
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
I feared the idea that I would slowly lose it
So I had to find a danger more exciting than bikes
And there it was; the angry waves, the tall cliffs
A soothing sensation crept into me; I was about to hear your voice
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
I had imagined this long freefall
The feeling of utter freedom
It was simply inviting, all in all
The end was coming near and near
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
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I took a step towards cliffs’ edge
Staring into the thundering waves down there
“Bella”, “Yes?” “Don’t do this”
Your pleading honey voice said in my ear
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
“You wanted me to be human, well, watch me”
“Please, for me, please”, you begged
“But in any other way you won’t stay with me”
“Stop! Bella!” You were now angry, you had growled
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
I knew that Edward, you loved me
I knew that you would do anything to keep me safe
I shouldn’t have done this but your voice with so much clarity
I wanted to hear so much that I couldn’t stop in any way
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
I didn’t know what suffering it will bring on you
I was just dying to be that close to you
Your voice in my subconscious before me, revived you
Whenever I went against my promise to you
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
I dived into the water, falling freely
You were shouting in my ear, happiness spread through me
The water was ice cold just like your touch on me
The waves were tossing me in every direction, knocking the air out of me
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
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“Bella! Keep fighting! Keep swimming!” you ordered
But I didn’t want to; I was feeling finally happy
Death was better to live without you but I wondered
Whether it was right? Wasn’t I doing wrong to you; deceiving?
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
I tried to swim towards the surface
But everything was black around me
I didn’t know where to swim; water waves
Were beating, playing with me
“Come back to me, Edward, come back to me”
I was drowning, going deeper and deeper
Something hard struck me and pulled me down with it
“Goodbye, I love you, Edward” I had never imagined the end so near
“I am sorry, Edward; I broke my promise, try to forgive me”
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In the plane I was the most miserable person
Tears won’t stop, my whole life flashing before my eyes
How Jacob had saved me from drowning, and a person
Had come to visit me; Alice, she had given me a huge surprise
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I didn’t know what to do, what to say
All my wounds, memories became fresh
Her gold eyes, her scent, her angelic face
I saw you in her; I missed you afresh
Everything was going well, that time was so precious with Alice
She was just like my sister, I so much loved her
She had been there to check on me, she had said
She had seen me jumping off the cliff in a vision of her
Her vision had went blank after seeing this
And she had thought that I had killed myself; suicided
But now she knew that I was alive, fine; a bliss
For her it was and she was now relaxed, comforted
Her vision had disappeared
Because Jacob had saved me
And she couldn’t see werewolves
In her vision, she told me
Then a phone call came
Which Jacob attended
“He is away at the funeral,” he said
It was Carlisle he had told me
A minute later, Alice came, her perfect features moulded into worry
What had happened when I had asked her the worst
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words she told me
It wasn’t Carlisle on phone it was you Edward; Jacob had lied to me
You thought that I was dead and you were going to Italy to Volturi
Those words were the most painful words I had ever heard in my life
The idea of you going to get yourself killed because I had died
Almost killed me, sucked the life out of me, I had went wild
I had to save you somehow, it was all my mistake; all mine
When James had attacked me
Edward you had told me about your plan
To go to the Volturi and ask them to kill
I couldn’t imagine the idea and now also I can’t
I had forbade you to do such a thing then
Then why did you still have to go?
My this blunder could never ever be forgiven
My supposed death had made you go
Alice told me that the Volturi had rejected to kill you
A wave of relief passed through me
But Alice still looked worried, was something still wrong with you?
You had not stopped; you still wanted to be killed
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Alice told me your whole plan, she was blank, expressionless
At 12 noon, near clock tower, you will come
And you will expose them all; you will be shirtless
And your skin will glitter like diamond from rays of sun
Volturi were very protective of their city
Any risk of exposure they couldn’t tolerate
Thus you will get your wish granted; you will be killed
An idea which I could never ever tolerate
I just couldn’t imagine this in my mind
That something like this can occur, can happen
You not existing? How impossible! You were my entire life
I had to stop this, “I will save you, this won’t happen!”
Now I know why you were doing this
Because if something happens to you
Which is impossible for me to think
I will certainly kill myself for you too
But you also love me to this degree?
I never knew, I could never believe
“But my love, I am coming, Alice, hurry!
Drive the car as fast as you can, hurry!”
Each passing second felt like hell to me
I was just about to lose my everything
“Edward! You are far more precious than me,
Please, stop! Please, wait for me”
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My eyes with tears were flooding
My heartbeat rapidly racing
The idea of you not existing
Was driving me completely crazy
This time was more important than eternity
“I will save you, I will,” I promised
And there at clock tower we had reached
Clock was about to strike 12, I had to hurry
Though my whole body was numb, there was no feeling
I ran with all the strength a feeble human could have possibly
There you were; shirtless, perfect, angelic, beautiful, gleaming
It was really you, it wasn’t a dream, I just couldn’t believe
I had never seen anything more beautiful
All the past seven months now meant nothing to me
Only with your love my soul, my heart was full
Nothing at all anymore mattered to me
“No! Edward, don’t!” I shouted with all my might
You weren’t listening although I was madly screaming
You were taking a step towards direct sunlight
And my worst nightmare in front of my eyes was developing
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I slammed with all my force into you
You didn’t move even an inch
With all my might I pushed you
But still I couldn’t move you in
I was inhaling your most beautiful scent
In your lovely velvet voice you said
“Carlisle was right. I am impressed
They so quickly did it; nothing I felt”
“They just steal your sweet scent
But have no power on your beauty”
You held me tight, “Bella”, you said
Hearing my name in your voice made me dizzy
I was still struggling to push you back
“What is it?” You slowly opened your eyes
“Edward! You are not dead, step back
And neither am I, step back before they arrive!”
Comprehension dawned on your face
You moved me towards the wall
Now you were safe, my life was safe
Only now I could breathe at all
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“Why did you believe me so quickly, Bella?”
“I was shocked, I couldn’t think”
“You don’t know how it tortured me, Bella
The expression on your face always haunted me”
“Don’t worry, Edward, afterwards I had realized
That you had lied to me there
I had always seen the intense love for me in your eyes
I know that you were also broken there”
“I just did it to protect you, Bella
I felt the thought of parting torturing me, killing me
But I could never imagine that Victoria…..
I don’t know how to say it, will you ever forgive me?”
Will you forgive me? Can you reaccept me?
After all that I did to you can you still love me?
After all the pain that I gave you, can you still want me?”
Edward was asking questions with such doubtless answers from me
“The way I feel about you will never change, not even a bit
Can you forgive me for being so utterly reckless?
Can you forgive me for breaking my promise; for deceiving?”
I was so broken inside, I felt completely breathless
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“You were just being human, Bella
You need not to say sorry
I will never ever leave you, Bella
You will never get another pain from me”
You kissed me and I wasn’t dreaming
You were so close; my life was back
After believing that lost was my everything
Edward, you were back, what a bliss! You were back!
My most precious gift of life was back
Your kissing again made me light headed
Breathless, utterly happy that my life was back
I kissed you back and kissed and kissed
Another forever had started
We both now knew what
Had been the mistakes we committed
Which had caused us to part
With a promise to never mak
e such mistakes again
We both declared our love, Edward proposed me
It stopped my heart, again I forgot to breathe
Of course “yes” I said, no one in the world could be happier than me
As long as we are together
No pain, no sadness can touch us
We are life of each other
No power can ever separate us
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With these promises we both forgot all our pains
Forks was again beautiful, I was again alive
Of course now there will be no losses, only gains
As long as I am with my destiny, my true life
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JACOB BLACK’S
STORY
I was so excited
Forks was about to be visited
By my childhood friend Bella
I was so eager to meet my Bella
There we met on a beach where I lived
Like an angel she looked, my dream girl
She had now come to stay over for a long while
We spent together that day a long time
The way she looked at me
I felt she liked me
She was talking so intimately with me
Then about the Cullens she asked me
We went to sit on a broken tree
Lying on the shore of the beach
Some old legends I told her
She seemed very interested by the look of her
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She promised to spend time with me again
With her school friends she had to go back
That little meeting I knew never
Will be the most important for me ever
She had left such a mark on my heart
That love was blooming, she was now the occupant of my heart