For God’s sake Bella! You are going against nature
At least look into your own species, don’t defy your nature”
“I didn’t love him just because he looked good, Jacob
But because he was the most caring, loving, generous
Kind, loyal, truthful person I have ever seen
He is the most perfect person ever been
Living or lived since the world started
Since the first bud into flower had blossomed
He was the best possible reason to live
Someone to whom all your love you could give
He was like the most beautiful dream
Any human can ever have, can ever see
He changed my entire life
Opened an entirely new dimension of life
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For me he was my window to happiness
Anyone would love him, I am doubtless”
“Ha! At least I am not one of those who like him
No one deserves any more hatred from all than him
There is no need to lie; is it the money then?”
“Jacob Black! You are utterly impossible
None of the words I said is a lie
I swear this to you on my life”
She was utterly angry with me
She left angrily, ran away from me
I didn’t believe any of her words
If he loved her, he wouldn’t have left her
All alone, unprotected, broken, dejected
Shattered, tortured, shocked, devastated
He was just a good looking monster
Who had trapped her, played with her
And hearing Bella’s words about him
How she loved him, how she worshipped him
Sickened me, made me ill
More than ever I hated him
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He had shattered my innocent Bella
She was no more that fun loving Bella
Just for his pleasure, he played with her
After he no more wanted her, he had cruelly left her
She didn’t know what she had put herself in
And now even she could only think of him
I will have to wake her up
On this I would never give up
Her words had left me speechless, hopeless
She would spend all her life in sadness
She would never ever accept me
Will she ever be able to love me?
But I won’t give up on her
I will at any cost win her
What caused most hatred for vampires in me
Was that they had induced an irreversible change in me
Their presence had snatched my humanity from me
Because of them a werewolf had aroused in me
Our old legends told us that these vampires
In fact, to kill these vampires, caused our arise
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We were destined to keep people safe from them
At any cost we would fight them, kill them
The Cullen’s presence, being all the time near
Had induced the changes in me, Sam and others
I could never be a complete human again
I would never be completely safe for Bella again
But I am not a coward
I will face this situation
Courageously, bravely
As it was the fate of me
But being a werewolf also had some goods besides its bads
We could hear each others thoughts, when being wolf, in our heads
No matter we were how far
No matter if we talked or not
And hatred again whipped through me
That her blood sucker, Edward, could also do this
He could read people’s minds
Thus, anything about them he could find
So the legends were true, all of them
Which told that, had such powers some of them
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He was not the only special Cullen
Something was also wrong with Alice Cullen
She could see the future
Which depended on people’s decisions
May be, I hope, in future now she sees
Isabella Swan eternally happy with me
Having forever forgotten the blood sucker
The leech, the parasite, the deceiver
Life is so cruel sometimes
When everything is going fine
And the much awaited destiny lies in front of you
It rips it apart from you, it snatches it back from you
The same that day happened to me
There were two giant things for me to worry
First; Harry Clearwater had had a heart attack
Second; the evil devilish Victoria was back
Charlie and Sue were at the hospital
While Sam, me and others were looking for her
She played a very great trick then
She moved away and in the water entered
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The vampires had an advantage there
We werewolves couldn’t do much there
I became completely tense, worried
Because Bella used to spend so much time on the beach
If she swam double back there?
I had to hurry and reach there
Before she reaches I had to go
And save Bella from any danger so
I was now running on the road
Her truck wheels track I followed
Damn it! It led to the beach
To her, I had to quickly reach
Then I heard something
That made a shudder go through me
It was Bella’s screaming
Was anything bad happening?
I saw her jumping down the cliffs
How dare she suddenly without telling me do this?
What was she thinking?
Does life means to her nothing?
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I dived into the water, as quickly
As I could, she was drowning, going deeply
I caught her and out I pulled her
I pushed out of her lungs the sea water
I was desperately trying to wake her
I couldn’t endure this condition of hers
Nothing bad could happen to her
As long as I was with her
She was my life
She was about to be mine
Nothing could take her away from me
Not even death could snatch her from me
I tried and tried, she spluttered out more and more water
She was breathing, she was alive; I called her
“Bella! Honey can you hear me?”
She looked like having some bizarre dream
She opened her eyes but they were unfocused
Was she hurt? Had I been too late? Had anything bad happened?
“Bella? Love! Can you hear me? Are you alright?”
“Jacob!” she said in a broken voice
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It was a relief that she was fine
Finally, I had saved her, made her alright
It was so cold I had to take her somewhere warm
But if she is injured? “Bella, does it hurt anywhere?” I asked
“Just in my throat”, so it was okay
My home was the nearest for her to stay
I set my shoulders forward
To
stop the rain from pattering on her
It was so cold; a hurricane was about to strike
At particularly this time why she had to dive
May be I knew; it was due to him
He was the sole cause for this, only him
His departure was making her insane
Alone she was no more safe
I knew she had tried to commit suicide
After he left, she didn’t care much about her life
I took her inside my home, placed her on the couch
And then I went into my room
To fetch some dry clothes for her
Cold and sea water had completely drenched her
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“These may be large, but these are the best I have got”
I gave the clothes to her, I was about to go out
So that she can change but she called me back
“I am so tired, can’t move, please, with me you stay”
I stayed there with her
Looking all the while at her
She looked so wrenched, completely shattered
She was remembering him, wasn’t her?
After a while, at the night
I took her and the truck I drove
She seemed so lost all the way to her home
She was thinking something deep for sure
I stopped the truck at the street
She was lying so close, resting upon me
It was the best moment of my life
But it was, by something, suddenly destroyed
Cold wind had blown into the truck sharply
Carrying with it a stench so burning
I recognized it immediately
It was a vampire definitely
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I was badly shaking
My whole body was trembling
I was afraid that I would lose control
And then would be transformed into a wolf
But for Bella it could be dangerous
So I decided to get her out of this situation
I had just turned the truck towards the street
That she started to beg to stop the truck from me
“Are you out of your mind?
You want to go back? It’s a vampire!”
“Its Carlisle, I know its him, take me back”
And my everything, every effort wasted away in that instant
Dawn had shined her face suddenly
She looked simply happy
Her eyes were so eager to see the doctor
She didn’t care about me, no matter
By them what had been done to her
And how honestly I had supported her
Her heart beat only for Edward
There was no place for me ever
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Why had I been so hopeful, so happy?
When she was so selfish that she completely betrayed me
“Take yourself back
Because there I am not going back”
Inside se had broken me completely
But for her sake something else I pretended
That If a Cullen was back then it changed everything
We didn’t want to be caught on their territory
She looked shocked, comprehension dawning on her
She had seen in my eyes the accusation of betrayal on her
I could take it no more
I couldn’t anymore control
I jumped out of the truck running towards my home
On the way, out of anxiety, I had become a wolf
All night I kept wandering in the forest
I had no life, no hope, no happiness, no rest
Why had life brought her so close to me?
Why did the fate bring me close to my destiny?
When it was to be snatched away from me
When it was to be ripped apart from me
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But myself for long I couldn’t hold
I again headed towards Bella’s home
I had made my decision
This time I will get her
I won’t let her escape in anyway
I had to tell her my feelings straight away
The blood sucker was there still
It wasn’t Carlisle but Alice
Her sharp stench burned my nose
Through me waves of hatred rose
But I held myself together
Bella and I looked at each other
She smiled rather in a confused way
But she looked at me in a strange way
She asked whether we were friends again
Friends? I thought , “not this friendship crap again”
I took her into the kitchen
In my arms I wrapped her
She rested her head on my chest
Her heart beat was discontinuous I felt
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She asked whether it was possible
To be at the same time be friends with me and the Cullens
I just promised to be her friend forever
Now I was about to do what I had wanted most ever
I cupped my hand below her chin
And pulled her face up to face me
We looked sadly for a moment towards each other
Then I took her face in my hands; I was to kiss her
I had waited all my life for this
This full of love and compassionate kiss
I was just about to make my move
When suddenly rang sharply the phone
I picked the receiver angrily
My perfect moment it had interrupted
I froze when I heard his voice
How he spoke so gentle and nice
But what was he inside
I had known this all the time
He asked me about the presence of Charlie
“He is not at home, he is at the funeral,” I told him
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Charlie was visiting
The funeral of Harry
He simply hung up the phone on me
“Who was that?” Bella asked me
“It was Carlisle”, I lied to her
He I didn’t wish to remind her
Then suddenly Alice like wind
Entered the room, looking all shaken, breaking
“Bella, Edward!”, “What?”, “He thinks you are dead!”
“So you tell him that wrong news he had”
What is it to worry about?”
Then the call Alice asked me about
“It was Edward, Bella, Jacob lied to you
He thinks you are dead, he wants to die too
He has left for Italy to the Volturi
He would only stop after seeing you, only you can save him”
They both were hurriedly ready to leave
For last time, I asked, “Stay Bella, don’t go, for me”
“I have to go”, she answered me
And all alone there the car left me
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I didn’t know why this drama he was making
Did he want Bella to show him some sympathy?
I just wished that they get late
I just didn’t want Edward to be safe
To return to take my Bella away from me
He had already done enough damage to Bella and me
She didn’t return for three days
Angry fire through me raged
I told Charlie about bikes of her
Grounded I wanted Charlie to
make her
I called when she had returned
Just to make sure she was breathing, un hurt
Edward had returned, how could he?
Such a shameless person I had never seen
Bella wasn’t attending my calls
Not Charlie but Edward was making her reject them all
And when grounded she will be
She won’t be able to spend time with him
There was also a very important thing
I wanted to remind Edward, the treaty
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This was the only thing about which
I was a little hopeful, for due to it
He won’t be able to change her
So he won’t be able to forever keep her
Although to this thing I believed
That Bella herself won’t agree
To change her into a blood drinker
To snatch her humanity from her
I had called them to meet me
Near Bella’s home so I can tell him
About treaty, but Bella at my sight
At once angrily asked in a harsh voice
That why I had told Charlie
About bikes? What I wanted?
Before I could explain anything
Edward read my mind quickly
And told her all the unsaid things
He was good at this mind reading
About this Bella wasn’t exaggerating
Then he with much respect and dignity
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Thanked me for keeping Bella safe with me
When he didn’t himself do it