Nevertheless she’d created this situation: she couldn’t afford to falter now. When the board had copied what it needed, she put the tag back around her neck inside her shipsuit. Then she spoke as if she were saying a final good-bye to herself and all her old life.
“This is Morn Hyland, ensign, UMCP.” Distinctly she articulated the verification code. “I have authorized business aboard Captain’s Fancy, which does not fall under your jurisdiction. If you need acknowledgment, query Min Donner, Enforcement Division, UMCPHQ.”
That was safe to say, since Com-Mine was certain to query Min Donner in any case.
“I have no evidence in Com-Mine Station’s case against the captain of Bright Beauty.” Her inability to utter Angus’ name eroded her stability, but she kept going. “To my knowledge, datacore tampering is impossible. I did not witness the removal of any chips. If they were removed, they were not given to me. My grievances against the captain of Bright Beauty are personal, and I do not choose to prosecute them publicly.”
In that way, she kept faith with Angus Thermopyle. She may have betrayed everyone else, but she was true to him.
“Captain Nick Succorso of Captain’s Fancy has my support and cooperation. Refer all further inquiries to UMCPHQ, Enforcement Division.”
To her own surprise, she added, “Farewell, Com-Mine Station.”
After that her throat closed, and she couldn’t say anything else.
“That’ll do,” Nick told Lind. “Send it. No repeats. If they miss part of it, let them sweat.
“Vector, I want you in the drive space. We’re going to give Station about ten minutes, so they’ll decide we aren’t running. Then we’re going to burn.”
Without warning Morn’s stomach turned over. Again she felt the brisance of panic, compressing her heart and lungs against her rib cage. “Burn” meant heavy g. The hardest acceleration Captain’s Fancy’s thrusters could produce.
If Nick feared her gap-sickness, he didn’t show it. Instead he snapped out orders. “Mikka, take her back to her cabin. Lock her in. Be sure she can’t get out while we burn. I want her secure until we’re out of g—and she can convince us she’s sane.” Pivoting his seat, he faced Morn with a feral grin. “Staying alive is her problem.”
Before Morn could think or react, Mikka grabbed her arm and pulled her through the aperture, off the bridge. A few minutes later she was back in her cabin. Outside, Mikka locked the door.
Nick’s second left her alone with the gap-sickness which had killed her father and most of the people she’d ever loved.
ANCILLARY
DOCUMENTATION
DATACORES
For convenience, history is often viewed as a conflict between the instinct for order and the impulse toward chaos. Both are necessary: both are manifestations of the need to survive. Without order, nothing exists: without chaos, nothing grows. And yet the struggle between them sheds more blood than any other war.
The instinct for order is an expression of humankind’s devout desire for safety (which permits nurture), for stability (which permits education), for predictability (which permits one thing to be built on another)—for equations of cause and effect simple enough to be relied upon. Indeed, without resistance to change, growth itself would be impossible: resistance to change creates safe, stable, predictable environments in which change can accumulate productively.
The instinct for order is therefore aggressive. It actively opposes any alteration of circumstance, any variation of perspective, any hostility of environment or intention. It fights to create and defend the conditions it seeks.
The impulse toward chaos is a manifestation of humankind’s inbred knowledge that the best way to survive any danger is to run away from it. This instinct focuses on the resources of individual imagination and cunning, rather than on the potentialities of concerted action. Its most common overt expression involves an insistence upon self-determination (freedom from restriction), individual liberty (freedom from requirement), and nonconformity (freedom from cause and effect). However, such insistence is primarily a rationalization of the desire to flee—to survive by escape.
Therefore the impulse toward chaos is also aggressive. The very act of escape breaks down systems of order: it contradicts safety, avoids stability, defies cause and effect. Like the instinct for order, it fights to create and defend the conditions it seeks.
Nevertheless stability and predictability themselves would be impossible without chaos. Chaos exerts the pressure which requires order to shape itself accurately. Without accuracy, order would self-destruct as soon as it came into being.
For these reasons, the struggle between order and chaos is eternal, necessary—and extremely expensive. By nature, human beings are at their most violent and belligerent in self-defense. The cost of their survival would be prohibitive in any less fecund universe.
In this context, the importance of datacores is easily understood.
Both metaphorically and actually, they were powerful tools for order. They gave the governments of Earth—and their effective enforcement arm, the United Mining Companies Police—the ability to find out what happened to any ship anywhere in human space. Ultimately anything that could be known could be controlled—or at least punished.
Of course, this was not the rationalization when they were first introduced. Then the rationalization was simply that space was vast; the gap, mysterious; accidents, common. If the future wanted to learn from the past—in order to make space travel safer—it needed to know what the past was. Therefore a record was required of what every ship knew, did, and experienced, so that its past would be available for analysis and understanding. And, naturally, this record had to exist in some unalterable form, so that it couldn’t be falsified by damage or self-interest, by stupidity or malice. Surely it stood to reason that every ship should carry the technology to make such recordings—for the sake of all future spacefarers.
However, the possibilities for control were so obvious that enforcement of these records was not left to reason. It became an absolute requirement: no ship could be built and registered unless it carried, in effect, an automatic and permanent log which would keep track of everything that ship did or encountered: every decision, every action, every risk, every malfunction, every crisis.
The codes which unlocked these logs belonged to the UMCP.
The datacores designated for use as permanent and automatic logs were a development of CMOS (complementary metal oxide semiconductor) technology. The great advantage of CMOS chips was that they drew power only when they changed state: that is, when information was written to them. Because of this, they could store data in a physically permanent form, without a sustained energy supply. Like any other chip, however, they were accessible to electronic emendation: once power was applied to the source and drain, the chip’s state could be altered; its data could be changed.
The invention of SOS (silicon on sapphire) CMOS chips was a step in the direction of real permanence. However, true datacores were not possible until the development of silicon on diamond semiconductors. SODCMOS chips were too intractable for ordinary computer use; but they were ideal for storing data in an unalterable form. Crudely put, SOD semiconductors never changed state at all: they added state. Instead of storing data in the normal on-or-off binary form, they stored it in an accumulation of on-then-off sequences. Therefore the “on” which preceded the “off” remained transparent when the data was accessed.
Not only were the data unalterable, but any attempt to alter them was unalterably recorded. In effect, this provided a kind of Write Only Memory: with the proper UMCP codes, it could be read; but it could never be rewritten.
Inevitably the impulse toward chaos took exception to the whole idea of the datacore.
At this period, however, the instinct for order was ascendant. The threat of forbidden space gave it an unprecedented legitimacy. For that reason, the requirements of the UMCP—backed by the imponderable commercial muscle of the United Mining Compa
nies—were usually granted. No economically vulnerable government of a genophobic species could refuse—especially when the requirement sounded so reasonable. By law, every human ship carried a datacore. If it did not, it was denied registration; which in turn meant that it would be denied dock anywhere in human space.
Vehement protestation founded on arguments for self-determination and individual liberties gained only two compromises in the final legislation. First, since the police were given sovereignty over all datacores, they were prohibited from seizing access to any datacore unless they possessed evidence that some crime had been committed. Second, to protect the privacy of ordinary citizens, any non-UMCP—or non-Security—ship was permitted to keep its sickbay log separate from its datacore; in effect, to operate its sickbay systems hermetically. Ordinary citizens might not be able to travel without id tags from which their files could be read by any UMCP or Security computer; they might not be able to control the contents of those files; but at least aboard ship they could sedate their insomnia or treat their warts without making that information available to the police.
The impulse toward chaos feared—loudly—that it was only a matter of time before the instinct for order began to supply ships with datacores which contained programming designed to override anything the ship or its captain might decide to do—programming intended to limit the ship’s choices, control the ship’s actions. In most circles, however, this fear was considered implausible. For the UMCP to prejudge the exigencies which a ship might encounter a thousand light-years from Earth would involve carrying the instinct for order to suicidal extremes.
Even the most frightened nonconformists, the most paranoid libertarians, had no cause to think that either the United Mining Companies or the United Mining Companies Police were suicidal.
CHAPTER 4
She had so little time—and no idea what to do. Nick had said ten minutes, heavy g in ten minutes. And she knew almost nothing about her gap-sickness; she didn’t know how to control it.
She’d already disabled her zone implant’s capacity to simply shut her off, render her catatonic.
Fool.
Something else. She had to do something else, and do it fast. Nick wasn’t going to wait for her to master her panic. He was punishing her for her small triumph on the bridge, that was one reason he’d decided to go into full acceleration so quickly, even though he risked burning her brain away—
He had a gift for revenge.
At most only a minute or two remained. A minute or two before heavy g drove her completely insane.
The zone implant control was her only hope. She’d retrieved it from its hiding place; she had it in her hand. But which function should she use? She couldn’t guess what part of her brain had been damaged, where her vulnerability lay; which complex of neurons was responsible for the utter clarity with which the universe spoke to her, commanding ruin.
She couldn’t think.
Goddamn it, she swore at Angus, where are you when I need you?
Without warning Captain’s Fancy reduced spin; internal g drained out of the cabin. Standard procedure: it saved wear on the equipment and spared the crew the distress of being pulled in more than one direction at once; it also freed the thrust drive from fighting the inertia of spin.
She had no more time. Frantically she reached her bunk, rolled herself into it, pulled up and sealed the blanket so that she wouldn’t fall out when shifting g reoriented the furniture. That way the berth would serve her as a kind of g-couch, absorbing as much of her body’s stress as it could.
Almost at once a low rumble came through the hull—the muffled, sudden thunder of the thrusters.
In desperation she jerked up the control and hit the button which would flood her with rest, wash her away into sleep and oblivion. Then she jammed the black box under her mattress.
Right or wrong, that solved all her problems—at least for the time being. Panic and consciousness left her as if they were squeezed away by the sudden pressure which made her as massive as death. She filled up with relaxation as she filled up with weight; g itself felt like irrefusable slumber.
Nevertheless she went on cursing while her mind lasted.
Fool.
Nobody could stand the strain of full thrust for long: nobody aboard would survive unless Nick reduced g at regular intervals. If she’d asked somebody on the bridge how long burn would last, she could have set the control’s timer to let her go when acceleration eased.
But she hadn’t done that, not her, fool, fool, and now it was too late. She was lost. She wasn’t going to wake up until somebody found the control and switched it off.
Until somebody found the control—
—and switched it off—
The next thing she knew, the walls were moving on either side of her. Which didn’t make sense—and in any case her cabin didn’t have walls like that. But apparently it was true.
Other details also didn’t make sense. What was she doing upright? Why did she feel like she was hanging by her arms? She couldn’t account for those things. Yet they appeared as true as the walls.
But of course the walls weren’t moving: she was. Her boots dragged the deck. She was being carried forward; she could feel hard shoulders braced under her arms.
That pressure brought back her panic.
By the time she reached the lift, she was awake enough to struggle.
She was too weak. Immeasurable sleep still clung to her, sapping her strength; her muscles were clogged with transition. Nevertheless she continued to fight, feebly but stubbornly, until a voice nearby said, “Let her go. Let’s see if she can stand.”
The shoulders removed themselves.
She nearly fell on her face.
More by luck than anything else, she managed to catch herself against the door of the lift.
“Hang on,” the voice said. “You’ll be all right. We’re taking you to sickbay.”
It was starting to sound familiar.
Holding her breath for stability, she turned around and forced her eyes to focus on the two men who stood an arm’s length away, watching her.
One of them was Vector Shaheed.
The other may have been the same man who’d sat at the data console while she was on the bridge. She couldn’t be sure. He was large enough. And not very well put together—
Neither of them had the zone implant control. At least not out in their hands where she could see it.
Vector’s voice was the one that sounded familiar.
“Morn, say something,” he urged gently. “Convince us you aren’t crazy.”
She blinked at him and tried to think, but she couldn’t understand his question. She had too many of her own, too much fear: her brain was full of hubbub, like the sound of a mob coming closer. Her whole body ached; she felt like she’d spent hours in a slag pulverizer. G did that—g and helpless sleep.
With an effort, she croaked, “Why—”
Why am I here?
Why am I awake?
“We need to know if you’re still gap-sick,” Vector explained. “If you are, we’re going to take you to sickbay and run some tests. See if we can find a way to bring you out of it.” His smile was stretched too thin: he looked exhausted. “This is Orn Vorbuld.” He indicated his companion. “We don’t have a medtech aboard, but he has a lot of experience with sickbays.”
Still Morn missed the point; her brain was running too far behind her circumstances. She couldn’t get past the dilemma of being taken to sickbay.
Any routine examination performed by any decent sickbay’s cybernetic systems would reveal her zone implant. And Captain’s Fancy surely had a decent sickbay. If Vector took her there, he would learn the truth.
He already knew the truth. Didn’t he? Why else was she awake? He must have found the control and switched it off.
Helpless, weak, as good as beaten, she groaned on the verge of tears. “No sickbay. Please.”
“Why not?” He studied her closely, but witho
ut impatience.
In contrast, his companion stared at her as if he feared she were about to burst into flames.
Abruptly the strain of her conflicting panics—she was already caught, she was about to be caught—seemed to create a clear space between them like the eye of a coriolis; a place where she could think.
Maybe Vector hadn’t found the control. He didn’t act like he knew about it. Maybe she was awake because he’d taken her out of its range.
Maybe she wasn’t lost.
Sick with relief, she almost let herself sink to the floor. But she didn’t; she couldn’t afford to look that weak. Instead she cleared her throat and lifted her head to face her escorts.
“I don’t like sickbays. I’m not crazy. I just took too much cat. I didn’t know how long”—she could feel pain in all her muscles—“how long we were going to burn.”
Orn Vorbuld continued staring at her dumbly.
“Who gave you cat?” inquired Vector. His manner concealed the danger of the question. Nick hadn’t ordered drugs for her.
“I had it with me. From Bright Beauty’s stores. When I found out I had gap-sickness, I stole some.” Unnecessarily she added, “I didn’t trust him.”
Vector could probably guess that she meant Angus Thermopyle.
The engineer still scrutinized her. “You said heavy g brings it on. How do you know when it’s over?”
To protect herself, she managed a wan smile. “Do I look like I’m trying to engage self-destruct?”
Vector’s smile was habitual, almost inflectionless; she couldn’t tell whether he believed her or not.
Apparently he did. After a moment he stepped past her to the intercom beside the lift.