The Society would be here any minute. “Eject,” I said, and cracked the cartridge open, and exposed it to the light.
I’VE GOTTEN A BUNCH OF FLACK RECENTLY FOR NOT writing about Women’s Issues. You hear a lot of this kind of talk these days—as if we were dogs and cats and parakeets instead of people, and had not only different things on our minds but different mental processes altogether.
Shakespeare also gets flack, in his case for being a Dead White Elizabethan Male, which apparently limits him to addressing only Dead White Elizabethan Male Issues. (Are there any? What on earth are they?)
I hate this kind of literary demagoguery. Anyone who’s ever read Shakespeare knows he had bigger fish to fry than Elizabethan Issues. He wrote about Human Issues—fear and ambition and guilt and regret and love—the issues that trouble and delight all of us, women included. And the only ones I want to write about.
But, as I say, I’ve been getting all this flack, and I thought to myself, “Fine. They want me to write about Women’s Issues. I’ll write about Women’s Issues. I’ll write about The Women’s Issue.” So I did. I hope they’re happy.
EVEN THE QUEEN
The phone sang as I was looking over the defense’s motion to dismiss. “It’s the universal ring,” my law clerk Bysshe said, reaching for it. “It’s probably the defendant. They don’t let you use signatures from jail.”
“No, it’s not,” I said. “It’s my mother.”
“Oh.” Bysshe reached for the receiver. “Why isn’t she using her signature?”
“Because she knows I don’t want to talk to her. She must have found out what Perdita’s done.”
“Your daughter Perdita?” he asked, holding the receiver against his chest. “The one with the little girl?”
“No, that’s Viola. Perdita’s my younger daughter. The one with no sense.”
“What’s she done?”
“She’s joined the Cyclists.”
Bysshe looked inquiringly blank, but I was not in the mood to enlighten him. Or in the mood to talk to Mother. “I know exactly what Mother will say. She’ll ask me why I didn’t tell her, and then she’ll demand to know what I’m going to do about it, and there is nothing I can do about it, or I obviously would have done it already.”
Bysshe looked bewildered. “Do you want me to tell her you’re in court?”
“No.” I reached for the receiver. “I’ll have to talk to her sooner or later.” I took it from him. “Hello, Mother,” I said.
“Traci,” Mother said dramatically, “Perdita has become a Cyclist.”
“I know.”
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“I thought Perdita should tell you herself.”
“Perdita!” She snorted. “She wouldn’t tell me. She knows what I’d have to say about it. I suppose you told Karen.”
“Karen’s not here. She’s in Iraq.” The only good thing about this whole debacle was that thanks to Iraq’s eagerness to show it was a responsible world-community member and its previous penchant for self-destruction, my mother-in-law was in the one place on the planet where the phone service was bad enough that I could claim I’d tried to call her but couldn’t get through, and she’d have to believe me.
The Liberation has freed us from all sorts of indignities and scourges, including Iraq’s Saddams, but mothers-in-law aren’t one of them, and I was almost happy with Perdita for her excellent timing. When I didn’t want to kill her.
“What’s Karen doing in Iraq?” Mother asked.
“Negotiating a Palestinian homeland.”
“And meanwhile her granddaughter is ruining her life,” she said irrelevantly. “Did you tell Viola?”
“I told you, Mother. I thought Perdita should tell all of you herself.”
“Well, she didn’t. And this morning one of my patients, Carol Chen, called me and demanded to know what I was keeping from her. I had no idea what she was talking about.”
“How did Carol Chen find out?”
“From her daughter, who almost joined the Cyclists last year. Her family talked her out of it,” she said accusingly. “Carol was convinced the medical community had discovered some terrible side effect of ammenerol and were covering it up. I cannot believe you didn’t tell me, Traci.”
And I cannot believe I didn’t have Bysshe tell her I was in court, I thought. “I told you, Mother. I thought it was Perdita’s place to tell you. After all, it’s her decision.”
“Oh, Traci!” Mother said. “You cannot mean that!”
In the first fine flush of freedom after the Liberation, I had entertained hopes that it would change everything—that it would somehow do away with inequality and matriarchal dominance and those humorless women determined to eliminate the word “manhole” and third-person singular pronouns from the language.
Of course it didn’t. Men still make more money, “herstory” is still a blight on the semantic landscape, and my mother can still say, “Oh, Traci!” in a tone that reduces me to preadolescence.
“Her decision!” Mother said. “Do you mean to tell me you plan to stand idly by and allow your daughter to make the mistake of her life?”
“What can I do? She’s twenty-two years old and of sound mind.”
“If she were of sound mind, she wouldn’t be doing this. Didn’t you try to talk her out of it?”
“Of course I did, Mother.”
“And?”
“And I didn’t succeed. She’s determined to become a Cyclist.”
“Well, there must be something we can do. Get an injunction or hire a deprogrammer or sue the Cyclists for brainwashing. You’re a judge, there must be some law you can invoke—”
“The law is called personal sovereignty, Mother, and since it was what made the Liberation possible in the first place, it can hardly be used against Perdita. Her decision meets all the criteria for a case of personal sovereignty: It’s a personal decision, it was made by a sovereign adult, it affects no one else—”
“What about my practice? Carol Chen is convinced shunts cause cancer.”
“Any effect on your practice is considered an indirect effect. Like secondary smoke. It doesn’t apply. Mother, whether we like it or not, Perdita has a perfect right to do this, and we don’t have any right to interfere. A free society has to be based on respecting others’ opinions and leaving each other alone. We have to respect Perdita’s right to make her own decisions.”
All of which was true. It was too bad I hadn’t said any of it to Perdita when she called. What I had said, in a tone that sounded exactly like my mother’s, was “Oh, Perdita!”
“This is all your fault, you know,” Mother said. “I told you you shouldn’t have let her get that tattoo over her shunt. And don’t tell me it’s a free society. What good is a free society when it allows my granddaughter to ruin her life?” She hung up.
I handed the receiver back to Bysshe.
“I really liked what you said about respecting your daughter’s right to make her own decisions,” he said. He held out my robe, “And about not interfering in her life.”
“I want you to research the precedents on deprogramming for me,” I said, sliding my arms into the sleeves. “And find out if the Cyclists have been charged with any free-choice violations—brainwashing, intimidation, coercion.”
The phone sang, another universal. “Hello, who’s calling?” Bysshe said cautiously. His voice became suddenly friendlier. “Just a minute.” He put his hand over the receiver. “It’s your daughter Viola.”
I took the receiver. “Hello, Viola.”
“I just talked to Grandma,” she said. “You will not believe what Perdita’s done now. She’s joined the Cyclists.”
“I know,” I said.
“You know? And you didn’t tell me? I can’t believe this. You never tell me anything.”
“I thought Perdita should tell you herself,” I said tiredly.
“Are you kidding? She never tells me anything either. That time she had eyebrow
implants, she didn’t tell me for three weeks, and when she got the laser tattoo, she didn’t tell me at all. Twidge told me. You should have called me. Did you tell Grandma Karen?”
“She’s in Baghdad,” I said.
“I know,” Viola said. “I called her.”
“Oh, Viola, you didn’t!”
“Unlike you, Mom, I believe in telling members of our family about matters that concern them.”
“What did she say?” I asked, a kind of numbness settling over me now that the shock had worn off.
“I couldn’t get through to her. The phone service over there is terrible. I got somebody who didn’t speak English, and then I got cut off, and when I tried again, they said the whole city was down.”
Thank you, I breathed silently. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
“Grandma Karen has a right to know, Mother. Think of the effect this could have on Twidge. She thinks Perdita’s wonderful. When Perdita got the eyebrow implants, Twidge glued LEDs to hers, and I almost never got them off. What if Twidge decides to join the Cyclists, too?”
“Twidge is only nine. By the time she’s supposed to get her shunt, Perdita will have long since quit.” I hope, I added silently. Perdita had had the tattoo for a year and a half now and showed no signs of tiring of it. “Besides, Twidge has more sense.”
“It’s true. Oh, Mother, how could Perdita do this? Didn’t you tell her about how awful it was?”
“Yes,” I said. “And inconvenient. And unpleasant and unbalancing and painful. None of it made the slightest impact on her. She told me she thought it would be fun.”
Bysshe was pointing to his watch and mouthing, “Time for court.”
“Fun!” Viola said. “When she saw what I went through that time? Honestly, Mother, sometimes I think she’s completely brain dead. Can’t you have her declared incompetent and locked up or something?”
“No,” I said, trying to zip up my robe with one hand. “Viola, I have to go. I’m late for court. I’m afraid there’s nothing we can do to stop her. She’s a rational adult.”
“Rational!” Viola said. “Her eyebrows light up, Mother. She has Custer’s Last Stand lased on her arm.”
I handed the phone to Bysshe. “Tell Viola I’ll talk to her tomorrow.” I zipped up my robe. “And then call Baghdad and see how long they expect the phones to be out.” I started into the courtroom. “And if there are any more universal calls, make sure they’re local before you answer.”
Bysshe couldn’t get through to Baghdad, which I took as a good sign, and my mother-in-law didn’t call. Mother did, in the afternoon, to ask if lobotomies were legal.
She called again the next day. I was in the middle of my Personal Sovereignty class, explaining the inherent right of citizens in a free society to make complete jackasses of themselves. They weren’t buying it.
“I think it’s your mother,” Bysshe whispered to me as he handed me the phone. “She’s still using the universal. But it’s local. I checked.”
“Hello, Mother,” I said.
“It’s all arranged,” Mother said. “We’re having lunch with Perdita at McGregor’s. It’s on the corner of Twelfth Street and Larimer.”
“I’m in the middle of class,” I said.
“I know. I won’t keep you. I just wanted to tell you not to worry. I’ve taken care of everything.”
I didn’t like the sound of that. “What have you done?”
“Invited Perdita to lunch with us. I told you. At McGregor’s.”
“Who is ‘us,’ Mother?”
“Just the family,” she said innocently. “You and Viola.”
Well, at least she hadn’t brought in the deprogrammer. Yet. “What are you up to, Mother?”
“Perdita said the same thing. Can’t a grandmother ask her granddaughters to lunch? Be there at twelve-thirty.”
“Bysshe and I have a court-calendar meeting at three.”
“Oh, we’ll be done by then. And bring Bysshe with you. He can provide a man’s point of view.”
She hung up.
“You’ll have to go to lunch with me, Bysshe,” I said. “Sorry.”
“Why? What’s going to happen at lunch?”
“I have no idea.”
On the way over to McGregor’s, Bysshe told me what he’d found out about the Cyclists. “They’re not a cult. There’s no religious connection. They seem to have grown out of a pre-Liberation women’s group,” he said, looking at his notes, “although there are also links to the pro-choice movement, the University of Wisconsin, and the Museum of Modern Art.”
“What?”
“They call their group leaders ‘docents.’ Their philosophy seems to be a mix of pre-Liberation radical feminism and the environmental primitivism of the eighties. They’re floratarians and they don’t wear shoes.”
“Or shunts,” I said. We pulled up in front of McGregor’s and got out of the car. “Any mind-control convictions?” I asked hopefully.
“No. A bunch of suits against individual members, all of which they won.”
“On grounds of personal sovereignty.”
“Yeah. And a criminal one by a member whose family tried to deprogram her. The deprogrammer was sentenced to twenty years, and the family got twelve.”
“Be sure to tell Mother about that one,” I said, and opened the door to McGregor’s.
It was one of those restaurants with a morning-glory vine twining around the maître d’s desk and garden plots between the tables.
“Perdita suggested it,” Mother said, guiding Bysshe and me past the onions to our table. “She told me a lot of the Cyclists are floratarians.”
“Is she here?” I asked, sidestepping a cucumber frame.
“Not yet.” She pointed past a rose arbor. “There’s our table,”
Our table was a wicker affair under a mulberry tree. Viola and Twidge were seated on the far side next to a trellis of runner beans, looking at menus.
“What are you doing here, Twidge?” I asked. “Why aren’t you in school?”
“I am,” she said, holding up her LCD slate. “I’m remoting today.”
“I thought she should be part of this discussion,” Viola said. “After all, she’ll be getting her shunt soon.”
“My friend Kensy says she isn’t going to get one. Like Perdita,” Twidge said.
“I’m sure Kensy will change her mind when the time comes,” Mother said. “Perdita will change hers, too. Bysshe, why don’t you sit next to Viola?”
Bysshe slid obediently past the trellis and sat down in the wicker chair at the far end of the table. Twidge reached across Viola and handed him a menu. “This is a great restaurant,” she said. “You don’t have to wear shoes.” She held up a bare foot to illustrate. “And if you get hungry while you’re waiting, you can just pick something.” She twisted around in her chair, picked two of the green beans, gave one to Bysshe, and bit into the other one. “I bet Kensy doesn’t. Kensy says a shunt hurts worse than braces.”
“It doesn’t hurt as much as not having one,” Viola said, shooting me a Now-Do-You-See-What-My-Sister’s-Caused? look.
“Traci, why don’t you sit across from Viola?” Mother said to me. “And we’ll put Perdita next to you when she comes.”
“If she comes,” Viola said.
“I told her one o’clock,” Mother said, sitting down at the near end. “So we’d have a chance to plan our strategy before she gets here. I talked to Carol Chen—”
“Her daughter nearly joined the Cyclists last year,” I explained to Bysshe and Viola.
“She said they had a family gathering, like this, and simply talked to her daughter, and she decided she didn’t want to be a Cyclist after all.” She looked around the table. “So I thought we’d do the same thing with Perdita. I think we should start by explaining the significance of the Liberation and the days of dark oppression that preceded it—”
“I think,” Viola interrupted, “we should try to talk her into just going off the ammenerol
for a few months instead of having the shunt removed. If she comes. Which she won’t.” ’
“Why not?”
“Would you? I mean, it’s like the Inquisition. Her sitting here while all of us ‘explain’ at her. Perdita may be crazy, but she’s not stupid.”
“It’s hardly the Inquisition,” Mother said. She looked anxiously past me toward the door. “I’m sure Perdita—” She stopped, stood up, and plunged off suddenly through the asparagus.
I turned around, half expecting Perdita with light-up lips or a full-body tattoo, but I couldn’t see through the leaves. I pushed at the branches.
“Is it Perdita?” Viola said, leaning forward.
I peered around the mulberry bush. “Oh, my God,” I said.
It was my mother-in-law, wearing a black abayah and a silk yarmulke. She swept toward us through a pumpkin patch, robes billowing and eyes flashing. Mother hurried in her wake of trampled radishes, looking daggers at me.
I turned them on Viola. “It’s your Grandmother Karen,” I said accusingly. “You told me you didn’t get through to her.”
“I didn’t,” she said. “Twidge, sit up straight. And put your slate down.”
There was an ominous rustling in the rose arbor, as of leaves shrinking back in terror, and my mother-in-law arrived.
“Karen!” I said, trying to sound pleased. “What on earth are you doing here? I thought you were in Baghdad.”
“I came back as soon as I got Viola’s message,” she said, glaring at everyone in turn. “Who’s this?” she demanded, pointing at Bysshe. “Viola’s new live-in?”
“No!” Bysshe said, looking horrified.
“This is my law clerk, Mother,” I said. “Bysshe Adams-Hardy.”
“Twidge, why aren’t you in school?”
“I am,” Twidge said. “I’m remoting.” She held up her slate. “See? Math.”
“I see,” she said, turning to glower at me. “It’s a serious enough matter to require my great-grandchild’s being pulled out of school and the hiring of legal assistance, and yet you didn’t deem it important enough to notify me. Of course, you never tell me anything, Traci.”