The man from the valet company who'd found the knickers said he'd been in two minds about what to do. He'd found them stuffed down the side of the seat. At first he thought they belonged to Senhor Rodrigues' daughter and he was just going to leave them on the seat. But then, because it was Senhor Rodrigues who'd brought the car in to be cleaned on the Monday morning, he thought this might be embarrassing, so he put them under the seat and decided to mind his own business.
Miguel da Costa Rodrigues was formally charged with the murder of Catarina Oliveira at 13.30. When he was asked to remove his clothing two large bruises were revealed on his chest. Photographs were taken and he was issued with standard prison clothing and taken to the cells.
Chapter XLI
Monday, 23rd November 1998, Palácio da Justiça, Rua Marques da Fronteira, Lisbon
I've never wanted fame. If I'd wanted to be famous I wouldn't have been a policeman. Fame has always struck me as a perverse form of prostitution. You perform, or just appear, and in return receive enormous attention, an uncomplicated love. Nobody knows the famous and the famous know nobody and yet the intensity of emotion, the wholesale adoration is bigger, more impressive than any individual's love. For me the greatest invasion of privacy was to have to accept the fame. An inability to accept it would have meant that fame had changed me and for the worse. It was the compulsory enjoyment that I couldn't stand.
I became famous. I was a hero. I was the little man from down the Linha, the one who'd shaved his beard off for charity (see how the smallest thing was changed for my benefit), took on the establishment and brought them to justice. The media loved me, but would they have loved me as much with a beard, no new bridgework and fifteen extra kilos? I learnt the value of a good suit and a permanent smile.
The feeding frenzy was ferocious. The River Tagus boiled pink with the blood of the past. Miguel da Costa Rodrigues' real identity of Manuel Abrantes, the much feared Inspector da Polícia in PIDE, who ran a network of hundreds of bufos, informers, who permeated the lives of thousands of ordinary people, and who was directly responsible for the suffering of many of the unfortunates in the Caxias prison, convulsed the nation. Current-affairs programmes and talk shows bloomed for weeks as people aired their memories of oppression, persecution and torture—the frying pans of Tarrafal on Cape Verde, the bull pens of Aljube, the flooding dungeons of the Fort of Caxias. But this angle was short-lived and, when the programmers saw the soaps reasserting themselves at the top of the league, they realized their mistake—people didn't want history. They wanted personal history.
They quickly found Jorge Raposo in his house of joy, and in a half-hour special he reassembled the PIDE infiltration of General Machedo's entourage, the trap set in the Badajoz churchyard, the killing of the General's secretary and the summary execution of the General by Manuel Abrantes. It was spell-binding television. I couldn't take my eyes off him. I got up close to see if I could find the familiar old ruined Jorge that I'd known, but his studio make-up was impenetrable, his new double-breasted suit as smooth and hermetic as armour plate. I could only imagine his crusty heels encased in their brand-new loafers. As a result of the programme the Spanish government announced an investigation into the affair as it had taken place on Spanish soil.
They found me. The heroic widower fighting against odds that I didn't recognize. They found Luísa, the committed teacher who'd become the fearless publisher and the hero's lover. They found Olivia, the hero's daughter who'd cut the tie that had given the investigation its biggest break, the new fashion designer who might have been backed, personally, by Miguel da Costa Rodrigues.
Finally, and perhaps the most damaging development for my privacy, was that, with the publication of the supporting documents for the origination of the gold, there was an immediate freeze of all the Banco de Oceano e Rocha's assets. This was followed by a raid on their offices, including the old offices on the Rua do Ouro in the Baixa, where two of the original bars of gold were found in an old wall safe. The Polícia Judiciária leapt at the chance of a publicity coup and my face appeared on the front of all the newspapers, flanked by the two bars of Nazi gold. In at least one publication appeared the legend Inspector Dourado—the Golden Inspector. This was followed by the announcement of a full government investigation into the origins, funding and affairs of the bank since its inception.
At this point I thought I was going to lose control of my life completely, but my luck turned. There were further revelations about the financial scandal that had plagued the companies which had built Expo 98 and the developers of the upmarket residential area around the site. The spotlight shifted. The media reloaded. But the Zeitgeist was the same—fat cats, acting with impunity.
By the end of June I'd been promoted. I didn't get a new job because one didn't exist at the time. I got a pay rise, which I didn't need because for weeks I wasn't allowed to buy a drink or pay for a meal. All bills were settled by others. More uncomplicated love.
I was given a secretary, temporarily, to handle all my calls which meant I hardly spoke to anyone who wasn't a journalist or a TV producer. I had little time. I did no work. The PJ rode high on the success of the investigation. I was envied and despised by my colleagues and welcomed into the brotherhood of my superiors.
It was a relief, after intense government pressure, when the trial finally took place, in record time in the middle of November. The prosecution took it seriously. I was endlessly coached and rehearsed. The defence built their case on Catarina's history: that although she was a schoolgirl from a respectable family, she was nothing more than a common prostitute and drug-user. They concentrated on her voluntarily getting into the car and her willingness to have straight sex (there was no apparent violence against her), the fact that no murder weapon was found, the lack of motive for the killing, there being no witnesses who saw the defendant hitting the girl, stripping her, loading her into the boot of the car or dumping her on the beach at Paço de Arcos. They puffed Miguel Rodrigues' good character, his charity work and that of his wife and the impeccable upbringing of his brother's daughter.
The prosecution's case hinged on whether the defendant had sodomized the girl or not. That was his motive for murder. Through my testimony, the initial interview with Miguel Rodrigues and the photographs of his bruised chest, they not only cast doubt on the veracity of anything that the defendant might have said, but also proved beyond reasonable doubt that he had sodomized Catarina Oliveira. That broke the back of the case. There was no murder weapon because the murderer had killed with his own hands, by strangling the girl. He wasn't seen stripping her, but ultimately the girl's clothes had been found in his possession. He wasn't seen dumping the girl, but it was clearly established that he was in Paço de Arcos, had left there at night and would therefore have had the opportunity. They scythed his good reputation to the ground.
On Monday 23rd November at 16.00 the judge handed down his verdict. Miguel da Costa Rodrigues, also known as Manuel Abrantes, was found guilty of murder and sentenced to life imprisonment.
I was invited by the Minister of Internal Administration to the Jockey Club, to celebrate with some editors, journalists, TV producers, presenters and high-ranking police officers. When I declined they sent Narciso after me. It was then that I realized why he was my boss. This was his territory. I was a stray cat. A photograph was taken of Luísa and me at the champagne reception and after half an hour Narciso let me know that I could leave.
We drove out to Paço de Arcos. Olivia had already eaten and was watching television at my sister's house. I took Luísa to A Bandeira Vermelha and a cheerful António Borrego served us his dish of the day. It was one of his favourite Alentejano concoctions—ensopado de borrego—a large tureen of lamb broth with neck chops and breast stewed until the meat has all but parted from the bone. Nobody cooked it like him. He opened a bottle of red Borba Reserva '94 and left: us to it.
I sipped the wine and ate some cheese and olives. I didn't feel like talking even. Luísa was annoy
ed with me for dragging her away from the party. To her it was an opportunity to network in her new role as fearless publisher, and she would have preferred to stay.
'Eventually you'll tell me what the problem is,' she said, lighting a cigarette in time for the arrival of the main course.
'I'm depressed.'
'Is that a post-trial policeman thing, like post-natal depression is for women?'
'I don't think so.'
'Maybe you've got post-event blues ... now you've got to get back to real life.'
'I want to get back to real life.'
'I don't have to tell you all the reasons why you shouldn't be depressed. Promotion. Pay rise. Pinnacle of your career. A bad man put away for life.'
'None of that matters. What matters is being here, eating António's ensopado de borrego, drinking red wine with you. I was not built for drinking champagne with arseholes. This is the best thing...'
'The best thing?'
'All right, we've...'
'Relax, Zé. I'm teasing.'
I sucked some more lamb bones, drank more red wine. We finished the meal. António cleared everything away and brought two glasses of aguardente and two bicas. We smoked. Luísa refused to coax me out of my mood. The bar emptied. António loaded the dishwasher. Tyres ripped along the Marginal. A bitter wind moved through the trees of the park.
'He didn't do it,' I said.
'What are we talking about now?' asked Luísa.
'The reason why I'm depressed,' I said, 'is that Miguel Rodrigues or Manuel Abrantes did not murder Catarina Oliveira.'
'How long have you been thinking this?'
'Do you want the truth or the media version?'
'Don't be a chato, Zé.'
'No, you're right. I'm being a chato to the last person I should be a chato to. I thought he didn't do it, from the moment I found the girl's clothes in his study.'
'Which was amongst the most damning pieces of evidence in the whole trial.'
'Exactly ... with those clothes in his possession he became the stripper of the body and therefore the most likely murderer.'
'And you think somebody else put the clothes there?'
'Two things. Miguel Rodrigues was supposedly harassing me on and off the case. I wasn't getting the information on the car from Traffic. I was taken off the job. I was invaded by Narcotics. I was pushed under a tram. If he was feeling the heat that much, why didn't he get rid of one of the most damaging pieces of evidence against him? And the second thing. Why weren't the girl's knickers with the...'
It was at this point that the parasites got out of control, and the most virulent and debilitating of the diseases of the famous ran through me like a bad case of malaria. I got a large, ugly dose of paranoia.
Nobody knows the famous, the famous know nobody.
'With the what?' asked Luísa, who'd reared back at the same time. 'Why are you looking at me like that?'
'How am I looking at you? I don't mean to...'
'You're looking at me as if you're looking into me, as if you're looking into the back of my head.'
'It's nothing. I don't know what I'm thinking any more.'
It wasn't true. I did know what I'd been thinking. I'd been thinking that I'd got a lot of harassment, right up to the moment when I landed Miguel Rodrigues, and having landed him under those difficult circumstances, I had to find a way of getting public opinion on my side. And what happened? My girlfriend of one week is an expert on the Salazar Economy, she's already been looking at the Banco de Oceano e Rocha, she produces the name Klaus Felsen, she has a father in magazine publishing, who's looking for a big story for a launch issue that's ready to go. And when the story broke it was all so easy. Narciso was suddenly as dreamy as a pastel de nata from the Antiga Confeitaria in Belem. And I was desperately hanging on to the mane of a bare-back media stallion, galloping across the open plains.
It is the nature of paranoia that things which had seemed so right at the time suddenly become inflamed with suspicion. And once I'd started thinking like that, other thoughts began to assert themselves. Who had given me Luísa Madrugada's number? Dr Aquilino Oliveira.
Like pure quinine for a bad malaria attack, there's only one cure for paranoia—the absolute, undiluted truth. The arranged truth, even though there is some justice in it, will never be good enough, will never absolve the most important people.
I was sick and I had to have the one and only cure.
If, then, I could have thought beyond the tight circles in my head, I would have realized that, in reaching for the pure truth, I was going to disrupt the arranged one. If it had been arranged, then it had been arranged by somebody. Somebody powerful and somebody vindictive, who would not take kindly to the disruption.
I looked at Luísa again, trying not to dig under the surface. António Borrego, the only man still letting me pay for my food and drink, put the bill down between us.
Chapter XLII
Tuesday, 24th November 1998, Potícia Judiciária building, Rua Gomes Freire, Lisbon
I sat at my desk and booted up the computer. I accessed the missing-persons file and put in a search for Lourenço Gonçalves to see if he'd reappeared or been found. There was no record of a missing-persons report being logged. I looked out of the window at the brilliant sunshine and shivered.
I found Carlos and took him for a walk down to Avenida Almirante Reis. It was cold, very dry, and the wind was a lacerating northerly. There'd been no rain this year. The last three years it had rained the whole of November until I felt as depressed as an Englishman. This year it had been eerie. No rain. Day after day of brilliant sunshine, cloudless skies. And rather than joy, it brought with it the chilling notion that the planet had been irrevocably damaged.
The small, narrow bar between the Anjos and Arroios Metro stations where I'd first met JoJó Silva was packed with mid-morning coffee-drinkers. We went straight to the back of the café. JoJó Silva was sitting at a table staring into an empty coffee cup as if the grounds were going to tell him this week's lottery numbers. I blocked out his light. He looked up.
'Do they let you take your own calls yet, Inspector?' he asked.
'I stopped being a demi-god as from yesterday.'
'Welcome back to mortality.'
'What's going on, JoJó?'
'Nothing ... as usual.'
'You didn't file a missing-persons report on your friend.'
'Lourenço Gonçalves?' he said. 'I did, Inspector. Oh yes, I did that. It was the least I could do for him. Why do you think I've been calling you and been told you're not available for the last three months? I even tried you yesterday.'
'Yesterday?' I said, knowing his name hadn't appeared on the message list.
'You want to know why I called you yesterday ... of all the days?' he asked. 'The rent is up on Lourenço's office. He's not in a position to renew the lease, so the landlord is going to clear the place and rent it out to someone who exists. And once that's happened, Inspector ... he really is lost. Wiped clean.'
The three of us crossed Avenida Almirante Reis to a 1960s featureless office building. Carlos and I went up to the second floor, while JoJó found the landlord and the key. It took him some time.
'Are you doing anything tonight?' I asked, leaning up against the wall outside the unnamed office, looking for something to take my mind off the monster that was forming in my head.
'Just taking Olivia to the movies.'
'To see what?'
'City of Angels'
'Again?
'She likes it,' he shrugged.
'It's a romantic movie.'
'It's not the romance she's interested in,' he said. 'She likes the idea that there's something bigger than all of us out there, acting in an unpredictable way. Not always good, not always bad. She says it makes her feel secure.'
'Maybe you have to be young to have that kind of faith in things.'
'Bad night, last night, was it?'
'I just have the feeling that there's something big o
n the other side of that door.'
'Why?'
'Lourenço Gonçalves ... that name ... whenever I've thought about it I've felt a need to do something but I've never cracked it. And now ... somebody's thought it's important enough to delete the name from the missing-persons file. That never happens, not even if he's found.'
The landlord opened the door and left us to it. JoJó sat in his missing friend's chair. The office wasn't crowded out with furniture. There was a desk, another chair and a filing cabinet. There were four files in the filing cabinet and three empty drawers. The files were old. All dating to work the previous year. Carlos began taking the desk to pieces. JoJó didn't move.
'Was he working when you last saw him?' I asked.
'He always said he was working,' said JoJó. 'He just grumbled about not getting paid.'
'None of this work is current.'
'The desk is empty,' said Carlos.
I moved the filing cabinet away from the wall. There was nothing behind it. I tipped it on its back. Carlos went to the door. I fiddled with the surround of the cabinet.
'Something big on the other side of the door,' said Carlos, tapping it.
There was a large poster covering most of the door. It was a movie poster of a massive Kodiak bear in mortal combat with a man.
'He was obsessed with that movie,' said JoJó. 'It gave him his catchphrase.'
'What was the line?' asked Carlos.
'I'm going to kill the bear.'
We laughed.
'He had a sense of humour, Lourenço,' said JoJó.
'Tap that door again, Carlos,' I said.
It was hollow-sounding at the edges and solid in the middle. It was one of those cheap doors made by slapping two pieces of veneer on to a frame, and those sort of doors normally sound hollow from top to bottom.
'Take the poster off.'