But soon as I put the phone down, Mam’s at my shoulder.
“Don’t go,” she says.
“Eh?”
“Come with me to Harry’s. It’s his last day in the house. He’ll need a friendly face around.”
“But, Mam!”
“Come on, just an hour or two. Just for me.”
“But I haven’t got time, Mam.”
She laughs.
“You’re eleven years old. You’ve got all the time in the world.”
So in the end I sigh, phone Jacksie again and put him off till the afternoon, and I slouch down the street with my mam.
Harry’s ancient. We’ve known him for ever. He lives at the end of our street and he was fit as a lop till the heart attack got him. It looked like the end but he was soon fighting back. A few days in intensive care, a couple of weeks in Freeman Hospital, and before we know it he was back home in Blenkinsop Street. He started tottering around his little front garden on his Zimmer frame, tottering past our window to the Elmfield Social Club. He stood gasping at street corners, grinning at the neighbours, waving at the kids. When he saw me out training, he’d yell, “Gan on, young’n! Keep them pins moving!” And I’d wave and laugh and put a sprint on. “That’s reet, lad! Run! There’s a wolf at your tail! Run for your life!”
Everybody knows Harry. Everybody loves him. The women in the street take him flasks of tea and sandwiches and plates of dinner. His mates from the club call in with bottles of beer to play cards and dominoes with him. The district nurse visits every day and she’s always laughing when she comes out his front door. But one day she found him with a massive bruise on his head after he’d had a fall. One day he was out wandering the street in his stripy pyjamas. It couldn’t go on. There was nobody at home to look after him. It was time for him to leave the house, get rid of tons of stuff and move into St Mary’s, the new nursing home just off Baker’s Lane.
Mam took it on herself to help him clear out. “Poor soul,” she said. “How on earth’ll he bear up?” But Harry didn’t seem to find it hard at all. Out went all his stuff, to charity shops and fetes and the town dump: pots and pans, dishes, tables and chairs, clothes, a radio, an ancient TV.
“What are they?” he said. “Nowt but things. Hoy them oot!”
He just laughed about it all.
“I’ll not need much in the place where I’m gannin’. And for the place past that, I’ll not need nowt at all.”
We walk down the street to Harry’s. Mam lets us in with a key. By now, just about everything’s gone. The floors are bare. There’re no curtains at the windows. He’s sitting in the front room in a great big armchair with a box full of papers on his lap and the Zimmer frame standing in front of him. There’s a little table with boxes of tablets on it. He looks all dreamy but he manages to grin.
“How do, petal,” he says.
“How do, Harry.”
Mam bends down and kisses him. She pushes some hair back from his brow. She says has he washed this morning, has he brushed his teeth, has he had breakfast, has he…
“Aye,” he says. “Aye, hinny, aye.”
He stares at me like he’s staring from a million miles away.
“It’s the little runner,” he says at last.
“Aye, Mr Miller.”
He reaches out and touches the T-shirt. His hand’s all frail an’ trembly.
“Great North Run?” he says.
“Aye, Mr Miller.”
“I done that.”
“Did you really, Harry?” says Mam. “And when was that?”
He reaches towards me again.
“How old are ye, son?”
“Eleven.”
“That was when I done it. When I was eleven.”
Mam smiles sadly at me.
“Must’ve been great,” she says.
“It was bliddy marvellous, pet.”
He closes his eyes. Mam lifts the box from his lap. It looks like he might be dropping off to sleep, but he jumps up to his feet and grabs the Zimmer frame. He leans forward like he’s ready to run.
“It’s the final sprint!” he says.
He giggles and drops back into the chair.
“Tek nae notice, son,” he says. “I’m just a daft old maddled gadgie.”
He looks at the box.
“Them’ll need to be gone through,” he says. “Ye’ll help us, hinny?”
“Course I will,” said Mam.
He sighs and grins, and stares past us like he can see right through the walls.
“I can see the sea, mates!” he says. “We’re nearly there!”
And he falls asleep and starts to snore.
It smells of old bloke in here. Suppose it’s bound to. Suppose he can’t help it. Suppose I’ll smell like old bloke myself one day. Pee and sweat and ancient clothes and dust. The sun shines through the window. Dust’s glittering and dancing in the shafts of light. Outside there’re the little trees in Harry’s neat little garden, the rooftops of the street, Newcastle’s towers and spires, then the big blue empty sky.
Mam lifts the papers out. She unfolds them from packets and envelopes while Harry snuffles and snores.
Here’s his birth certificate.
“Same address as now,” I say.
“Aye. Lived here all his life. And look, this must be them.”
It’s a small faded black-and-white photograph. A young couple and a wrapped-up baby beaming through the years. Mam holds the photograph close to Harry’s face. “Can you see them in him?” she says. And when we look at Harry and think of him with his wide and shining eyes, we have to say we can. The baby, the woman and the man are living on in the sleeping bloke.
More photographs: toddler Harry in a fat nappy with his dad in overalls on one side, Mam in a flowery frock on the other. Scruffy boys and girls on benches in an ancient schoolyard. A teacher at the centre with a big hooked nose and a fur wrap around her shoulders. Which one is he? We pick the same face, the grinning kid just behind the teacher’s head, the one lifting his hand like he wants to wave at us from seventy years ago. A final school report from 1942.
There’s his apprenticeship papers from the same year, when he started as an apprentice welder at Swan Hunter’s shipyard. A photograph of him in a soldier’s uniform. National service, says Mam. Harry with girls, one pretty girl then another, then another. They’re on Tynemouth seafront, on Newcastle quayside market, sitting in a Ferris wheel at a fair. There’s a folded piece of pink paper with a handwritten note:
“V?” I say.
Mam shrugs.
“Who knows? I heard tell he’d been a ladies’ man. Often chased but never caught.”
She holds the photos to his face again.
“And there’s still the handsome lad in him!” she says.
Then there he is in colour, in swimming trunks and with a sombrero on his head. He’s linking arms with his mates on a beach in what Mam says must be Spain.
“That’s Tommy Lind!” says Mam. “And Alex Marsh, God rest his soul.”
There’s more, and more. Photographs and documents, savings books, rent books, pension books. There’s his dad’s death certificate in 1954, then his mother’s just a few months later, both of them with cancer, both of them too young. There’re holiday bookings, airline tickets, outdated foreign money. Lists of medication, prescriptions, hospital appointment cards.
“A whole life in a box,” says Mam as she lifts another envelope and opens it. “What’s this?” she says to herself.
“It’s what I telt ye,” says Harry. He’s wide awake. “It’s the Great North bliddy Run.”
There’re four skinny kids on a beach, three lads and a lass. The sun’s blazing down. The lads are wearing baggy shorts and boots, and they’ve got vests slung over their bare shoulders. The lass is in a white dress and she’s wearing boots as well. They’re all grinning and holding massive ice creams in their fists.
“Pick us out,” says Harry.
We both point to the same la
d.
“That’s reet,” he says. “And that one’s Norman Wilkinson, and he was Stanley Swift.” He pauses as he looks. He touches the girl’s face and smiles. “She joined us at Felling. Veronica was her name.”
He grins.
“It was took by Angelo Gabrieli, the ice-cream maker.”
He keeps on grinning.
“It’s South Shields,” he says.
“South Shields?” says Mam.
“Look, there’s the pier in the haze. There’s Tynemouth Castle in the distance.”
We peer closely.
“Oh, aye,” we say.
“We run there from Newcastle,” says Harry.
We just look at him.
“We were eleven years old,” he says. “It was 1938. We were young and daft and fit as fleas.”
He points to the envelope.
“Keep digging, hinny.”
She takes out a sheet of paper. It crackles as she unfolds it. It’s faded at the edges. The writing’s all discoloured. Mam reads it out.
“He made one for all of us,” says Harry. “And he sent the photographs to all of us.”
We don’t know what to say. He laughs at us.
“It’s true,” he says. “It was a lovely summer’s day. Norman says, ‘I’d love a swim.’ So Stanley says, ‘Let’s go to Shields.’ ”
“But Harry…” says Mam.
He points to the envelope.
“And we got our swim,” he says.
Another photograph. The same kids, in the sea this time, yelling with laughter as the breakers roll over them.
“Beautiful,” he murmurs. “We were that hot and sweaty and fit to drop, and it was wet and icy and tingly and just that lovely. And Mr Gabrieli with the camera. Can see him still, standing in the sunlight laughing and urging us on. Dark hair and dark eyes and broad shoulders and dressed in white. A lovely man.”
“But it’s thirteen miles,” says Mam.
He sighs, he leans back in his chair. “Giz a minute. Any chance of a cup of tea?” She makes it. It trembles as he lifts it to his lips. He drinks. He drinks again. “Lovely cup of tea,” he says. “One of them tablets. Aye, the white ones, love.” He takes the tablet, he drinks more tea. He blinks, takes a breath. “Thirteen miles. We weren’t to know. Stanley said he went there with his Uncle Jackie on the train one day. Said it was just across the Tyne Bridge then through a place called Felling then turn left and a short bit more. Said it’d mebbe take an hour at most and we’d be back for tea.” He giggles. “We didn’t do geography at school, except to find out aboot Eskimos and pygmies and the River Nile.”
“But what did you tell your mams?” says Mam.
“Nowt! Nowt at all.” He looks at me. “We were always shooting off to the town moor or Exhibition Park, or just pottering around the streets and lanes. They were used to us going out in the morning and not coming back till nearly dark. Don’t believe it, de ye?”
“Dunno,” I say.
“Different days, son. Mind you, by the time we got to Felling, we were starting to see what we’d took on.”
He drinks some more tea.
“We started at ten o’clock. It was already hot. Stanley said, ‘Just think of that icy watter on your skin, lads.’ So we belted out of Blenkinsop Street and down to the bridge. What a clatter! All of us had studs in our boots that our dads’d hammered in te mek them last longer. We started off by racing each other, but after a while I said, ‘Tek it easy, man, lads. No need for racing yet.’” He looked at me. “You’ll understand that, eh? Save some breath for the final sprint?”
“Aye, Mr Miller,” I say.
“Aye. Good lad.” He looks at my T-shirt again. “It’s not the full run ye’ll be diying, is it?”
“No,” I say. “Just the junior one. A couple of miles around the bridges and the quay. You’ve got to be seventeen to do the proper Great North Run.”
“Seventeen. So we were even dafter than I thought. Anyway, we trotted across the bridge and there were ships lined up along the river underneath, and seagulls screaming all around, and lots of folk walking on the bridge that we had to dodge past. We get to Gateshead and onto the High Street and we ask a fruiterer if we can have a drink of watter, please, cos we’re running to South Shields today. ‘To South bliddy Shields?’ he says. ‘You better have some apples an’ all. Are ye sure?’ he sez. ‘Aye,’ we say. ‘It’s just roond the corner, isn’t it?’ ‘Depends what ye mean by roond the corner,’ he says. We just laugh and take the apples and run on cos we’re still full o’ beans and it’s great to be together on a summer’s day. Then there’s Sunderland Road that gets us to Felling, and it’s a lang straight road and we’ve already been gannin’ for nearly an hour. There’s no sign of any sea, no end in sight. And we sit doon by Felling railway station and we look at each other and nobody says a word till Stanley says at last, ‘So where the hell’s South Shields?’ Norman points along the road. ‘That way, I think,’ he says. ‘I divent knaa exactly, but I’m certain we’re gannin’ the reet way.’ Stanley just looks at him. ‘I’m getting knackered,’ he says. ‘Let’s gan back.’ And probly we would have. But then we seen her, across the street, lookin’ doon at us.”
“Who?” says Mam.
“Veronica.”
He sips his tea again. He sighs and blows.
“You knaa,” he says. “It comes to something when talking aboot runnin’ gets as knackerin’ as runnin’ itself.” He grins. “Divent get old, son. Promise us that. Stay eleven for ever.”
“OK, Mr Miller,” I say.
“Good lad. I bet you’re fast, are ye?”
“Not that fast. I can keep going, though.”
“Ye’d have been good that day, then. And ye’ll be all set when you’re seventeen.”
“Aye. I think I will.”
“Just wait till ye see that sea, shining before ye after all them miles.”
“Veronica, Harry,” says Mam.
“Eh?” says Harry.
“Veronica. Who was she?”
“Veronica? She was something else.”
He turns his face to the ceiling. He closes his eyes like he’s imagining it all again, then he opens them again and there’s such a smile on his face.
“She was on the green at the end of a row of terraced houses,” he says. “She was hanging washing oot. She stopped what she was diyin’ and she had one hand up across her eyes to shade them from the sun. ‘Gan and ask her for some watter,’ sez Norman. ‘Gan yourself,’ sez Stanley. ‘I’ll gan,’ sez I. And off I go. I can see her now, standing in her white cotton dress with the basket of washing under her arm and the way she watches us as I get closer. ‘What do you want?’ she sez when I get closer. ‘Is there any chance of a cup of watter?’ I say. ‘We’ve been runnin’ from Newcastle and we’re parched.’ ‘From Newcastle?’ she sez. ‘Aye,’ I say. ‘From Blenkinsop Street. We were ganna run te South Shields but I think we’re turning back.’ ‘Why’s that?’ she sez. ‘Cos we’re knackered,’ I say. ‘And South Shields is a lang way. And to be honest we’re divent really knaa where it is.’ She puts the washing doon. ‘Turning back?’ she sez. ‘And you don’t even know where it is? What kind of attitude is that?’ ‘I divent knaa,’ I say. ‘But if you’ll be kind enough to give us some watter we’ll be on our way.’ And she sez, ‘Wait there,’ and she turns round and walks away.”
He says nothing for a while. It looks like he’s going all dreamy again, like he might doze off again.
“Did she bring some water?” says Mam.
“Eh? Aye, she did. A big bottle of it. And she’s got jam sandwiches an’ all, and she’s got big boots on and she sez, ‘There’s no need to turn back. I know where South Shields is. I’ve left a note for my mother. I’ll take you there.’ And she puts a sandwich in me hand, and walks down to where the other two is. She tells them an’ all while they’re eating the sandwiches and swigging the watter. ‘But we’re half knackered already,’ sez Stanley. ‘By the time we run aal the way back
again we’ll be bliddy deed.’ ‘There’s no need to run back again,’ she sez. ‘We can take the train. You’ll be back for tea.’ And when we start to laugh she goes into the pocket in her dress and takes some money out. ‘I’ll pay,’ she sez. ‘My Uncle Donald sends it to me. He lives in America. He says he works in Hollywood. I think he’s fibbing but that doesn’t matter.’ Me and the lads look at each other. A train steams through the station. I look at her, I think of the train, I taste the lovely bread and jam, and I swig the lovely watter. ‘I’m Veronica,’ says Veronica. ‘What’re your names?’ So we tell her, and so she says, ‘What we waiting for?’ She smiles her smile at me. Me and the lads look at each other. ‘Nowt,’ I say. ‘Nowt,’ say the other two. ‘This way, then,’ she sez, and we set off running again.”
“Quite a girl,” says Mam.
“Aye,” says Harry.
He goes silent again. Mam says does he want more tea. He says yes. She goes to make it. I look at my watch, I think about Jacksie, I think about running through Jesmond Dene.
“Things to do?” says Harry.
“Aye.”
He nods. “I’ll not be lang. I cannot be. Or like Stanley said, by the time I finish I’ll be bliddy dead. More tea. Good lass! Ha, and a slice of jam and bread and all!”
Mam smiles with him.
“Eat it up,” she says. “It’ll give you strength.”
And he eats, and wipes his lips with his shaky hand, and after a moment he starts again.
“So we run out of Felling and down through Pelaw and Bill Quay and into Hebburn, and it’s getting hot as Hell and staying bright as Heaven. And Veronica runs smooth and free beside us. And our feet clatter and beat on the tracks and pavements, and sometimes we walk and rest and gather our breath and run again. And sometimes we shout out to folks we pass that we’re running to South Shields and we’ve run from Blenkinsop Street in Newcastle and from Felling station and they say they don’t believe it. They say it’s such a bliddy wonder! ‘Good lads!’ they say. ‘Good lass! Run! Run! There’s a wolf at your tail! Run for your lives!’ And people give us watter, and a baker in Hebburn gives us cakes. And we run and run and run and run. And we get to Jarrow and we rest in the shade under the trees in St John’s churchyard, and we watch a coffin bein’ carried from a hearse through a group of mourners and put into the ground, and out of the blue Veronica stretches her arms out wide and says, ‘They said I might not live at all. And just look what I can do!’ ”