“Now, my friend,” he said. “Take what you came for.”
Polemides here elevated his glance and met my eyes. For a moment I thought he could not continue, nor was I at all certain I wished him to.
Lysander had said of Alcibiades that in the end Necessity would bring him low. Perhaps she did, but it was my hand which drove the fatal blade. Nor did I slay a general or statesman, as history will memorialize him, but a man, hated by many and loved by more, myself not last among them. Set aside his feats and felonies. In this I honor him: that he drove the vessel of his soul to where sea and sky conjoin and contended there, without fear, as few before, save perhaps only your master, his first instructor. Who will sail so far again?
And I, who took upon himself such freight of self-condemnation for my acts of the Plague and after, discovered myself experiencing on Deer Mountain, to my wonder, no such grief or remorse. I did not act so much as enact. Do you reckon the distinction, my friend? I was Alcibiades’ own arm, as I had been since that night of our youth upon the storm-bound strand, striking that blow which he himself called down. Who is guilty? I and he, and Athens and all Greece, who have fashioned our ruin with our own hands.
Polemides finished. It was enough. No more need be narrated.
Later, within his sea chest, I discovered this correspondence in Alcibiades’ hand. It bore no salutation and was salted with misspellings, indicative of a preliminary draft—to whom one may only guess. By its date, the tenth of Hecatombaion, it may be the last he ever wrote.
…my end, though it come at the hands of strangers, will have been purposed and paid for by my own countrymen. I am to them that which they esteem most and may endure least: their own likeness writ large. My virtues—ambition, audacity, emulation of heaven rather than prostration before it—are but their own, amplified. My vices are theirs as well. Those qualities which my constitution lacks—modesty, patience, self-effacement—they too despise, but whereas my nature has preserved me unfettered by these, theirs has not. They both fear and worship that brilliance to which my example summons them, but which they possess insufficient spirit to embrace. Athens, confronted by the fact of my existence, owns only these options: to emulate or eliminate. When I am gone, she will cry for me. But I will never come again. I am her last. She will produce no more as myself, however many hoist the jack and ensign.
LII
A MAGISTRACY OF MERCY
I passed Socrates’ final day [Grandfather continued] in his cell with the others. I was exhausted and dozed. I had this dream:
Weary and wishing to attend our master with the clearheadedness he deserved, I hunted through the prison for a recess in which to catch a catnap. My search delivered me to the carpenter’s loft. There, horizontal, spread the tympanon on which Polemides would this day meet his end. “Go ahead, sir.” The carpenter motioned me in. “Take a snooze.” I lay down and fell at once into a blissful slumber. I awoke with a start, however, to discover officers binding me to the instrument. My wrists and ankles were fettered beneath the cramp irons; the chain strangled me about the throat. “You’ve got the wrong man!” I shouted. But my cry was throttled by the iron. “I’m the wrong man! You’ve got the wrong man!”
I snapped-to to discover myself in Socrates’ cell. I had cried out and disquieted him. He had taken the hemlock already, I was informed, and, awaiting its effect, had settled to rest upon his pallet, compassed by those who loved him, his face shrouded beneath a cloth. I begged the company’s pardon. It was clear that agitation was the last thing our master needed. In distress I excused myself and hastened from the cell.
It was late in the day. As I emerged at the head of the Iron Court, I glimpsed a woman and a boy vacating toward the vestibule. Eunice. This was odd, as Polemides had thus far refused to see her. Had something happened?
At once the lad reappeared. Polemides’ son Nicolaus. He had not been departing, only assisting his mother upon her way. He strode straight up to me and took my hand, narrating his gratitude for my exertions on his father’s behalf. A sea change had overtaken the youth. Though lank and cranelike as ever, he had acceded to manhood. He greeted me equal-to-equal, so much so that I found myself abashed and, seeking to allay what I imagined to be his distress, addressed him to this effect: that though his mother had been the engine of this grief, he must recall that her object was his own preservation, that is, to keep him from harm, running off to war.
The boy regarded me queerly. “That is not how the land lies at all, sir. Has my father not told you?”
His mother, the lad insisted, had not engineered anything. She was no instigator of this prosecution but its pawn. That perjurer Colophon who had brought suit against my father, the youth said, acted as stooge for those who had hired him, Polemides, during the reign of the Thirty, to assassinate Alcibiades.
“These villains, learning of my father’s return to the city, feared exposure for their crimes. They have put the squeeze on my mother, reckoning her vulnerable as a noncitizen, and compelled her to provide particulars of that accidental homicide in Samos, years past, by which the rogues have secured my father’s sentence of death.”
Polemides had delivered his confession, the lad informed me, in return for a warranty of citizenship for Eunice and the children, made to him in secret by his prosecutors, who apparently possessed the sway to pull it off. He had been loath to reveal this to me lest I, in outrage at the cost to himself, seek to expose it.
There is a bench beside the steps which lead from the Iron Court. Weariness now overcame me. I must sit. The lad took the place at my side. Darkness fell. Brands were lit and set within their hangers.
I came to myself after some while, roused by a commotion across the cloister. The keeper stood in heated skirmish with Socrates’ dear friend, Simmias of Thebes, who had this moment been summoned apparently from the cell. Had the master expired? I crossed at once with the boy. The porter now joined this affray, whose core of contention was, to my puzzlement, horses. “You may have hired them, sir,” porter and keeper protested to Simmias, “but it’s our necks if they’re found out.”
Simmias tugged me aside in consternation. “By the gods, I have cocked up, Jason.”
Some days earlier, he explained, confident of securing Socrates’ assent to a design of escape, Simmias had engaged several gentlemen of dubious reputation to hire mounts and purchase the silence of guards and informers. This course he had set in motion, Simmias accounted, before Socrates had with such finality repudiated it. “Can you credit it, Jason? With all else the scheme has slipped my mind entirely!”
“I don’t understand, Simmias.”
“Horses and escorts are here! What shall I do?”
Simmias was clearly distraught; no doubt he had been fetched from Socrates’ cell only moments prior, by the porter in a state of alarm and demanding immediate action. Simmias failed yet to rally his reason. All that animated his purpose, clearly, was to return at once to our master’s side and, above all, not to stand truant at the hour of his passing.
“Leave this to me, Simmias.”
“By heaven’s mercy, Jason! Will you manage this for me, my friend?”
There are frontiers one crosses, our client had once observed, without understanding of what he does. This was not one of them. To Polemides and to our master the demos had debarred clemency. Now by fortune’s hand a fresh magistrate had been appointed, and that arbiter was myself. Who would reprieve the transgressor, if not me? Who would account him absolution, when he himself had cast the black pebble? Perhaps heaven had granted, through his surrogateship, occasion to pardon all, myself included.
I turned to the lad. “Your father claims he has made peace with his own execution.”
“Yes, sir.”
“Can you change his mind?”
The boy seized both my hands in his. “But what of you, sir?” He feared that informers, learning of my part, would set my life at peril.
“Whose silence must be bought, has been bought.”
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The keeper had overheard all and now nodded his concordance. I released the lad’s grip. Away he tore to his father’s side.
Should I, too, seek Polemides, for farewell, or track Simmias’ footsteps to our master’s chamber? I regarded the porter. He was already dispatching his own prentice to communicate to the escort riders, who awaited no doubt in some abutting starless lane, the change in plans. I asked if this discommoded him. “Horses is horses,” he replied. “Who sits ’em is no account to me.”
The porter had become anxious, however, and the keeper as well, as any upon the instant of felony’s commission.
“Best if you begone, Cap’n.”
And leading across the court, he conducted me without.
LIII
THE HOLM OAK’S BLOOM
Our master’s body was released next day to his companions; we interred his bones within his ancestors’ tomb at Alopece. I cannot cite that date as the one upon which I lost all heart for politics; any man of reason had despaired for years of the demos’s capacity to rule itself. Within the twelvemonth I had quit the city, with wife and daughters, and taken up residence in the country at Holm Oak Hill. Here I have remained.
For thirty-nine years from my twentieth birthday, I donated all of flesh and treasure to our nation. Youth and manhood I accorded, and broke my health in Athens’ cause. Three sons I sacrificed to her corps at arms, and two more she stole in paroxysms of civil derangement. Through pestilence and privation she robbed two wives of the measure of their days.
As a naval officer I performed the trierarchy seven times. I have served as councilor, magistrate, and minister. My country I have represented on deputations abroad and affixed my name in her cause to instruments of peace and war. Once I tallied our clan’s contributions to the state. The toll came to eleven talents, roughly the produce of all our holdings over twenty years. I do not repent such impost and would gladly bear all again in the cause of our country. I still call myself a democrat, though, as my wife, your grandmother, would have it, a heartsore one.
I heard nothing from Polemides for above three years. Then one morning a lad came racing with report of a stranger at the gate. I hastened down. A man awaited in blistered leather, shouldering a mercenary’s kit. I had never seen the Arcadian Telamon yet knew at once this was he. He would not stay but delivered into my hand a pair of letters. He had packed them from Asia two years.
Polemides was dead, he reported. Not of war but mishap; an iron spike trodden upon and gone to lockjaw.
I beseeched the fellow to lay over. “You have trekked leagues, sir, to render us this service. Please stay for supper, for our sake if not your own, or at least come in and wash off the dust.”
The man assented to enter as far as the copse that shades the steading spring. There is a pleasant bench there, as you know. He sat. The girls brought wine and alphita bread and an excellent opson of salt fish and onion. While the man ate, I scanned the letters.
The first was from Polemides, dated two years prior. He is well, he says, and hopes I am the same. He remarks the slender margin of his reprieve from the tympanon and chaffs me for joining him among “the gallery of rogues.”
…I trust, my friend, you harbor no illusions as to my reformation. I dance ever to the time-fixed tune. As all abhorred of heaven, my luck continues brilliant. Nothing can kill me and the girls scratch out each other’s eyes for a berth beneath my bed sheets.
The second was from his son. They served together, the mercenary noted, beneath the Spartan colonel Philoteles, in Agesilaus’ brigades fighting the King of Persia. Nicolaus informs me of his father’s death. This was in Phrygia, the valley of the Maeander, not sixty stades from Deer Mountain.
…as to the contents of my father’s sea chest, he would deem it a meed of honor, sir, if you would hold them as your own. I would not know how best to use them. I am not the kind.
The chest had been delivered to my door a month after Polemides’ escape by my old shipmate Bruise, who, you may recall, ran the refectory in the lane opposite the prison. Bruise had this tale of that final night.
It was he who had contracted the horses for the getaway and, following my departure, had brought them round to the alley abutting the court. The keeper meanwhile had released Polemides, and, with his son, the trio descended to this egress. As they stepped into the lane where Bruise and the horses waited, three men turned the corner into view—Lysimachus, Secretary of the Eleven, and two magistrates—come to check on the disposition of the executions.
The officers’ placement was such as to easily intercept the absconders. A cry would summon the prison’s complement. Bruise himself, he declared, nearly pissed the paving stones with fright. What went through their minds, these magistrates enjoined by the demos to carry out the execution of the noblest of their countrymen? Did they, who were but men and fellows of his race, grasp the enormity? Perhaps by some measure they came to perceive this gentleman turned villain, Polemides, as a surrogate, if not for Socrates, then themselves. He was as guilty as they, not alone for those acts with which he had been charged but for a thousand more, unwitnessed and unarraigned, down thrice nine years of war. Perhaps their silence now confessed such conviction as my own. Let him live, for our sake. Let us once play Zeus and tender clemency, through this man, for all those evils of our own devising.
For whatever motive, the officers stood aside. In heartbeats Polemides and the boy made off. The man’s parting prayer to the keeper was that his chest be released to my care, when this could be performed without setting me at hazard.
Here let me insert, my grandson, one final document. I discovered this in our client’s chest only days ago, seeking another I wished you to see. It is a transcription of that address delivered by Alcibiades to the men of the Samos fleet upon his second farewell, following Notium, that estrangement from which he never returned.
…what I say now I address to your generals and officers, gentlemen, who must command you scrofulous rabble, may the gods help them. Shall I tell where I learned to lead such men as you? In my father’s stable, from his horses. And I call upon our friend Thrasybulus to back me, for he stood at my shoulder when as lads we marveled at those champions on racing day. No one had to teach them to run. Buying a horse, we learned to remark carriage and posture before length of bone or power of ham. Will you agree that a racer may possess nobility? And what is nobility that a beast may own it as well as a man? Is it not that capacity of soul by which one donates himself to an object greater than his own self-interest?
How lead free men? Only by this means: the summoning of each to his nobility.
When I was a boy, my tutor took me down to Piraeus to watch the racing shells sculling from Acte to the Silent Harbor. My child’s eye imagined that one creature drove each boat, a single splendid beast with multiple pairs of arms. But when the shells pulled in, I saw that men propelled them. Will you believe me, friends, when I say that I broke from my pedagogue to touch them with my hand, to see they were real? How could six, I begged to know, row as one? “Look there, little cousin, and see a hundred seventy-four do the same.”
A trireme on the wing: by the gods, here is a sight of splendor! Nobler still a line at the advance and noblest of all, that symphony, a fleet. And you, my friends, of all who ever sailed or ever will, you are the finest. When sorrowful age has wrung us in its grip, what shall remain? Fathers and mothers, wives, lovers, even our own children, all will fall away, I believe, leaving only these, our comrades with whom we have made trial of death. They are enough, my friends. They are that which few ever feel or know.
You do not need me, brothers. No force on earth can stand up to you. May the gods bear you from victory to victory. The last sight I behold as hell hauls me down shall be your faces. Thank you for honoring me with your comradeship. And now good-bye, my friends. Fare you well.
I studied the mercenary Telamon as he finished his feed. Though calculation put his years well past fifty, his aspect was so lean and weatherwo
rn as to tell thirty-five or even fewer. I wished earnestly to interrogate him, of Polemides’ final seasons and his own.
One look told he would endure nothing of the sort. I inquired only where he was bound. To the harbor, he replied, to ship out on campaign.
I had a pair of boots in the barn and a woolen mantle far superior to that threadbare article he wore. He would take neither. He rose, shouldering his kit.
Upon the bench he set a coin.
I protested that he offended the farm’s hospitality.
He smiled. “It’s from Pommo, Cap’n. He thought you might find the piece of interest.”
I picked it up. It was a gold daric of Phrygia, a month’s pay for an infantryman. The reverse bore a trireme and a winged Victory; the obverse Athena Triumphant framed by an owl and olive branch.
The coin was called an “alcibiadic,” Telamon reported. It was a favored piece, good across all Asia.
The lane passing out from the farm bisects the central compound. The hands’ kitchen and service stalls mark the west, as you know, adjacent several cottages and a transients’ barracks. Equipment sheds stand across, with that steading upslope we call the Crease, and the stock pens beyond. As the mercenary trekked down toward the gate, a huddle of gawkers tracked him with their gaze, arrested by his appearance and his kit. This following was comprised not alone of lads but of maids and even husbandmen and dames breaking off at their labors. As he approached the gate, two boys dashed ahead, that he not be put to trouble by the latch, and would have trailed him a distance down the lane, or to the sea itself, had not their fathers hailed them back.
I, too, was held by this apparition, unable to turn apart until he had vanished along the avenue of holm oak, whose blossom yields that scarlet dye which ever colors the soldier’s cloak of war.
A NOTE ON SPELLING