There was an agate he’d found on the shore of Lake Superior when he was very young, the image of a wolf so clear on its smooth surface that it seemed etched by a purposeful hand. In the totemic system of the Anishinaabeg, Ren was Ma’iingan, Wolf Clan, and he believed the stone was a sign of some kind whose full meaning he would someday understand.
In the box there was also an eagle feather given to him by his great-grandfather, who told him this story: A certain man spent his whole life searching in vain for an eagle feather, which would signify his great wisdom. He paid no heed to the needs of his family or relatives or other people. Finally he gave up and said to the Great Spirit, “I have wasted my life searching for the eagle feather. Now I will spend my time helping others.” As soon as he said this, a beautiful eagle flew overhead and a feather gently drifted down.
There was a small figure of the Marvel Comics character Silver Surfer, one of Ren’s all-time favorite superheroes. His best friend, Charlie, had spotted it at a swap meet in Marquette and had given it to him for Christmas.
There was the skull of a vole, small, delicate, perfect, that Ren had discovered in the meadow south of the cabins one summer afternoon. Only the skull, no other bones. So that it would not be crushed by his other treasures, he kept it in a tiny box that had once held one of his mother’s necklaces. Sometimes he opened the necklace box and spent hours drawing the skull in minute detail, imagining as he did so what kind of world such a small brain and perspective would see.
There was a newspaper article, which his mother did not know he had, cut from the Billings Gazette, about the murder of his father, and also the long, celebratory obituary that had been printed in the Marquette County Courier.
The most precious item in the box was a drawing his father had given him, done on a plain sheet of notepad paper, the kind kept by the phone to write messages. It had been created on a good day, Ren recalled, an August day. They’d spent the morning putting a new toilet in one of the cabins, and his father had talked while he worked, offering Ren his understanding about Kitchimanidoo, the Great Spirit, about life, about art. He’d said, as he put the wax ring in the flush hole and settled the porcelain bowl on top, that life was a reflection of the Great Spirit, and that art was a reflection of life. All of them were simpler than people imagined. At lunch in the main cabin, which was called Thor’s Lodge, he’d illustrated his point with a pen-and-ink drawing—two long arcs, a few easy loops. “What is it?” he’d asked Ren. Though nothing connected in a way that completed the image, Ren saw it was a bear. “There aren’t many clear connections in life. God, Kitchimanidoo, they’re pretty sketchy when you come right down to it. But you don’t need everything spelled out for you, son. Here”—and he touched Ren’s chest above his heart—“here is where it all comes together.” A week later, his father was dead.
All the treasures in his box Ren loved and in loving them found the connections simple and unseen that ran from the outside world deep into the world of his heart, just as his father had promised.
That afternoon, fourteen-year-old Ren was at work on something that would eventually find its way into his box. He had no idea at the moment of the enormity of the events that would put it there.
“On your knees with your nose in the dirt. Dude, that’s so lame, but so you.”
Ren looked up from his work, startled. Charlie Miller stood above him, her face a narrow mask of disgust. Her real name was Charlene, but she preferred Charlie. A lot about her besides her name belied her gender. She looked like a boy, dressed like a boy, and was the fastest runner in the eighth grade at Bodine Area Middle School. Her hair was shaved close to her scalp and from a distance appeared to be no more than a dusting of charcoal. Her left nostril and her lower lip were pierced and sported small silver rings. She was taller than Ren, more slender, and moved with the quickness and grace of a forest animal. Also the wariness.
“Get bent,” Ren said, and returned to his work.
Charlie knelt beside him. Ren could smell that she needed a bath.
“What’s up?” she said.
“Cougar track.”
“Bullshit.”
Two nights before, rain had turned the ground around the cabins soft. Ren hadn’t discovered the track until the next afternoon; as soon as he did, he set about preserving it. He was used to seeing tracks in the vicinity of the resort cabins. Raccoon, bear, even an occasional bobcat. They came nosing around the trash bins, which Ren’s mother kept locked. At first he’d thought the track was a large bobcat, but when he got out his copy of Peterson’s A Field Guide to Animal Tracks, he realized it was not. He’d heard stories of cougars still roaming the woods of the U.P., but he never thought he’d find the evidence. Using an old paintbrush with soft bristles, he’d gently cleaned debris from the imprint, then sprayed it with clear lacquer. When that dried, he mixed up a batch of plaster of Paris in an empty Folger’s coffee can, and he’d been pouring this into the track when Charlie startled him.
“How do you know it’s a cougar?” Charlie asked.
“I looked it up.”
“I never heard of a cougar around here.”
“They used to be all over the place, but people killed most of them and drove the others away. I heard there might not be more than twenty on the whole U.P.”
“Dude, you’re worse than National Geographic.”
She hit him hard on the arm and he dropped the coffee can.
“Goddamn it, Charlie, quit screwing around. This is important.”
“Yeah? So’s this.” She hit him again.
Ren launched into her and they rolled over in the soft dirt. Charlie easily got the upper hand, straddled him, and pinned him to the ground.
“Say it,” she commanded.
“Bite me.”
She slapped the side of his head lightly. “Say it.”
“You suck.”
She lifted her butt and bounced hard on his stomach so that he grunted.
“Say it.”
“All right. I give.”
She sprang off him, raised her hands above her head, and did a victory dance. Ren got back on his knees and crawled to the cougar track.
Charlie knelt beside him again. “Cougar. No shit.”
“No shit.”
“Sweet,” she said.
Ren heard the scrape of pine wood. He glanced up as the door to the nearest cabin opened.
The man with the wounded leg stood at the threshold, looking stunned, as if the beautiful afternoon, the evergreen-scented air, the blue autumn sky, the warm sunshine were the most amazing things he’d ever seen. Or maybe it was just the fact that he was still alive. After a moment, he fell forward, tumbled down the steps, and lay sprawled facedown in the dirt.
“Jesus.” Ren sprang to his feet and sprinted to the fallen man.
“What happened to him?”
“Somebody shot him yesterday.”
The man’s pants were bloodstained. The left leg had been cut off near the crotch, revealing two wounds, one on the outside of his thigh where the bullet had entered and another on the inside where it exited. The exit wound was larger and open, fitted with a tube and drainage bag that were held in place with surgical tape. The entrance wound had been stitched, but the stitches were broken and the wound was bleeding. The man’s eyes were closed. His face had gone slack.
“Is he dead?” Charlie asked.
“God, I hope not. I was supposed to be watching him.” Ren felt the man’s neck. “He’s got a pulse. We’ve got to get him back inside. You take his left arm, I’ll take his right. Let’s see if we can lift him.”
“Unh-uh.” Charlie backed away a step. “I’ve tried dragging my old man into bed when he was passed out. You might as well try lifting a dead horse.”
“Come on, damn it, give me a hand.”
“All right, but I’m telling you, you’re better off just getting a blanket and letting him lie there.”
She grasped his arm as Ren had instructed and they tried in vain
to bring the man to his feet.
“Like a dead horse, I told you.” Charlie grunted as she dropped the arm.
Ren pushed himself up. “Don’t leave him.”
“Where are you going?”
He bounded up the steps and ran inside Cabin 3. The bedding lay on the floor where the man had thrown it. Ren grabbed the blanket, then another from the closet, and raced back outside. Charlie was bent over, examining the man’s wounds.
“He’s been bleeding pretty bad,” she said.
Ren spread out one of the blankets on the ground next to the man.
“Could he, like, bleed to death?”
“Mom says it looks worse than it is.”
“She sewed him up?”
“Yeah. Help me here.”
Together they rolled him so that he was on the blanket. Ren stood up.
“I’ll be right back.”
He made for Thor’s Lodge, took the steps in a single bound, shoved open the door, and grabbed the telephone. He dialed the animal clinic where his mother worked. Dawn, the receptionist, told him she was out on a call. He tried her cell phone, got her after three rings. Her signal was breaking up, but not so badly she didn’t understand. She told him what to do and that she’d be there as soon as she could.
After he hung up, he went to the closet in his mother’s bedroom and took her medical bag from the shelf. He returned to where Charlie sat beside the man.
“You were gone a long time,” she said.
“I talked to my mom. She’ll get here as soon as she can.”
He checked the tube and bag taped to the man’s thigh.
“What is that?” Charlie asked.
“It’s called a Penrose drain. It helps the wound stay clean while it heals.” Ren dug into the medical bag, brought out a pair of latex gloves and Betadine scrub. He put on the gloves. “Hold his leg.”
Ren cleaned the area around the second wound where the stitches were broken. The fast flow of blood had subsided into a steady ooze. He reached into the medical bag again and pulled out a sterile pad, a roll of gauze, tape, and a pair of scissors. He pressed the pad to the wound, bound it in place by wrapping the gauze tightly several times around the man’s thigh, and secured it with the surgical tape.
Charlie watched in silent fascination. When Ren finished, she looked at him with admiration. “That was pretty sweet.”
“Yeah, well.”
“Who is he?”
“Family. My mom’s cousin.”
“Has he got a name?”
Ren pulled off the gloves and began to put away the medical things. He considered a moment before answering her.
“Yeah,” he said. “It’s Cork.”
3
A mile outside Bodine, Jewell DuBois turned off the main highway and bounced up the rutted road toward the old cabins. She was not happy. She’d been on an emergency call, a horse whose symptoms made her suspect tetanus. The last thing she wanted to hear that afternoon was that Cork O’Connor needed her.
She pulled her Blazer to a stop on the lane that ran between the guest cabins, grabbed her medical bag, and hopped out. Ren and Charlie were with him, sitting on the ground on either side. They didn’t seem upset. A good thing.
Cork was awake.
“Hope you don’t charge much for a cabin,” he said weakly. “The ground out here’s more comfortable than that bunk you had me in.”
Jewell addressed her son as she went down on her knees, asking sternly, “What happened?”
“He just opened the door and fell down the steps, Mom.”
“Where were you?”
“Out here,” Ren said.
“What were you doing out here? Why weren’t you with him like I told you?”
“Not his fault,” Cork broke in. “My own stupidity.”
Jewell drew the blanket back and examined the work her son had done. “Good job, Ren.” Then to Cork: “Why did you get up?”
“Seemed like a good idea at the time.” Cork smiled faintly. “The truth is I forgot where I was and panicked. Then I fainted.”
The sun was low in the sky, the afternoon going cool. Where the sun sliced between the trees that backed the cabins, the ground was still warm, but with sunset everything would chill quickly.
“Orthostatic shock, probably,” Jewell said.
Cork looked confused. “Orthostatic?”
“You got up too fast,” Ren said.
“Nothing to worry about. Your brain just needed more blood than it had at the moment,” Jewell explained. “Happens sometimes when people have been lying down for a while and stand up too quickly. We need to get you inside. Can you help us?”
“I’ll try.”
“Ren, Charlie, take that side. I’ll help over here.” To Cork she said, “Don’t put weight on that leg if you can help it.”
“Whatever you say, Doc.”
They positioned themselves and he sat up, then they helped him to his feet. Cork grunted as he came upright, and his pasty face went even whiter, but he didn’t buckle.
“Up the steps, one at a time,” Jewell instructed.
They mounted slowly. Cork struggled not to lean on his bum leg. By the time they got him inside and laid him on his bunk, they were all breathing hard and Cork was soaked with sweat.
A bag with a drip tube hung from the curtain rod on the window next to the bunk. “I see you pulled out your IV,” she said.
He shrugged. “Don’t remember.”
“Ren, get my bag.”
Her son scurried out and came back a moment later with the medical bag and the blankets. He handed her the bag and laid the cleaner of the two blankets over Cork.
Jewell pulled the blanket back enough to expose the wounded leg. She cracked open her medical bag, took out a pair of bandage scissors, and cut away the gauze binding Ren had put on. “I need to sew it closed again. I’ll be here awhile. You guys hungry?”
“Yeah,” Charlie said quickly.
“My purse is in the car. Get what you need for a couple of burgers in town or whatever you want. Charlie, you can’t talk about this, you understand?”
“Yes, ma’am.”
“Not to your father, not to anybody.”
“I won’t.”
“Good.” She thought about Charlie and about something else. “It’s Saturday. You want to stay here tonight?”
Charlie shook her head. “I’ll be all right.”
“That changes, you come on over, you hear?”
“Thanks.”
“And, Charlie?”
“Yeah?”
“When you go home tonight, do yourself a favor: take a good long shower, plenty of soap.”
“Whatever.”
“I mean it.”
“Right.” Charlie looked down.
Jewell watched the kids walk out the cabin door, then she turned back to her patient.
“Good kid, Ren,” Cork said. “Sure he won’t say anything?”
“I’m sure.”
“What about the other boy?”
She reached into her medical bag. “Charlie? Not a boy.”
“Could’ve fooled me.”
“She fools most everybody.”
He eyed the syringe she held.
“Local anesthetic,” she explained, and stuck him. “I should have put you in Thor’s Lodge with us last night so we could keep an eye on you better.”
“I’ll be fine here. Promise not to go wandering again.” He laid his hand gently on her arm. “I’m sorry about this. I didn’t know where else to go.”
“A hospital, for starters.”
“I told you last night. I can’t do a hospital right now. They’d have to report the gunshot wound, and I’d end up a sitting duck for the people trying to kill me.”
“Who are they?”
“Professionals.”
“You mean like hit men.”
“Yeah, like that.”
“Why do they want you dead?”
“They’ll be paid handsom
ely for it.”
“Who put up the money?”
“A man who believes I killed his son.”
“Did you?”
“No.”
“Why does he think that?”
“Circumstances.”
“You couldn’t just talk to him?”
“I tried. He wouldn’t listen. It’s complicated.”
“So what now?”
“There are people trying to prove I’m innocent.”
“That could take a while?”
“I don’t know. Look, as soon as I can, I’ll leave.”
She put on latex gloves, pulled an Ethilon nylon suture pack from her bag, tore it open, took out the curved needle and black thread.
“I don’t hear from you in forever, then you show up on my doorstep, shot, bleeding all over everything, expecting me to take you in. Christ, that’s just like a man.”
“You’ve cut your hair,” he said.
“Easier to keep out of my way while I’m working.”
When her hand, which held the needle, descended toward the entrance wound on the outside of his thigh, he looked away. “How are you doing?”
“How am I doing?” She squinted over her work. “I go to the clinic in the morning, come home late, fix dinner, help Ren with his homework, do laundry and what I can around the house, try to go to bed so tired I don’t have to think about anything. So I guess, all things considered, I’m doing pretty shitty.”
“Long time to be grieving.”
“What do you know about grief? Damn.” She shook her head at something she’d done. Cork didn’t look and was glad she’d numbed the area first. “I still miss him. Every minute of every day. You want to know the worst part? Sometimes I hate him. Sometimes I don’t know if I’m grieving or just royally pissed at him. There.” She clipped the thread.
“I didn’t feel a thing.”
“Because I’m good. Hungry?”
“A little.”
“I’ll fix something that’ll go down easy.” She closed her bag, stood up, and headed for the door.
“Jewell, thank you.”
She paused before stepping outside. “You can thank me best by getting better and getting out of here without bringing any more trouble around.”