One day, after he opened his school, Titus Hoyt was telling us that he had to spend a lot of money to buy books.
He said, ‘It go cost me at least sixty dollars.’
Eddoes asked, ‘How much book you getting for that?’
Titus Hoyt said, ‘Oh, about seven or eight.’
Eddoes laughed in a scornful way.
Eddoes said, ‘I could get a whole handful for you for about twelve cents. Why you want to go and spend so much money on eight books for?’
Eddoes sold a lot of books.
Hat bought twenty cents’ worth of book.
It just shows how Titus Hoyt was making everybody educated.
And there was this business about pictures.
Eddoes said one day, ‘Today I pick up two nice pictures, two nice nice sceneries, done frame and everything.’
I went home and I said, ‘Ma, Eddoes say he go sell us some sceneries for twelve cents.’
My mother behaved in an unexpected way.
She wiped her hand on her dress and came outside.
Eddoes brought the sceneries over. He said, ‘The glass a little dirty, but you could always clean that. But they is nice sceneries.’
They were engravings of ships in stormy seas. I could see my mother almost ready to cry from joy. She repeated, ‘I always always want to have some nice sceneries.’ Then, pointing at me, she said to Eddoes, ‘This boy father was always painting sceneries, you know.’
Eddoes looked properly impressed.
He asked, ‘Sceneries nice as this?’
My mother didn’t reply.
After a little talk my mother paid Eddoes ten cents.
And if Eddoes had something that nobody wanted to buy, he always went to my uncle Bhakcu, who was ready to buy anything.
He used to say, ‘You never know when these things could come in handy.’
Hat began saying, ‘I think all this materials getting on Eddoes mind, you know. It have some men like that.’
I wasn’t worried until Eddoes came to me one day and said, ‘You ever think of collecting old bus ticket?’
The idea had never crossed my mind.
Eddoes said, ‘Look, there’s something for a little boy like you to start with. For every thousand you collect I go give you a penny.’
I said, ‘Why you want bus ticket?’ He laughed as though I were a fool.
I didn’t collect any bus tickets, but I noticed a lot of other boys doing so. Eddoes had told them that for every hundred they collected they got a free ride.
Hat said, ‘Is to start getting worried when he begin collecting pins.’
But something happened that made Eddoes sober as a judge again.
He said one day, ‘I in trouble!’
Hat said, ‘Don’t tell us that is thief you been thiefing all this materials and them?’
Eddoes shook his head.
He said, ‘A girl making baby for me.’
Hat said, ‘You sure is for you?’
Eddoes said, ‘She say so.’
It was hard to see why this should get Eddoes so worried. Hat said, ‘But don’t be stupid, man. Is the sort of thing that does happen to anybody.’
But Eddoes refused to be consoled.
He collected junk in a listless way.
Then he stopped altogether.
Hat said, ‘Eddoes behaving as though he invent the idea of making baby.’
Hat asked again, ‘You sure this baby is for you, and not for nobody else? It have some woman making a living this way, you know.’
Eddoes said, ‘Is true she have other baby, but I in trouble.’
Hat said, ‘She is like Laura?’
Eddoes said, ‘Nah, Laura does only have one baby for one man. This girl does have two three.’
Hat said, ‘Look, you mustn’t worry. You don’t know is your baby. Wait and see. Wait and see.’
Eddoes said sadly, ‘She say if I don’t take the baby she go make me lose my job.’
We gasped.
Eddoes said, ‘She know lots of people. She say she go make them take me away from St Clair and put me in Dry River, where the people so damn poor they don’t throw away nothing.’
I said, ‘You mean you not going to find any materials there?’
Eddoes nodded, and we understood.
Hat said, ‘The calypsonian was right, you hear.
Man centipede bad.
Woman centipede more than bad.
I know the sort of woman. She have a lot of baby, take the baby by the fathers, and get the fathers to pay money. By the time she thirty thirty-five, she getting so much money from so much man, and she ain’t got no baby to look after and no responsibility. I know the thing.’
Boyee said, ‘Don’t worry, Eddoes. Wait and see if it is your baby. Wait and see.’
Hat said, ‘Boyee, ain’t you too damn small to be meddling with talk like this?’
The months dragged by.
One day Eddoes announced, ‘She drop the baby yesterday.’
Hat said, ‘Boy or girl?’
‘Girl.’
We felt very sorry for Eddoes.
Hat asked, ‘You think is yours?’
‘Yes.’
‘You bringing it home?’
‘In about a year or so.’
‘Then you ain’t got nothing now to worry about. If is your child, bring she home, man. And you still going round St Clair, getting your materials.’
Eddoes agreed, but he didn’t look any happier.
Hat gave the baby a nickname long before she arrived in Miguel Street. He called her Pleasure, and that was how she was called until she became a big girl.
The baby’s mother brought Pleasure one night, but she didn’t stay long. And Eddoes’s stock rose when we saw how beautiful the mother was. She was a wild, Spanish-looking woman.
But one glance at Pleasure made us know that she couldn’t be Eddoes’s baby.
Boyee began whistling the calypso:
Chinese children calling me Daddy!
I black like jet,
My wife like tar-baby,
And still –
Chinese children calling me Daddy!
Oh God, somebody putting milk in my coffee.
Hat gave Boyee a pinch, and Hat said to Eddoes, ‘She is a good-looking child, Eddoes. Like you.’
Eddoes said, ‘You think so, Hat?’
Hat said, ‘Yes, man. I think she go grow up to be a sweet-girl just as how she father is a sweet-man.’
I said, ‘You have a nice daughter, Eddoes.’
The baby was asleep and pink and beautiful.
Errol said, ‘I could wait sixteen years until she come big enough.’
Eddoes by this time was smiling and for no reason at all was bursting out into laughter.
Hat said, ‘Shut up, Eddoes. You go wake the baby up.’
And Eddoes asked, ‘You really think she take after me, Hat?’
Hat said, ‘Yes, man. I think you do right, you know, Eddoes. If I wasn’t so careful myself and if I did have children outside I woulda bring them all home put them down. Bring them all home and put them down, man. Nothing to shame about.’
Eddoes said, ‘Hat, it have a bird-cage I pick up long time now. Tomorrow I go bring it for you.’
Hat said, ‘Is a long long time now I want a good bird-cage.’
And in no time at all Eddoes became the old Eddoes we knew, proud of his job, his junk; and now proud, too, of Pleasure.
She became the street baby and all the women, Mrs Morgan, Mrs Bhakcu, Laura, and my mother, helped to look after her.
And if there was anyone in Miguel Street who wanted to laugh, he kept his mouth shut when Pleasure got the first prize in the Cow and Gate Baby competition, and her picture came out in the papers.
12 LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, ALONE
ABOUT NINE O’CLOCK one morning a hearse and a motor-car stopped outside Miss Hilton’s house. A man and a woman got out of the car. They were both middle-aged and dressed in black. While the
man whispered to the two men in the hearse, the woman was crying in a controlled and respectable way.
So I suppose Miss Hilton got the swiftest and most private funeral in Miguel Street. It was nothing like the funeral we had for the other old widow, Miss Ricaud, the M.B.E. and social worker, who lived in a nicer part of the street. At that funeral I counted seventy-nine cars and a bicycle.
The man and the woman returned at midday and there was a bonfire in the yard. Mattresses and pillows and sheets and blankets were burned.
Then all the windows of the grey wooden house were thrown open, a thing I had never seen before.
At the end of the week a sign was nailed on the mango tree: FOR SALE.
Nobody in the street knew Miss Hilton. While she lived, her front gate was always padlocked and no one ever saw her leave or saw anybody go in. So even if you wanted to, you couldn’t feel sorry and say that you missed Miss Hilton.
When I think of her house I see just two colours. Grey and green. The green of the mango tree, the grey of the house and the grey of the high galvanized-iron fence that prevented you from getting at the mangoes.
If your cricket ball fell in Miss Hilton’s yard you never got it back.
It wasn’t the mango season when Miss Hilton died. But we got back about ten or twelve of our cricket balls.
We were prepared to dislike the new people even before they came. I think we were a little worried. Already we had one man who kept on complaining about us to the police. He complained that we played cricket on the pavement; and if we weren’t playing cricket he complained that we were making too much noise anyway.
Sergeant Charles would come and say, ‘Boys, the Super send me. That blasted man ring up again. Take it a little easier.’
One afternoon when I came back from school Hat said, ‘Is a man and a woman. She pretty pretty, but he ugly like hell, man. Portuguese, they look like.’
I didn’t see much. The front gate was open, but the windows were shut again.
I heard a dog barking in an angry way.
One thing was settled pretty quickly. Whoever these people were they would never be the sort to ring up the police and say we were making noise and disturbing their sleep.
A lot of noise came from the house that night. The radio was going full blast until midnight when Trinidad Radio closed down. The dog was barking and the man was shouting. I didn’t hear the woman.
There was a great peace next morning.
I waited until I saw the woman before going to school.
Boyee said, ‘You know, Hat, I think I see that woman somewhere else. I see she when I was delivering milk up Mucurapo way.’
This lady didn’t fit in with the rest of us in Miguel Street. She was too well-dressed. She was a little too pretty and a little too refined, and it was funny to see how she tried to jostle with the other women at Mary’s shop trying to get scarce things like flour and rice.
I thought Boyee was right. It was easier to see this woman hopping about in shorts in the garden of one of the nice Mucurapo houses, with a uniformed servant fussing around in the background.
After the first few days I began to see more of the man. He was tall and thin. His face was ugly and had pink blotches.
Hat said, ‘God, he is a first-class drinking man, you hear.’
It took me some time to realize that the tall man was drunk practically all the time. He gave off a sickening smell of bad rum, and I was afraid of him. Whenever I saw him I crossed the road.
If his wife, or whoever she was, dressed better than any woman in the street, he dressed worse than any of us. He was even dirtier than George.
He never appeared to do any work.
I asked Hat, ‘How a pretty nice woman like that come to get mix up with a man like that?’
Hat said, ‘Boy, you wouldn’t understand. If I tell you you wouldn’t believe me.’
Then I saw the dog.
It looked as big as a ram-goat and as vicious as a bull. It had the same sort of thin face its master had. I used to see them together.
Hat said, ‘If that dog ever get away it go have big trouble here in this street.’
A few days later Hat said, ‘You know, it just strike me. I ain’t see those people bring in any furnitures at all. It look like all they have is that radio.’
Eddoes said, ‘It have a lot of things I could sell them.’
I used to think of the man and the dog and the woman in that house, and I felt sorry and afraid for the woman. I liked her, too, for the way she went about trying to make out that everything was all right for her, trying to make out that she was just another woman in the street, with nothing odd for people to notice.
Then the beatings began.
The woman used to run out screaming. We would hear the terrible dog barking and we would hear the man shouting and cursing and using language so coarse that we were all shocked.
Hat said to the bigger men, ‘Is easy to put two and two and see what happening there.’
And Edward and Eddoes laughed.
I said, ‘What happening, Hat?’
Hat laughed.
He said, ‘You too small to know, boy. Wait until you in long pants.’
So I thought the worst.
The woman behaved as though she had suddenly lost all shame. She ran crying to anybody in the street, saying, ‘Help me! Help me! He will kill me if he catches me.’
One day she rushed to our house.
She didn’t make any apology for coming unexpectedly or anything like that. She was too wild and frightened even to cry.
I never saw my mother so anxious to help anyone. She gave the woman tea and biscuits. The woman said, ‘I can’t understand what has come over Toni these days. But it is only in the nights he is like this, you know. He is so kind in the mornings. But about midday something happens and he just goes mad.’
At first my mother was being excessively refined with the woman, bringing out all her fancy words and fancy pronunciations, pronouncing comfortable as cum-fought-able, and making war rhyme with bar, and promising that everything was deffy-nightly going to be all right. Normally my mother referred to males as man, but with this woman she began speaking about the ways of mens and them, citing my dead father as a typical example.
My mother said, ‘The onliest thing with this boy father was that it was the other way round. Whenever I uses to go to the room where he was he uses to jump out of the bed and run away bawling – run away screaming.’
But after the woman had come to us about three or four times my mother relapsed into her normal self, and began treating the woman as though she were like Laura or like Mrs Bhakcu.
My mother would say, ‘Now, tell me, Mrs Hereira, why you don’t leave this good-for-nothing man?’
Mrs Hereira said, ‘It is a stupid thing to say to you or anybody else, but I like Toni. I love him.’
My mother said, ‘Is a damn funny sort of love.’
Mrs Hereira began to speak about Toni as though he were a little boy she liked.
She said, ‘He has many good qualities, you know. His heart is in the right place, really.’
My mother said, ‘I wouldn’t know about heart, but what I know is that he want a good clout on his backside to make him see sense. How you could let a man like that disgrace you so?’
Mrs Hereira said, ‘No, I know Toni. I looked after him when he was sick. It is the war, you know. He was a sailor and they torpedoed him twice.’
My mother said, ‘They shoulda try again.’
‘You mustn’t talk like this,’ Mrs Hereira said.
My mother said, ‘Look, I just talking my mind, you hear. You come here asking me advice.’
‘I didn’t ask for advice.’
‘You come here asking me for help, and I just trying to help you. That’s all.’
‘I don’t want your help or advice,’ Mrs Hereira said.
My mother remained calm. She said, ‘All right, then. Go back to the great man. Is my own fault, you hear. Medd
ling in white people business. You know what the calypso say:
Is love, love, love, alone
That cause King Edward to leave the throne.
Well, let me tell you. You not King Edward, you hear. Go back to your great love.’
Mrs Hereira would be out of the door, saying, ‘I hope I never come back here again.’
But next evening she would be back.
One day my mother said, ‘Mrs Hereira, everybody fraid that dog you have there. That thing too wild to be in a place like this.’
Mrs Hereira said, ‘It isn’t my dog. It’s Toni’s, and not even I can touch it.’
We despised Toni.
Hat said, ‘Is a good thing for a man to beat his woman every now and then, but this man does do it like exercise, man.’
And he was also despised because he couldn’t carry his liquor.
People used to find him sleeping in all sorts of places, dead drunk.
He made a few attempts to get friendly with us, making us feel uncomfortable more than anything else.
He used to say, ‘Hello there, boys.’
And that appeared to be all the conversation he could make. And when Hat and the other big men tried to talk to him, as a kindness, I felt that Toni wasn’t really listening.
He would get up and walk away from us suddenly, without a word, when somebody was in the middle of a sentence.
Hat said, ‘Is a good thing too. I feel that if I look at him long enough I go vomit. You see what a dirty thing a white skin does be sometimes?’
And, in truth, he had a nasty skin. It was yellow and pink and white, with brown and black spots. The skin above his left eye had the raw pink look of scalded flesh.
But the strange thing I noticed was that if you just looked at Toni’s hands and saw how thin and wrinkled they were, you felt sorry for him, not disgusted.
But I looked at his hands only when I was with Hat and the rest.
I suppose Mrs Hereira saw only his hands.
Hat said, ‘I wonder how long this thing go last.’
Mrs Hereira obviously intended it to last a long time.
She and my mother became good friends after all, and I used to hear Mrs Hereira talking about her plans. She said one day she wanted some furniture, and I think she did get some in.