“It will be a while.

  But I will be back….

  Just don’t forget to smile,

  Then step back.”

  THE WORLD FOR A MAN

  A bottle of cheap whiskey

  A flower, dead several months

  Leaves and peddles falling freely

  A pack of cigarettes

  A small transistor radio

  Batteries worn to nonexistence

  A dusty nightstand in a far corner

  Upon which a World sits

  Opening the World…

  Lighting the darkened cubicle

  Life springs forth

  Life never seen but to the Creator

  Creator never seen to the world

  A world darkened by Man

  Man becomes the Demon

  The Demon the creator

  The world the desolate

  Yet life springs from this World…

  The flower to life

  The radio to song

  The whisky to wine

  The cigarettes to Cubans

  The dust to a Christ

  Hope in a world created by darkness

  Darkness drowned out by light

  Darkness struggles endlessly

  A man strives, believes, conquers

  FAITH

  Questions……

  Answers unknown

  Problems…

  Solutions undefined

  Life…

  A realm of difficulty

  With nowhere to turn

  Nowhere to hide

  Total darkness

  Unyielding to light

  Until the Faith of man

  Can finally win the fight…

  TEMPTATION

  I have this cigarette sitting in front of me

  Just sitting there

  Not really doing much of anything

  Just sitting there

  Here it goes

  No, I can’t

  It’s in my hand

  No, I mustn’t

  It’s in my mouth

  No, I shouldn’t

  It’s lit

  Just smoking

  Not really doing much of anything

  Just smoking

  Temptations given in to

  Just smoking?

  THE MIRROR OF VALUE

  Once in our lives

  We must look in the mirror

  We won’t see

  the loss of hair

  We won’t notice the

  false food grinders

  We won’t pay attention to the

  Wrinkles covering our bodies

  We won’t even recognize the

  Slumping posture we now posses

  All we’ll acknowledge is that

  our time has finally come

  And we will hope that

  The time we spent was of value…

  RELIGION AS I SAW IT IN 1991

  Are we accomplishing what we want to in our lives? Are we truly happy with the results all our efforts have produced? If nothing else in our lives ever goes the way we want it then we should at least have a belief we hold as religious. This belief will guide us through our entire lives, affecting the way we do things, the way we view others and possibly even the way we die.

  A religious belief must never be looked at in scorn. If another person does not believe the way we do, does it really matter? Can we do anything about it? They were lead to their decisions by something greater than us. People must be allowed to believe as they wish. If we condemn someone else’s belief, then aren’t we in actuality condemning our own belief? In other words… by condemning another person’s belief we are in essence asking for our own religion to be condemned by others. What is accomplished? Think about it…

  4th Segue…

  VISIONS OF AN AMERICAN G.I.

  BARRACKS BLUES

  The barracks….

  A place to be hearty

  Somewhere to enjoy some beer and music

  Basically, a place to party

  A knock on my door

  A gruff but kind voice asks

  “Hey dude, let’s go to room 317.”

  “No… no”, I answer. “I’ve got work to the max.”

  “Okay, but you’re missing a helluva party.”

  With that he leaves me alone

  I hear the music and laughter

  But I know I must finish this poem

  They all say “Let’s go!’

  But still I sit with my works in a bundle

  For I know there is more to life

  Than drinking beer through a funnel

  Though I sit here writing

  I can’t seem to figure life out, not even a clue

  Why this and why that?

  I suppose I’ll never know, thus I remain blue

  “There is no need to worry.” consoles a friend

  “We may never know.”

  “But I want to know”, I answer

  “Oh to hell with it. Let’s go!’

  The barracks…

  Faces of old and face of new

  A good place to make friends

  But not a place to feel blue

  G.I. NIGHTLIFE ON GUAM

  Sandy You, Tourist, New York

  Lest we forgot Texas and Dallas

  Naked gentle bodies slithering to and fro

  Teasing our manliness

  Pleasing our youthfulness

  Only one dollar for a special performance

  In our drunken state they all are beautiful

  Even if they can’t really dance

  Drunken Ladies guiding us to pleasure

  Though without sufficient funds, never our fill

  Beer and spirits always too expensive

  But with almost nothing else

  This is the life we choose to live

  Until we leave this place, it shall remain our realm

  Uncaring, we almost pray not to suffer in Hell

  Dave says, “The 10-4 should prove satisfying.”

  But Brian argues, “Tahiti Ramas is happening.”

  “A live band, I suppose?” is the question I ask

  Zoli sprouts, “I haven’t all night gibberish to be listening.

  Make up your minds, for I haven’t mush gas”.

  So after seeing tits and ass

  Off we go to enjoy a little dance

  Intoxication fills the room

  Rest assured we’ll drink our fill before heading home

  If one of the bunch is lucky, maybe with some “romance”

  RESTLESS NIGHTS

  In bed by 9:30 P.M.

  Asleep shortly after

  Awake at 11:24 P.M.

  My roommate, quietly does enter

  Fading off again…

  Disrupted by the flick of the light

  It is now 11:31 P.M.

  The question of “Are you eating midnight chow?”

  “No… I told Pete that earlier this night.”

  “Oh … sorry to have awaken you.”

  “No problem”… I can’t sleep now.

  Thinking now of poetry

  Out of bed at 11:43 P.M.

  To write this so as not to forget

  An orange I will now eat… 11:58.

  Having read an essay by Joe Sachs

  And smoking several cigarettes

  I must once again try to rest

  The time is 1:24 A.M.

  Once again I am awake

  This time it is 1:58

  My roommate rudely does snore

  Dreamland I shall never restore….

  A beer and a brownie I shall consume

  Then sleep I will once again try to resume.

  SLEEPING POLITICIAN

  As I sleep…

  My head rolls to the left

  As I awake…

  I force it to the right

 

  MAILBOX

  Being away from home

  Can be terribly lonely

  Es
pecially if the mailbox

  Is without necessary correspondence

  My roommate when asked

  When his box is empty

  How do you feel?

  “Lonely… but yet I’m hopeful.”

  My roommate when asked

  When his box contains something

  How do you feel?

  “Happy … but I’m curious.”

  My roommate when asked

  When the something is actually nothing

  How do you feel?

  “Neglected… and I’m also disappointed.”

  We all feel the same, in one way or another

  But we all know we’ll get mail one day

  Even when the rest of the year may pass

  We feel our families won’t desert our birthdays

  As for me

  When my box is empty

  How do I feel?

  Weary … and upset slightly

  As for me

  When my box contains something

  How do I feel?

  Joyful… but yet concerned

  As for me

  When something is actually nothing

  How do I feel?

  Hurt.. And if a bill… more ways then one!

  The mailbox is like a quiet shrine

  We worship its existence all the time

  If empty, somewhere to let loose tension

  If full, someplace for reclination

  PEACE

  Peace…

  We dream it

  But do we live it?

  We don’t fight

  But are we at Peace?

  Peace…

  We pray for it

  But why do we not live it?

  We don’t declare war

  But are we at Peace?

  Peace…

  We wish it upon one another

  But why do we take it away from them?

  We must live it

  For we shall perish without it!

  THE PRICE OF FREEDOM

  What is the price of freedom; how much more?

  Saddam Hussein

  How Sadly Insane

  A man with a demented brain

  His kind shall never rule again:

  The people of Iraq

  The Coalition must regretfully attack

  For the sole purpose of pushing Saddam back

  The oppressed from their country must flee

  The people of the world must be set free

  Simply enough, the price of freedom is war

  PEACE … THROUGH SLEEP?

  Peace is a rather intriguing word. In order to truly have Peace we must first be at Peace with ourselves. Since this seems to be nearly impossible in today’s society, then maybe we should change the way society is. Do we really have to have all these things that make us unhappy? Do we really need the things that our greed tells us we must have? The realization that the world is going to end soon if we do not obtain Peace should be frightening enough to make us all not want the things that destroy Peace… but unfortunately this is not so. We strive endlessly for all sorts of things to satisfy our insatiable desires, when in fact… if we were to think about it… the desire that drives all the rest of these desires is Peace within ourselves. The trouble is that we can’t see the forest through the trees.

  My only words to express how I feel about this never ending War within ourselves and thus upon others is that we must awaken but yet retain the thoughts of our sleep. Truly… think about it…

  NO WAR ANYMORE

  Do not cry for Me

  I have been set free

  Do not let your eyes grow Red

  Just for the sake that I am Dead

  This morning they shot me Down

  But there is no reason to wear a Frown

  They can’t hurt me anymore

  For, now I am out of the War…

  SENSELESS KILLING REALIZED

  The G.I.s in boot camp

  No longer shall they drill

  The ones in the field

  They shall not kill

  They have finally seen

  The Light

  It is senseless

  To fight!

  G.I. HOLIDAYS

  A low lullaby

  Sung by a tender tenor

  Sweetly the child fades

  Dreaming of toys, Santa, sweets and cakes

  While in a musky, smoke-filled room

  GI’s are occupied in a game of “Spades”

  Getting through the no-family gloom

  Praising the birth of Christ in their own emotional ways

  To a group of GI’s in Germany

  It might be downright Drunk ‘N” Disorderly

  Thank Lord Jesus it’s annually

  Neither weekly, nor even quarterly

  Our families back home

  They will think of their sons and daughters alone

  Hoping and praying for their children a joyous season

  Wondering why they’re gone, yet knowing the reason

  We celebrate to our utmost in the dormitory

  Realizing it is not quite holy

  But we accomplish our tasks of spreading cheer fully

  At this time we could never deny someone a beer… coldly

  Bordering on death during the birth of life

  May war never come to be our strife

  Peace on our world; love towards man

  GI’s all, pray solemnly; amen

  DYSENTERY IN DIYARBAKIR

  The sweat on my body sticks

  From this I get no kicks

  The air is deathly still

  Nausea in my stomach stirs; I’m ill

  Dysentery is no friend of mine

  The only good cure is time

  MRE’s, the only thing to eat

  Don’t taste too bad, but smell of rotten feet!

  I would eat at the chow hall…

  But that’s where dysentery was given to us all

  I need a shave and a shower…

  But I have to shit every quarter hour

  Sleep all day, but still very tired

  I want to blame the workers at the dysentery diner

  Drink plenty of liquids, BUT NO BEER!!

  This news brings, to my eye, a tiny tear

  Maybe I’ll be able to work tomorrow

  For without my beer, I’m filled with sorrow

  Getting dysentery in “Toon Town” is no treat

  But because of my beer, this disease I shall beat!

  If you’re like me and care about your beer.

  Please don’t get dysentery in Diyarbakir…

  5th Segue…

  PSYCHOLOGICALLY PHILOSOPHICAL POEMOTIONS

  NO PRIDE FOR ME

  I don’t wish to make

  Anyone proud of me

  Not Father, friend, nor instructor

  I only wish to do well

  For all the world to enjoy

  If pride

  Gets in the way

  Disappointment may arise

  And enjoyment will

  Never come about…

  UNKNOWN

  People…

  Persons…

  Parts of them

  Unknown…

  Feelings…

  Emotions…

  Values… and

  Convictions…

  Unknown to the

  Beholder…

  RIGHT OR WRONG

  Who’s to say what’s

  Wrong and what’s Right

  When Right could be Wrong

  And Wrong could be Right…

  PAIN

  Protection from ourselves

  Sensations strong as Atlas

  Emotional or physical

  This is pain….

  UNBELIEVABLY INCONCEIVABLE

  What is unbelievable

  Is not always inconceivable

  But what is inconceivable

  Can be believable…

  CAMOUFLAGED

  Thin
gs aren’t always

  As they seem

  And those that are

  May not be

  As one wants them…

  DO OR DON’T CONDEMN?

  Do not

  Condemn

  What is not held in

  Appreciation

  For you may find

  That your condemnation

  Was actually

  Benediction…

  SIMPLICITY

  Nothing is more Complex

  Than the Simple

  For in order to have Complexity

  One must have Simplicity

  NOTHING

  Everything is

  Nothing as all, and

  Nothing is

  Nonexistent

  But it dwells

  Wherever I go….

  THOUGHTS

  What should I be doing?

  Should I play all day?

  Dance the world away?

  Should I work all night?

  Make the thinkers feel right?

  Should I pray to God?

  Perhaps… but to which should I pray?

  Pray to any but one:

  And yearn to be put away?

  Should I try to be the best?

  If so, at what measure?

  I would do it for the rest

  Not for my pleasure

  For my pleasure is not my own

  But is taught to me….

  Am I not a mere extension

  Of the person who taught me?

  Did not Satan succeed in planting

  The roots of evil in me from the beginning?

  The beginning of what my only hope for purity

  Is to abandon the inner self emotional;

  Abandon all thoughts rational?

  INSIDE

  The feelings in a person

  Can deceive that person nature

  The way people act

  Can deceive that person’s true feelings

  A person’s nature

  May prevent him from doing what he wishes

  And a person’s wishes

  Might even cause harm upon that person…

 
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