LETTER LXXIV
MISS AR. HARLOWE, TO MISS CL. HARLOWE[IN ANSWER TO HER'S OF JULY 29. SEE LETTER LXII. OF THIS VOLUME.]THURSDAY MORN. AUG. 3.
SISTER CLARY,
I wish you would not trouble me with any more of your letters. You hadalways a knack at writing; and depended upon making every one do what youwould when you wrote. But your wit and folly have undone you. And now,as all naughty creatures do, when they can't help themselves, you comebegging and praying, and make others as uneasy as yourself.
When I wrote last to you, I expected that I should not be at rest.
And so you'd creep on, by little and little, till you'll want to bereceived again.
But you only hope for forgiveness and a blessing, you say. A blessingfor what, sister Clary? Think for what!--However, I read your letter tomy father and mother.
I won't tell you what my father said--one who has the true sense youboast to have of your misdeeds, may guess, without my telling you, what ajustly-incensed father would say on such an occasion.
My poor mother--O wretch! what has not your ungrateful folly cost my poormother!--Had you been less a darling, you would not, perhaps, have beenso graceless: But I never in my life saw a cockered favourite come togood.
My heart is full, and I can't help writing my mind; for your crimes havedisgraced us all; and I am afraid and ashamed to go to any public orprivate assembly or diversion: And why?--I need not say why, when youractions are the subjects either of the open talk, or of the affrontingwhispers, of both sexes at all such places.
Upon the whole, I am sorry I have no more comfort to send you: but I findnobody willing to forgive you.
I don't know what time may do for you; and when it is seen that yourpenitence is not owing more to disappointment than to true conviction:for it is too probable, Miss Clary, that, had not your feather-headedvillain abandoned you, we should have heard nothing of these movingsupplications; nor of any thing but defiances from him, and a guiltgloried in from you. And this is every one's opinion, as well as that of
Your afflicted sister,ARABELLA HARLOWE.
I send this by a particular hand, who undertakes to give it you or leave it for you by to-morrow night.