There might not be a better chance to strike. He should give chase. But as he prepared to flash away, he realized Cameo hadn't returned his embrace. He frowned and pulled back to look her over.
Misery pulsed from her. Her silver eyes were dull, her expression contorted with pain.
The demon had taken over.
Her gaze met his, tears trapped in her lashes. "Kill me," she whispered. "Please."
23
"You cannot take a strong man's castle without first weakening him. Once you've taken it, give it to your woman for safe-keeping."
--The Art of Keeping Your Female Happy
Misery consumed Cameo. In every sense of the word. The demon reminded her of a family of termites; she was the crumbling house, her foundation already riddled with holes. Every hour--every minute--he reminded her of every torture she'd ever endured. Of Alex's death and Lazarus's doom.
My fault. All my fault.
One hundred percent of the population feels they would be better off without you...
During the fight with Juliette, Cameo had done the unthinkable. She'd allowed Misery to fill her with the worst of his sorrows, pricking the worst of her regrets. The overflow had spilled out, vanquishing her opponent. But victory had come at a terrible price. Dark thoughts now mired Cameo's mind, and no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't escape them.
No hope, no hope. She no longer believed she could live a better life. Lazarus was dying, crystals growing inside his veins, and she had no idea how to save him.
Her mind hurt. Her soul hurt. Who was she kidding? Every part of her hurt. Misery used her fear and grief for Lazarus, playing her heart like a violin.
"A terrible melody haunts her," she'd heard Lazarus explain to her friends. He was right. She'd never felt so alone or helpless.
Logically she knew the feelings were a lie. Of course she knew. Her friends loved her and would do anything in their power to aid her. Lazarus had said he planned to stay with her for the remainder of his days. But truth and logic meant nothing right now.
Tears spilled down her cheeks and tremors rocked her. She lay in bed with no idea how Lazarus had gotten her home. Not because the demon had wiped her memory, but because she had retreated mentally. One day bled into another, the agony inside her never easing.
Through it all, she had no desire to eat or drink--just let me die--but Lazarus the Cruel and Unusual forced food and water down her throat. She would have fought him, but she lacked the energy.
She had no desire to shower, either, but more than once he'd carried her to the bathroom stall, stripped her and soaped her off. Again, she'd lacked the energy to fight him. Not that it mattered. He'd never made a pass at her and she...hadn't cared. Didn't care. Really.
He often paced through the room with swords strapped to his back and daggers in hand, as if he expected Hera or his father to pop in. His last two enemies, not counting Misery, who he'd threatened a time or twenty.
Cameo dozed fitfully, her dreams turbulent. The demon loved to show her ways she could be hurt. For the past few nights she'd seen Lazarus's funeral on constant repeat.
When she awoke, Maddox sat in a chair beside her bed and glared at her. "Want me to throw your visitor out the window?"
"You may try," Lazarus responded on her behalf. "Also, I'm not the visitor here. You are. What's hers is mine."
"You speak like a husband," Maddox snapped. "I don't recall attending a wedding."
"I speak like her man. Exactly what I am."
"Then do a better job of taking care of her!"
Lazarus unleashed a string of curses, and Maddox responded in kind. Both males were vicious beasts clearly vying for the title of king of the jungle.
As keeper of Violence, Maddox had a temper more volatile than most. The big brute stomped toward Lazarus, menace radiating from him. Cameo watched, detached from the situation...but also enraptured by it.
Lazarus met him halfway, completely unfazed. As soon as they were within reach, he used Maddox's thigh as a step stool, wrapping a leg around the warrior's neck, shifting his weight and pushing the warrior to the floor. Upon landing, he rolled, tossing Maddox onto his back and standing to loom over her friend.
With a roar, Maddox kicked him in the chest, sending him flinging backward. In seconds, both males were on their feet and throwing punches. A spectacular display of masculine aggression, yes, but one she should stop.
To do so, she would have to speak. If she spoke, she would only make things worse.
Can't win. Destined to hurt everyone around me.
Besides, if Lazarus wanted to kill Maddox, the male would be dead. Ripped to ribbons like the griffin. His skill awed her.
The guys continued fighting, razing her room, destroying every piece of furniture, including the bed. One of the posters toppled and the footboard cracked, jamming the mattress at an odd angle. If Lazarus hadn't locked her mirror in her closet earlier, she would have lost it, too.
In the end, Lazarus snapped Maddox's neck--a fact that sent the other warriors in residence over the edge. Aeron and the newly returned Paris rushed into the room.
"What the--"
"You had no right!"
Another fight broke out.
Lazarus won that battle, too, though not as quickly or as easily. His motions had slowed as if he'd been weakened. Maybe he had. Those crystals...
Going to lose him one way or another.
The rest of her family raced into her bedroom, spotted Maddox, Aeron and Paris unconscious on her floor--and gales of laughter soon rang out. Funny thing. The laughter only darkened her mood.
No fair! They do what I can't.
What you will never do, Misery vowed.
Lucien, keeper of Death, patted Lazarus on the shoulder. At some point, he, too, must have returned from the underworld. "I like you. I like you a lot."
Galen leaned against the wall and crossed his arms over his chest. "Yeah, well, I don't think he likes you."
Lazarus pointed an accusing finger at the warrior. "Your Hunters once cut out Cameo's tongue."
"I know." The handsome blond spread his arms. "You're welcome."
A ferocious growl echoed throughout the room, the promise of a bad, bad death. The most feminine part of her responded to the sound, and she thought, hoped, she would pull herself from the depths of sorrow...but she failed.
"Hey," Galen added. "She is who she is because of her past. Do you like who she is or not?"
Her ears perked as she waited for the answer.
"I...do," Lazarus admitted grudgingly.
He likes me! Again she tried to pull herself up, but again she failed.
"Wow. Galen isn't wrong." Anya leveled a disgusted look at Lucien, her fiance. "Does this mean I have to forgive the bastard for letting his people spear me to a wall?"
"No," Lucien said. At the same time, Galen said, "Yes!"
Torin, who used to remain inside his own room no matter what happened, stood in the midst of the crowd. Since he'd learned his blood contained the antidote to his demon's disease, he'd become a lot more social.
Removing his leather gloves, he moved toward Galen. Then, with a wicked smile, he patted the winged man on the cheek.
Galen reared back.
Torin darted out of the room, calling, "Good luck getting a dose of my blood, sucker."
Galen cursed and chased after him.
A spark of irritation heated Cameo's chest. The teasing was worse than the laughter. They were having fun, playing, while she suffered horribly.
As if sensing her change in mood, Lazarus eased onto the mattress, sitting beside her, and linked their fingers. He rubbed his thumb over her bruised knuckles. "Come back to me."
She tried. She tried so hard, desperate to do this for him. But the sorrow remained, clawing and ripping at her, leaving her insides bloody. Tears filled her eyes, and her chin trembled.
He opened his mouth to say more, but Sabin stepped forward and clapped once, twice. "All right. The party
is over. We're all part of the same team, and we've got things to discuss." He was the original warmonger, always putting business before pleasure. "Over the past week, two new battles have waged between Hades and Lucifer. Hades won the first round, thanks to Katarina's hellhounds. They enjoyed a sweet little game called Fetch the Femur, ripping through enemy ranks to collect their prizes. The second round was a draw with massive losses on both sides."
Murmurs and speculations arose. How to ambush Lucifer, leader of the Harbingers--those who granted foreknowledge. How to achieve maximum results. The interaction only saddened Cameo further.
These men and women were a unit. Part of the same team, as Sabin had said. Cameo had forever been on the fringes.
"Out," Lazarus bellowed, his hard voice echoing from the walls. "Now. Everyone."
Protests erupted. When he leaped to his feet, those protests ended and footsteps sounded.
Ashlyn alone remained. Well, Ashlyn and the unconscious men on the floor. No one had bothered to drag them out. The woman took Lazarus's place on the bed.
He stared at her, doing his best to intimidate her, but she remained far from cowed.
"My husband is napping a few feet away. I'm staying, and I'm going to help my friend," she said. "Try to stop me. Dare you."
She had a gift. When she stepped into a room, she could hear every conversation that had ever taken place inside it. Considering she'd just used Lazarus's own words against him, she must have heard some of the things the warrior had said to Cameo.
"Fine," he grumbled.
"So gracious." For over an hour, Ashlyn read from the pages of a romance novel. Fairy tales for adults, she'd once called them. Oh, to be part of a fairy tale with Lazarus, destined to have a happily-ever-after.
Impossible. This is it, Misery said. The best you're ever going to get.
Cameo believed him.
*
The next day, Lazarus fed and bathed her, as usual, remaining impersonal and personal at the same time. He touched her without any outward sign of emotion, but his fingers lingered on her breasts and between her legs. At first, she experienced a tingle of arousal. With arousal came hope.
The demon whispered, He's going to die. I wonder if you are the reason.
She cried. Lazarus dried her off and carried her back to bed.
How much longer would he live? How much longer would he put up with her?
Viola visited her and minded her manners, stretching out beside Cameo to tell her all about the armor she had designed, intending to keep herself and her pet safe from a winged beast with death on his mind. All she needed Cameo to do was make it.
Cameo drifted into a light doze, waking when she heard Lazarus's voice. He spoke in Typhonish, and he sounded angry. Through the shadows in the room, she glimpsed him standing on her balcony, wind whipping his hair as a storm raged. No sign of Viola or anyone else. Until lightning struck the sky. For a split second, she saw a sky serpent perched on the railing, his claws wrapped around the iron bar.
Her heart fluttered and--
Nothing. She closed her eyes. When next she woke, the storm had stopped.
Lazarus opened the bedroom door and a laughing Urban and Ever rushed inside. The little boy jumped on the end of the bed. When Cameo failed to react, he set her covers on fire. Ever doused the flames with a glaze of ice.
Life continues without me.
Cameo sighed, and the twins stopped laughing. Ever sobbed, and Urban teared up.
With a sigh of his own, Lazarus rushed the children into the hall and shouted for their parents.
What kind of monster are you, making those sweet babies cry? Misery asked.
Claw, rip. The sorrow sharpened, and her internal wounds hemorrhaged.
Lazarus returned to her side and smoothed away the hair that clung to her dampened cheek. "What am I going to do with you, sunshine?"
The demon had a million answers, none of them good.
Cameo's mind played a word-association game, making the leap from "none of them good" to "nothing good can happen" to "remember he's destined to die," to "everyone's going to die at some point" to "Pandora's box will kill us all." Juliette had said Lazarus already possessed the box. Had she spoken true, or had she sought to drive a wedge between her consort and his new slice?
Definitely a wedge. No way would Lazarus keep such a huge secret. He knew how much Cameo wanted--needed--that box. How the very survival of her loved ones depended on it.
Why would he want Pandora's box, anyway?
Well, that question was easy to answer. The Morning Star.
But if Lazarus had the box and wanted the Morning Star, why not open the box and take it?
Another easy answer. He feared killing Cameo the instant he lifted the lid.
He should kill me. I'm better off dead. Everyone will be better off.
"Enough," Lazarus said, the fury in his voice unmistakable. "Do not ever think like that again. No one is better off without you. Understand?"
With his words, something inside Cameo broke. His gaze had so often smoldered at her, promising her untold delights. His hands and body had touched her naked curves on more than one occasion, willing to dish those delights. Now all she could do was pray for death?
Cameo curled into her pillow and sobbed until she had no more tears to give. "My pleasure-feeling days are over." It was the first time she'd spoken in days--weeks?--and her raw throat protested.
"They are only beginning. You know this." Soft fingers combed through her hair, traced down the ridges of her spine before forcing her to roll to her side and gaze up at him. "This isn't you, sunshine." He cuddled behind her and kissed her nape. "Fight the demon. Fight for me."
What good had fighting ever done her? Always she ended up in this condition. "Go away. Please. Just go away."
For the first time in their acquaintance, he cringed at the sound of her voice.
No, not the first time. After the battle with Juliette, she'd seen the blood dripping from his ears. Like the Harpy, he'd stabbed himself to escape Cameo's voice.
He said nothing more.
Ensuring you won't utter another response.
"That's a lie of the demon," he grated. "I hate seeing you this way."
"Don't worry. You'll grow tired of this--of me--soon enough. Then you'll leave, and you won't have to see me at all." Though she thought her tear ducts dry, a new rain poured down her cheeks, scalding her skin.
The bed bounced, signaling Lazarus had risen. Footsteps pounded, creating an ominous sound track. Lights deluged the bedroom, chasing away precious shadows.
She cringed, blinking rapidly to soothe the burn in her tired eyes. "Off," she commanded.
"You want them off, you get your ass up and turn them off. I've coddled you long enough." With a dark scowl, he stomped to the bed.
The sight of him and his crackling fury cowed Misery, the demon hiding in the back of her mind, the cloud of oppression lifting... But he'd tasted the sweet reins of control and refused to relinquish them so easily. He hissed and clawed, and doom's tempestuous storm rolled back in.
Lazarus ripped the covers from her, cool air suddenly enveloping her. After the last shower, he'd dressed her in a tank top and a pair of panties. Motions firm and without a care for her tender flesh, he picked her up and draped her over his shoulder in a fireman carry. His stride long and without grace, he made his way to the door and threw it open.
One by one, her friends exited their rooms.
He growled, "This is happening. Don't try to stop me."
"Stop you? I'm too busy cheering you." Maddox, who had recovered from his broken spine, sounded downright friendly just then. "You should have done this days ago."
Lazarus smacked Cameo on the butt. Right there. In front of everyone. The sharp sting made her gasp.
"Can I keep him, Lucien?" Anya clapped. "Pretty please with a cherry on top of me. For the last five seconds, I've always wanted one!"
"Only if I can keep him, too," Lucien repli
ed. "Although there's still something off about him. Death goes crazy every time he's near."
"Lies doesn't." The denial came from Gideon.
"You took the words right out of my mouth," Strider said. "Or you would have, if you'd told the truth and mentioned Defeat. So what's the problem? How do you provoke the demons, dead man?"
Her friends sensed the box, too?
Lazarus ignored the question and gave Cameo's butt another smack. Her back teeth ground together.
"What did you do with her the last time she got like this?" Lazarus asked no one in particular.
"We waited," Sabin said. "Everything we tried made her worse."
"Well, I'm done waiting." Lazarus bypassed the group and pounded down the stairs.
To her annoyance, everyone followed him, eager to discover what he'd do next. Kane, the newly crowned king of the Fae, was among them. When had he returned from the underworld? Even Torin tagged along, the traitor!
Why had he dated her, anyway? What an ill-matched pair they'd been, unable to touch. Or rather, unwilling to touch, because she could have touched him; she wouldn't have gotten sick--probably--but she would have become a carrier, like him. They hadn't known about his cure back then.
They'd pleasured themselves while the other watched. Well, she'd pretended to pleasure herself. She'd faked every orgasm. Should she tell him? He would return to his room in a huff, and she'd have one less spectator.
"Don't worry, sunshine," Lazarus said. "I'll make sure he knows by the end of the day."
Her teeth ground together with a little more force. She erected the shield around her mind. "Unlike Misery, I find no enjoyment in hurting others. Don't say a word to him."
Groans swept through the crowd, but this time Lazarus gave no notice of her voice.
The demon prowled from the shadows, desperate to recover every inch of ground he'd lost. Couldn't keep Kane, couldn't keep Torin, won't keep Lazarus.
She whimpered. Lazarus gave her butt another smack.
Now she huffed and puffed. How dare he! "If you liked and respected me at all, you wouldn't treat me this way."
"It's because I like and respect you that I'm treating you this way." And just to be contrary, she was sure, he gave her another smack. He used more force, most definitely leaving a palm print.
Anger sparked. Why was he doing this? Where was he taking her?
He kicked open the front door and strode outside. Sunlight seeped into her skin, warming the bone-deep chill she hadn't realized she had felt. He stopped somewhere in the front yard and dropped her.