Raid
Kristen Ashley
Published by Kristen Ashley
Copyright 2013 Kristen Ashley
Rock Chick Series:
Rock Chick
Rock Chick Rescue
Rock Chick Redemption
Rock Chick Renegade
Rock Chick Revenge
Rock Chick Reckoning
Rock Chick Regret
The ‘Burg Series:
For You
At Peace
Golden Trail
Games of the Heart
The Colorado Mountain Series:
The Gamble
Sweet Dreams
Lady Luck
Breathe
Dream Man Series:
Mystery Man
Wild Man
Law Man
Motorcycle Man
The Fantasyland Series:
Wildest Dreams
The Golden Dynasty
Fantastical
The Three Series:
Until the Sun Falls from the Sky
With Everything I Am
The Unfinished Hero Series:
Knight
Creed
Other Titles by Kristen Ashley:
Fairytale Come Alive
Heaven and Hell
Lacybourne Manor
Lucky Stars
Mathilda, SuperWitch
Penmort Castle
Play It Safe
Sommersgate House
Three Wishes
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Dedication
This book is dedicated to the memory of my Gramma, Mildred Moutaw.
She lived far away from me so I didn’t know her all that well.
But what I knew, I loved.
Gramma, your afghan is still on my couch.
It’s been to two countries, three cities.
It will always be with me.
And it’s exactly what you intended it to be.
Home. Warmth. Comfort. Nurture.
Love.
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Chapter One
Raiden
I sat in Rachelle’s Café. Today’s seat was facing the door.
I tried to switch it up so he wouldn’t know.
If my back was to the door, maybe one day, if he noticed me, he wouldn’t think I was looking for him, waiting, hoping for a glimpse.
Even though I was.
Raiden.
Raiden Ulysses Miller.
An amazing name for an amazing man.
The bell over the door rang, and having months of practice in not letting my hope and eagerness show, I slowly lifted my eyes to look, my heart skipping a beat.
It wasn’t him.
I brought my coffee cup to my lips and took a sip, hiding my disappointment.
I’d started crushing on Raiden Miller when I was six and he came to Grams’s annual picnic.
He was nine.
He was also beautiful.
Over time, he got more beautiful. He was just one of those boys who started out gorgeous and just got better.
So by the time I got to high school, a freshman to his senior, I was gone for him. He was the most popular boy in school. Tall. So tall. Six foot four. Broad. Muscular. His hair a rich, dark brown, and even back then there were burnished highlights in his hair like he went to Betsy’s Salon.
He didn’t. It was natural and still the same. His sister Rachelle had the same hair. Everyone was jealous.
Even me.
Only of Rachelle.
As for Raiden, I just wanted to touch his hair, see if it was as thick and silky as it looked.
Just one touch and I’d be happy.
After high school, everyone thought it was so cool he went into the Marines. The perfect fit for him. Even as a boy, he was a man’s man. His Dad had taken off and after that everyone knew he’d taken care of his Mom and sister. He kept their yard looking nice, fixed stuff at their house, and even though he played football in the fall and baseball in the spring he got jobs to help make ends meet.
He was a good kid, grew up fast because his Dad was gone, and he easily took on that responsibility which made everyone like him. So the Marines were a natural choice, Raiden deciding to serve our country and doing it by joining the baddest of the badasses, as everyone knew the Marines were. Or maybe this was just me thinking Raiden was the baddest of the baddasses because he stepped up at a young age and looked after his family. But I think most everyone agreed.
What surprised folks was when he got out.
I’d heard people talking.
“Off the grid.” I’d heard Paul Moyer, who owned the feed store, say. He’d gone on, “Suppose it’s not a surprise, what with what went down over there, ole Raid losin’ his buddies like he did. Gettin’ that medal. What he had to do to get it. But still, sad to see a man like him… lost.”
I knew what went down. His squad had been nearly annihilated. They’d lost almost everyone. Word was Raiden had almost singlehandedly saved the few who survived, and not only that, he’d made certain the bodies of his comrades went with them so the enemy couldn’t get them.
I knew this because everybody talked, but also because it was such a big deal. It was all over the papers.
But the minute he could get out after that, he did.
Everyone thought he’d make a career of the Marines.
He didn’t.
Then, six months ago, he came back to Willow.
The first time I saw him, having popped by Rachelle’s to grab a coffee, I’d stopped breathing.
He was no less gorgeous, not after all these years, nearly fifteen of them. He was just as tall, but even more muscular. His shoulders so broad you could plant a tabletop on them and it would hold steady. Thick thighs. Sinewy, veined forearms. Big, rough hands.
Phenomenal.
And those eyes.
I’d studied them in the yearbook. So unusual, the way the green transformed from pupil to the edge of his iris.
They were better with him older, tan; his strong jaw always thickly stubbled, like he shaved once every week because he didn’t have the time or inclination to bother with it, and further, he didn’t care what people thought. Those lines radiating out the sides of his eyes which just made them more interesting.
His entire unbelievably handsome face and his thick, overlong hair seemed to exist in order to be a frame for those magnificent eyes.
It did a good job.
Excellent.
I could say this because I was an authority on this subject, as was nearly every available and not so available female in Willow, Colorado, our hometown.
But maybe I was the only one who crazily, creepily (it had to be said) semi-stalked him by hanging at out Rachelle’s Café simply to catch a glimpse of him.
Okay, so maybe it was more than just to catch a glimpse of him.
It was silly, but I couldn’t let go of the hope that one day he’d walk in, look at me, smile and maybe pop by my table to have a chat where I would boggle his mind with my brilliance. I’d charm him with my manner. Then he’d ask me out on a date. At the end of which, maybe, hopefully, I’d finally be able to touch his hair (amongst other things).
This never happened.
A couple of ti
mes, those beautiful eyes of his looked through me. Once, embarrassingly, I didn’t move my gaze fast enough when he glanced through the café and he caught me studying him.
But he just gave me a chin lift and looked away.
That was it.
He did seem to have a lot on his mind. He never came to the café to hang out, eat lunch, anything like that. He usually moved through, always grinning at his sister if she was around, heading straight to the back room and disappearing.
This was, of course, intriguing; why he’d come to the café and disappear.
Then again, everything about Raiden Miller was intriguing.
It also meant that he didn’t hang out to eat, and perchance, gaze about the room and fall madly in love with me.
And at that moment, I was realizing this was also not going to happen that day. I’d been there a while. It was getting late and I rarely saw him there late.
So I grabbed my purse and tossed down enough money to cover the check lying on the table, including a generous tip. Should a miracle occur and Raiden finally notice me, buttering up his sister with big tips wasn’t a bad thing. She was a year ahead of me in high school. We’d known each other since forever and she already liked me, as I did her.
It also was earned. Her food and service were both stellar.
I grabbed my coat off the back of the chair, shrugged it on and looped my purse on my shoulder.
“Later Hanna!” Rachelle called as I moved toward the front door.
“Later!” I called back, throwing a smile her way and putting my hand to the door.
I pushed it open, went out onto the sidewalk, did a routine scan of the street and stopped dead.
Raiden was across the street standing beside his Jeep, making out with a very pretty, skinny-minnie, petite, big-haired, large-chested blonde.
My breath caught in my throat and my stomach churned.
She had high-heeled boots on, but still, she was so petite he was deeply bent into her. They were in a serious clinch. The only way I could see she had big breasts was because her clothes were skintight, her jacket was open and I could see one pushed out the side where it was pressed in his chest.
Oh God.
God!
She was skanky and I could tell this, too, what with the high-heeled boots (which weren’t normal-person fashionable, they were skank fashionable), skintight clothes and big hair, but also, even in profile and across the street I could see she had on a lot of blusher and thick foundation.
But she was one of those skanky skanks who looked cool. Who worked her skankedness. Who made skankdom something you’d consider aspiring to.
Not to mention, her skankedness got her in a clinch with Raiden Ulysses Miller.
And he looked no less fabulous than he always looked. Tight-fitting long-sleeved thermal over cargo pants and boots, his shades pushed up into his amazing hair. No jacket, as if his level of testosterone was so high he didn’t feel the cold.
God.
God!
I tore my eyes away, and blind, my stomach feeling hollow, I moved by rote to my SUV, swung in and luckily made it home without incident.
Though I didn’t know how.
Because that hurt.
It hurt.
Oh God, why did it hurt so much?
Still battling what I knew was a self-inflicted wound, I got into my house and went directly to my girlie, frou-frou, countrified splendor living room. I sat cross-legged on my couch, stared at nothing and felt the pain.
Time passed by and finally it came to me.
I knew what it was.
I knew it was like when you crushed on an actor or some athlete and you found out he was single and you let yourself have crazy dreams that one day he’d run into you and fall head over heels.
Then you’d find out he got married, or got someone pregnant and then (maybe) got married, and your fantasy would die.
And it hurt when fantasies died.
A lot.
But that was exactly what it was.
The death of a fantasy.
Raiden Ulysses Miller was not a famous actor or athlete, but still.
He would never be mine.
I knew this because he was into women who could make skanky cool.
Big-haired, blonde, skinny-minnie, big-chested, petite women who could make skanky cool.
I had nice hair. It shone with health, it was thick and it was one shade up from blonde, but it wasn’t big.
And I had an ample chest, but not that ample.
I was not skinny-minnie.
I was absolutely not skanky and could never be, no matter if it was cool and could get you Raiden Miller. I just knew I was the kind of girl who had no latent skank huddling deep inside, waiting for the makeup, hairspray and tight clothes that would let her out.
I was also not petite.
“Chère,” my great-grandmother always stated (more than once), “thank the good Lord above He gave you those legs. Women the world over would die for your legs. They go on forever, precious girl, and trust your old biddy of a grandmother, she knows, one day, you’ll be glad for those legs.”
That day, as much as I loved Grams and knew she was (almost) always right, was not today.
Slowly I pushed out of my couch and moved through the house to the bathroom. I switched on the light, stood in front of the basin, leaned in and looked in the mirror.
I’d had three boyfriends, and all of them, obviously, started with dates.
They also always went long-term.
Not one boy who asked me out didn’t ask me again and again.
But they always broke up with me.
And staring into the mirror in the bathroom, just like I suddenly figured out why Raiden Ulysses Miller making out with a skanky (but cool) blonde hurt so much, I figured out why my boyfriends broke up with me.
Because I sat in cafés hoping for a glimpse of handsome guys and didn’t do anything about it.
Because I didn’t poof out my hair big.
Because when I was in high school I stayed home and studied. I didn’t go out to parties. And when I wasn’t studying, I was at the movies or reading. When I got older I didn’t go to bars and do tequila shots and flirt over games of pool. I hung out with my ninety-seven year old great-grandmother, my friend KC, or again, went to the movies or read. I didn’t take fabulous vacations where I could have ill-advised but delicious holiday flings that gave me good memories and better stories to tell. I went to my parents’ house in Tucson, visited my brother in California or rented a cabin two hours away in the Colorado Mountains and, yes, you guessed it, I sat around and read.
I was living a narrow life and that narrow life made me uninteresting.
Boring.
Nothing.
I was twenty-eight years old and my great-grandmother, who had lived nearly a century, had a more active, fun-filled life than I did.
This was insane.
It was even more insane than falling in love from afar with a nine year old boy and hoping like heck I got picked for his tug of war team at my Grams’s annual picnic. Which I did, sickeningly gratifyingly, three years in a row, even though he never noticed me and thus didn’t care. It was more insane than harboring that crush all through high school and even when he was away for years.
It was certifiable.
“And now it’s done,” I told my reflection.
Then I did what I never did.
I made a decision and acted on it.
I went to my kitchen, got a pad of paper and made a to-do list.
Once done, I immediately started on my list.
First up, I called Betsy at the salon and told her I needed a new style and she was in charge.
“Ohmigod, Hanna! I’m moving people around right now! You have to come in tomorrow! I… can’t… wait!” she exclaimed.
I went in the next day and got a trim, flippy layers and highlights.
Then I drove straight to Bob’s car dealership and bought myself a pearl white
Nissan Z.
It was awesome.
The next day I drove my new Z into town, walked into the travel agent and booked a vacation on a cruise ship.
After that I walked down the block. Something caught my eye at the bike shop, and, even though it wasn’t on my list I turned and went right in.
I did not go back to Rachelle’s except for the occasional coffee, but those were only flybys.
I did not see Raiden Ulysses Miller.
Not for five months.
What I didn’t know was…
He saw me.
Chapter Two
Cat Food
Five months later…
“Voila!” Bodhi shouted.
He shifted back. I saw the results of his ministrations, threw my head back and laughed before I looked back down at my girl. My pink and white daisy Schwinn now had opalescent white and pink streamers mixed with twirly silver ones streaming from the handlebars.
I looked at Bodhi, who had straightened away from my bike. I jumped up and down twice while clapping, and cried, “It’s perfect!”
And it was. It was over the top, cutesie, girlie, perfect.
I loved it.
I loved it so much I rounded my girl, threw myself in Bodhi’s arms and hugged him, exclaiming loudly, “I love it!”
Bodhi hugged me back, giving me a side to side shake.
Since the day I bought my Schwinn five months ago, Bodhi and I had become friends.
Good friends.
He was not like any of my other friends. He was a laidback cycling-slash-boarding dude (definitely a dude) who owned his own bike shop mostly so he could close it whenever he wanted and go biking or snowboarding whenever he wanted, which was often.
When he was working, it was not unusual to walk into his shop, shout his name and have him come out of the side office on a cloud of smoke and whiff of pot fumes. It was so blatant I honestly didn’t know how he didn’t get tagged by the Sheriff. But he didn’t.
It had to be karma. No incarnation of Bodhi would hurt a fly, I didn’t care how many times he thought he’d been reincarnated, and according to Bodhi, there were a lot.
That winter, Bodhi and his girlfriend, Heather, taught me how to board.