Page 1 of Hold Onto My Heart


Hold Onto My Heart

  Teen Girl Poetry

  Part One

  by Amilee Palmer

  Copyright 2014 Amilee Palmer

  Preface

  This poetry is the product of my young, high school self. I wanted to include all of the dates so you can see how old I was when I wrote each poem. I feel like my age and where I was in my life at those moments (even though you don't have a full story of my life) in time greatly affected the poetry I was writing. It's also interesting to see how much I've grown with my writing over the years and what sorts of sayings I still have a tendency to write. The majority of the poems are about one boy I had this huge crush on but I never would do anything about it because I was so shy. But it's okay... because without that crush and without that boy, these poems may never have happened. This is part one of that composition notebook full of poetry.

  -Amilee

  I Still Love You 2003

  Every day I sit and think

  Of how it all came true

  It was the best day of my life

  The day that I met you

  Even though it's fading now

  There's not much left to do

  I wish you'd come back somehow

  Erase all we've been through

  I don't know what I did wrong

  I don't know what to do

  But please don't forget this one thing

  I still love you.

  **

  Untitled 2003

  Say to me the words you said,

  That stole my heart away.

  Tell to me the story,

  You told me every day.

  Sing to me the song,

  You left in my heart.

  Read to me the letter,

  That tore my world apart.

  **

  Don't Need You

  July 9th 2004

  There's nothing you can say

  To make me change my mind

  I'm gonna walk away

  With tears in my eyes

  I still love you

  But this is what I have to do

  I know I can make it

  Without a boy like you

  You don't control my life

  I don't need you

  **

  I Wish

  July 10th 2004

  My love,

  I wish I had the courage to tell you how I feel

  I can't stand to be apart knowing this is real

  I wish I weren't so shy that I can't even talk to you

  I'm sitting here alone not knowing what to do

  I wish that my heart didn't hurt so

  Because I love you and you won't ever know

  I wish that we could talk and maybe still be friends

  Because I know I love you a lot and this can't be the end

  **

  The Pain

  July 10th 2004

  I wish that you could make

  This pain go away

  I love you more and more

  Each and every day

  I really wish I didn't

  But I know I do

  There's just no way

  To get over you

  **

  My Fault

  July 10th 2004

  It hurts to think of you

  And know you won't be by my side

  I think to myself

  And wonder why

  I wish I weren't shy

  I'd tell you my thoughts

  But then I realized the reason we're not together

  It's all my fault

  **

  You

  July 10th 2004

  You're in my heart

  You're in my mind

  You're in my thoughts

  You're in my dreams

  You're everywhere but with me

  **

  Can you, Will you

  July 10th 2004

  Can you forgive?

  Can you forget?

  Can you love?

  Will you forgive?

  Will you forget?

  Will you love?

  Forgive me

  Forget what I did

  Love me

  **

  My Heart

  July 11th 2014

  Hold onto my heart

  I'm giving it to you

  It's fragile

  Please don't break it

  Tell me you're there

  Tell me you'll be by my side

  No matter what happens

  Tell me you love me

  Let me know you won't stab my heart

  It's been cut before

  It's so hard to believe in forever

  But take my heart

  I'm giving it to you

  **

  Okay

  July 16th 2004

  The tears may fall from my eyes

  When I finally hear the lies

  No matter how long they fall

  It doesn't matter at all

  It won't keep me down

  I'll get back up

  No matter what

  I'll be okay

  I won't let you stand in my way

  **

  Untitled

  July 18th 2004

  Despite what you do

  It won't change the way I feel about you

  Despite what you say

  It won't change what I'm gonna do

  And thought the “I'm sorry'” won't bring me back to you

  The “I love you's” still mean a lot

  But I'll never be able to forgive and forget

  **

  Untitled

  July 18th 2004

  I've changed

  I've turned

  I'm gonna bring you down and burn you

  You'd like to think I'll regret it

  But I won't

  Not after what you did

  Not after the lies

  And not after the tears fell

  You won't change my mind

  Not now

  Not ever

  **

  Afraid to Know

  August 31st 2003

  Although you can't see it

  It's deep down inside

  I'm fighting not to show it

  But it's so hard to hide

  This thing called love

  Hurts so much

  I can feel it run through me

  Each time we touch

  I don't want to hold on

  But I can't let go

  My love for you

  Is more than I know

  I can't come out and say it

  But I can't hold back

  The love for you

  Is trying to attack

  Each time at night

  While I lie in my bed

  Things to say

  Run through my head

  I wonder if you feel

  The same way I do

  The only way to know

  Would be to ask you

  But I'm too shy

  So, I sit and smile

  Hoping that maybe

  You'll come up to me in a while

  Sometimes it seems

  We were meant to be

  But if it's true

  We may never see

  Sometimes I sit

  Sit and cry

  I'm always wondering

  Wondering why

  Why am I afraid

  Why am I so scared

  It's not like you're far away

  You're just over there

  What I feel

  May never show

  Because of me

  Too afraid to know

  **

  Untitled

  November 02nd 2003

  Like a leaf, caught in your breeze
br />   I can't break free

  And you don't realize what you're doing

  You don't realize you're drowning me

  Like a thorn on a rose, you're cutting my soul

  Breaking me down, like pieces of a puzzle

  That won't fit together

  It's so hard to cope with, harder than you think

  Telling me what I have to be

  I want to rebel, I want to be me

  The leaf has wilted

  The rose withered away

  And I wait for the day, to let out my feelings

  Say all I want to say

  **

  Untitled

  July 21st 2004

  Don't deny the

  Memories

  You can't

  Escape

  From what you

  Should

  Have done

  The second

  Chance

  Hasn't come just yet

  Waiting seems

  Ever-long

  Days without him are

  Boring

  And nights not spent

  Talking

  On the phone, are spent

  Wondering

  If you will ever get a

  Second chance

  Hopeful

  You await

  You speak, but he

  Doesn't reply

  You ask yourself

  Why

  Maybe he's

  Over it

  Maybe he

  Hates you

  But you're

  Not

  Over it

  And you

  Don't

  Hate him

  And you won't

  Ever

  Hate him

  Ever

  **

  Untitled

  July 25th 2004

  Don't deny what you really feel

  This can't get much worse

  Don't fake what's in your heart

  We know where this may lead

  And though it may not work

  At least we can say we tried

  Don't deny what you really want

  Cause I want you to be mine

  **

  Untitled

  July 25th 2004

  It's so hard to live my life

  Knowing I was wrong

  It burns my heart

  To know that you're gone

  I want to make it right

  Though I don't know what I should do

  So I'll live my life

  Far away from you

  I'll never know what it's like

  To have you to love

  So I pray every night

  To God up above

  I pray for a second chance

  I know I could make it good

  But you probably won't come back for me

  There's no reason you should

  **

  Forget

  July 25th 2004

  I won't forget your sweet smile

  It made my heart race

  I won't forget those words

  They made me feel so loved

  I won't forget the nights we talked

  There were so much fun

  And everything you tried to do

  To make me love you

  I won't forget

  Please don't forget me

  **

  Untitled

  July 26th 2004

  Okay... yeah

  I adore you

  Though, I ignore you

  And that, I don't know why

  I don't think you'd understand

  I don't think I understand

  What going on in my mind

  And what I never said

  Is still inside my head

  Waiting for me to talk

  I still can't make myself say it

  So you turn away

  And you've decided to walk

  **

  Amazing

  July 28th 2004

  It's amazing how you looked at me

  With a twinkle in your eyes

  It's amazing how you led me on

  Telling me those lies

  It's amazing how you said you loved me

  And you knew I wasn't aware

  It's amazing how you broke my heart

  And you don't even care

  **

  The Story of my Love

  July 29th 2004

  Why do I let

  Everyone pressure me?

  Into something

  I don't want

  Or someone

  I don't like, like

  Only I know

  What I want

  And I know where

  I can reach him

  Technology is so great!

  He's just an IM away

  And believe me when I say

  I really like him

  I still get butterflies in my stomach

  Just thinking of him

  But I feel so helpless

  Like there's nothing I can do

  But think of him

  And the way

  It could have been

  If only I'd said

  How I really felt

  But of course

  Being afraid

  I didn't tell him

  I've IM ed him

  Once or twice

  He didn't reply

  Third time's a charm

  Right?

  Yeah

  I could see

  But

  (There's always another but)

  I'm scared

  I don't think he still likes me

  I don't think he still cares

  There'd be nothing worse

  Than realizing

  Everything I wanted

  Everything I could've had

  Is gone

  On the other hand

  He might say something back

  He might still like me

  Keyword: might

  I don't know anymore

  I was stupid

  To give him up

  In the first place

  Well

  I didn't mean

  To give him up

  He just left

  And stopped talking

  To me

  But still

  Why should he still like me?

  It's been a while

  And I'm the one

  Who acted as if

  I didn't like him

  Not meaning to though

  I might add

  Still

  He's got no reason

  To still like me

  Sometimes I wonder

  About different things

  I wonder if

  He still likes me

  If he still thinks of me

  If he still thinks I'm cute

  To the max

  (He was very sweet)

  And if he'd ever want to try

  To make it work

  After all we've been through

  I want to try

  But I'm still scared

  To talk to him

  And I want to say

  I'm sorry

  **

  Untitled

  July 28th 2004

  Do I ever cross your mind anymore?

  Am I in your heart?

  I love you so much

  I hate to be apart

  But for you to come back

  For me to mess up once again

  I guess all I'll ever be

  Is a friend

  **

  The Days During the School Year

  July 29th 2004

  1. Monday, I'm wishing it were Friday.

  2. Tuesday, I'm still wishing for Friday.

  3. Wednesday, I'm happy because half of the week is over.

  4. Thursday, again I'm wishing it were Friday.

  5. Friday, I'm bored out of my mind waiting for the bell to ring.

  6. Saturday, I'm having fun or doing nothing at
all wanting every day to be Saturday.

  7. Sunday, I'm dreading tomorrow wishing it were Saturday again.

  **

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  About the Author

  Amilee Palmer is a twenty-five year old young writer who lives in North Carolina.

  She currently works as a waitress at Southern Family Restaurant in Pfafftown, North Carolina. Her interests include writing, playing video games, going to the movies, eating Japanese food, and spending time with her family. Writing is her first love.

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