You are the love of my life
By Khaleel Jooste
Copyright Khaleel Jooste 2014
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Ayat Al-Kursi
Allah - there is no deity except Him, the Ever-Living, the Sustainer of [all] existence. Neither drowsiness overtakes Him nor sleep. To Him belongs whatever is in the heavens and whatever is on the earth. Who is it that can intercede with Him except by His permission? He knows what is [presently] before them and what will be after them, and they encompass not a thing of His knowledge except for what He wills. His Kursi extends over the heavens and the earth, and their preservation tires Him not. And He is the Most High, the Most Great. (Surah Al-Baqarah 2:255)
As Allah wills
For you
I love you
You are the love of my life
2002 (May 1)
Dear Claire
I miss you.
I wrote these songs for you. When I see you again, I’ll sing and play them for you. God willing.
I’ll try to be home before Christmas.
Please give Mr Biggs a kiss.
I wish we had another place.
Love and miss you much
May God keep you safe
Ben
For the Love of my Life, My beautiful Claire
Fuzzy White Cardigan
Hot cocoa on the night stand
Twilight skies
She sits and writes
Freehand
The letter writing she likes
She smiles
Stares out the window
First signs of snow
She sighs
Writes some more
All her lows her highs
Her longing she puts on paper
With pensive face she drinks her hot cocoa
Cute girly sips
She smiles and stares out the window
Soon I will be home
She’s no longer alone
For now
Her fuzzy white cardigan keeps her warm
Verse 1
I met her at the park
It was late and very dark
She was scared
All alone no one cared
Her feet bare
She was cold
Keep running keep running her words odd
Bold foolish blind dare
I reached didn’t think
Didn’t have to it didn’t matter
Just reached perhaps I could make her feel better
Remove the sorrow the despair
Dry her beautiful eyes
Those tears
They tore me apart
Verse 2
She took a leap of faith
So did I
I took her hand
She took mine
I took her to my house
There wasn’t much
Only the cat dad’s hat a lighter for the cranky old furnace
She didn’t want or ask for much
Only a place to rest some warm water
She washed the cat and fixed the furnace
She made my house our home
All she requested was a pen some paper perhaps a diary
I got her a fuzzy white cardigan too
Guitar break
Verse 3
Now we play in the park
We’re both here to stay no longer afraid of the dark
We found each other
In this very park
It still gets dark
But she is not alone
No longer am I
Last time we flew a kite
We brought the cat
He doesn’t like her washing him he seems to like her though
When I have to go
She wears her cardigan and he watches her write
Outro
Her white cardigan keeps her warm
She’s no longer alone
She made my house our home
She loves my cat
Her fuzzy white cardigan keeps her warm
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Flying
Chorus
I thought I saved her
Instead she saved me
Now I’m flying
No longer crying
I’m flying
No longer dying
We’re flying
Let’s keep flying
Chorus 2
Flying flying flying
Let’s keep flying
Flying no longer dying
Verse 1
They came in the night
They took my family my light
The police came and went
They left the Chevy with a big dent
Too scared to stay alone
I took Dad’s tent
To the woods
Perhaps I would be safe
I found her by the lake
Chorus 1 & 2
Verse 2
I see them still
She got me off the pills
I cry at night
She helps to make things right
I fight them in my sleep
She’s there to wake me when I sink too deep
I thought she was alone
I thought she needed help
But I was alone
In need of help
Chorus 1 & 2
Chorus 3
Flying flying flying
Let’s stop crying
Flying
No more dying
Flying
Let’s keep flying
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Hold on
Chorus
Hold on
Hold on
I won’t let you go
Please don’t let me go
Hold on
Hold on
Love
Hold on
Verse 1
I know you’re scared
When I’m not there
You know I care
I do this for us for our unborn children
So that they
We
May be safe
Please
Chorus
Verse 2
I miss you
I miss you
God it hurts me inside
Sometimes I’m scared too
Here alone in a strange place
I keep to myself
I have your picture
That’s what I have
I cherish you
I hold on
Chorus
Verse 3
When I’m scared
I think of you
When I’m sad
I remember us
I have your picture
It helps me through
I’m coming home
Soon
Please Love
Hold on
Chorus
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Our Love Remains
Intro
Funny how things change
What’s stranger is that they stay the same
All I know is that our love remains
Whisper to me the way you do
Whisper love those words sweet and true
Whisper whisper whisper
Whisper more
Only you will
Only you will do
Verse 1
They came you know I told you they would
They changed the lock they changed the lock
They changed the lock to our tree-house
You remember the lock
I kno
w you do
Remember
Don’t you forget
People come and pass by our tree-house
They try to bypass the lock
The lock might have changed but the key remains
Remains
Chorus
Funny how things change
What’s stranger is that they stay the same
All I know is that our love remains
The lock might have changed
But our love remains
Only you have the key to our tree-house
Things change
Our Love Remains
Verse 2
Voice 1
Louder louder whisper louder dear
Louder louder sweet words in my ear
Voice 2
Still be still
Gentle be gentle
Be still and gentle
Voice 3
Hush hush hush hush hush
Hush hush hush hush hush
Hush
Be still
Be gentle
Hush
Solo
Whisper to me the way you do
Whisper love those words sweet and true
Come find me by our tree-house
You know they changed the lock
I told you they would
But one thing remains
That’s our tree-house
They might change the lock
But that’s our tree-house
Our love remains
Only you hold the key to our tree-house
Our love remains
Chorus
Together
Funny how things change
What’s stranger is that they stay the same
All I know is that our love remains
They can’t take our tree-house
Our Love Remains
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Meet me there
In
Promise I’ll remember the white candy
Those potato chips you like but deny yourself
I can’t fathom why
You’re perfect the way you are
Picnic only you and I
You know where
Meet me there
Chorus
There by the lake where we first met
Two strangers then
Guess it was fate
Strangers no more
Lovers I pray forever more
Don’t fuss too much your beautiful no matter what you wear
Let’s pass the time together you and me
May there be many more
Meet me there
Come meet me there
Come to our place there where they yes they do not know our love exists
Try as they might our love they can never take
Sunset I’ll be waiting
Remember to bring your smile along
Your laughter your warmth your sweet caress
Sunset I’ll be waiting
Meet me there
Come meet me there
Promise I won’t be grumpy
With you there’s no time for that you make me so happy
Let the birds bees flowers the trees share our time together
You know you love the water
Picnic only you and I
You know where
Meet me there
Promise to not make you sad you can never make me mad
Come tell me those stories you write
I love to hear them most especially your beautiful voice
Your catchy melodies
I’ll bring my guitar play you a song if that’s what you want
You know where
Meet me there
Come meet me there
Out
Save me a kiss
Let’s make those lilies blush
Don’t be late
You know where
Meet me there
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Freckles
She hates her freckles
I love her freckles
She wants to hide them behind the make-up
I want to throw away her make-up
She’s saving for some lazer surgery
Lord forgive me but I hope she loses it all in some burglary
Freckles or not
I love her
But with her freckles
She is all her
Lord you know what you did
Her freckles is what makes her unique
I love my Claire
Her freckles doesn’t define her
But it’s part of what makes Claire be her
Her need to have them be gone is foolish
Lord come with speed and make her see
Her freckles is part of her
Without it she would not be Claire
I love her regardless
But her freckles is what makes her Claire
She hates her freckles
I love her freckles
Freckles
Lord make her see
Make her see
Freckle face
You’re beautiful
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Can’t Sleep
Whoa-ooh-ooh-oh-oh-yeah
Whoa-ooh-ooh-oh-oh-yeah
Whoa-ooh-ooh-oh-oh-yeah
Mmmmmmmmmmm whoa oh oh yeah
Baby, without you, just can’t sleep
Verse 1
Been too many months too many hours
Babe, I’ve been counting the seconds
Time spent without you
Mmmmmmmmmmm whoa… mmmmmmm whoa oh oh oh yeah
Alone in my bed missing you this place is cold
Without you
Whoa-ooh-ooh-oh-oh baby
Whoa-oh babe
I miss you
Staring at the dull moon the fickle stars
My heart aches
I miss you
Try as I might your picture I hold tight
Still
Whoa-ooh-oh-oh-yeah
Baby without you
I just can’t sleep
Chrous 1
Super hugger
You and me
Jolly cones windows down
Trees ferns lilies remember
Tea you’re so British
Love that
Me a s sinner you a saint
Claire
Sweet Claire
Chorus 2
Me you
Holding hands
Love love love whoa love
Freckles my only tangerine
Sweet pumpkin my only munchkin
Love love my love
Always on my mind
Holding hands
Me you
In the park
Late at night till dawn
Love love whoa love
Without you
I just can’t sleep
Verse 2
Alone
Alone in this dirty city
Whoa-ooh-ooh-oh-oh baby
Wish you were here
I know we agreed and it’s only temporary
Still
I wish you were here
Red boxes red boxes
I filled them with roses
Whoa-ooh-ooh-oh-oh baby
Whoa-oh-babe
I hope you got them
Addressed them to Joan Doe
Whoa-ooh-ooh-oh-oh-yeah
Don’t hate me I just miss you
Without you
I just can’t sleep
Chorus
Mmmmmmmmmmm whoa… mmmmmmm whoa oh oh oh yeah
Whoa-ooh-ooh-oh-oh-yeah
Whoa-ooh-ooh-oh-oh-yeah
Whoa-ooh-ooh-oh-oh-yeah
Claire
Without you
I just can’t sleep
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With your hand in mine
Should have told you
But I pu
t up a front
Insecurities got the best of me
Should have told you
You got the lock only you have the key
With your hand in mine
I can do anything
With your hand in mine
I can climb the highest mountain
With your hand in mine
We move mountains
With your hand in mine
My faith is stronger
With your hand in mine
I believe in miracles
The gift of your love
Books can never contain
With your hand in mine
I have no more doubts
With your hand in mine
I am alive
Love believe me
They can say what they want
Should have listened to you
Not succumb to their whispers
Believe me
The insecurities got the best of me
I’m not superman
But you are my kryptonite
Believe me love
With your hand in mine
I am alive
With your hand in mine
I am alive
With your hand in mine
I am alive
With your hand in mine
I live
Love believe me
Love hold my hand
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No Other
It’s been 8 months since I saw your face
8 months since I kissed your lips
All I know is that it has been 8 months too long
I miss your touch your caress
I miss everything about you
No other compares
No other can ever make me feel like you do
8 months and no other
I see no other
All that matters is you
It’s been 8 months too long
I miss you
I love you
No other
No other but you
Remember to fire the grill
I’ll bring along the cheese
Super-size the chip-o-mexican-special-baker-no-onions-remember-wild-from-the-fields
No other
That’s the deal
No other
No other
Only that will do
Love remember
I have no other
No other
Only you
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Can’t tell the difference
Don’t wake me up
Don’t wake me up
Don’t wake me up
Can’t tell what’s real and what’s not
Can’t tell what’s reality and what’s fantasy
Girl since I met you my dreams came true
The sun shines brighter
Colors are warmer
Everything tastes better
Am I dreaming or am I awake
Girl, am I dreaming or is this our reality
Can’t tell the difference
Can’t tell the difference
If I’m dreaming
Don’t wake me up
Don’t wake me up
I can’t tell the difference
Can’t tell the difference
Walks in the park
Hand in hand soaring like small ants above the hill
Can’t tell the difference
Was that a mountain or was it a hill
Was that an ant or birds crawling down the hill
Can’t tell the difference
Can’t tell the difference
Don’t wake me up
Don’t wake me up
Don’t wake me up
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Complete
In
No more searching
I found her
Thank you Lord
I’m filled with gratitude
Thank you Lord