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What happened to me…? My mind is in a mess.
I want to stretch my hand out to pat my forehead, but, I can’t feel my body.
I, me, my—where is my body? Could it mean that I am dead?!
That’s right… I went to handle the affair with my brothers, I fell into the trap. And then… Fierce fighting… Explosions…
It seems like… that I am really dead…
Holy shit! I am in big trouble!
Calm down… Calm down… I must remain calm… Although I am dead… but I am still thinking right now…
That’s right! I’m still thinking! Doesn’t it mean that I still exist if I have thoughts?
That’s right! I still exist…
Shit! Even though I can think, or I have thoughts… what kind of thing should I be counted for?
I have no body, but I have thoughts… Soul?! Now I am a ghost?!
Oh no… Come on, God… I don’t want to die yet, I don’t have it enough yet, I don’t want to be a ghost! I still have so many brothers… So many properties…I haven't had enough funs yet...
When I think of my brothers, then I find out that I totally can’t feel their existence, this obviously is way beyond the limits of my knowledge…
I don’t know that how long I have been wandering around in this space. I have already learned the way how I am being existed now gradually. Basically, I exist right now as being a form of energy. I don’t have organs, I don’t have any entity. I am just a soul formed by a group of dissociated energy.
What I connected to the external world depends on a kind of special instinctual perception. This kind of perception keeps me out of all kinds of dangers in this space.
I also found that there are many similar individual exists in this space. Some are very strong… I don’t dare to get close to them. For those weaker than I am, hey hey… I will rush out at them at the first time, swallow them down… I will make their individuals my own with my relatively stronger power.
What? You say that I am cold-blooded? Shit! What else can I do?
In this damn space, besides those far more powerful than me individual exists, there are many strong energy shocks coming from nowhere. I would be destroyed if I am not very careful. It is not easy for me to exist. Once I thought of this, I just wanted to cry…
Finally one day. Actually, no, there is no time this concept in this space. I am saying like this just to suit you people.
Okay. Finally one day. After I found a swallowable snack again, I am ready to have my dinner. One of the most powerful energy shock that I have ever experienced pounce on me straightly… Before I could have any response, I was struck flying… Damn, I am not a rocket… It is really painful!
I feel that I have so many slight fluctuations, as if I broke a lot of very flexible bubbles.
Finally when I stopped, I know that I have arrived in another space, it is a safe space. I don’t know why I have that kind of feeling, but I am just that sure. I am touched.
“Fragile life, what are you thinking?” a deep voice transfers to my mind clearly.
“It is none of your business, don’t come to bother me!” I don’t respond to the voice right away yet while I am still in the mode of touched.
“You are inside of my body, if you don’t want to, I can send you out.”
“Wait a minute!” my thinking comes back a little bit, “you are talking with me?”
“In the strict sense, this couldn’t be counted as talking, it is the spiritual communication that we established. But with the ability of your thinking, it’s nothing wrong that you think about it this way.”
“Really? Then… what kind of thing are you?”
“Same as you, according to the way of your understanding, I am a life as well.”
“The way of my understanding? How do you know what my understanding way is?”
“When you entered into my body, I had already seen all of your memories.”
“You this thief!”
“I don’t have this word in my thought. To cope with the future risks, all the lives should share all the memories.”
“Those are my memories! Why don’t you share your memories with me?”
“By the level of energy that you have right now, you can’t bear it yet.”
“I don’t care…”
……
In the talking between the two of us, I learn that the space where I am in is at the edge of the universe, and the gigantic life exists even when the universe was formed at the beginning. It’s not going beyond the limit to say that she is gigantic, because by her side have four planets almost the size as her. Her knowledge about the universe is far exceeding than mine. I’m basically an idiot in front of her. But, she has something that can’t match up to me, just like…Well… I can act more shamelessly than she could.
In the not too long time, we became friends. She knows everything about me, I also know a little bit about her at the same time.
Because of her body configuration, I came up with a nickname for her, Cotton. But she just won’t call me the name “Tough, Unyielding, Fearless and Charming, Smart and Cool Dude Jack.” the reason? She says because it’s too long to remember. What kind of memory does she have?
“Little guy, what are you thinking?” see, she is more willing to call me this way.
“I am recalling the twenty four years of life that I have had,” I couldn’t help to have a little bit of sadness in my voice, “twenty four years! What did I leave in my life?”
“Are you still reluctant to leave your former life?”
“It’s not about reluctance or not, just, I have too many regrets.” the faces of my brothers were slide-showed on my mind one by one.
“That’s no use! The past is already in the past!”
“If let me to do it one more time, just once more, I’m sure that I can do it much better…” my voice has become very fuzzy.
“Really? Do you really want to live one more time so much? What if there is still only pains in the life which you experience once again?”
“I will change my fate! Why my fate will be controlled by others!”
“Do you really want to do it? Are you really not regretting your decision?”
“What’s the use to talk about this? No matter how badly I want to do it, with present my this look, it’s still no use!” I say, “it’s just kind of like daydreaming.”
“If you can satisfy one of my term, I will give you this chance.”
“What kind of joke it is, are you playing me?”
“I know this place, it really suits your requirements,” Cotton says, “but, I have one condition!”
“Why didn’t you tell me earlier that you know about a place like that? Can you send me there as soon as possible?!” I really have had of this kind of ghost life enough.
“Relax! It’s just an easy job for me to take you to that place.” Cotton is more and more foxy, “don’t you want to listen to my term first?”
“Let alone one term, even ten terms… if I can do it, I can promise you.” I can’t conceal my excited mood. “Hah haha!”
“My term is, you can’t call me Cotton anymore in the future!”
“No problem! No problem! Ha ha ha! That’s it? Ha ha ha! That will be no problem at all!”
“I will send you to there first, there are some things that needed to pay attention to, I’ll tell you one by one later after you get there.”
“Good, good, good. Ha ha ha! Why didn’t you tell me that you know how to do it?”
“Because not until now had I just found out that you’re really annoying...”
“Really? If I ever knew that, I would have annoyed you much more earlier! Ha ha ha…”
“Alright, what’s the new name you want to call me?”
“You don’t want to be called Cotton… Well… then I will call you Cotton Candy! Okay? Heh hehe…”
“Shut your mouth!”
…...
“You get the hell ou
t of here…”
Along with Cotton Candy’s voice, I can feel that my body has a slight shock…
“Ha hah haha…”
The Reborn special train! Start off!