“I pray to God Lady Nicholaa knows where she is when she wakes up.”
Clarise’s remark gained both warriors’ attention. “What are you rambling on about?” Hugh asked. “Of course she’ll remember where she is.”
Clarise shook her head. “There’s those who don’t remember a thing after they’ve been hit on the head or lost their blood. Some get confused. Others get forgetful. It’s the truth I’m giving you,” she added on a sob. “My lady might not even recognize me.”
“I’ve never heard of such an affliction,” Hugh scoffed.
Royce hadn’t taken his gaze away from his wife during the conversation, so he alone noticed that the grimace eased from her expression and she suddenly looked quite peaceful.
Was she listening to their conversation? “Nicholaa, open your eyes,” he commanded.
She didn’t obey him. She groaned instead. It was a dramatic sound, not the least bit convincing. What was her game?
He couldn’t contain his sudden smile. She was going to be all right. Relief swelled through him. “You will answer my questions when you wake up, Nicholaa.”
She didn’t respond. “She’s still in a swoon, milord,” Clarise whispered. “She’s all tuckered out.”
Royce let out a long sigh. And then he waited.
Several minutes passed. Clarise left to collect supplies to change Nicholaa’s bandage. Hugh saw to starting a fire in the hearth. Royce didn’t move from his position by the side of the bed.
She finally opened her eyes. Her gaze slowly turned to look up at Royce. Her eyes were clear, not cloudy. Her frown, he decided, was forced.
He guessed her plan before she put it into action.
“Where am I?” Nicholaa looked around the chamber before giving Royce her attention again.
He sat down on the side of the bed. “You’re in your chamber,” he answered. “You’ve been asleep a long while.”
“I have?”
He nodded.
“Who are you?”
He hid his exasperation. He’d been right: Nicholaa had heard Clarise’s remarks. He braced his hands on either side of her head and slowly leaned down. “I’m your husband, Nicholaa,” he whispered, “the man you love above all others.”
That announcement caused just the reaction he wanted. She looked astonished. He wanted more. “You don’t remember?” he whispered.
She shrugged. He smiled. “I’m the man you begged on bended knee to marry you. Surely you remember how you pleaded—”
“I didn’t beg you to marry me, you insolent—”
He silenced her with a long kiss. When he pulled back, she frowned up at him. He couldn’t have been more pleased. In his mind, his wife was already on the road to recovery.
“You’re going to have to explain your actions to me, Nicholaa.”
She stared up at him a long while. “I know,” she finally said on a long sigh. “I would ask that you wait until I’m feeling better, Royce. All right?”
He nodded. “You’re also going to give me your word that you will never, ever take such a foolish risk again. You are completely without self-discipline, Nicholaa.”
She was highly insulted. Royce stood up and walked toward the door. “I’ll wait until tomorrow to hear both your confession and your apology, wife. You have my permission to rest now.”
She bolted up in the bed. The action jarred her shoulder into stinging. “I was trying to save your hide, you ungrateful man.”
Royce didn’t pause in his stride. “Aye, you were,” he acknowledged. “But there was more to your actions than you’re telling, wasn’t there?”
She didn’t answer him. The spurt of anger had worn her out. She collapsed against the bed again. She was muttering her opinions of her husband when she noticed Baron Hugh standing by the hearth. Nicholaa was horrified the older knight had seen her act so undignified. “I don’t usually raise my voice to anyone,” she announced. “But that man does bring out my temper, Baron.”
Hugh smiled. “Do you usually call your husband a son of a boar?”
So he’d heard her muttering. Nicholaa let out a sigh. “Only when I believe no one can overhear me,” she confessed.
He walked over to stand next to the bed. “Are you rested enough to tell me what happened to you, Nicholaa? I’m intrigued by the bandages on your hands.”
She frowned. “It has been a most difficult week, Baron.”
“So it would seem.”
“I was perfectly sound until I met Royce.”
“Then you believe these injuries are all his fault?”
“Not directly,” she hedged.
From the expectant look on his face, Nicholaa knew he wanted the details, but she wasn’t up to giving them to him. Let Royce explain. “It’s a long story, sir,” she whispered. “A pitiful one, too. Suffice it to say that that man is responsible.”
“That man?”
“Royce.”
She closed her eyes and let out another sigh. Hugh assumed she wanted to rest. He turned to leave.
“I don’t know why I bothered to save his life,” she muttered. “Did he express his gratitude?”
Hugh paused in his stride. He was about to respond to her question when she answered it. “No, Baron, he did not. He wasn’t pleased with my courageous act, either. Nay, he was furious with me. He’s insufferable. You may tell him I said that, too, my lord.”
She closed her eyes again. Hugh tried to leave the chamber a second time. He was waylaid in the doorway by a request to give Royce a few more of her opinions.
Fifteen minutes later Hugh was finally able to leave the chamber.
Royce met him at the bottom of the steps. “I was just about to send someone to get you,” he announced. “Nicholaa needs her rest, Hugh.”
There was such disapproval in Royce’s voice that Hugh laughed. “I didn’t wear her out, if that’s your concern,” he said. “God’s truth, she wore me out giving me all her opinions of you. Would you like to hear a few of them?”
Royce let his friend see his exasperation. “I’m not interested in insignificant things. Nicholaa’s safe now. When she recovers, I’ll explain her duties to her.”
He went to the door and started outside, but Hugh stopped him. “It’s all so simple to you, isn’t it, Royce?”
“Of course,” Royce called over his shoulder. He took exception to the amusement he heard in his friend’s voice. “I may be newly married, Hugh, but I understand that there is only one way this partnership can work to everyone’s satisfaction. I will give the orders, and she will obey them. I’ll be patient, of course. She deserves that consideration. Marriage is new to her, too,” he added. “Once she catches on, life will go along peacefully. She only has to obey me, Hugh. It won’t be difficult.”
“Does Nicholaa understand this dictate?” Hugh asked.
“In time she will,” Royce vowed. His voice was as hard as stone when he added, “I will have a peaceful home.”
The door slammed shut on that promise.
Hugh turned to look up the stairs. He laughed again. Aye, he thought to himself, Royce would have peace. But Nicholaa would have his heart first.
Chapter Ten
She decided to be nice. After all, she’d tried everything else. Nagging hadn’t worked. Neither had shouting. Nicholaa was getting desperate. She reasoned that if she turned pleasant, Royce might retaliate in kind. Perhaps then he would listen to her orders.
It was high time he brought Justin and little Ulric home. A full two weeks had passed since they’d returned to Rosewood. She’d expected Royce to collect her family right away, but it soon became apparent he wasn’t in the mood to obey her commands. He avoided doing his duty as thoroughly as he’d been avoiding her. Why, in the past fourteen days, she’d seen her husband only six or seven times.
She hadn’t minded his inattention the first few days. She knew he was irritated that she hadn’t explained her actions on the day of the attack. Still, he’d agreed to wait until she was ready
to tell him. At least that was the conclusion she came to when she’d made her position clear and he’d given her a no-nonsense nod.
Now that she thought about it, Nicholaa realized it was just after she explained her position that he had started ignoring her.
It was time to right things between them. She wanted to be a proper wife. God’s truth, she hated the way he was ignoring her. He wasn’t acting at all the way a husband should act around his wife, or so she believed from her extremely limited observations of marriages.
He wasn’t sleeping in her chamber, either. Clarise told her he’d taken over the north bedroom, which had belonged to Nicholaa’s father and mother. The large bed had been built to accommodate her father’s sizable bulk. The hearth was enormous as well, since the area the fire warmed was thrice the size of Nicholaa’s small room.
She understood Royce’s reasons for selecting the chamber, yet still thought it rude he didn’t sleep with her. He was her husband, after all, and they should rest side by side. The truth stung. He could have invited her to share his bed . . . but he hadn’t.
Nicholaa didn’t want to go on like this any longer. She was miserable. She decided she would have to put her pride aside. Come hell or high tide, she would find a way to turn this mockery of a marriage around.
She would start by finding out why he was avoiding her. She probably wouldn’t like his answer, and she knew he could be as blunt as a dull knife when he gave his opinion. Still, she was determined to ask.
She dressed with care for dinner, bathing and washing her hair with sweet-scented soap. Clarise assisted her. The dear woman had openly wept when the bandages were removed from Nicholaa’s hands and she saw all the scars.
Nicholaa had been embarrassed. The ugly marks were much more evident on her left hand and wrist. She didn’t consider herself a vain woman, but the hideous scars did worry her. Royce might be as repulsed by the marks as she was.
She decided to turn his attention from them by wearing her prettiest gown. The color was pleasing to look upon, or so she hoped. Both garments were the palest of blue. The fit was snug, but not overly so.
Yet maybe the gold would be a better choice. Nicholaa worried over that possibility until Clarise came back into the chamber. She then put the question to the servant. “Do you think my husband would prefer the gold or the blue?”
“I favor the blue, milady, but I don’t know your husband’s preferences.”
“I don’t know them, either,” Nicholaa admitted. “Now that I think about it, I don’t know any of Royce’s preferences.”
Clarise smiled at the irritation in her mistress’s voice. When she picked up the brush, Nicholaa sat down on the stool. The servant brushed her hair until it crackled. Twice she began to fashion a braid, and twice her mistress changed her mind.
Clarise had never known Nicholaa to be so indecisive or so concerned about her appearance. “What’s got you so riled, milady?”
“I’m not riled. I just want to look pretty tonight.”
Clarise smiled. “Are you wanting to look pretty for anyone in particular?”
“My husband,” Nicholaa answered. “I’m determined to get his attention tonight.”
“Now, that’s telling.”
Nicholaa was thankful the servant couldn’t see her face. She could feel herself blushing. “I’ve come up with a sound plan.”
Clarise chuckled. “You’ve always got a sound plan.”
Nicholaa smiled over the praise in the servant’s voice. “In these trying times, one must always be a step ahead.”
“The times aren’t trying any longer,” Clarise said. “Your husband’s bringing order to the household, milady.”
Nicholaa shook her head. Clarise had every right to be optimistic. She didn’t know Thurston was still alive. Nicholaa hadn’t told anyone that secret. She couldn’t even think about her brother without a tightness settling inside her chest.
“For some the war is over,” she whispered. “For others it has only just begun.”
“What nonsense is this, milady?” Clarise asked. “You aren’t talking about your marriage, are you, now? You aren’t at war with your husband. You’re just being a bit stubborn, if you’re wanting my opinion.”
Nicholaa didn’t respond to the servant’s opinions. Clarise turned her attention when she said, “Tell me about this plan of yours, milady.”
“I’m going to be very pleasant tonight at dinner,” Nicholaa answered. “Royce isn’t going to rile my temper, no matter what horrible things he says to me. I hope that when he notices how accommodating I’m being, he’ll reciprocate in like measure. Then perhaps he’ll listen to reason and go fetch my family for me.”
Clarise couldn’t hide her disappointment. When Nicholaa stood up and reached for her braided belt, she caught the servant’s frown. “You don’t think my plan is sound?”
“Oh, it’s sound all right,” she agreed. “I’m just disappointed, milady. I hoped you were getting all prettied up for quite another reason.”
Nicholaa adjusted the belt just so on her hips, then slipped her small meat dagger into one of the narrow loops.
“There is more to my plan,” Nicholaa said. “I’m not at all happy with the way my marriage is going. Royce is difficult to get along with. Surely you’ve noticed how he ignores me. Why, every time I try to talk to him about Justin and Ulric, he turns and walks away. He’s horribly rude. Right in the middle of my petition I suddenly find myself talking to his shadow.”
“Petition?” Clarise replied with a snort. “Your husband leaves when you start ordering him around, milady. That’s what I’ve noticed. You haven’t been yourself these past weeks, if I may say so, and you’ve done more ordering and shouting than ever before.”
Nicholaa knew Clarise was speaking the truth. She bowed her head in embarrassment. “My husband does prick my temper,” she confessed. “Still, I promise there won’t be any more shouting. I realize how unladylike it is.”
The servant smiled. “You won’t be doing any shouting because you realize it doesn’t work with your husband.”
Nicholaa nodded. “That, too,” she said. “You can quit frowning, Clarise. I’ve decided it’s time Royce and I put our differences aside.”
“Well, praise God,” the servant said. “You’ve finally come to your senses. It isn’t right to sleep apart the way you two do. Are you telling me you’re going to correct this shame?”
Nicholaa stared at the hearth. Lord, she was embarrassed. It was difficult for her to discuss such a personal topic. “I’m going to seduce him.”
Clarise hooted with laughter. Nicholaa frowned at her. “This is a serious topic,” she announced.
She waited for the servant to gain control of herself, then said, “Royce and I are going to have a fresh beginning. Marriage is a sacred vow, and it is my duty to give the man children.”
Before Clarise could agree, Nicholaa rushed on. “It doesn’t matter how it came to happen. Royce and I are married now. We must accept this and try to live together in harmony. I’m also thinking of Ulric. The baby deserves a happy home.”
“You don’t have to convince me, milady. I’m in favor of this plan. There is one problem I would mention, though. Doesn’t your husband think Ulric’s your son?”
“Yes.”
Clarise let out a sigh. “He’ll be noticing you lied, milady, when he beds you. You’d better tell him the truth before he finds out on his own.”
Nicholaa shook her head. “I had good reason for telling that lie,” she said. “I was protecting Ulric. As long as the Normans believed he was my son, they’d leave him alone.”
“But things have changed,” Clarise argued. “And you can’t possibly believe your baron would harm the babe now.”
The servant sounded outraged. Nicholaa realized then that Clarise had already given her loyalty to Royce. That pleased her, though she couldn’t understand why. “Once I met Royce, I knew he wouldn’t harm Ulric. Still, he might use him to get Thurston
’s cooperation. There is that worry.”
“What foolishness are you talking?” Clarise asked. “We both know Thurston’s dead.” The servant paused to make a quick sign of the cross. “God rest his soul.”
“What if he isn’t?” Nicholaa asked.
“Your baron still wouldn’t use the babe against him. I believe that with all my heart.”
Nicholaa let out a sigh. She turned the topic just a little then. “I know that a marriage based on deceit is doomed. I’ve already given Royce my promise never to lie to him again.”
“So you’re going to tell him—”
“I’m going to get him sotted first,” Nicholaa announced. “Then I’m going to tell him everything.”
“Have you lost your mind, milady?”
Nicholaa laughed. The astonished look on Clarise’s face was amusing. “I know what I’m doing,” Nicholaa said. “Alice told me that when a man has had too much ale, he doesn’t remember much of what he’s been told. I’ll confess my lie about Ulric and tell Royce another secret I’ve been worrying over, but if Royce is muddleheaded, he’ll remember only bits of what I’ve told him come morning.”
Clarise thought that had to be the most daft plan she’d ever heard. “You’d better have another plan in mind if this one doesn’t take,” she advised. “Alice is a twit, giving you such ignorant advice. A drunk man usually thinks only about sleep, but if he’s set to dally, he won’t be considerate, especially if he thinks you’re experienced.”
Nicholaa shook her head. “Royce would never hurt me.”
“He might not want to, but . . .”
Clarise stopped trying to explain when her mistress walked out of the chamber. She chased down the corridor after Nicholaa. “Milady, you’ve come up with a poor plan this time. You’ll have to take my word on this, for I’ve had quite a bit of experience, God forgive me, and you haven’t had any experience at all. I’ve seen the way the baron watches you when you aren’t noticing. He’s wanting you something fierce, and unless you explain . . .”