the stimulator fine because I remembered dad’s driving lessons. We were graded on how well we used the stimulators. I think I did well. Bruce and I walked home together. We didn’t talk much but I had a creepy feeling of being watched. Bruce kissed me on the lips at the door to my house. I enjoyed it. It was nice to see him. I watched TV then I ate some food. I got a phone call from Sean telling me to report to the medical bay tomorrow. I set my alarm clock. I hope I wake up then. I think I’ll go to bed early. I’m tired. Early today I felt like I was banging into walls on my way home with Bruce. I didn't tell him this but it feels like I was in a corridor somewhere. I also got an image of white walls whenever I banged into them. It was very odd.
Yours,
Elizabeth
March 2, 2101
Dear Anne,
I woke up again. I couldn’t sleep. I had a disturbing dream. I dreamed that I was in a room with a man dressed as a doctor. He was bald and stood staring at me. It was like he was a psychic. Mom was next to him interpreting what he said.
He said "Elizabeth? Tell the virus to leave your mind alone."
Then I woke up. I confused. What do they mean leave your mind alone? It doesn't make any sense at all. I don’t want to take the pill in case I over sleep. I decided to read a book. Victoria and Demeter are on my bed. They're watching me write. I think I’ll try to sleep now. I have to get up soon. yawn. yawn again. I dreamed of the same man again. He was yelling while mom was interpreting.
He said "Kurt Deboy! Get out of her now!"
It frightened me. I was scared and felt an awful headache. I fell asleep and then I woke up with my left arm feeling sore. It felt like needles pinched it. Why is the doctor saying Kurt's name? It doesn't make sense. It's really confusing. I got up feeling tired. I walked thru the fog to the medical bay door. Sean stood there glaring at something. I had to wave my hands over his face to get his attention. I remembered to bring my pills. The doctor’s appointment went fine. Sean did a lot of tests on me. I told him about waking up early in the morning and sleeping pass my alarm clock. He asked me if I had a period. I told him no. He told me my sleepiness must be due to not having a period. The test results show I’m not making hormones in my body. He suggested I take pills at the same time every day to get hormones. I gave him the sleeping pills. Then I was free to go home. I walked home. I got a video message from Anna who told me to report to work. I went home to take a nap then I went to work. I saw Sue. She looked bigger for someone whose three months pregnant. She put on a lot of weight. Her clothes were drapery type clothes. What’s new with her was she complained about the nausea, throwing up and morning sicknesses. I worked my best cleaning the children’s area. I did my best to work today. Anna told me to report to work tomorrow. After work I walked home. I went home to feed the cats then I ate some dinner. I took the hormone pills today. The side effects are headache and a throw up feeling in my throat. I ate some food and I felt better. I sat in the kitchen with Victoria in my lap. Demeter tried to play with my pen. It explains my handwriting. I don’t have much to add. I counted the pages. I filled up thirty-one pages. I think I might want to type what I wrote. It might be a good idea. I don’t know. I took a shower. The water was hot. I liked it. It was okay. I should be going to bed now. I wanted to fill up a page. I like to write. It helps me feel good about myself. Writing helps me get rid of my feelings. I feel better writing. I’m in my room and the cats are in my room. I left my bathrobe in an open bureau drawer. Victoria is sitting in my bureau drawer. Demeter is sitting in my lap. I hate having to move her. I have to go to bed. I had a vision of a white wolf who told me mentally to go outside. I went outside and changed into my wolf form. My senses became alert as Bruce came in a human form. I watched him change into a wolf. Then we walked together in the forest till we reached a clearing. Several other wolves were there playing then they stopped when the white wolf appeared from the forest. It was a meeting of the tribe. The white wolf mentally introduced Bruce and I. The other wolves came to us and sniffed noses and then rubbed themselves on our flanks as if it’s a greeting. After that the white wolf led Bruce and I home. I noticed that I didn’t have any hearing while in the wolf form. I could tell that Bruce didn’t have any hearing at all either. At home I changed out of my wolf form by shaking myself and standing on my hind legs. Bruce did the same and then he kissed me on the lips and walked home. I watched the white wolf leave as I went inside the house. I took a shower because the cats were running away from me with their ears flat. I smell like a dog or a wolf. PU. It was good to shower and then I went to my room and watched the cats peering at me from behind the door. They looked scared but they curiously came in my room and proceeded to sniff me every where. Weird cats.
Yours,
Elizabeth
March 4, 2101
Dear Anne,
I was so tired that I didn’t bother to write in my journal. Once again it was missing and I couldn’t find it at all. Here’s what I did yesterday, I slept fine. I didn't have any weird dreams. The clock woke me up. Work went fine. The customers were okay. I cleaned the children’s area the best I could. I went on my first break with my second break. Anna was in a good mood. I saw Sue working at the credit counter. She was busy. I didn’t talk to her. I looked around for hat and gloves. I think I’m coming down with a cold. I was sneezing last night. I’m still sneezing. Anna suggested I go to the medical bay to get myself checked. I’m getting sick of going to the medical bay. I’m sick of being tested. I hate the tests. One of the tests is needles put in my arm to draw blood. Disgusting. My sneezing stopped. Anna didn’t bug me to go. I brought my lunch and snack to work. I brought a hat and gloves in my favorite color blue. I ate red apples and apple juice. It's one of the foods I can eat. Apples are grown in Canada. Sue’s break times are different from my break times. I had an hour and fifteen minutes before my shift is over. I brought the hat and gloves from the credit counter where Sue worked. It was great to see Sue. She looked a bit bigger. I guess she might be having twins. I told Sue that. She told me she’s having one baby. I hope she brought some things. I asked Anna about having a baby shower for Sue. Anna told me there’s one in the works. She’ll let me know when the shower is. I hope Sue will be okay. Anna asked me to come to work tomorrow. I agreed to it. I got home fine. I felt much warmer with my hat and gloves. I wore boots to work. They're comfortable to wear. I found a video message from Sean. He asked me to come to the doctor’s office for an appointment. I’m mad. I’m getting sick of visiting the doctor. Something keeps making me sick. I’m sick of it. I’m annoyed. I fed the cats. I ate some dinner with my pills. I think I’ll go to bed now. I have to get up early. Ugh. I’m sick of getting up early. I’m getting sick of tests. I wonder what tests Sean has in mind. Humph.
I woke up with the cats on me snoozing away. I also saw my journal on the floor. I looked through it and saw some pages appeared to be ripped out. Why are they doing this? It doesn’t make any sense at all. I had no dreams. Except I could have sworn I heard laugher. I had an hour to go before my doctor’s appointment. I fed the cats. Victoria was sitting in my lap. She was purring. Demeter was trying to play with my pen. Sigh. I hate tests and the doctor’s appointment. I’m getting sick of it. Ugh.
The doctor’s appointment went fine. I asked Sean why I had the appointment. He explained I was seen sneezing at work. Sue was also sneezing too. Oh. I’m surprised that I’m not the only one sneezing. I had my blood tested. I’m getting tired of needles. Ugh. After the appointment I walked to work. I was early that I brought cat food and some food, which I had sent home. Work was fine. The customers were polite to me. Sue worked at the credit register. I brought some food. I ate an apple for snack. I checked the schedule. I’m not working tomorrow. I walked home. My food was waiting on the steps for me. I brought them inside the house. My food was in a box that was a refrigerator. I left the box outside. It is snowing out. It hasn’t snowed in a long time. I watched the news. The news say there’s a snowstorm coming. Cut
e. The news added that another ship is coming over today. It’s coming over on the Winchester continent. I checked online. It's bringing stuff. Stuff like materials to build houses and other things. I checked my gymnastics web site. It had one thousand hits. I already added a guest book page. I wanted to see if I would get any visitor comments. I added a new layout on my gymnastics web page. Demeter climbed in my lap. She snoozed while I worked on the web site. By the way I took my pills. I plan to sleep late. I hope for some excitement to happen because it’s the same over and over again. I keep writing the same thing over and over again and it’s bound to bore me. What I need is some excitement really.
Bored,
Liz
March 5, 2101
Dear Anne,
I went to bed and I had no weird dreams. I got up feeling refreshed. I feel fine. I checked my video messages. No messages. I sent Sue a video message. I complained about going to the doctor and taking blood tests. I wanted to see if she was all right. She wasn’t home. I sent Bruce a video message. I haven’t seen him in a while. Outside it’s snowing