Bliss turned around and got onto his hands and knees and felt behind him with the toe of his shoe for the ladder. As he made his way down he said, “Justice. What a world.” He stopped to scratch his armpit.
Hodge went on smiling like a man about to be shot. He stood with his legs planted wide apart, his head tipped forward as if for balance, his folded arms resting on his monumental belly.
At the kitchen door, handing him the check, Merton Bliss said, “Hottest summer I ever seen. It’s a hundred and ten by the thermometer on the barn. So hot in the goll-dern chickenhouse the shells won’t harden. That’s the truth. Franny Buckenmeyer filled up that silo of his with some hay ensilage, and the weather got so hot it just turned into ashes. You drive by in your car and you can see it. Ashes blowing from the top of the silo and scattering over the pastures till they’re whiter than snow. Fact. And the milk! The cows lie out in the sun all day and when you put your hands on their tits you got to use gloves, that’s how hot they git. The milk comes out powder. You ask anybody. All the water’s just boiled right away. This last two weeks we been shippin our milk in paper boxes. That’s the truth.”
Hodge held out his hand and Bliss read the check over, blew on the ink, then gave it to him.
“No hard feelings, Will?” Bliss said. He smiled.
Hodge read the check.
“Too bad Eleanor ain’t here. She’ll be sorry she missed you. She’s off somewheres hellin around for the fool Red Cross.”
“G’day, Merton,” Hodge said.
“So long, Will. See here, I’m sorry about that boy.”
Hodge said nothing, outwardly calm as a tree.
“Sometimes these things’ll just happen,” Bliss said. “It’s just Nature. Nothin you can do about it. It’s like the time Glen Westbrook slept out on his porch all night. You heard about that. Woke up in the mornin and his wooden leg had been chewed off clean at the stump. Beavers had got it. That’s Nature.” He shook his head. “But I’ll tell you something.” He poked Hodge’s belly. “Say a word to that boy of yours. Thing about a lawyer, he makes his money getting people off on some technicality, and pretty soon he don’t know there’s a right and wrong. And that’s the truth.”
Hodge swallowed.
“No hard feelings,” Bliss said.
“G’day,” Hodge said. Like a dazed horse he went toward his car.
He drove by Brumsteads’. The white board fence had been broken down and run over on both sides of the barn. So it was true about Luke. He drove on down Putnam Settlement Road toward his brother’s place. At the crest of the hill he could look across the valley past the slow green creek and the meadowland with Queen Anne’s lace and wild mustard and daisies scattered through it, and he could see on the crest of the farther hill the square wooden silo, the paintless barn with its rusted tin roofs, the tamarack trees, the house. Ben’s. His grief whelmed up in him again and threatened to overcome him. The air grew less breathless, and the shadows of the yellow-green apple trees of the side-hill orchard intensified his sorrow. Poor Ben. Maybe he’d stop and say hello, and then visit his daughter Mary Lou, in the front part of Ben’s house. Could he manage it? Apple pie came into his mind. Pale country pie, with crusts as flaky as the day is long. Mary Lou made the best apple pies in New York State.
Tears came in a rush and he pulled to the side of the road until it was over.
6
They sat in Ben’s bright yellow kitchen. (Mary Lou wasn’t home, in the front part, and there was no pie, but there were cookies.) Outside the window, to Will Hodge Sr’s left, the yard was like a lot outside Walt Mullen’s farm machinery store. To Will Hodge’s eye every detail outside was unnaturally distinct, the way things look in your childhood or after a death in the house. There was a big red self-propelled combine parked under the tallest of the tamaracks, beside it a yellow self-unloading wagon of newly combined wheat, beyond that a rusty corn chopper, two old tractors, a Gravely lawn mower, the school bus Ben had bought from the Alexander Central system, Ben’s motorcycle, the truck. There were also two bicycles leaning on a tree, and a teeter-totter on a sawhorse. Beyond the machinery and toys, the hillside sloped toward pastureland, the broad valley, the basswood-shaded farther hill. The basswoods were yellow-green where the sun struck them, its light breaking in wide shafts through glodes in the overcast sky. It was beautiful, sad and unreal, where the sunlight struck. You felt as though life would be different there, the air lighter and cooler, the silence more profound.
They could see that his eyes were red, but they didn’t speak of it. He had known he could trust them to wait for a sign from him.
Ben’s kitchen was close and crowded. Once it had been huge, built in the days of another kind of farm life, when there were thrashing crews to be fed in August, and hay crews in June and July, maple-syrup crews in the early spring, and in the winter, woodcutters who’d come in from their week in the black-oak and maple and pine woods a mile south of the house and would be full of tall tales of their week in the cabin, their faces bright red and greasy from the cold and the diet of fatty pork. The woodshed would be wet with the snow of their boots. But now the kitchen had been broken up, a large square right in the center of it sealed off to make a downstairs bathroom for the Old Woman, the last year she lived. The wide iron woodstove was gone, replaced by a small, more efficient stove run on butane. The wide wooden table was gone, too, replaced by scalloped aluminum and formica, cluttered always with Ben Hodge’s bills and books and equipment manuals, and with Vanessa’s papers from school. The kitchen walls were littered with more papers—calendars, more bills, papers for taxes—tacked or tucked wherever they could be, from armlevel almost to the ceiling.
Ben said, “It’s terrible, all right.” He polished his tinted glasses.
Will Hodge nodded, emptied of emotion, and, wanting a cigarette, took another cookie.
The Negro boy who worked for Ben sat stirring his coffee, the spoon going around and around mechanically. You never knew what he was thinking or how much he heard. His round, coal-black face hung forward from his slumped shoulders, and his eyes might as well have been the kind a taxidermist uses, yellow-brown and devoid of any hint of depth.
“Poor devil,” Ben said, shaking his head, thinking.
“Well, Salvador never felt a thing at least,” Will said. “Dead instantly, doctor says.”
The Negro boy sipped his coffee, looking at nothing.
Ben nodded, but he had been thinking of Clumly, not Salvador. He said, “We saw Fred Clumly at Al Hubbard’s funeral. Worn to a frazzle. It’s funny he didn’t mention that bearded fellow to you—the one he calls the Sunlight Man. It was all he could talk about when we saw him.”
They looked at each other, frowning, then looked away. Ben knew Will had left something out, Will could see. Will slid his lower jaw forward and said nothing.
“Poor devil,” Ben said again, accepting Will’s silence. He put his glasses back on, brushed a crumb from his cheek, then leaned his red, stiff hands on the edge of the table. “He’s having kind of a time of it, I’ve heard. Who knows. Maybe it scares him to think it might’ve been that Sunlight Man that came and let Nick out of jail. It’s bad enough letting a prisoner escape. Whole lot worse if he comes walking back in afterward and lets out another one.”
“Mmm,” Will said. Excitement was building up in him, dull and slow in its beginning. That was it, all right. Ben had put his finger on it. Will said, “So he tries to fool people into thinking Will Jr—”
“I wouldn’t go that far,” Ben said, not understanding what he’d caught in Will’s voice, merely knowing there was something there. “Put yourself in Clumly’s place. Even if he does think that bearded man did it, that’s not your business, far as Clumly’s concerned.” He spoke a little too slowly, casting around for what was wrong. “He comes to your office and finds out that just by coincidence Will Jr’s been there that morning. That might not be odd, some other time, but it’s true Will Jr’s been a friend to the boy. Yo
u and I may be sure Will Jr wouldn’t go and set a prisoner free, and maybe Clumly’s pretty much the same opinion. Just the same, there it is, here he was in town on a Sunday morning, and alone, too, family not with him. It’s queer enough that he can’t overlook it, whatever his opinion is. Clumly’s a policeman. He can’t afford to trust his private opinions.” But Ben was not convinced himself of what he was saying.
Will nodded guiltily.
They could hear Vanessa starting down the stairs, on the far side of the bathroom in the kitchen. Will leaned forward and poked the tabletop with one finger. He said, keeping himself very calm, “He’s covering himself, that’s what he’s doing. He let that little Redskin out just as sure as if he opened the cell door himself. He let … the bearded one … slip through his fingers. …” He lost track of what he was saying and had to concentrate, leaning over and covering his eyes with one hand. “That was bad enough all by itself,” he said then, “but it’s a whole lot worse if it was just the beginning, if the one that got away was—a maniac.” He bit his lip, listening to the silence. He said then, fiercely, “Clumly’s hiding the connection. Covering himself.”
“Well, maybe,” Ben said. He didn’t like the conversation, it was clear. He knew Will too well. Will was aware that he’d spoken much too loudly.
Vanessa appeared at the foot of the stairs, sweating and puffing hard. “Will!” she said. “I thought that was your voice.” She was pleased, smiling her crooked alligator smile.
“Afternoon, Vanessa,” Will said still more loudly.
“Well what have you heard?” she said. “What a horrible thing!” She came over and, though it was bad for her, took two cookies. “Mmp!” she said. Grick, grick. She was a loud chewer.
Again he told his story, all but the picture. The truth came clearer and clearer as he told it, as though it were Ben who was telling it. Vanessa sat now squeezed between the table and the bathroom wall, hands leaning on the edge of the table, exactly as her husband’s were, except when she reached to the cookie plate. Her cotton-colored hair flew around her head like fire.
“We saw him at Hubbard’s funeral, you know,” she said, meaning Clumly. “He acted odd, we thought.”
“So Ben was saying.”
“I can tell you I know just how he feels,” she said. She sighed, thinking of herself, and took a bite. “I remember how Eva Thompson was, toward the end. It was such a sad thing. She was a wonderful teacher before she got old. But then she got to falling asleep in her classes, and the children were just too much for her. So baffled she used to look sometimes! Poor dear. And she smelled, everyone said.” She paused to chew. Then: “Terrible.”
“Fred Clumly’s hardly to that point,” Ben said. He sounded annoyed.
“Oh, I don’t mean that,” Vanessa said. “But he was peculiar, at the cemetery. And you know as well as I do what people say.” She compressed her lips, then licked.
They said nothing. All four sat considering the tabletop, and Ben seemed as sunk into his thoughts as the Negro boy. Outside, the sky had turned greenish golden now. Storm weather. The tamaracks on the lawn looked darker, and space had taken on a new intensity, like space in a three-dimensional slide viewer. Ben’s Holsteins were standing by the barn door at the foot of the slope. It was choretime.
Vanessa said, “The poor Paxtons!”
Even before he had made the adjustment or knew that the subject had suddenly changed, Will Hodge started inwardly, feeling the connection before he knew he was seeing it. That was all years behind them, the Paxton trouble, but for Will Hodge the misery of that time was still alive, however far buried under layers of days. Even now he would sometimes awaken in a sweat, as he’d done then, though his brother Tag’s bills were long since paid, and Kathleen Paxton long since hidden away. He never saw the Paxtons any more. Almost no one saw them, for that matter, except Vanessa. Vanessa Hodge saw everyone: she had a hide like an elephant, and she could not tolerate bad blood, broken friendships. So that for all Clive Paxton’s dislike for the Hodges, Vanessa had kept touch. She would talk for hours on the telephone with Elizabeth Paxton—not regularly, not more than twice or three times a year, but regularly enough. And at the time of old Paxton’s first stroke she had gone to the house with her sympathy and some beans. It was a wonder to Will Hodge Sr that it hadn’t killed the old man. But no doubt she had wept and held his hand and overwhelmed him. Her emotions were like a child’s, as swift and intense and as innocent, however absurd; as irrational as the emotions of a sheep.
Ben was cleaning his glasses again. The conversation was painful to him, too.
“Elizabeth says there wasn’t any will. Clive was superstitious about it, she says. It was as if as long as he hadn’t had a will drawn up he didn’t believe he could die. And after all those attacks! I imagine you heard how they found him.”
“Well now,” Ben said.
But Vanessa was a freight train, once she got started. She even forgot to eat. “He was sitting at his desk in the study. Silting bolt-upright, with his eyes open. He’s been practically living in his study, this past year. He couldn’t go up and down stairs any more, so he slept in his study on the couch and took his meals there, off a TV tray—so Elizabeth says. They had an oxygen tent right there for him, and all those things they use. She had a terrible time getting him to eat anything, he was so sick. But he still kept busy. He was working on his memoirs—all those trips they used to take through the Genesee Valley, the interesting characters they’d met, and so on. And he still kept his diary. Clive had a record of every day of his life, except for his time in the hospital. But the entries got shorter and shorter, the last few days. And the last night—” She shook her head and rubbed her fingers together. “He seemed to know he was going. On the last page he was just writing ‘The End,’ Elizabeth said. It was an awful scribble. If only he’d had the sense to write a will!”
Will Hodge scowled. She made it sound like a soap opera.
Ben cleared his throat.
“Poor Elizabeth,” she said. “He was sitting in his pajamas and bathrobe, bolt-upright behind his desk. He was so shrivelled his face was like a skull. He was like a child in a grown-up’s red bathrobe, she says. How awful it must have been for her, coming in on him like that! Well, there’s sure to be trouble enough! It never was a happy family, Heaven knows, and you can be sure there’ll be a court case over the money. And how on earth they’ll manage to look after Kathleen—”
Will Hodge snorted.
“I wonder if Taggert knows,” she said.
Again no one answered. A pain forked up through Will’s belly and chest. Even if he did know, what was he to do? Kathleen wouldn’t know him—she no longer recognized anyone, as far as they could tell. And the family had no love for him. Even his relationship with the rest of the Hodges was touch and go. It came to him in a flash that Tag did know. That’s the reason for all this. He knows. Half out of his mind. He gave an involuntary jerk, and they looked at him. He made himself calm.
Before Will Hodge was fully aware that he’d stopped thinking about his brother, he found himself toying cautiously, as if at arm’s length, with a new idea. Clumly would be at the funeral. Fred Clumly made them all. It was one of his oddities. A man could see him there. Why it was that Hodge wanted to see him, watch him from a distance, was not clear to him; nevertheless, he felt the desire rising like a madness. He felt again the sting of the Salvador woman’s accusation and felt again the urge he’d felt then to defend himself, for once in his life take some bull by the horns, strike out, be rid of confusion. Tag, Luke, Will Jr. He saw him fixing the chair in the chickenhouse, hair light as down. The child’s face was a blur. With surprising clarity he saw himself standing in the crowd as he imagined Ben and Vanessa had stood at the cemetery, observing the wrinkled grub-white policeman at the side of the grave, police cap resting on his belly. It was like an image from the Devil, dreamlike, full of some unhealthy pleasure. So he’d felt—it must be three weeks ago now—sitting by the road in
his car late at night, with fog spreading out from the marsh between the tarpaper house and the woods, his car full of the stink of old cigarettes, as he watched for the sordid lover of his client’s wife to come creeping to the house. He saw Tag sitting at the desk across from his own, feet up, expensive shoes polished like dark brown piano wood. Kathleen had a desk to the left of his. She worked on income tax forms. Will closed his eyes tight.
“Well,” Ben said loudly, in a tone that might have been Will Hodge’s own, except that Ben’s voice was musical, like a voice that might come from a big silver cup, and Will’s was like the voice of an empty barn at night, “time to milk the cows.” He stood up. Though the Negro didn’t move, his eyes came partway to life.
Will got up too. “I’d better get back to town. Thanks for the coffee.” His knees were weak.
Now Vanessa got up, awkwardly, as always. She almost knocked Will’s cup from the table. “Pooh!” she said. The near-accident upset her.
“Let’s go, boss,” Ben said. The Negro got up. And now, all standing, they were embarrassed. A calf bawled, down by the barn.
“What on earth made them do it?” Vanessa said. “Why did they have to kill?” Her eyes filled with tears, and she took one last cookie for comfort.
Ben mused.
Will, too, understood what she meant. It was fear, no doubt, that made them kill the guard. Not malice, exactly—but more like malice than what went before, the wreck of the Volkswagen. What next? And where would Nick Slater run? And Tag? He almost slipped and said it.
“They were such strange boys,” Vanessa said, weeping. “Nick especially. You never knew what he was thinking.”
“Time will tell,” Ben said.
Will Hodge looked at his vest-pocket watch. The numbers, even the hands, were too blurry to read. The face was all gray. “I better run,” he said. A whisper. He stepped back to reach behind the Negro to shake his brother’s hand. It was an awkward handshake. It wasn’t Ben Hodge’s nature to shake hands, nor Will’s either, for that matter, which was why Ben was looking at him.