Benson pinched his nostrils together, then on second thought got out his handkerchief and blew his nose. At last, suddenly realizing what the Negro wanted, he got out a fifty-cent piece and gave it to him. Again their fingers did not touch.
“God bless you!” the Negro said. “I accept your bribe.” He smiled again and turned toward the door.
Nuper’s speech went on for what seemed hours. From what he said one would not have guessed that he thought them apes. His talking was full of facts and figures, yet so simply put, any child could have understood it. It was so convincing, at least to Walter Benson, that he began to believe all Nuper’s talk at the supper table had been a grim joke at Benson’s expense. Benson stood leaning forward, straining to catch every word. His concentration was so intense that he did not notice the penguinlike man until he spoke.
“Brilliant, isn’t he,” the man said.
Benson collected his wits.
It was the nose, mainly, that made the man penguinlike. As for his eyes, they were wide and blue as a baby’s, and he had eyebrows permanently lifted as if to say affectedly, “How charming!” He looked twenty at first glance; but he was probably past thirty-five. He had a large jewel of some sort on his ring finger, and, as if to advertise it, he fluttered his hands almost perpetually and when he rested them, did so with the fingertips pressed together so that the ring was clearly displayed. It struck one immediately that there was something odd about him, some definite quirk that set him apart from ordinary humanity—some elusive quality or singular madness which, once found out, would make everything about him clear. One knew what it was the moment he said it. He was a Quaker.
He stood with his back arched, his weight on one leg, his left hand pressed to his waist, bent at the wrist. “Brilliant,” he said again. “Don’t you think so?”
Benson said noncommittally, “He’s something.”
“Nuper’s his name, you know. Oliver Nuper. One of the professionals.” He spoke rapidly, with excessively precise pronunciation. “It’s pure hogwash of course, every word he says, but he does it superbly, in my opinion. I’ve seen them all. It’s a kind of hobby of mine—a bachelor, you know, sick and tired of the movies and those eternal cocktail parties and the rest. And of course I have students mixed up in all this. It’s inevitable, you know. Youth. Enthusiasm.” He showered down laughter.
“Ah,” Benson said.
“Excuse me, I ought to have introduced myself. My name’s Veil, as in Vile.” He made a face. “Ridiculous, I know, but that’s my name. Professor John Veil, Department of English, University of Buffalo. And you are—” He waited, head cocked, smiling with lifted eyebrows.
“I am …” In horror he realized that again he couldn’t think of his name. “I am,” he said, blushing, “very interested in these demudstrations.”
Professor Veil threw up his hands. “Then you’ve come to the right place. I know all about them!”
“Ah,” Benson said.
“That fellow over there, the one with the guitar and the beard and the thick, thick glasses—you see him? That’s ‘Baron Von Badger’—so he calls himself. Actually his name’s John Jones or something. Comes from way out West someplace. Crazy as a loon, I assure you. I’ve had him in class, as a matter of fact. He sits in the front row and looks at me through binoculars turned backwards. That’s mad, don’t you think?”
Benson considered it.
“His father’s rich as Midas, so they say. One of those rice kings or something. He doesn’t sing, the Baron, that is. He uses the guitar as a kind of drone for his lunatic chants.” The Professor suddenly stooped over like an ape, head thrown far forward, arms surrounding an imaginary guitar.
I been on this road a long time,
and the road’s been on me, O Lord, Lord,
and I don’ know who’s walking this road and O
it is a road Lord,
is it me, Lord,
is it a long time Lord or is it
Lord are you there
ARE YOU THERE, LORD, LORD, I
been on this
road’s been on
Mankine have mercy on my soooo-oo-OOL!!!
The Professor straightened up, eyebrows lifted, smiling. “Mad, you see.”
Solemnly, Benson nodded.
The crowd was clapping. Nuper shouted, “People tell me the Muslims are gonna wipe us out, us libeiais, the white men that are marching on the side of justice for the blacks. What do I say? I say then let them do it! In every war mankind has ever fought, there have been mistakes. Korea! We lost whole battalions from our own air support—and I’m not counting the black battalions that were shot by white infantry from behind. No sir! There are always mistakes! Napoleon made them! Caesar made them! For all we know, maybe Moses made them! It don’ matter! When a war gets started you’ve got to fight it out and don’ look back. And the white man’s driven the black to war, and that’s the truth! And if you don’t believe it’s war I tell you you’re yellow-bellied! Yeah! And if you don’t like my standing here saying it to you, don’t you look at me, brothers, you just look at the white men that think it and never say a word to you, No! they just sit there and smile and smi-ile!” The crowd roared.
The Professor said, “That man could make a fortune selling used cars.”
“He’s the devil,” Benson said.
The Professor smiled. “Well, yes, so he is, of course. But aren’t we all?” Still smiling, but only with his lips, he scrutinized Benson’s face. At last he said, “See here, you know something? You have the look, right now, of a murderer!” He laughed. “I’m quite serious! Something about—” He fluttered his fingers around Benson’s nose. “Your eyes, I think. Heavens. Listen! You must be calm, contain yourself. Look at me!” He held out his hands, smiling, supremely calm.
Benson said grimly, “I know that man—Nuper.”
The Professor pursed his lips, and after a moment his fingers fluttered up to them. “I was afraid you did,” he said. “I’m a member of the Society of Friends, myself. I abhor violence, and I denounce people who advocate it. But I wouldn’t dream—” Again he was scrutinizing Benson’s face. He tapped his upper lip lightly, thoughtfully, with the knuckle of his index finger. “You’re an interesting type,” he said. “You had me completely fooled, at first. Completely. I’m interested to meet you. It’s very curious, really.” He looked away and stood like a man analyzing the quality of a pain in his abdomen. Whatever the question was that he was asking himself, he apparently found the answer. He smiled more brilliantly than ever. “It takes all kinds, doesn’t it,” he said. “Good day.” Quickly, without another word, he stepped off down the sidewalk.
4
The meeting dragged on. Walter Benson’s feet ached from standing up, and he’d shifted so often from one leg to the other that he had no way left to rest himself unless, like some of the people around him, he should choose to sit on the fender of someone’s parked car. One of the white men standing with a beer bottle said to the man beside him, “They gonna march or something? They just going to talk all night?” The other man said, “Don’t you worry. Those people that organize these things, they know what they’re doin’.” “What are they doin’, Harrison?” another man said. The second man nodded and winked and merely repeated, “They know what they’re doin’, don’t worry.” But people were beginning to leave, the old people first, and then some of the fat men in fancy clothes. For all the shouting, it was going to come to nothing. The police continued to drive slowly and without interest around the park. “Just letting off steam,” a man to Benson’s left said. He kept tapping the brick wall with his ring, like an impatient man waiting for someone. “It’s like one of those summer band concerts, only louder. Makes them feel good, talking about how much they hate the son-of-a-bitching whites.” He spoke as if to himself, but when he saw Walter Benson looking at him he jerked his chin up, a kind of tic, “Takes the place of church, a lot of ’em. They’ve seen through all that stuff, a lot of ’em, and now th
ere they are, all dressed up and noplace to go.” He jerked his chin again and tapped rapidly, in the rhythm of some almost recognizable song. He said, “Don’t look at me, buddy. I didn’t take away their religion.”
The leaders seemed to realize that the meeting was coming to nothing. Or maybe, as one of the observers in front of the tavern thought, the leaders hadn’t meant it to come to anything in the first place, it was a simple show of numbers. In any case, they were winding it up. Then there was a brief period of confusion. A big-shouldered white man with sideburns was on the platform, shouting into the microphone, “Is this a public park or isn’t it?” Several people close to the platform answered him at once, but their voices didn’t come over the loudspeaker. The man with sideburns said, “I just want to talk for one minute. Let me have—” The rest of his sentence didn’t come through. People were pulling the microphone away. Someone else’s voice said into the mike, “It’s a rented speaker system. You want to have a rally, go rent yourself a speaker. This one—” More lost. The man with sideburns: “—pay you, then.” There were bumping noises through the loudspeaker as they tussled over the microphone. The man with sideburns started hitting with his fists. “Heil Hitler!” he yelled, not through the mike. And then through the mike someone yelled, “Nah Hitler uns!” People down by the platform were yelling. The police car rolled indifferently by between Benson and what was left of the crowd. In a minute or two it was over. People began singing again, and now everyone was leaving.
Benson walked back to his car to watch for Nuper to come to his. According to the clock on the dashboard, it was five-to-two in the morning.
“Why are you doing this?” he asked himself.
But he knew the answer, or knew, anyway, that there was an answer, but one too complicated to unravel. Again and again he had wanted to say to the guard in the jail, “Be careful. Don’t be so trusting. They’re after you.” But he had said nothing. He had wanted to say, “They’re going to break out. I can feel it coming.”; But he’d said nothing. And they had said, “What did you see?” and he had said—had almost believed—“I was asleep.”
All that had nothing to do with Ollie Nuper, though. And it had nothing to do with his straining, tonight, to hear what the speakers were saying, or with the feeling of elation that had come to him during the thunderstorm. It was simply that he was restless, full of a tortured sense of something waking up inside him, whether good or evil he could not make out. He coughed, then coughed again. The tickle in his throat was still there.
He suddenly remembered the old woman, the poetess, whom the Batavia Chief of Police had taken him to see. She looked a thousand years old, and peering in her eyes he had seen to his horror that there was nothing, no one in there: an empty husk. It made him remember a time, more than forty years ago now, when he’d gotten himself locked up in the Buffalo bolt factory at closing time. He couldn’t get out, and as darkness came on he’d wandered back and forth through the vast silent rooms where all day long there was a roar of big machinery and a bustle of men, and the belts were all turning and there was a constant gurgle of oil pouring over hot steel. Now nothing stirred, the big machines were still, and he felt like the last survivor on a dead planet. And suddenly—not because of shadows or imagined creatures in the dark, not because he was alone and only a boy—he was afraid.
The Negroes were still leaving, but there were only a few of them left now. They too made him think of the abandoned factory he had thought he’d forgotten, though he couldn’t say what the connection between the factory and the Negroes was. Their walk was slow and deliberate, and you could not tell, to look at them, that they had somewhere definite to go.
He caught sight, at last, of Ollie Nuper. He was coming this way, carrying a box and an armload of his signs, walking with a giant, well-dressed white man, some kind of politician, it looked like. When they got to the sidewalk they paused, about to walk in different directions, and they talked rapidly, trying to finish their argument. The big man had his back to Benson. He seemed extremely angry. Something about him was familiar—it seemed to Benson that any moment the recognition was going to burst into his mind—but try as he might, he couldn’t make out where he’d seen the man before or who it was he looked like. Finally the big man turned and came striding toward Benson, and for an instant Benson knew him: it was the Sunlight Man. But it was a mistake. It was some stranger. He was clean-shaven and so angry his temples looked swollen. Benson followed him with his eyes as far as the corner, then lost him to the shadows.
The light went on in Nuper’s car and Nuper got in and closed the door; the light went off again. Benson switched on his ignition. The car parked directly behind him started up at almost the same moment. The overhead light went on as the driver reached across to open the door for a friend, and the friend got in. They had black bands around their arms. The light went off. Now Nuper was pulling out of his parking place. When Benson pulled out the car behind him followed. The headlights weren’t on. “What is this?” Benson whispered. “Good Lord, what’s happening?”
XVIII
The Dragon’s
Dwelling-Place
and the
Court for Owls
But Yudhisthira was resolute and
would not enter heaven without his dog.
—The Maha-Bhrata
1
Regardez.
Nous considérons aujourd’hui un homme perdu.
C’est triste. Misérable.
Condition de vie.
Mais oui, et c’est misérable.
Outside, fog. Drone of the engines, aisle lights very dim, stewardess asleep no doubt, or smoking a cigarette in her tight barren cloister musing on a dress she has half-finished, folded up in her closet to await her return, hidden carefully, sullenly, like all other signs of her existence, because her roommate has gentleman friends when she is gone, a working agreement: when she returns, exit roommate, and when she leaves again she vanishes utterly, like smoke. Or no. Avec sa mère. Va de temps à temps aux maisons des amis. TA ta, Mama. Je retournerai. Et la mère? Est-ce qu’elle aussi a les amis? “Good evening Mr. Hodge.” Jumped half out of his skin. And did the regulation kind eyes see, the regulation soft lips draw down, momentarily distressed by an intuition of damnation? Ha! Nous considérons ce soir un homme perdu.
Mr. Kleppmann, I will be open with you. You enrage me. No longer a question of just doing my work. Been beyond that for months. I no longer remember what line I’m in, professionally speaking, at least with the part of my mind I hunt with-the other mind will click on again when I’ve caught you, no doubt, will feed in words like cartridges, official, metal against metal, clean. Ping. Whooey! I no longer remember even why you enrage me, or why I’m afraid of you—why I start violently when I’m sitting on the can and a stranger’s legs appear below the door and the stranger tries the handle. Fantastic way to die. Be found sitting upright, leaning back on the wall, head tipped, pants at the ankles, and on the nether beard, the limp prick, martyr’s blood. In every airport, railway platform, crowded room, even in the sanctuary of the church in Albany, or in the flower shop in Syracuse, or on the street—always, on any street, in the gray lath morning or the cheerily lighted graveyard dark two hours after sunset—the blood says Ici! Il est ici! Some hunter. Scared as hell. Turning suddenly, seeing that face—wide, white, benign, expressionless as a planet depopulated by fire and flood and war and plague—eyes like a bubonic rat’s, the hat high, high on the forehead yet perfectly level, like a child’s fedora placed, très amusant, on the head of a fat, new corpse. Crowd closes. The face is gone. I run toward where I think it was. (Votre pardon, madame. Pardon moi, monsieur. Sonny.) But there’s no one, of course. An apparition, terror projected to a point, Très bien. But I continue. Yes. Surely you are impressed by that, Kleppmann. Brother. Perhaps you can say a simple word, be rid of me—but maybe not, too, eh? Perhaps your man will miss the first time, and if he misses once I’ll have the pistol out, aiming it at him with my two ha
nds wobbling, or perhaps even aiming as though I knew what I was doing, the second piece of the brain clicking in, an old memory of military training, whooeee, Pvt Hodge!—and the room will explode a second time with the noise of a pistol, and he will fall, could be. And then you, Mr. Kleppmann, in time. Surely you must be impressed, Mr. Kleppmann. As shitless scared as I am.
Louise said, “You’re never home nights any more.”
“Half-crazy with work,” I said. “Have you any idea?”
“You’ll be crazy all the way. You don’t play with the kids. You have nightmares night after night after night. Sometimes I’m afraid of you.”
“It will be over. Take it easy. Be patient. C’est la vie.”
“And your French is horrible,” she said.
Hawes said, “Take an extra day, Will. Listen. Let me lend you my bunny key.” Bent closer. “Fantastic place, that club in Chicago. Girl named Molly. Watch for her. Tell her Clarence sent you.”
“Ha ha ha.”
“I mean it, ole pal.”
“No thanks. Got things on my mind. I recommend the same. Get your mind back on mergers. What were this last year’s total assets for the Dansville First National? What’s the population complex? New industry coming? Farm loans secure? Got to have it by heart Hawes. Got to make the Feds say ‘hmm!’ Got to wake ’em up with the tragedy of it all. Monumental injustice. They get bored, that’s the secret. You’d be bored too, sitting there reading a thousand pages of crap that’s no interest to anybody. So they come to the hearing and they’re half-asleep. Try cartoons in the margins. Dirty pictures maybe. Wake ’em up.”
“Take the bunny key.”
“No. Got things on my mind.”
Perdu.
Voices:
Circuit court, Division Nine, now in session. Honorable Christ the Lord, Judge.
Good morning, gentlemen. Young fellow, call the docket.
Heaven and Earth versus William Hodge.
Would you care to make an opening statement?