Jimmy said, “Bryant and I are not friends now, Jane. You’ll help to make us friends.”
It was cooler in the bush. The ground was dry, covered with dead leaves, and spotted with big patches of sunlight. There seemed at first to be no path, just an intermittent disturbance in the dead leaves; and for the first time since she had followed him out of the bedroom she hesitated. He touched the top of her arm and moved the tips of his fingers down the short sleeve of her cotton blouse. Lightly, then, he held her arm and led her on. Ants’ nests, of dried mud, were like black veins on the white trunks of softwood trees. The wild banana was in flower: a solid spray of spearheads of orange and yellow that never turned to fruit, emerging sticky with mauve gum and slime from the heart of the tree.
Jimmy said, “They say there’s always a snake at the bottom of that tree. So be careful. See but never touch. It’s the golden rule of the bush.”
They were now in the middle of the bush, no light and openness behind them, trees and trees ahead of them.
“So you’re leaving us, Jane. That was why you came. Because you’re leaving. Do you have a nice house in London?”
“I’m used to it.”
“Everything nicely put away, I bet. Is it near Wimbledon?”
“No. It isn’t near Wimbledon.”
“Suppose it burns down while you’re away?”
“It’s insured.”
“You’ll just build another?”
“I suppose so.”
He suddenly squeezed her arm and said, “Smell it, Jane!”
She stopped and looked about her.
He said, “You can smell it?”
“What?”
“Snake.”
“I can’t smell anything.”
“It smells of sex, Jane. Bad, stale sex. It smells of a dirty cunt.”
He released her arm. The bush was becoming brighter; they were approaching openness. And soon, through the trees, the clearing on which the Grange stood could be seen: an expanse of brown in a hard white light. There was a latrine smell, which became sharper. The latrine, with corrugated-iron walls and roof and a sagging, open corrugated-iron door, stood on a rough concrete foundation just outside the bush, in direct sunlight. Brilliant green flies buzzed about it and within it, striking the corrugated iron.
They had come out into the back yard of the Grange: no shade, the bush laid waste, the land sterile. The main building blocked a view of the road and of the fields beyond the road. The corrugated-iron roof glittered; the concrete-block walls were in shadow. A roll of wire netting, old scantlings, a junked metal icebox, white enamel basins: this was part of the debris at the back. A low lean- to shelter, its palm thatch sloping down almost to the ground, was fixed to the back wall; below the thatch there was black shadow. Scattered about the ground were back yard structures and relics of back yard projects: a wire-netting pen, torn in places; chicken coops of wire netting and old board; a dry pit, the dug-out earth heaped up on one side beside a load of concrete blocks.
There was a boy in the shadow of the lean-to. He was sitting on the ground in the angle of the thatch and the ground. His knees were drawn up, and his head and arms rested on his knees. He seemed asleep. His white canvas shoes were yellow with dust; his washed-out jeans were dusty; his elbows were scratched and there was dust on his black arms.
“You remember Bryant?”
Jane said, “I don’t remember him.”
“He remembers you.”
The boy raised his head. His face was twisted and he wore the pigtails of aggression. His eyes were red and blurred, one lid half stuck down. He stood up. He ran back into the lean-to, and when he turned to face them he had a cutlass in his hand and he was in tears.
He cried, “Jimmy! Jimmy!”
Jimmy locked his right arm about Jane’s neck and almost lifted her in front of him, pulling back the corners of his mouth with the effort, and slightly puffing out his shaved cheeks, so that he seemed to smile.
He said, “Bryant, the rat! Kill the rat!”
Bryant, running, faltered.
“Your rat, Bryant! Your rat!”
Her right hand was on the arm swelling around her neck, and it was on her right arm that Bryant made the first cut.
The first cut: the rest would follow.
Sharp steel met flesh. Skin parted, flesh showed below the skin, for an instant mottled white, and then all was blinding, disfiguring blood, and Bryant could only cut at what had already been cut.
He cried out, in tears, in pain, in despair, “Help me, Jimmy!”
Jimmy, responding, tightened his grip around the neck. He scarcely felt the neck; he felt only his own strength, the smoothness of his own skin, the tension of his own muscles. He concentrated on that smoothness and tension until she began to fail. She grew heavy; his strength became useless; and as he felt her fail a desolation began to grow on him. And then there was nothing except desolation.
He was squatting on the ground, beside the dry pit of the septic tank and the heap of dug-out earth, looking at the earth and not the face, and not seeing the earth. He saw a day of sun at the beach, sea and sky bright beyond the coconut grove, the girl bleeding on the fender of the car, accepting water from his cupped hands, and love coming to her frightened eyes. But the eyes below him were closed. They knew nothing; they acknowledged nothing; they had taken away everything with them. He entered a void; he disappeared in that void.
Then he was lost, lost since the beginning of time. But time had no beginning. And he was disembodied. He was nothing more than this sense of loss that grew deeper and deeper as he awakened to it; he would have liked to scream, for the relief. The world cleared up, time defined itself. He was himself, in a stone room, full of incense, with stone coffins on stone shelves, where dead women lay without being dead among white lilies. A woman sat up in her stone coffin; the lilies tumbled off her. She was Sudanese, like those he had seen in London: he could tell from her fine white cotton dress, her pallid brown skin and the healed slashes on her cheeks. She had the wanton face, the leer, the degraded mouth of a French prostitute he had seen in a pornographic photograph at school, sitting clothed but with her skirt pulled up, her legs open, her great hairiness exposed. She sat up in her roughly chiseled coffin, leering, the lilies falling off her, and she said, holding out her hand, “Nigger, give me a dollar.”
So that even here, though he had been lost since the beginning of time, though he was lost in time itself, and didn’t know who or what he was, he was betrayed, his secret known.
The secret recalled him to himself, and his desolation was complete. He was squatting beside the girl on the edge of the dry pit, its crumbling walls still carrying fork marks, and Bryant, the cutlass in his hand, was crying, like a man who at any moment was going to scream.
“Jimmy, Jimmy.”
He stood up and held Bryant by the arm. He said, “Bryant!”
“Jimmy, Jimmy.”
“In here, Bryant.”
“In the latrine, Jimmy.”
“No. The corbeaux will come.”
And Bryant looked up with Jimmy at the pale sky.
They put her in the pit, with her dead hair, still loose where it was not stained and stiff, with her necklaces, her open bag. The heaped-up earth beside the pit, dug out weeks before, had settled and seemed hard; but it broke up and crumbled at a touch, red-brown below the straw-colored, powdery crust. At first with their hands and feet alone, then with concrete blocks, then with a spade, they broke up the earth and shoveled it in, until there was nothing to be seen; and there remained only dust and labor, burning faces and arms, sweat and the stinging sun.
Far away, from the road, it seemed, there came the sound of whistling. No recognizable tune, and it stopped almost as soon as they heard it.
They looked up at the sky: it was empty.
Then the whistling came again, closer. Bryant looked at Jimmy. Jimmy said, “Bryant.” Bryant ran for his cutlass. Jimmy said, “Bryant!” And this time Bryant ob
eyed. He began to do what he saw Jimmy doing: rubbing clods of red-brown earth on his trousers and shirt. Jimmy undid the buttons of his Mao shirt, and the two men, Bryant with his cutlass, walked to the back door of the main building, into sudden shade.
A young man was coming up to the building from the road. He was small, his blue shirt slack and bulging above his tight striped brown trousers. He was wearing white-rimmed shades; his shoes, too tight for him, gave him a dainty walk; a white airlines bag hung from his shoulder.
Bryant said, “Mannie.”
Jimmy said, “Nowhere to go. They’ll start coming back. All of them. But it’s too late.”
“Jimmy, Jimmy.”
“It’s too late for them now.”
“Let me take him out, Jimmy. Let me take him out!”
Jimmy didn’t reply. He went into the building and walked halfway down between the empty beds. Bryant remained in the back doorway.
Mannie came in out of the sun. He took off his white-rimmed shades: his nose was shining and there was sweat all over his face. He looked at Jimmy and said shyly, “Mr. Ahmed,” and looked down. His small black shoes were extravagantly pointed; the points tilted up, the heels were worn. He went to his old bed and sat on the edge of the bare mattress, with his back to Jimmy and Bryant. He opened the airlines bag and began taking out small green tomatoes and laying them on the concrete floor.
Bryant said from the back doorway, “Let me take him out, Jimmy.”
Mannie didn’t turn.
Jimmy sat on one of the empty beds and said, “Mannie.”
Mannie turned. “Yes, Mr. Ahmed?”
“You come back?”
“I walk down from the highway, Mr. Ahmed.”
“That’s a long walk for a hot day. We’ve been working.”
“Mr. Ahmed.”
“And now you come back. And you start picking my tomatoes.”
Mannie’s face went small and closed. Little beads of sweat began to grow on his shiny nose.
Jimmy stood up. He slapped his hand hard on his right trouser pocket and said, “Mannie!”
Mannie stood up. The corners of his eyes were red.
“I lose my pen, Mannie.”
“Mr. Ahmed.”
“My red biro. Yellow with a red cap. I think I drop it outside somewhere. I don’t want to lose it. Go and look for it for me.”
Mannie came out into the aisle. He hesitated there. He looked at the bright front door. Then he began to walk slowly toward Jimmy, Bryant, and the back door.
Jimmy said, “Go and look by the septic tank.”
Mannie walked daintily in his tight shoes, his buttocks high and hard in his tight trousers, his loosened handkerchief bulging in his hip pocket, with one corner hanging out.
Jimmy said, “I don’t want to lose that pen, Mannie.”
Jimmy sat on another bed. Bryant remained standing in the doorway.
After some time they heard light steps. They saw Mannie. As soon as he saw them he stopped, about five or six feet away from the back door. There was dust in his hair; his blue shirt was dark with sweat around the collar and below the arms; dust discolored his trousers from the knees down.
Jimmy said, “Mannie.”
“Sorry, Mr. Ahmed.”
“You didn’t see anything?”
“No, Mr. Ahmed.”
Jimmy said, “Lie down, Bryant. Take a rest. Come in, nuh, Mannie.”
Mannie came in, his sweated face tight, his eyes burning, his walk still dainty.
Jimmy said, “But you spoil all your pretty clothes, Mannie.”
Mannie didn’t seem to hear. He went to his bed and, not dusting his hair or trousers or hands, sat on the mattress. He looked down at the concrete floor and his eyes began to water.
Jimmy said, “We’re all tired. We all have to rest. But what about you, Mannie? Where you going to go? No food here now. The Grange is closed.”
Mannie, his eyes still watering, didn’t turn.
Bryant got up from the bed nearest the back door. He said, “Somebody coming.”
Jimmy, going to the wall and tiptoeing to look through the louvers, saw the car far away on the road, beyond the last cleared field. There was dazzle on the bonnet, but the windscreen was in shadow and the driver could not be seen.
Jimmy said, “Lie down, Bryant. Save your strength. Mannie, I’m going to clean up.”
He went out through the back door. Bryant put his cutlass on the concrete floor between the wall and his bed and lay down flat on the bare mattress. The coconut-fiber filling bristled through the ticking. Bryant looked up at the corrugated-iron roof, so new still, with the cockerel emblem and the name of the manufacturers, far away in Canada, stenciled in blue.
The car came nearer. It stopped; a door banged. A disturbance of dirt clods and pebbles, and Roche appeared, with his short-sleeved white shirt, his light-colored khaki trousers narrow around his flat waist, and his dark glasses. He came into the building, took off the glasses and put the end of one temple in his mouth. His face was drawn and he looked impatient. He saw the tears in Mannie’s eyes.
He said, “Mannie.”
Mannie didn’t look up. He said, “Mr. Ahmed gone to wash his face.”
“You’ve been working?”
Mannie didn’t reply. And Roche, waiting, considered the table with the junked office equipment, the dusty stalled standard typewriter, the rusting duplicator; the timetable on the wall, the newspaper pinups above the beds; the Jimmy Ahmed poster with the crude portrait of Jimmy, all hair and mustache: I’m Nobody’s Slave or Stallion, I’m a Warrior and Torch Bearer. The concrete floor was dusty; the iron beds were stripped; and the bare mattresses gave off a smell of coconut fiber. Roche saw that the bed at the far end of the room was occupied.
He said, “Bryant.”
Bryant didn’t reply.
Jimmy appeared in the doorway. He was bare-chested, and his face was blank, the eyes assessing, his mustache masking his mouth.
He said, “Massa. We were giving you up. A tour of inspection? You’re still inspecting?”
Roche said, “You all seem to be in a state.”
“We’ve been working. Life has to go on. Bryant will take you out and show you. Mannie too.”
Bryant rose and sat on the edge of his bed, facing the wall.
Jimmy came down between the beds and stood a few feet away from Roche.
Jimmy said, “Mannie has come back, massa.”
Mannie half raised himself off the mattress and took out his handkerchief from his hip pocket.
Roche said, “Did Donaldson come?”
“We don’t have anything to do with Donaldson. All that’s gone with the wind.”
Jimmy’s chest, paler than his face and forearms, was moist with perspiration. Stiff little coils of hair, unexpectedly Negroid, were scattered between his purple-brown nipples, which were as large as a woman’s.
Roche sucked on the end of the temple of his dark glasses. He said, “Didn’t he come to see you about the tractor?”
“To take it back, you mean?”
“I don’t know about that. He didn’t come?”
“If he came we didn’t see him. We’ve been busy all afternoon. Bryant will show you.”
“Nobody came?”
“We didn’t see anybody.”
Roche looked at Mannie. Mannie’s eyes were still wet and he was still looking down. His loosened handkerchief, unused, remained in his right hand. In that same hand he was holding a cylindrical blue lighter and, absently, he was polishing the bronze-colored metal at the top with his thumb. Roche hesitated. He thought: Sahara gas. In his hesitation his eyes caught Jimmy’s—surprise there, and for an instant something like an appeal. And almost at the same time he saw Bryant standing at the far end of the room, looking at him.
Roche took the temple of his glasses out of his mouth and, swinging the glasses between his thumb and forefinger, took a half-step toward Mannie’s bed. Then he stopped and turned and, slowly, looking at th
e beds, mattresses, and the posters on the wall, he walked toward the bright door. He said, “Everybody at the office knows I’m here. I’m sure they told Donaldson. A wasted journey.” He was in the sunlight. He put on his glasses and said, “But never mind,” and stepped from the concrete floor onto the dry red earth.
And he was walking away—the land graded down to clay, baked hard, dusty on the surface—when he heard Jimmy call, but uncertainly, “Massa.”
He kept on walking.
He thought: This place has become a slaughterground. The words seemed, to have been given to him, and he thought: I’ve just done the bravest thing in my life. He concentrated on Jimmy and addressed him mentally: You wouldn’t do anything to me. You wouldn’t dare.
He came to the dry ditch and the bridge of tree trunks and packed earth. He got into the car. He didn’t look at the land he had just traversed or the building he had just left. He thought: If you try anything now, I’ll kill you.
He turned in the road—two movements, and still no one called out to him—and then he was driving into the sun, past the field with the broken-down tractor standing against the wall of bush, past the dry flattened ridges and the furrows choked with bright green weeds, past the blocks of old bush, the spiky wild palms, the red-and-black-striped barrier pointing at the sky, the Sablich’s sign, still new, announcing Thrushcross Grange, past the ruins of the abandoned industrial park, the overgrown pillars still standing in rows, the flat paved areas cracked open by grass and wild young trees, rusty reinforcing metal showing here and there through broken concrete.
And then he was on the highway, locked in the afternoon traffic, and he was being taken past all the stations of that familiar drive. The sun, already yellowing, picked out all the ridges and dips of the scorched hills, which smoked. Far away in the brown fields people were cutting grass. The junked cars beside the road; the country settlements; the burning rubbish dump, trucks and people amid the smoke and the miniature hills of confetti-like refuse, the big-breasted black corbeaux squatting on the fence posts or hopping about on the ground; the shantytown resettlements, their population spilling out of rows of identical tin-and-concrete huts, back to back and face to face down long red avenues that seemed regularly to open and close as he drove past; the bauxite pall; the hot, squalling afternoon city, melting tar, honking buses and taxis and enraged, sweating cyclists.