Talana was also tasked with leading her to dinner. They were passing through that little outdoor garden when Brittany stopped abruptly, it finally dawning on her that she'd had no trouble understanding Talana, nor Tedra and Challen earlier, nor anyone else she'd heard speak since their arrival that morning.
She couldn't believe something that simple would have been overlooked, and her tone reflected her incredulity when she said, "You people finally blew it, didn't you?"
"Mistress?"
"How are you going to explain the fact that the people here can understand me, if they are supposed to be a different race and language than mine?"
Talana was staring at her blankly, too confused to answer, but Martha proved she'd been eavesdropping all along when she said, ,,Took you long enough to notice, girl. But you got it a little backward. They aren't speaking your language; you're speaking theirs. "
"Huh?"
"It really only takes one night of sleeping on a Sublim tape of a new language to have the basics of that language planted in the subconscious. Your world has started using a similar process, just not one as advanced as we have. And instead of just one session for you, I overdosed you a full week before arrival, to make the transition as painless as possible for you. Which is why it's taken you so long to notice that you have two completely different languages in your head now."
"Martha, why do you bother?" Brittany said with a sigh. "You know I'm not gonna buy this."
Martha's laughter had the distinct sound of triumph in it this time. "For once, kiddo, I don't have to convince you. You'll do that yourself with just a little thought. Take the word chemar. You know what it means, don'tcha?"
"Of course, it's‑"
Brittany didn't finish. Martha had switched back to her own language with that last question, and she had answered in kind, naturally, without thought‑just as she had been speaking the new language from the moment she first heard it spoken to her. Because she knew it so well, it had been automatic to respond with what she was hearing.
"It's too bad we gave you a simple communicator to keep in touch with me, rather than a combo unit with viewers," Martha remarked. "I'd get a kick out of seeing just how white your face is about now."
Hot color suffused immediately. "Bright pink, if you must know."
"Finally amazed you, did we? With something you can't shrug off as being faked?"
Brittany ground her teeth. "Bull. Subliminal tapes are reputed to be a great learning tool, and you had three months to run one without my knowing about it while I slept. One day, my ass."
"If computers had patience to lose, I'd be losing mine about now.
That managed to surprise her. "You're giving up? It's over, then?"
"If you're never going to believe anything else, you should believe this. There isn't going to be an 'over.' There is never going to be a 'done.' The here and now is it. So get used to it. Start making the transition. You have a new life to live here; make the best of it."
"Just like that? 'Gee, how could I have been so wrong?' Is that what you expect me to say now?"
"Is it hereditary, this stubbornness of yours? Did your parents get along?"
"My parents got along fine. When they weren't fighting, they were kissing and making up."
"You said they were free‑spirited."
"They grew up."
"Ali, finally the equation I've been missing. Okay, listen up, doll, because Probables did tell me what your problem is, and lucky for you, I'm still in a sharing mood. Your first fears were of the unknown. You equated aliens with weird‑looking creatures. Those fears should have been alleviated by now. The Sha‑Ka'ani aren't exactly what you're used to in humanoids, but they're close enough. Your next fear is more personal and still with you.
Brittany did not want to hear this. "This isn't going to‑"
But Martha couldn't be interrupted. "You're afraid to accept the happiness that Dalden offers because deep down, you see him as too good to be true. He's everything you want in a mate, everything, so you figure something must be wrong. In your mind, no one gets that lucky. Your emotions are revving up. Did I hit a nerve?"
"Go to hell."
"I'll decline that, thank you," Martha said with a chuckle. "But your warrior is about to arrive and collect you. He's had a nice little talk with his father, and has concluded that you and he need some time off to yourselves where you won't be disturbed. Which means I'll be left behind. Good luck, doll. You're going to need it."
That last didn't sound promising, so she was rather apprehensive when Dalden appeared. He was wearing one of those determined looks again. And when he took her hand and started leading her off without a word about where they were going, her apprehension escalated.
Chapter Forty‑six
YOU KNOW, DALDEN, WHEN TWO PEOPLE DECIDE TO GO
on an excursion together, they usually discuss it fully beforehand, to make sure they both agree that it sounds like a good plan. That way, one or the other doesn't bring along any disgruntlement, and they both can enjoy the outing."
He didn't reply. In fact, she'd made a number of remarks since they'd left Sha‑Ka‑Ra, and he hadn't replied to them, either. He'd yet to say one word to her since he dragged her out of the castle.
Two hataari had been waiting out front for them. She had been alarmed, thinking she was to ride one of them by herself, but she wasn't. The extra mount was loaded down with stuff DaIden was taking with them, and it merely followed along behind them.
It was full night by the time they reached the bottom of the mountain. Very dark, no moon yet, but normal‑looking stars. She wasn't disturbed that there were no constellations that she might recognize. She'd already figured that they'd had to take her to some far‑off country she wasn't familiar with for their project to have any hope of working, and the stars she was used to obviously didn't show up on this side of the world.
She was sitting in front of him on the hataar. He had one arm locked firmly around her waist, so she had no fear of slipping. The other controlled the animal. They were traveling slowly, which was probably a good thing. Everything was in shadow, without much distinction. She could barely see the dirt road they followed, if it was even a road. But he obviously could.
She was still wearing the thin chauri, which felt rather oddriding sitting forward with one leg dangling on each side of the animal, the scarf pieces of the skirt split, exposing her limbs halfway up her thighs. She wasn't cold, though. The weather didn't seem to change much come nighttime, was just as balmy warm as the day had been. And Martha's link had been left behind as she'd predicted, taken from her waist and tossed into the foliage back in that garden.
Dalden was wearing a little less than usual. He was barechested, except for his medallion. A sword belt had been added, along with the weapon it was designed to carry. Long, wickedlooking daggers were also strapped to each of his boots. He was wearing those arm shields again, too, that had been donned for his fight with Jorran that day in City Hall. He looked positively primitive in that getup, which probably should have given her a clue that he wasn't the same Dalden she'd become used to.
When they passed into some woods that were so dark she gave up trying to see anything in front of her, she tried once again to get some answers. "How come you won't tell me where we're going.
"When you say something that needs a reply, I will reply. Until then, my attention remains on the path, to assure it is safe."
Something that needs a reply? In other words, where they were going was none of her business?
"I don't know if I like the sound of that," she said with distinct unease.
"Your opinion was not requested, kerima."
She began to bristle indignantly. She couldn't help it. He was suddenly acting way too ... too barbaric for her taste. It must be the clothes he was now wearing. Look primitive, become primitive?
"Martha was right. You‑"
"Martha has been a hindrance," he cut in. "You may forget everything she has told you
.
"Are we finally getting to the truth?"
"What truth would that be?"
"About where I am."
"Where you are is with me," he said simply
"O‑kay, then where are you?"
"With you." His chin came to rest on her shoulder. "I will always be with you."
That had a nice, secure ring to it, enough to mollify her somewhat for the moment. She supposed that if she tried, she could read between the lines of what little he'd just said. Martha had only been interested in convincing her to believe the whole fantasy Dalden apparently had a different agenda. He was the fantasy, or at least, a very big part of it. And for him, it wasn't important that she accept where she was, only that she accept who she was with.
Martha had said she'd convinced him to be patient, which pretty much meant that he'd held back up until now from showing her what he was really like. Was that what this was about, then? They were going off to be alone somewhere so she could meet the real Daiden‑the barbarian she'd only seen little glimpses of so far?
She suddenly felt a very real fear. What if she didn't like the barbarian side of him? What if, as the word barbarian implied, he was so insufferable that she simply couldn't tolerate living with him?
They continued to ride through the wooded region, seemingly without direction. If there was a path, she no longer saw it. Miles
passed with nothing to see because of the intense dark. As they got close to a clearing, it actually appeared brightly lit by the starlight.
"We will make camp here," Dalden said, dismounting and then lifting her down to the ground next to him.
Brittany had been falling asleep, and hadn't noticed the small clearing they finally entered and stopped in. A stream was nearby. She could hear it, just didn't see it yet. And a moon had risen when she wasn't looking, a great yellow ball seen through the trees.
"Is this our final destination, or do we move on in the morning?" she asked.
"We will stay here."
"And the purpose?"
"We are here to learn."
"Let me guess. I'll be doing all the learning, you all the teaching."
He had moved to unload the other animal. He glanced her way now with a raised brow.
"Your tone suggests you have brought some of that mentioned disgruntlement along with you. Have you not stressed, more than once, that you would be happy as long as you are with me? Was that not the truth? Does the place then make a difference to you?"
She sighed. "You're right. I don't know why I´m on edgeactually, I do know, but I'll get over it now that we're communicating again. We are communicating again, right? No more of that ridiculous silent treatment?"
"There is always a reason for what I do," he told her. "Wild animals make their home in these woods. Hunters come here to hunt them. Travelers pass through them between towns, as do raiding parties. My full concentration was needed to keep our journey safe. It was also my intention to be assured that Martha could not follow us with her short‑range scanning, which she could have done from our speech. You do not need her protection any longer. You are mine to protect. Lastly, you have learned that there Will be decisions that I will make that are not open to discussion."
"Wow, that was a great explanation‑up to the end," she said drily.
He went back to the unpacking, but remarked in a tone without inflection, "You are determined to find fault with me. Why is that?
"Martha warned‑"
"Martha again?" he cut in. "Did I not say you should forget what she has told you?"
"You know that isn't possible."
"When most of what she has told you, you do not believe anyway?"
She blushed clear to the roots of her hair. Fortunately, Dalden wasn't looking and probably wouldn't have noticed those hot cheeks in the dark if he was. She had been expecting the worst after Martha's warning, had been expecting all kinds of unacceptable traits from him now. He said they were there to learn, and that did go both ways. What was wrong with that? She wanted to know him better, to know every single thing there was to know about him, didn't she?
"I'm sorry," she offered. "I did bring along some preconceived notions, but I'm putting them to rest now. Would you like some help with that? I was a Girl Scout as a kid, so I know how to erect tents, get fires started, gather food, and otherwise survive in the wild. "
That gained his complete attention for a moment, "Truly? Such things are taught the females in your world?"
"Well, not the whole world," she was forced to admit. "It's a program offered in my particular country, with similar programs in a few others. It's not mandatory, and actually, very few girls Join it these days with so many other activities to interest them instead. That's a shame, since it teaches some really good qualities, as well as useful things to learn. Enjoying camping with my brothers, I personally found it very beneficial."
He nodded, even grinned at her. "I am pleased you enjoy camping. Most of our women would complain mightily at being taken away from the comfort of their homes. They fear the ‘wild’ as you call this."
She hoped their fear was without good reason, and at least he didn't say Your wilds are diffierent from our wilds. As to her suggestion, he seemed to be ignoring it, probably because the tent turned out to be too big and heavy for her to handle, no thin nylon or army canvas, but a seriously thick material designed to keep out whatever might come snooping around. There were a lot of things to carry inside, though, after it was erected, and he let her help with that.
When they were done, a large fur rug had been unrolled in the middle of the tent as their bed. Numerous sacks were brought in, as well as a gaali stone box that provided tons of light, making a campfire obsolete except for cooking. That wasn't needed tonight, since he'd brought along their dinner, already cooked.
They shared the meal. Dalden insisted on feeding it to her, which she didn't mind. Actually, he made it an erotic experience, whether intentional or not, that she thoroughly enjoyed. So she couldn't be faulted in thinking they were going to be making love soon after the meal.
"Come here."
Replete and mellow now, and having decided this camping trip just might turn out to be a lot of fun, Brittany didn't hesitate. She settled down on his lap, felt his strong arms come around her, and expected him to kiss her. He didn't.
He tilted her head in the right position for kissing, but there were other things on his mind. "Was that difficult, to obey me?"
It was the word obey that set off alarm signals really loudly this time. Brittany stiffened and tried to move off him to a distance more appropriate for a discussion she didn't think she was going to like. But she was held firmly in place. A subtle reminder that if someone refused to obey, she could be forced to?
Chapter Forty‑seven
BRITTANY TRIED TO GIVE DALDEN THE BENEFIT OF THE doubt, she really did. She allowed that she was overreacting to one simple word. Granted, it was a word that went against the grain for an independent woman who'd been making all her own decisions since she left home. But all she had to do, really, was give the word a less offensive meaning. After all, she hadn't been "obeying," and said so to answer his question.
"I didn't see it as an order, but a suggestion."
"Had it been an order?"
"Then it would have required thought on my part," she replied. "Why?"
"Because I don't like orders. They are demeaning, suggesting I lack intelligence. That's why I didn't join the military. I wouldn't have been able to handle hearing nothing but orders. And don't
look so surprised; women can be soldiers where I come from. Wasn't it the same where your mother comes from?"
"I will allow that the technology of these other worlds make such possible, if you will allow that in a society where the weapons are only swords and strength, a woman cannot hope to compete."
That caused an image in her mind of her trying to wield a fourfoot sword that she could barely lift against one of these barbarian giants. It was an absu
rd image that caused her to grin, then chuckle.
"Good point," she said.
Again he looked surprised, probably because he'd expected an argument. "You agree?"
"Sure, but that still doesn't mean I'm going to jump when you say jump.
"Even if an order is given for your own good?" Dalden persisted.
She gave that some thought, then allowed, "Some orders are acceptable, certainly, but you aren't my boss with power over my job, or my government, or the law. You're the man I live with in a mutual relationship. Why would you even want to order me around?"
'It is not a matter of want, but of necessity," he told her. "It is my right to protect you. No one else has this right more than I -even you. This is not something that normally needs explaining. Our women are taught from birth what they can and cannot do, and who they must obey in all things‑and why. A warrior needs the assurance that if he finds his woman in danger, and must instruct her to remove her from that danger, she will not stop to argue about it. If he cannot have this assurance, then he would restrict her more than is needful, and neither would be pleased."
"Okay, I see where you're coming from. If your women have been trained from birth to literally jump when you say jump, then you men probably take it for granted that they'll do just that. But you have to take into account that I wasn't trained that way, so instead of getting an old horse to follow new tricks, how about
just keeping in mind that I'm not one of your women and so need to be treated differently?"
"Do you tell me you did not follow the rules of your father?" he said.
She frowned. "Not just my father, my parents. Both. Rules mutually decided on. Yes, when I lived with them I obeyed their rules, but it was with full knowledge that when I left home I'd be living by my own rules. Do you see the difference? Those were temporary rules, the rules for a child. Our children grow up knowing that eventually they'll be on their own, with no one but government and laws telling them what they can and can't do. You, on the other hand, are telling me that your people continue to treat your women like children even after they're adults. I'm twenty‑eight years old, Dalden, in case that hasn't been mentioned yet. I am not a child."