Then the blaze began to fade as if it had already consumed most of its fuel. As the flames shrank, she sprawled to the ground, lay on her back on a surface of stone. She was in two places at once. The wild magic continued to flow through her, linking her to Covenant, to the cavern of the One Tree. But at the same time she was elsewhere. Her head throbbed as if she had been struck a heavy blow behind one ear. When she tried to rise, the pain almost broke the fragile remnant of her link.
With a fatal slowness, her sight squeezed itself into focus.
She was lying on a rough plane of native rock beside the relict of a bonfire. The rock was in the bottom of a barren and abandoned hollow. Nothing obscured her view of the night sky. The stars were distant and inconceivable. But around the rims of the hollow she saw shrubs, brush, and trees, gaunt and spectral in the dark.
She knew where she was, what Covenant was doing to her. Defying the pain, she heaved upright and faced the body stretched at her side.
His body.
He lay as if he had been crucified on the stone. But the wound was not in his hands or feet or side: it was in his chest. The knife jutted like a plea from the junction of his ribs and sternum. The viscid and dying pool of his life dominated the triangle of blood which had been painted on the rock.
She felt that terrible amounts of time had passed, though she was only three heartbeats away from the cavern of the One Tree. The link was still open. Covenant was still pouring wild magic toward her, still striving to thrust her back into her old world. And that link kept her health-sense alight. When she looked at his body beside her—at the flesh outraged by the approach of death—she knew that he was alive.
The blood oozing from around the knife, the internal bleeding, the loss of fluid were nearly terminal; but not yet, not yet. Somehow, the blade had missed his heart. Flickers of life ached in his lungs, quivered in the failing muscles of his heart, yearned in the passages of his brain. He could be saved. It was still medically feasible to save him.
But before her own heart beat again, another perception altered everything.
Nothing would save him unless he did to himself what he had just done to her—unless he came to reoccupy his dying body. While his spirit, the part of him which desired life, remained absent, his flesh could not rally. He was too far from any other kind of help, too far even from her medical bag. Only his will for life had a chance to sustain him. And his will still burned in the cavern of the One Tree, spending itself to preserve her from doom. He had sent her away as he had once sent Joan, so that his life would be forfeit instead of hers.
First her father.
Then her mother.
Now Covenant.
Thomas Covenant, Unbeliever and white gold wielder, leper and lover, who had taught her to treasure the danger of being human.
Dying here in front of her.
Her heart lurched wildly. The link trembled. She started to protest, No! But before the word reached utterance she changed it into something else. As she scrambled to her feet, she clawed at the bond of power connecting her to Covenant. Her senses raced back along the current of wild magic. It was all she had. She had to make it serve her, wrest it from his grasp if necessary, anything rather than permit his death. Striving with every fraction of her strength, she cried out across the distance:
“Covenant!”
The sound fell stillborn in the woods. She did not know how to make him hear her. She clung to the link, but it resisted her service. If she had had the entire facilities and staff of a modern emergency room at her immediate disposal, she would not have been able to save him. His grip on the wild magic was too strong. The effort of mastering it had made him strong. Despair made him strong. And she had never wielded power before. In a direct contest for control of his might, she was no match for him.
But her percipience still lived. She knew him in that way more intimately than she had ever known herself. She felt his fierce grief and extremity across the gap between worlds. She knew—
Knew how to reach him.
She did not stop to count the cost. There was no time. Madly she hurled herself into the dying bonfire as if it were her personal caamora.
For one splintered instant, those yellow flames leaped at her flesh. Harbingers of searing shot along her nerves.
Then Covenant saw her peril. Instinctively he tried to snatch her back.
At once, she took hold of the link with every finger of her passion. Guided by her senses, she began to fight her way toward the source of the connection.
The woods became as insubstantial as mist, then fell into shreds as the winds between the stars tugged through them. The stone under her feet evaporated into darkness. Covenant’s prone form denatured, disappeared. She began to fall, as bright as a comet, into the endless chasm of the heavens.
As she hurtled, she strove to muster words. You’ve got to come with me! It’s the only way I can save you! But suddenly the power was quenched as if Covenant himself had been snuffed out. Her spiritual plummet among the stars seemed to become a physical plunge, a fall from a height which no human body might endure. Her heart wanted to scream, but there was no air, had never been any air, her lungs could not support the ether through which she dropped. She had gone off the edge of her fate. No cry remained which would have made any difference.
Helpless to catch herself, she stumbled forward onto her face on the floor of the cavern. Her pulses raced, chest labored. Reminders of the bonfire flushed over her skin. A moment passed before she was able to realize that she had suffered no hurt.
Hands came to her aid. She needed the help. Her brain was giddy with transcendent dread. The stone seemed to buck and tremor under her. But the hands lifted her upright. She read the nature of their strength: they were Haruchai hands, Cail’s hands. She welcomed them.
But she was blind. The floor went on lurching. The Isle had begun to tremble like the presage of a convulsion. There was no light. The stars of the Worm’s aura were gone. Covenant’s fire was gone. Dazzled by powers and desperation, her eyes refused to adjust to the gloom. All her companions were invisible. They might have been slain.
She fought to see through the Worm’s unquiet ambience; but when she looked beyond Cail, she found nothing but Seadreamer’s corpse. He lay in Honninscrave’s embrace near the base of the One Tree as if his valiant bones had been burned to cinders.
The sight wrung her. Cable Seadreamer, involuntary victim of Earth-Sight and muteness. He had done nothing with his life except give it away in an effort to save the people he most treasured. She had failed him, too.
But then she became aware of Honninscrave himself, realized that the Master was breathing in great, raw hunks of loss. He was alive. That perception seemed to complete her transition, bringing her fully back into the company of her friends. The gloom macerated slowly as her eyes swam into focus.
Softly Pitchwife said, “Ah, Chosen. Chosen.” His voice was thick with rue.
A short distance from Honninscrave and Seadreamer, Covenant sat spread-legged on the stone. He appeared unconscious of the violence building in the roots of the Isle. He faced the unattainable Tree with his back bowed as if he had broken his spine.
The First and Pitchwife stood together, trapped between Covenant and Honninscrave by their inability to comfort either pain. She still gripped her sword, but it had become useless to her. Her husband’s face was full of silent weeping.
Vain remained a few paces away, wearing his black smile as if the wooden ruin of his right forearm meant nothing to him. Only Findail was nowhere to be seen. He had fled the crisis of Covenant’s fire. Linden did not care if he never returned.
Stiffly she carried her appeal toward Covenant. Kneeling between his legs, she faced him and tried to lift the words into her throat. You’ve got to go back. But she was unable to speak. It was too late. His power-haunted gaze told her plainly that he already knew what she wanted to say.
“I can’t.” His voice sifted into the dark like a falling of ashes
. “Even if I could stand it. Abandon the Land. Let Foul have his way.” His face was only a blur in the gloom, a pale smear from which all hope had been erased. “It takes too much power. I’d break the Arch.”
Oh, Covenant!
She had nothing else to give him.
TWENTY-SEVEN: The Long Grief
Linden could barely discern her companions through the dimness: Honninscrave and dead Seadreamer; the First and Pitchwife; Vain and Call. They stood around her like deeper shadows in the pervading dark. But Covenant was the one she watched. The image of him supine on the verge of death with that knife in his chest was as vivid to her as the etchwork of acid. She saw that face—the features acute with agony, the skin waxen and pallid—more clearly than the gaunt visage before her. Its vague shape appeared mortally imprecise, as if its undergirding bones had been broken—as if he were as broken as the Land which Lord Foul had restored to him, as broken as Joan. All the danger had gone out of him.
But the company could not remain where it was. A sharper convulsion shook the stone, as if the Worm were nearly awake. A scattering of pebbles fell from the walls, filling the air with light echoes. There was little time left. Perhaps it would not be enough. Gently, Cail stooped to Covenant. “Ur-Lord, come. This Isle cannot hold. We must hasten for our lives.”
Linden understood. The Worm was settling back to its rest; and those small movements might tear the Isle apart at any moment. She had failed at everything else; but this exigency was within her grasp. She rose to her feet, extended her hands to help Covenant.
He refused her offer. For a moment, darkness blotted out his mien. When he spoke, his voice was muffled by defeat.
“I should’ve broken the link. Before you had time to see. But I didn’t have the courage to let you go. I can’t bear it.”
Yet he moved. In spite of everything, he heeded the company’s need. Tortured and leprous, he climbed Call’s support until he was upright.
Another shock staggered the cavern. But Linden kept her balance alone.
The First and Pitchwife went to Honninscrave. With firm care, they urged him erect. He would not release his brother. Bearing Seadreamer in his arms, he permitted himself to be nudged toward the ledge after Covenant and Linden.
In silence, the questers trudged up out of the tomb of their dreams.
Tremors threatened them repeatedly during that hard ascent. The ledge pitched as if it sought to shrug them back into the gulf. Vibrations made the stone quiver like wounded flesh. At intervals, hunks of rock fell, striking out sharp resonations which scaled upward like cries of bereavement. But Linden was not afraid of that. She was hardly aware of the exertion of the climb. She felt that she could count the last drops of blood as they seeped around the knife in Covenant’s chest.
When she gained the crest, looked out over the Isle and the wide sea, she was wanly surprised to see that the sun had fallen no lower than midafternoon. Surely the ruin of the quest had consumed more time than that? But it had not. Such damage was as sudden as an infarction. As abrupt as the collapse of the old man on the roadway into Haven Farm
Slowly, irresistibly, the violence in the rock continued to build. As she started downward, she saw that the slopes were marked with new scars where boulders and outcroppings had fallen away. The old sea had swallowed all the rubble without a trace.
The last throes of the Isle were rising. Though she was hardly able to walk without stumbling, she urged the company faster. It was her responsibility. Covenant was so Desecration-ridden, so despair-blind, that he would have plunged headlong if Cail had not supported him. She needed help herself; but Brinn was gone, the First and Pitchwife were occupied with Honninscrave, and Cail’s duty was elsewhere. So she carried her own weight and croaked at her companions for haste. As awkwardly as cripples, they raced the Worm’s unrest downward.
Vain followed them as if nothing had changed. But his right hand dangled from the dead wood of his transformed forearm. The band of the Staff of Law on his wrist clasped the boundary between flesh and bark.
At last, they reached the longboat. Somehow it had not been struck by any of the falling boulders. The companions lurched and thudded aboard as if they were in rout.
As the First shoved the craft out into the water, the entire eyot jumped. A large section of the crest crumbled inward. The sea heaved into deep waves, setting the longboat a-dance. But it rode out the spasms unscathed. Then the First and Pitchwife took the oars and rowed through the sunlight toward Starfare’s Gem.
The next tremor toppled more of the Isle’s crown. Wide pieces of the engirdling reef sank. After that, the convulsions became almost constant, raising immense exhalations of dust like spume from the island’s throat. Impelled by heavy seas, the longboat moved swiftly to the side of the Giantship. In a short time, the company gained the decks. Everyone gathered along the port rail to watch the cairn of the One Tree go down.
It sank in a last tremendous upheaval. Chunks of the Isle jumped like flames as its foundations shattered. Then all the rock settled around the Worm’s new resting-place; and the sea rushed into the gap. The waters rose like a great geyser, spread outward in deep undulations which made the dromond roll from side to side. But that was the end. Even the reef was gone. Nothing remained to mark the area except bubbles which broke the surface and then faded, leaving azure silence in their wake.
Slowly the spectators turned back to their ship. When Linden looked past Vain toward Covenant, she saw Findail standing with him. She wanted to be angry at the Elohim, would have welcomed any emotion which might have sustained her. But the time for such things had passed. No expostulation would bring back Covenant’s hope. The lines engraving the Appointed’s face were as deep as ever; but now they seemed like scars of pity.
“I cannot ease your sorrow,” he said, speaking so softly that Linden barely heard him. “That attempt was made, and it failed. But one fear I will spare you. The One Tree is not destroyed. It is a mystery of the Earth. While the Earth endures, it too will endure in its way. Perhaps your guilts are indeed as many as you deem them—but that is one you need not bear.”
Findail’s unexpected gentleness made Linden’s eyes blur. But the pained slump of Covenant’s shoulders, the darkness of his gaze, showed that he had passed beyond the reach of solace. In a voice like the last drops of blood, he replied, “You could’ve warned me. I almost—” The vision of what he had nearly done clogged his throat. He swallowed as if he wanted to curse and no longer had the strength. “I’m sick of guilt.”
Honninscrave remained huddled over Seadreamer. Sevinhand and Gale wrath looked to him for instructions; but he did not respond, did not notice them at all. After a brief pause of respect, the First told the Anchormaster what to do.
Wrapping his old melancholy about him, Sevinhand rallied the crew. The anchors were raised, the sails set. In a short time, Starfare’s Gem swung away from the grave of the lost Isle and headed northward into the open sea.
But Covenant did not stay to watch. Bereft beyond redemption, he left his companions, shambled in the direction of his cabin. He was dying with a knife in his chest and no longer had any way to fight the Despiser. Linden understood. When he turned his back on her, she did not protest.
This was her life after all—as true to herself, to what she was and what she wanted to become, as the existence she had left behind on Haven Farm. The old man whose life she had saved there had said to her, You will not fail, however he may assail you. The choices she had made could not be taken from her.
And that was not all. She remembered what Covenant had told her about his Dead in Andelain. His friend, High Lord Mhoram, had said to him, Do not be deceived by the Land’s need. The thing you seek is not what it appears to be. The same prophecy was true for her as well. Like Brinn, she had found something she had not come seeking. With Covenant after their escape from Bhrathairealm, she had let some light into the darkness of her heart. And in the cavern of the One Tree she had found a use for that part of he
rself—a use which was not evil.
Since Covenant could not bear it now, she accepted from him the burden of hope. You will not fail— Not while she still believed in him—and knew how to reach him.
Yet she did not try to keep the tears from her eyes. Too much had been lost. As she went to stand beside Honninscrave, she folded her arms over her heart and let the long grief of the quest settle in her bones.
Here ends
THE ONE TREE
Book Two of
The Second Chronicles of Thomas Covenant.
The story concludes in Book Three,
WHITE GOLD WIELDER
GLOSSARY
ak-Haru: a supreme Haruchai honorific
aliantha: treasure-berries
Alif, the lady: a woman Favored of the gaddhi
Anchormaster: second-in-command aboard a Giantship
Andelain: a region of the Land free of the Sunbane
Appointed, the: an Elohim chosen to bear a particular burden
Arch of Time, the: symbol of the existence and structure of time
Auspice, the: throne of the gaddhi
Bahgoon the Unbearable: character in a Giantish tale
Banefire: fire by which the Clave wields the Sunbane
Bannor: former Bloodguard
Bareisle: island off the coast of Elemesnedene
Benj, the Lady: a woman Favored of the gaddhi
Berek Halfhand: ancient hero; the Lord-Fatherer
Bhrathair, the: a people who live on the verge of the Great Desert
Bhrathairain: the town of the Bhrathair
Bhrathairain Harbor: the port of the Bhrathair
Bhrathairealm: the land of the Bhrathair
Bloodguard: former servants of the Council of Lords
Brinn: a leader of the Haruchai; protector of Covenant
Brow Gnarlfist: a Giant; father of the First of the Search
caamora: Giantish ordeal of grief by fire
Cable Seadreamer: a Giant; member of the Search; brother of Honninscrave; possessed of the Earth-Sight