He waved one weakened hand in protest at this metaphor. “I confess, I have never thought of the gods as flies.”
“Neither have I, really.” She remembered staring into those dark infinities. “But dwelling on their real nature hurts my…reason, I suppose. Saps my nerve.”
“Perhaps the gods know what they are about. How did you know what I dreamed? I saw you three times, when I waked in my dreaming. Twice, you shone with an uncanny light.”
“I dreamed those dreams, too.”
“Even the third one?”
“Yes.” No dream, that, but she was abashed by that rash kiss. Though after Cattilara’s performance, it had seemed such a small self-indulgence…
He cleared his throat. “My apologies, Royina.”
“What for?”
“Ah…” He glanced at her lips, and away. “Nothing.”
She tried not to think about the taste of his reviving mouth. Goram dragged the somewhat battered chair to Illvin’s bedside for her, and put out the stool at the bed’s foot for Liss, before retreating to stand at a hunched sort of attention by the far wall. Ista and Illvin were left staring at one another in equal, she was sure, bafflement.
“Supposing,” he began again, “that you are not here by chance, but by the prayers of, well”—he cleared his throat in embarrassment—“someone—it must be to solve this tangle. Yes?”
“Say rather, uncover it. Its solution eludes me.”
“I thought you had agency over Catti’s demon. Will you not banish it?”
“I don’t know how,” she admitted uneasily. “The Bastard has given me my second sight—given me back, I should say, my second sight, for this is not the first time the gods have troubled me. But the god gave me no instructions, unless they are contained in another man I saw in my dreams.” And vice versa. Upon consideration…was dy Cabon’s appearance, on the heels of the Bastard’s mysterious second kiss, some sort of intimation of just that? “The god sent me a spiritual conductor, Learned dy Cabon, and I dearly desire his counsel in this before I proceed. He has studied something, I believe, about how demons are properly dispatched back to their Master. I’m certain he is meant to be here. But I have lost him on the road, and I fear for his safety.” She hesitated. “I’m not in haste in this matter. I see no merit in releasing Arhys from his body only to doom him to the damnation of a lost ghost.”
He grew still. “A ghost? Are you sure?”
“I saw it, when the spell was interrupted here yesterday. Nothing…happened, and it should have. There is a white roaring, when the doors of a soul are opened by death to the gods; it is a huge event. Damnation is but a silence, a slow freezing.” She rubbed her tired eyes. “And more—even if I knew how he might find his way to his god, I am by no means sure that Arhys can convince his wife to release him. Yet if he does not persuade her, who else could? Not me, I fear. And even if she would let him go…the demon she has contracted seems skilled and powerful. If she no longer is sustained by the overmastering will to keep Arhys seeming-alive, if she collapses into grief—she will be very vulnerable to it.”
He vented a “Hm” of deepening doubt.
“Has she much strength of character, in your observation?”
He frowned. “I would not have said so, before this. Lovely girl, adores Arhys, but I’d swear that if she held up a lighted candle beside one pretty ear, I could blow it out through the other. Arhys doesn’t seem to mind.” He smiled wryly. “Although if such beauty had worshipped me so ardently, my opinion of her wits might well have risen higher upon the swelling of my head, or whatever, too. Yet—she resisted the cloud of Umerue’s sorcery, and I…did not.”
“I suspect Umerue underestimated her. And that’s another thing,” said Ista. “How could a princess of Jokona, a devout Quadrene, come by a demon in the first place? And keep it concealed, or otherwise evade accusation? They burn sorcerers there, though how the Quadrene divines keep the demon from jumping to another through the flames, I don’t know. They must do something to tie it to its mount before dispatching them both.”
“Yes, they do. It involves much ceremony and prayer. An ugly business; worse, it doesn’t always work.” He hesitated. “Catti said the sorceress was sent.”
“By whom? The prince her brother? Assuming she had been dumped back into his household by her last late husband’s heirs.”
“I believe she was, yes. But…it’s hard to picture Sordso the Sot dabbling in demons for the sake of Jokona.”
“Sordso the Sot? Is that what the men of Caribastos call the young prince?”
“That’s what everybody calls him, on both sides of the border. He chose to spend the hiatus between his father’s death and the end of his mother’s regency not in studying statecraft or warfare, but in wine parties and versifying. He’s actually quite a pretty poet, in a self-consciously melancholy sort of vein, judging by the samples I’ve heard. We all hoped he would pursue the calling, which looked to be more rewarding for him than a prince’s trade.” He grinned briefly. “My lord dy Caribastos would be glad to give him a pension and a palace, and take the burdens of government off his narrow shoulders.”
“It seems the prince is not so inattentive now. It was he who sent the raiding party into Ibra, which fled east from Rauma over the mountains and so encountered me. They had tally officers to account the prince’s fifth. Did Liss tell you of this?”
“Only in brief.” He nodded to the riding girl, who nodded back in confirmation. He paused, his dark brows drawing down. “Rauma? Strange. Why Rauma?”
“I guessed that it was to encourage the Fox of Ibra to keep his troops at home, come the fall campaign, instead of sending them in support of his son against Visping.”
“Mm, could be. Rauma just seems very deep in Ibran territory to strike at so. Bad lines of retreat, as the raiders apparently found.”
“Lord Arhys mentioned that by his reckoning, of the three hundred men who left Jokona, only three returned.”
Illvin whistled. “Good for Arhys. Costly diversion for Sordso!”
“Except that they came very close to paying for all by carrying me off with them. But that could not have been part of their original plan. They didn’t even carry maps of Chalion.”
“I know the march of Rauma of old. I can imagine he would give the Jokonans a hot welcome. He used to be one of our better enemies, till we all became in-laws with Ibra. Your daughter’s marriage took a great deal of pressure off Porifors’s western flank, for which I do thank her, Royina.”
“Royse Bergon is a dear boy.” Not that Ista could help approving of anyone so plainly smitten with her daughter as Iselle’s young Ibran husband.
“His father the roya is a bit of a cactus, though. Dry, spiny, will make your fingers bleed.”
“Well, he’s our cactus now.”
“Indeed.”
Ista sat back with a troubled sigh. “The news of this—at least, the news that a highborn lady of Jokona’s court harbored a demon and attempted to suborn a Chalionese fortress by sorcery—should not be suppressed. I should write a warning to Archdivine Mendenal at Cardegoss, and to Chancellor dy Cazaril, at least.”
“That would be well,” he conceded reluctantly, “for all that I am gravely embarrassed by how closely Umerue came to succeeding. And yet—it wasn’t the archdivine of Cardegoss who was dragged by chance and his hair here to the hind end of Chalion. It was you. A more unlikely answer to my prayers I can scarcely imagine.” His mouth twisted up in puzzlement as he squinted at her.
“Did you pray to the Bastard, in your coherent moments?”
“Say, waking, rather than coherent. It all seems a fog till—yesterday? Yesterday just now. Yes, I prayed desperately. It was the only course left to me by then. I couldn’t even form the right words aloud. Just howling in my heart. To my god, whom I had abandoned—I haven’t been much for prayer since I became a man. If He’d said, Boot off, boy, you wanted to be on your own, now eat what you cooked, I should have thought Him within
His rights.” He added more slowly, “Why you? Unless this tangle has some older roots still, with my brother’s father and Cardegoss court politics.”
His shrewd guess discomfited her. “I have an old, dry knot of guilt still left to be undone with the late Lord dy Lutez, yes, but it has nothing to do with Arhys. And no, Arvol was not my lover!”
Illvin looked taken aback at her vehemence. “I did not say so, lady!”
She let out her breath. “No, you didn’t. It’s Lady Cattilara who thinks the old slander is a romantic tale, five gods spare me. Arhys just wants to take me for some spiritual stepmother, I think.”
He surprised her by snorting. “He would.” His fondly exasperated headshake scarcely enlightened her as to how to interpret this cryptic remark.
She said a little tartly, “Until I heard you two speaking with each other, I had half decided you were the jealous murderer. The despised bastard brother, denied father, title, property, pushed over the edge by this last loss.”
His dry half laugh did not sound in the least offended. “I have encountered that delusion once or twice before. The truth is exactly the reverse. I had a father all my life, or at any rate, all of his. Arhys had—a dream. My father undertook the raising of us both, in all practical matters, and he tried to do well by Arhys, but it was always with that little extra mindful effort. To me, his love flowed without hindrance.
“But Arhys was never jealous or resentful because, you see, someday it would all be made right. Someday, his fine father would call him to court. When he was big enough. When he was good enough, a good enough swordsman, horseman, officer. The great Lord dy Lutez would place him at his right hand, present him to his glittering retinue, and say to all his powerful friends, See, this is my son, is he not well? Arhys would never wear his best things; he kept them packed for the journey. For when the call came. He was ready to leave on an hour’s notice. Then Lord dy Lutez died, and…the dream stayed a dream.”
Ista shook her head in sorrow. “In all the five years I knew him, Arvol dy Lutez scarcely mentioned Arhys. He never spoke of you. If he had not died in the dungeons of the Zangre that night…that summons still might never have come, I think.”
“I wondered, in retrospect. I pray you, don’t tell Arhys that.”
“I am not sure yet what I must tell him.” Although I have my fears. Whatever it was, it was clear she had best not put it off too long.
“Me, I had a live man for a father,” Illvin went on. “Cranky betimes—how we fought when I was younger! I am so glad he lived long enough for us to be grown men together. We cared for him here at Porifors after his palsy-stroke—albeit not too long. I think he wished to be gone to look for our mother by then, for a few times we found him out searching for her.” His rich voice tightened. “Twenty years dead, she was. His life was so lightly held at the last, his death in the Father’s season seemed no sorrow. I held his hand at the end. It felt very cool and dry, almost transparent. Five gods, how did I get on to this subject? You will have me leaking, next.” He was leaking now, she thought, but he steadfastly ignored the suspect sheen in his eyes, and, politely, she did, too. “Thus, my experience of bastardy.” He hesitated, eyed her. “Do you—you, who say you have seen them face-to-face—believe the gods bring us back to those we loved? When our spirits rise?”
“I do not know,” she said, surprised into honesty. Was he thinking forward, to Arhys, as well as back to the elder Ser dy Arbanos, in this moment? “Perhaps I’ve never loved anyone enough to know. I think…it is not a fool’s hope.”
“Hm.”
She looked away from his face, feeling an intruder upon that wistful inward frown. Her eye fell on Goram, rocking and clenching his hands again. Outwardly, a grizzled aging menial. Inwardly…stripped, plundered, burned-out like some village ravaged by retreating troops.
“How came you by Goram?” Ista asked Illvin. “And where?”
“I was reconnoitering in Jokona, as is my habit whenever I have a spare week. I collect castle and town plans, for a pastime.” The brief smile that flitted across his mouth implied that he collected rather more than this, but he went on. “Having ridden down to Hamavik in the guise of a horse dealer, and having accumulated rather more stock than I’d intended, I found myself in need of an extra groom. As a Roknari merchant, I buy out Chalionese prisoners whenever I have a chance. The men with no family have little hope of ransom. Goram less than most, as he’d plainly lost most of his wits and memory. I’d diagnose a knock to the head in his last battle, though there’s no scar, so it might have been some other ill treatment, or fever. Or both. It was clear no one else in the market wanted him that day, so I drove a better bargain than I’d expected. As it proved.” The smile flickered again. “When we reached Porifors, and I freed him, he asked to stay in my service, as he no longer was sure where his home lay.”
By the wall, Goram nodded endorsement to the tale.
Ista drew breath. “Are you aware that he is demon-gnawed?”
Illvin jolted upright. “No!”
Goram looked equally dumfounded. Liss’s head jerked around, and she stared at the groom in wonder.
Illvin’s eyes narrowed in rapid thought. “How do you know this, Royina?”
“I can see it. I can see his soul-stuff. It’s all in rags and tatters.”
Illvin blinked, sank back. After a moment he said, more cautiously, “Can you see mine?”
“Yes. To me, it appears as an attenuated white fire, streaming out of your heart to your brother. His soul is gray as a ghost’s, beginning to decompose and blur. It is in his body, but it is not attached to his body. It just…floats there. Liss’s is bright and colorful, but very centered, very solid and tight within the matter that generates it.”
Liss, evidently deciding she had been complimented, smiled cheerfully.
After a reflective silence Illvin said, “That must be very distracting for you.”
“Yes,” she said shortly.
He cleared his throat. “Are you saying, then, that Goram was a sorcerer?”
Goram shook his head in horrified denial. “I’m not ever so, lady!”
“What can you remember, Goram?” Ista asked.
His seamed face worked. “I know I marched with Orico’s army. I remember the roya’s tents, all red-and-gold silk, shining in the light. I remember…marching as a prisoner, with chains on. Working, some field work, hot in the sun.”
“Who were your Roknari masters?”
He shook his head. “Don’t remember them, much.”
“Ships? Were you ever on ships?”
“Don’t think so. Horses, yes. There were horses.”
Illvin put in, “We’ve talked before about what he could remember, when I was trying to find out his family. Because he must have been a prisoner for several years, if it was from the time the prince of Borasnen first attempted the fortress of Gotorget, two years before it fell. I think from some things Goram has said that must have been the campaign he was in. But he doesn’t remember his captivity either, much. That was why I thought his brains might have been baked by a fever, perhaps just before he came my way.”
“Goram, can you remember what has happened to you since Lord Illvin ransomed you?” asked Ista.
“Oh, aye. That don’t hurt.”
“Can you remember anything at all from just before Lord Illvin bought you out?”
Goram shook his head. “There was a dark place. I liked it because it was cool. Stank, though.”
“Wits and memories eaten out, the demon jumped, and yet—not dead,” mused Ista. “Abandoning a live mount is not easy for a demon, I gather from dy Cabon; they get all tangled together somehow. Killing the person forces the demon out. Like Umerue. Or like the Quadrene burnings.”
“Don’t burn me!” cried Goram. He shrank down smaller, almost crouching, and stared in dismay at his own chest
“No one will burn you,” Illvin said firmly. “Not in Chalion, in any case, and now there is no need, because she s
ays the demon is gone. All gone. Right?” He shot Ista a compelling glare.
“Very gone.” And most of Goram with it, it seemed. She wondered if he had been a servant, before—or something more.
“Hamavik…” murmured Illvin. “How suggestive. Both Goram and Princess Umerue were there at the same time. Could this…damage of Goram’s have any relation to Umerue’s demon?”
It made an enticing sort of connection. And yet… “Catti’s demon didn’t feel as if it had been dining on soldiers. It felt… I’m not sure how to put this. Too womanly. I suppose we can try to get information out of it again. I don’t think the way it carried on here yesterday was any more usual for a demon than for a person. Or sorcerers would be far more conspicuous.”
Liss, Ista noted, was looking most disturbed. Was she seeing a future Foix in Goram’s slack, timid, bewildered face? Where was the boy? Ista wasn’t desperate enough to pray yet, considering her feelings about prayer, but she thought she might become so if this hideous uncertainty went on much longer.
Ista continued, “Learned dy Cabon told me that demons were very rare, usually—but not these past few years. That the Temple had not seen an outbreak like this since Roya Fonsa’s day, fifty years gone. I cannot imagine what rip in the Bastard’s hell can be leaking them back into the world in such numbers, but that’s what I am beginning to picture.”
“Fonsa’s day.” Illvin’s words were starting to slur. “Strange.”
“Your time is almost up,” Ista said, eyeing the thickening white rope with disfavor. “I can portion you some more.”
“You said Arhys would start to rot, though,” Illvin objected muzzily. “High summer. Can’t have…bits of him falling off into his soup, can we now…?” His voice was fading. He roused himself in a spasm of despair. “No! There must be another way! Have to find another way! Lady—come again…?”
“Yes,” she said. On the reassurance, he released his grip on the edge of his counterpane and slid down. His face emptied once more into waxen stillness.
ISTA KEPT TO HER CHAMBERS AGAIN THAT DAY, WAITING IMPATIENTLY for the sun to run its course and rise again. She penned her new letters to Cardegoss and, when the sun dropped, paced the stone courtyard until even Liss abandoned her side and sat on a bench to watch her circulate. By the following midmorning she was reduced to mentally composing another sharp letter to the provincar of Tolnoxo, though the first could barely have arrived yet, let alone been acted upon.