Her hair was bleached a blond that was nearly white, cut short and spiky, and only accented how thin her face had become. The lines had dug deep around her mouth, around her eyes. The makeup she'd applied couldn't hide them.
He imagined that upset and infuriated her when she looked in the mirror.
She hadn't yet hit fifty, he calculated, but looked as though she'd been dragged face first over it some time before.
She slid in across from him. He caught a drift of her perfume—something strong and floral. It either hid the smell of whiskey, or she'd held off on her drinking before the meeting.
"Your hair was longer last time," she said, then shifted to flash her teeth at the waitress. "What kind of pie you got tonight?"
"Apple, cherry, lemon meringue."
"I'll have a slice of cherry, with vanilla ice cream. How about you, Seth honey?"
Her voice, just her voice, set his teeth on edge. "No."
"Suit yourself. You got any chocolate sauce?" she asked the waitress.
"Sure. You want that, too?"
"You just dump it over the ice cream. I'll have coffee, too. Well now." She leaned back, slung one arm over the back of the booth. Skinny as she was, he noted, the skin there was starting to sag. "I figured you'd stay over in Europe, keep playing with the Italians. Guess you got homesick. And how are all the happy Quinns these days? How's my dear sister, Sybill?"
Seth lifted the bag from the seat beside him, watched her focus in on it as he laid it on the tabletop. But when she reached out, he closed his fist around it.
"You take it, and you go. You make a move toward anyone in my family, you'll pay. You'll pay a hell of a lot more than what's in this bag."
"That's a hell of a way to talk to your mother."
His tone never changed. "You're not my mother. You never were."
"Carried you around inside me for nine months, didn't I? I
brought you into the world. You owe me."
He unzipped the bag, tilted it so she could see the contents. The satisfaction on her face dragged at his belly. "There's your payment. You stay away from me and mine."
"You and yours, you and yours. Like you got something with those assholes I give two shits about. Think you're a big shot now, don't you? Think you're something special. You're nothing."
Her voice rose enough to have the man at the counter take notice and the waitress give them a wary look. Seth rose, took ten dollars out of his wallet and tossed it on the table.
"Maybe I am, but I'm still better than you."
Her hand curled into a claw, but she fisted it, laid it on the table as he walked out. She snatched the bag, tucked it against he hip on the seat.
Down payment, she mused. Enough to tide her over for a few weeks while she worked out the rest.
She wasn't done with Seth. Not by a long shot.
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Chapter Eleven
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HE BURROWED IN HIS STUDIO. He used painting as an escape, an excuse, and as a channel for his frustration.
He knew his family was worried about him. He'd barely seen them, or anyone else for that matter, for three days. He hadn't been able to go back to them after leaving Gloria.
He wouldn't take any part of her into their homes, their lives. She was the monkey on his back, and he'd do whatever it took to stop her from leaping onto theirs.
Money was a small price to pay to get rid of her. She'd be back. She always came back. But if ten thousand bought a space of peace, it was a bargain.
So, he'd work through his anger until he found that peace.
He'd hauled the big canvas up from storage, and he'd painted what he felt. The messy mix of emotions and images took shape and color and, as they did, emptied out of him.
He ate when he was hungry, slept when his vision blurred. And painted as if his life depended on it.
That's what Dru thought as she stood in the doorway. It was a battle between life and death, between sanity and despair waged with a brush.
He had one in his hand, stabbed at the canvas, sliced at it. Another was clamped between his teeth like a weapon in reserve. Music boomed, a violent guitar riff that was like a battle cry. Paint was splattered on his shirt, his jeans, his shoes. Her floor.
A kind of blood loss, she thought and gripped the vase she carried.
He hadn't heard her knock over the blasting music, but looking at him now, she realized he wouldn't have heard her if the room had been silent and she'd screamed his name. He wasn't in the room. He was in the painting. She told herself to back up and close the door, that she was trespassing on his privacy and his work. But she couldn't.
To see him like this was compelling, intimate, oddly erotic. He seduced her with a passion that wasn't simply beyond anything she understood, but was as distant from her world as the moon.
So she watched as he switched one brush for the other, as he swiped and swirled at the paint, then whipped at the canvas. Bold, almost vicious strokes, then delicate ones that seemed to hold a kind of contained fury.
Despite the breeze spilling in through the windows, she could see the dark line of sweat riding up the center back of his shirt, the damp gleam on the flesh of his arms and throat. This was labor, she thought, and not all for love. He'd told her he'd never suffered for art, but he'd been wrong, Dru realized. Anything that consumed so utterly came with pain. When he stepped back from the canvas, she thought he stared at it as if it had appeared out of thin air. The hand that held the brush fell to his side. He took the one he'd clamped between his teeth, set it aside. Then rubbed, almost absently, at the muscles of his right arm, flexed his fingers.
She started to ease back now, but he turned, peered at her like a man coming out of a trance. He appeared to be exhausted, a little shell-shocked and painfully vulnerable.
Since she'd missed her chance to leave unnoticed, she did the only thing she could think of. She walked in, crossed over to his stereo and turned the music down.
"I'm sorry. You didn't hear me knock." She didn't look at the painting. She was almost afraid to. So she looked at him. "I've interrupted your work."
"No." He shoved away the stray strands of hair that fell over his forehead. "I think it's finished."
He hoped to Christ it was, because he didn't have any more to give it. It had, finally, blessedly, emptied him.
He shifted to his workbench to clean his brushes. "What do you think?" he asked with a nod of his head toward the canvas.
It was a storm at sea. Brutal, savage, and somehow alive. The colors were dark and fearful—blues, greens, blacks, vicious yellows that combined like painful bruises.
She could hear the wind screaming, feel the terror of the man who fought a desperate battle to keep his boat from being swallowed by towering walls of waves.
The water lashed, lightning speared out of the turbulent sky. She saw faces—-just ghostly hints of them—in the feral clouds that spewed a sharp and angry rain. More, she realized as she was drawn to it, more faces in the sea.
They seemed hungry to her.
The single boat, the single man, were alone in the primal war. And in the distance, there was land, and light. There, that small piece of the sky was clear and steady blue. There was home. He was fighting his way home.
"It's powerful," she managed. "And it's painful. You don't show his face, so I wonder, would I see despair or determination, excitement or fear? And that's the point, isn't it? You don't show his face so we look and we see what we'd feel if we were the one fighting our demons alone."
"Don't you wonder if he'll win?"
"I know he will because he has to get home. They're waiting for him." She looked over at him. He was still caught up in the painting, and rubbing his right hand with his left. "Are you all right?"
"What?" He glanced at her, then down at his hands. "Oh. Yeah. They cramp sometimes when I've been at it too long."
"How long have you been working on this?"
"I don't know. What day is it?"
"That long. Then I imagine you want to get home and get some rest." She picked up the vase of flowers she'd set beside his stereo. "I put this together before I closed tonight." She held it out. "A peace offering."
It was a mix of blooms and shapes in a squat blue vase.
"Thanks. It's nice."
"I don't know whether to be disappointed or relieved that you haven't been up here the last few days stewing over our disagreement."
He gave the flowers a quick sniff. Something in the bouquet smelled a little like vanilla. "Is that what we had?"
"Well, we weren't in agreement. I was wrong. I very rarely am."
"Is that so?"
"Very rarely," she acknowledged. "So it's always a shock when I am, and when I am, I like to admit it, apologize and move on as quickly as possible."
"Okay. Why don't you tell me which portion of the disagreement you were wrong about?"
"About you and Aubrey. Not only wrong about the aspect of your relationship, but wrong to make an issue out of something that's your personal business."
"Huh. So you were wrong twice."
"No. That equals one mistake with two parts. I was wrong once. And I am sorry."
He set the flowers down, then rolled his shoulders to try to ease some of the stiffness. "How do you know you were wrong?"
Well, she thought, if she'd expected him to let it go with an apology, she should have known better. "She stopped by the shop the other day and explained things to me very clearly. Then we had some wine and Chinese at my place."
"Back up. I explained things to you, and you kick me out—"
"I never—"
"Metaphorically. Aub explains things to you, and everything's peachy?"
"Peachy?" She chuckled, shrugged. "Yes."
"You just took her word for it, then ate spring rolls?"
"That's right." It pleased her to think of it. The entire evening with Aubrey pleased her. "Since she wasn't trying to get me into bed, she didn't have any incentive, that I could see, to lie about it. And if she had been interested in you in a romantic or sexual way, she'd have no motive for clearing the path where I was concerned. Which means I was wrong, and I apologize."
"I don't know why," he said after a moment. "I can't put my finger on it, but that pisses me off again. I want a beer. Do you want a beer?"
"Does that mean you accept my apology?"
"I'm thinking about it," he called back from the kitchen. "Go back to that 'clearing the path' part. I think that might turn the tide."
She accepted the bottle he handed her when he came back in. "I don't know you, not very well," she said.
"Sugar, I'm an open book."
"No, you're not. And neither am I. But it seems I'd like to get to know you better."
"How about pizza?"
"Excuse me?"
"How about we order some pizza because I'm starving. And I'd like to spend some time with you. You hungry?"
"Well, I—"
"Good. Where the hell's that phone?" He shoved at things on his workbench, rattled items on his shelves, then finally dug the phone out from under a pillow on the bed. "Speed dial," he told her after he pushed some buttons. "I keep all vital numbers—Hi, it's Seth Quinn. Yeah, I'm good. How about you? You bet. I want a large, loaded."
"No," Dru said and had him frowning over at her.
"Hold it a minute," he said into the phone. "No, what?"
"No toppings."
"No toppings?" He gaped at her. "None? What are you, sick?"
"No toppings," she repeated, primly now. "If I want a salad,
I have a salad. If I want meat, I have meat. If I want pizza, I
have pizza."
"Man." He huffed out a breath, rubbed his chin in a way she'd seen Ethan do. "Okay, make that half totally boring and half loaded. Yeah, you got it. At my place over the flower shop. Thanks."
He disconnected, then tossed the phone back on the bed. "Won't take long. Look, I need to clean up." He dug into a packing box and came out with what might have been fresh jeans. "I'm going to grab a shower. Just, you know, hang. I'll be right back."
"Can I look at some of your other paintings?"
"Sure." He waved a hand as he carried his beer into the little bathroom. "Go ahead."
And just like that, she realized, they were back on even ground. Or as even as it ever had been. Just hang, he'd said, as if they were friends.
Wasn't it a wonder that she felt they were. Friends. Whatever else happened, or didn't happen between them, they were friends.
Still, she waited until the door was shut and she heard the shower running before she moved over to the painting propped on the easel by the front windows.
The breath caught in her throat. She supposed it was a typical reaction for someone seeing themselves as a painting. That moment of surprise and wonder, the simple fascination with self, as seen through another's eyes.
She wouldn't see herself this way, she realized. Not as romantic and relaxed and sexy all at once. Made bold by the colors, made dreamy by the light, and sexy by the pose with her leg bare and the bright skirt carelessly draped.
Made, somehow, powerful even at rest.
He'd finished it. Surely it was finished, because it was perfect.
Perfectly beautiful.
He'd made her beautiful, she thought. Desirable, she supposed, and still aloof because it was so clear she was alone—that she wished to be alone.
She'd told him she didn't know him well. Now more than ever she understood how true that was. And how could anyone really know him? How could anyone understand a man who had so much inside him, who was capable of creating something so lovely and dreamy in one painting, and something so passionate and fierce in another?
Yet with every step she took with him, she wanted to know more.
She wandered to the stacks of canvases, sat on the floor, set her beer aside and began to learn.
Sun-washed scenes of Florence with red-tiled roofs, golden buildings, crooked, cobbled streets. Another exploding with color and movement—Venice, she realized—all a blur with the crowds.
An empty road winding through luminous green fields. A nude, her eyes dark and slumberous, her hair in untamed splendor around her face and shoulders, and the glory of Rome through the window at her back.
A field of sunflowers baking in the heat that was almost palpable—and the laughing face of a young girl running through them trailing a red balloon behind her.
She saw joy and romance, sorrow and whimsy, desire and despair.
He saw, she corrected. He saw everything.
When he came back in, she was sitting on the floor, a painting in her lap. The beer sat untouched beside her.
He crossed over, picked up the bottle. "How about wine instead?"
"It doesn't matter." She couldn't take her attention away from the painting.
It was another watercolor, one he'd done from memory on a rainy day in Italy. He'd been homesick and restless.
So he'd painted the marsh he'd explored as a boy with its tangle of gum and oak trees, with its wigeongrass and cattails, with its luminous light trapped in dawn.
"That spot's not far from the house," he told her. "You can follow that path back to it." He supposed that's what he'd been doing in his head when he'd painted it. Following the path back.
"Will you sell it to me?"
"You keep coming up here, I'm not going to need an agent." He crouched down beside her. "Why this one?"
"I want to walk there, through that mist. Watch it rise over the water while the sun comes up. It makes me feel…"
She trailed off as she tipped her face up to look at him.
He hadn't put on a shirt, and there were still a few stray beads of water gleaming on his chest. His jeans rode low, and he hadn't fastened the top button.
She imagined sliding her finger there, just over that line of denim. Just under it.
"Feel what?" he prompted.
Needy, she thought. Itchy. Brainless.
"Um." With some effort, she shifted to admire the painting again. "A little lonely, I suppose. But not in a sad way. Because it's beautiful there, and the path means you're only alone if you want to be."
He leaned in, closer to the painting. She smelled the shower on him—soap and water—and her stomach muscles tightened even as those in her thighs went loose. "Where would you put it?"
If this was desire, Dru realized, if this was lust, she'd never felt its like before.
"Ah, in my office at home. So when I'm tired of working on the books, I can look at it. And take a quiet walk."
She eased away from him, propped the painting up again. "So, can I buy it?"
"Probably." He straightened as she did, and their bodies brushed. From the glint in his eye she decided he was perfectly aware of her reaction to him. "Did you see your portrait?"
"Yes." It gave her an excuse to put a little distance between them when she walked to it. "It's lovely."
"But you don't want to buy it?"
"It's not for me. What will you call it?"
"Beauty Sleeps," he said, then frowned as the dream he'd forgotten came back to him. "Zucchini football," he muttered.
"Excuse me?"
"Nothing. Just a weird flash. Pizza," he said at the brisk knock on the door.
He snatched his wallet off the workbench and, still shirtless and barefoot, went to the door. "Hey, Mike, how's it going?"
"Hanging loose."
The skinny, pimply-faced teenager handed Seth the pizza box. Then his gaze shifted, and he caught sight of Dru. The way his
Adam's apple bobbed, the way surprise, interest and envy sped over his young, bumpy face, warned Dru there would be fresh fruit on the grapevine, and it would have her and Seth clustered together.
"Um, hi. Um. Grandma sent you a bunch of napkins and stuff." He shoved the paper bag into Seth's hands as well.
"Great. Tell her thanks. Here you go, Mike. Keep the change."
"Yeah. Well. Um. See you."