"Yes. The antitrust commission swung by last September to investigate."
"Zip it, will you, Jordan?"
"You could get it towed," he suggested. "You could rent a car."
Selena shrugged, considering this.
"Or you could just stay with us for a while," Jordan said, and the moment the words were out of his mouth, he wondered where they had come from. The last thing he wanted was Selena Damascus around, reminding him of what might have worked out in a different time and place.
"You can barely stand to look at me. God, Jordan, you took your cereal bowl into your bedroom this morning to keep us from having to eat breakfast together."
He looked away.
"Not to mention all that ... history ... between us."
She was asking him, Jordan realized, not telling him. He was very quiet for a moment, remembering how he had stayed up all night waiting to hear the tumblers in the lock announcing her return with Thomas, how he'd sat on the couch after putting away her blankets this morning and realized the scent of her was now a part of it, as much as its color and weave.
"If I stayed, we'd just be asking for trouble," Selena said.
"It would be a stupid move," Jordan agreed.
"Stupid?" she snorted. "It would be one of the ten biggest mistakes in the history of the world."
He laughed along with her, both of them completely aware that they were already moving toward his car, inching in the direction of home.
If Addie was surprised to discover that she liked sex, she was absolutely stunned to realize that she was addicted to the moments afterward.
She would lie on her side, drawn into the shell of Jack's body like a precious pearl. She could feel him the whole length of her, could taste herself on his fingers, could sense the moment his breathing evened into sleep. But most of all, while they were curled together, she knew that they were equals. No one was on top, no one was pleasing someone else, no one had the upper hand. It was just Addie, listening to Jack, who was listening to Addie.
Where would you go if you could board a plane for anywhere?
What's the first thing you remember from your childhood?
Would you want to live forever?
These were the things they talked about while the night settled and bled into morning. His reticence to talk about the past had broken like a dam; now, he told her about his teaching days, about his arrest, about his time in jail. Sometimes, while Jack was asking her a question or answering one of hers, he'd slide his hand up to cover her breast. Sometimes his fingers would stroke her from the inside out, making it a challenge to listen. He did it so often, and so well, that she stopped jumping every time it happened.
"You can ask me anything," Jack said solemnly, "and I'll answer."
Addie knew he was telling the truth. Which is why, sometimes, she bit down on the question she most wanted Jack to respond to: What would it take to make you run?
Jack stood at his window in Roy Peabody's guest room, grinning like a fool at the sight of Stuart Hollings walking his cow down Main Street once again. He felt, unbelievably, like whistling. Addie had done that to him. He opened the door and sauntered into the living room, humming under his breath. "Roy, it's such a good morning I think I can stomach even you."
He stopped short at the sight of Addie, arguing with her father in heated whispers.
"Jack," she said, blushing. "Hi."
"Hi," he answered. He stuffed his hands into his pockets.
Roy looked from one to the other and threw up his hands. "For the love of God. You think I don't know what you two are up to? Christ, Jack. You've barely been sleeping here enough, Jack, for me to charge you rent. Forget the false modesty and sit down next to her. Just don't start pawing her until I've had a cup of coffee, all right? There's only so much a man my age can take without a strong jolt of caffeine."
Addie smiled weakly at Jack. "So," he said, feeling like a seventh grader beneath Roy's hawkeyed regard. "What were you two talking about?"
"Well--" Addie began, at the same minute that Roy said, "Nothing."
Then Jack noticed the bucket of soapy water beside Roy's armchair. A sponge floated like seaweed on the top. "Planning on washing your car?"
Roy scowled. "Kick a man while he's down, why don't you?"
"He doesn't have a car," Addie said, sotto voce. "Those DUIs."
"Ah. Spring cleaning, then?"
Roy and Addie exchanged a look. "Yeah," he said, leaping on Jack's explanation. "I've got to do these windows. It's gotten so that when I look out 'em, I can barely tell Stuart from the cow."
"I'll do it," Jack said, getting to his feet.
"No!" Addie and Roy said in unison.
"It's no trouble. And I promise I'll be down to work on time. Matter of fact, now that I think of it, isn't there a ladder in the storeroom downstairs I can use?" He sidestepped the bucket, strolled to the door, and opened it.
The paint was still dripping, angry and red: GO HOME.
Jack touched the words with one shaking finger. "This isn't the first time, is it?"
"Happened yesterday, too," Roy admitted. "I got it off before you woke up."
"Why didn't you tell me?" Jack rounded on Addie. "Or you?"
"Jack ... If you ignore whoever's doing this, they'll just go away."
"No," he said. "If you ignore it, it steamrolls you." Then he pushed out the door, bracing his hand on the wall, leaving behind a smudge of red paint like first blood drawn.
Gillian dreamed that the doorbell was ringing. She was in bed, so sick she could barely lift her eyelids, but whoever it was wouldn't go away. After eons she managed to swing her legs over the side of the bed. She stumbled down the stairs and yanked open the door. Standing there was her father, holding a gun. "Gilly," he said, and then he shot her in the heart.
She woke with a start, sweating, and pushed back the comforter on her bed. It was still early--barely 6:30 in the morning--but she could hear voices rising from downstairs.
Moments later, she inched toward the kitchen. "All I'm saying, Tom, is that I live here for a reason," her father said.
He was talking to Whitney's dad. Peeking in, Gilly saw Ed Abrams, too, and Jimmy from the pharmaceutical plant. "I don't see how we can do anything about it," Tom answered. "Noticed you didn't invite Charlie Saxton to this tete-a-tete, either."
"Charlie's welcome to join me anytime, so long as he checks his gold shield at the door."
Ed shook his head. "I don't know, Amos. It's not like he's made a move."
"Who?" Gilly said, coming out of her hiding spot and entering the kitchen. She poured herself a cup of coffee with the aplomb of a woman twice her age, then slid beneath her father's arm. "Morning, Daddy," she said, kissing his cheek. "Hi, Mr. Abrams. Mr. O'Neill. Jimmy." The men muttered greetings, turning their eyes away from her pajamas: a baby-doll T-shirt and a pair of her dad's boxers. A thin line of powder-pink skin showed between the sagging waistband and the hem of her shirt. "Who hasn't made a move?"
"This," Amos said suddenly. "This is why we have to take the first step." He grabbed the edge of his daughter's T-shirt, wrinkling it in his hand, so that it pulled tight across the buds of her breasts. Gilly froze, caught somewhere between absolute humiliation and the strange power she had knowing her body could keep these men in thrall.
Tom O'Neill stood up. "Count me in."
Ed Abrams nodded, and so did Jimmy.
Amos walked the men out, talking quietly in a voice Gilly was not meant to hear. Something had happened, though, something she meant to find out. She waited for her father to return. "Daddy, aren't you going to tell me what's going on?"
Amos stared at her for a moment before finding his voice. "Let's get you dressed," he said simply, and he took her hand and led her upstairs.
Charlie jumped as the door to his office burst open. Standing on the threshold, fuming, was his resident registered sexual offender, Jack St. Bride. A step behind, his secretary shrugged. "Sorry, boss. I tried to get
him to wait, but--"
"I'll take it from here. Mr. St. Bride? You want to come in for a minute?" He gestured at the chair opposite his desk as if St. Bride were any visitor, instead of a man so angry Charlie could nearly see steam rising from his skin. "Now. What can I do for you?"
"Everyone knows," St. Bride said tightly.
Charlie did not pretend to misunderstand him. "The list of registered offenders is public. If a resident comes in requesting it, I have no choice but to hand it over."
"How many?"
"How many what?" Charlie repeated.
"How many people have asked to see the list since my name's been on it?"
"I'm not at liberty to--"
"Just tell me. Please."
Charlie pursed his lips and stared at the ceiling, at a crack that marched across it like a panoramic peak of mountains. "None that I know of."
"That's right. No one would know I was on that list at all if it weren't for one of your own officers."
The detective rubbed the bridge of his nose. Goddamn Wes, anyway. "We have protocols at the department, Mr. St. Bride, and it's always a disappointment to hear that a staff member hasn't followed them."
"A disappointment." Jack looked into his lap, and when he lifted his face again his eyes were shining--with fury or with tears--Charlie didn't know for sure and wasn't certain he wanted to know, either. "This little disappointment of yours ... it's going to ruin my life."
Charlie refrained from saying what he wanted: that St. Bride had ruined his life all by himself. "I'm sorry, but it's not within my power to keep rumors from spreading."
"How about vandalism, Detective? Can you stop people from painting on Roy Peabody's door charming little graffiti messages about how I ought to leave?"
"You can file a complaint, but I'll tell you now that the chance of anything coming of it is awfully slim." Charlie looked the other man directly in the eye. "No one in this town can force you to move out of it. No matter what they say or do, it's your right to stay if you want to."
At that, St. Bride's shoulders relaxed just the slightest bit.
"Unfortunately," Charlie added, "it's their right to say and do whatever they want to try to change your mind."
"And if they hurt me ... if they send me to the hospital, or worse ... is that what it will take to get you on my side?"
"I'm on the side of the law. If it comes to assault, they'll be punished." Charlie twisted a paper clip in his hands, until the heat that come from the motion snapped it in two. "But the goes both ways, Mr St. Bride. Because I'm going to be watching you, too And if you so much as look at a teenage girl in Salem Falls, you'll find yourself moving out of town as quick as a sheriff's patrol car can take you."
St. Bride seemed to crumble from the inside out, like a building Charlie had once seen blown up in Boston. First the eyes closed, then the shoulders dropped, then the head bowed--until it seemed to Charlie that all he was looking at was a shell of the man who had walked in on such a rush of anger. This man is a criminal, Charlie reminded himself, although it felt as though he were staring at something with feathers and webbed feet and a bill and insisting it was a dog. "Is that clear?"
Jack did not open his eyes. "Crystal."
Gilly leaned across the aisle when Mrs. Fishman's back was turned and snatched the folded note out of Whitney's hand.
Tituba should have hexed them all, it read. She hid the paper between the folds of her dog-eared copy of The Crucible.
"Why did the girls accuse the goodwives of the town of seeing the Devil?" Mrs. Fishman said. "Gillian?"
She had read the play--it was their homework assignment. Totally lame, too. A bunch of Puritan girls saying the town biddies were witches, just so that one of them could do the nasty with a married man and not have to worry about his loser of a wife finding out. "Well, at first they didn't want to get caught for practicing voodoo. So they tried to take the heat off themselves by telling a lie. But this lie ... it turned out to be the one thing that brought all these other truths out into the open."
"Such as?"
"Like Proctor and Abigail hiding the salami," the jock behind her called out, and the rest of the class laughed.
Mrs. Fishman's lips twitched. "Thank you, Frank, for putting it so succinctly." She began to walk through the aisles. "Rumor has it that Abigail wound up as a prostitute in Boston. Elizabeth Proctor remarried after her husband was hung. And New Age witches, of course, are no longer accused of consorting with the Devil."
Gilly bowed her head, so that her hair spilled forward to shield her face from view. You'd be surprised, she thought.
It was 8 A.M., and already Addie was so tired she could barely stand. "More coffee?" she asked, holding the pot so it hovered like a bumblebee above the bloom of Stuart Hollings's mug.
"You know, Addie, the docs said I ought to stop drinking it because it wasn't good for my heart." Then he grinned. "So I said, if three cups a day got me to see the sunny side of 86, I'm just gonna keep doin' what I've been doin'!"
Smiling, Addie poured. "Let's hope this gets you another 86 years."
"Christamighty, no," Wallace groaned, beside him. "I'm hoping he'll buy the farm before me, just so's I can have a decade of peace and quiet."
At the cash register, Roy cracked a package of pennies like an egg and let the coins shimmy into the bowl of the money drawer. "Busy today," he remarked as Addie passed by, seating more customers.
She sighed. "We haven't had this kind of volume since the summer we offered free blue plate specials every time the thermometer topped a hundred degrees."
She smiled at her father, and he smiled back, but they both knew what had caused the sudden increase in patronage. People who had never set foot inside the Do-Or-Diner had come because there was a spectacle on display in their town, a criminal who had the nerve to choose their own small hamlet as a place of residence, and they wanted to see what kind of man would be so daring, or so stupid. It seemed impossible that the news had spread so quickly from Wes to filter into this group of customers, but then Addie only had to look as far as herself to know that it had happened before. Rumor grew and morphed, until a man accused of assault might turn into a serial rapist, until a grieving mother was seen as a madwoman.
The sad truth was, nothing was better for a small-town diner than gossip.
So far, of course, they'd been denied a show. But even as Addie thought this, the door opened and Jack slipped inside, intent on making his way to the safety of the kitchen before anyone could speak to him. His appearance electrified the tiny room: Diners paused with their coffee mugs held in midair, their forks suspended with a bite of food while they stared at a man who had, overnight, transformed from "the dishwasher at the diner" into "the convicted rapist." "Sorry I'm late," Jack muttered.
Addie planted herself directly in his path, unwilling to budge until he looked up at her. "What happened?"
"Please, Addie. Could we just not talk about it now?"
She nodded briskly. "Well, I need you out here to clear."
The thought of a task was a brass ring, and Jack grabbed on with both hands. "Just let me get my apron." Slowly, the diner thawed into activity as Jack disappeared behind the swinging doors, the two sides snapping together in an overbite.
Jack reappeared with an empty busing bin. She watched him approach a family that had finished eating: a mother, a father, a little boy. "Mommy," the child said in a stage whisper, "is that the bad man?"
Addie was at his side in a moment. "I'll take over." Her voice jolted Jack out of his surprise. With a nod, he crossed the room to bus the counter.
Stuart winked. "Guess Addie sent you here because we're safe. Not a perky set of hooters between the two of us."
Flushing deeply, Jack reached for their dirty silverware.
"Don't blame you, anyhow. You ever watch that MTV station? Heck, you'd have to be six feet under to keep from noticing that Britney Spears gal." Stuart grinned. "Reckon she might have given me a stroke I wouldn't h
ave minded, if you know what I mean."
"Them girls," Wallace agreed. "They're asking for it."
Jack's hands tightened on the busboy's bin. "They don't ask for it."
"You're right," Stuart said, and chuckled. "They see a guy like you and they beg for it."
It happened so quickly that later, Jack couldn't recall the exact moment he grabbed Stuart by the parchment folds of his neck, lifting him off the stool with a single hand. Or how Roy tried to wrestle Jack off the octogenarian. The collective attention of the diner was riveted on a performance beyond their wildest dreams.
"Jack!" Addie cried, her voice cutting to the quick. "Jack, you have to stop."
He let go immediately, and Stuart rolled to his side, coughing. The blood that had been pounding in Jack's head flowed evenly again, and he stared at his hands as if they'd grown from the ends of his wrists just moments before. "Mr. Hollings," he stammered. "I'm so sorry."
"The doc was almost right," Stuart wheezed. "It ain't the coffee what'll kill me, but the guy who cleans it up." With Wallace's support, he struggled to his feet. "Oh, you're tough, Jack. It takes a real man to beat up a guy as old as me ... and to fuck a child."
Jack's hands twitched at his sides. "Stuart, Wallace," Addie said. "I'm so sorry." She took a step forward, smiling as graciously as she could. "Of course, breakfast is on the house. For everyone."
There was a cheer, and as Stuart and Wallace became immediate heroes again, the tension dissolved like fog. Addie turned to Jack. "Can I talk to you? In private?"
She led him into the women's bathroom, pretty and floral and smelling of potpourri. Jack didn't let himself meet her eyes; he just shuffled and waited for the storm to break.
"Thank you," Addie said, winding her arms around his neck as delicately as ivy.
A moment later, the taste of her still on his lips, Jack spoke. "Why aren't you angry at me?"
"I admit, I wish it hadn't been Stuart. And I wish it hadn't been in front of so many people, who came here looking for just this. But sooner or later, they're going to wonder why a rapist would have taken the victim's side." She pulled him closer, so that his grateful face was buried against the curve of her neck, and his breath fell between the buttons of her blouse. "Come over tonight?" she whispered. And she felt his smile against her skin.