Hunter glanced in the direction she indicated, then looked away.
“The hard men,” he said.
Ellie nodded. “That’s what Donal calls them. You see them in The Harp from time to time, and they never seem to be having any more fun there either. I wonder why they bother to come out.”
“Donal says they beat him up one night.”
“I remember. It was like some stupid macho initiation. First they beat him up, then they’re all friendly with him the next time they see him. Or what passes for friendly with that bunch. It really makes you wonder about people, doesn’t it?”
“I’m guessing that they must be carrying around a lot of anger,” Hunter said.
“But that shouldn’t be an excuse.”
“I wasn’t excusing them.”
“I didn’t think you were,” Ellie told him. “I just get frustrated about that kind of thing. I see so much of that on the streets. You wonder how all those people who must once have been so full of hope grow so lost. And angry. Some take it out on themselves, some take it out on others.”
Hunter turned to look at her. “That’s right. You’re involved with one of Angel’s projects, aren’t you?”
“Part-time. We’re the ones that drive around in the vans at night.”
“I don’t know how you can do it. Where do you find the time?”
Ellie smiled at him. “Well, it does play havoc with my social life. It seems like half the time I can’t date because we’re out in the van and the other half I’m too tired to do anything but veg at home. It doesn’t exactly make me scintillating company.”
“Is that what happened with you and …”
Hunter’s voice trailed off and he got an embarrassed look on his face.
“Me and Donal?” Ellie finished for him.
“Sorry. I didn’t mean to pry.”
“That’s okay.” Ellie looked out at the dancers again, not really seeing them, before she went on. “No, it wasn’t that. It was more that I ended up realizing we’d make better friends.” She returned her attention to Hunter. “Not that lovers shouldn’t be friends as well. I never can understand why people don’t concentrate on the friendship part of their relationship more than they do. There’d be a lot less divorces and breakups if they did.”
“I think you’re right. That’s what got to me with Donal’s teasing the other night. I started thinking about how Miki and I are such good friends, and how that seemed to automatically preclude us having any other sort of a relationship.”
Ellie smiled. “So Donal was right. You do fancy her.”
Hunter shook his head. “No. I keep finding myself looking at her and wondering about it, but I know it’s not like that. What it really got me thinking about was how that lack of a solid friendship was what made my last relationship fall apart. After that big buzz that comes when you first connect, we just became a habit to each other. Turns out we weren’t so good at the friendship part.”
“ You’re talking about Ria ?”
He looked surprised.
“We’re a small crowd,” Ellie said with a sympathetic smile. “And much prone to gossip.”
“No kidding. I suppose Donal told you about it.”
Ellie shook her head. “No, Jilly did.”
“It is a small crowd, isn’t it?”
“Pretty much. But don’t worry,” she added. “It’s not like all the details are making the rounds.”
“I guess I should be grateful for that.”
Ellie smiled. “But it does feel weird when it’s our own lives that become grist for the old gossip mill.”
“Tell me about it. Imagine what it’d be like to be famous and to have to read about all your personal ups and downs in the tabloids.”
“No thanks.”
“But I haven’t even asked you anything yet,” a new voice said.
They both looked up to find Jilly standing in front of them, hands on her hips. Her cheeks were flushed, blue eyes sparkling, and a light sheen of perspiration dampened her brow. Loose strands of hair clung to her temples, having escaped from the bun she’d put up in a futile attempt to tame her usual unruly locks. Ellie didn’t think she knew anyone who could cram so much energy into one petite package. Jilly had been dancing since the moment the group of them had arrived and didn’t seem to be even remotely ready to stop. She grinned at the pair of them, her good humor so infectious that Ellie couldn’t help but smile back.
“I know Donal can be a poop,” Jilly said, “but I expected better from you, Ellie. This isn’t a night to be wallflowering it—it’s a night for silly feet and general hullabalooing. So come on.” She took them both by the hand and gave them a tug towards the dance floor. “The band needs our warm bodies thrown about in mad jigging and reeling to keep them all revved up.”
Ellie and Hunter looked at each other, then set their drinks against the wall and let her pull them to where the rest of their friends were dancing.
“Nice to see you out and about,” Jilly said to Hunter.
Ellie had another smile as Hunter gamely tried to get into the swing of things.
“I hear you’ve been telling tales out of court,” he said.
“Only the nicest ones,” Jilly assured him. “Just to let everyone know that you’re available once more. Wouldn’t want you to get all lonely—or worse, all morose like himself.”
“She means Donal,” Ellie told him.
“I knew that.”
9
After the show, Hunter stayed behind with Ellie and her friends to help put away the chairs and generally clean up the community center. It turned out that most of them were members of the Newford Traditional Music Society—no surprise there, Hunter thought, considering how much they seemed to like the music. The rest, like himself, were simply willing to pitch in and give a hand.
They were a much nicer group of people that he’d expected them to be, and that was a surprise. He’d met a number of them before, in the record store, or through Ria at various parties, gallery openings, and the like, but he’d never really interacted with them in the same way as he had tonight.
“You feel like an outsider,” Ria would tell him when they got home after one of those soirees, “because you act like an outsider. You wouldn’t feel nearly so uncomfortable if you took the time to get to know them.”
Being the truth, it was hard to respond to. No one had ever made him feel out of place. In fact, they often went out of their way to make him feel welcome. But the problem was he did feel like an outsider. They were all such creative people, where he was lucky to be able to put together a window display that looked even halfway decent, never mind innovative. And if that wasn’t intimidating enough, not only was it quickly apparent that they had wide-ranging interests—from the arts and literature, through the sciences, history, mythology, and current affairs—they were also able to discuss those same eclectic subjects with obvious ease and informed knowledge.
All he could enthuse about was music. He wasn’t as badly introverted as Titus or Adam, but when he was among such outgoing people as this crowd, he usually felt as woefully lacking in the social graces as he knew his employees to be. It wasn’t something that was very easy to explain to someone else, especially since it was so hard to admit it even to himself.
Ria never seemed to have the patience to listen through his stumbling attempts to articulate how her friends made him feel intimidated. Nor did she have much sympathy.
“If you want to be better informed about more things,” she’d say, “get your nose out of those music magazines you’re always reading and broaden your horizons a little more.”
“I need to read those for my work,” he’d explain.
“I know. Nobody’s putting you down or thinks you’re stupid. Can’t you tell that they like you?”
But I feel stupid, he’d want to say.
He’d often wondered what it was that she saw in him. It hadn’t been like that at first. When they first met, she’d been as s
cruffy as he still was, always happier in jeans and a T-shirt as opposed to what she had to wear to the office. She’d loved music, too—all sorts, in those days. But she’d changed—”I’ve grown, Hunter,” was how she put it—and he hadn’t. Or couldn’t. Or, perhaps more truthfully, he didn’t want to.
Music had become an intrinsic part of his life from the day he bought his first Dave Clark Five single. It wasn’t a matter of performing himself—though that had been an ambition at one point—but simply to be involved with the music industry. To discover new sounds before anyone else did. To follow bands through their various lineups and solo efforts. He loved the buzz of getting a first listen to the new releases when the sales reps dropped off their promotional material. He loved introducing people to music they might never otherwise have tried.
But that was a kid’s life, so far as Ria was concerned. Not a viable career for an adult.
She kept getting promotions, rising from a clerical position into management, dressing better, taking more care in her appearance, not simply at work, but at home as well. She took up painting with courses at the Newford School of Art, which was where she’d fallen in with Jilly and her crowd. She started talking about marriage and buying a home and starting a family. She was the one who’d talked him into buying the record store. “I thought the responsibility would be good for you,” she’d said when the store became yet one more point of contention.
“It might have been,” he’d told her, “if you’d cared about it as much as I do.”
“You’re not getting the point.”
Only Hunter had. He just hadn’t known what to do with it. They’d fallen into such a rut of bad habits and arguments that it wasn’t until she left that he’d realized how much he still cared for her. But by then it was too late.
He almost hadn’t come to the show tonight. Knowing that Jilly and the rest of them would be here tonight, he’d half-expected to see Ria as well. But of course Celtic music wasn’t her thing anymore. If it ever had been. If it hadn’t simply been one of those instances where one professed delight with a potential partner’s tastes because everything had a rosy shine to it when a relationship began.
He didn’t know what he’d have said to her if she had come tonight. They hadn’t talked in weeks now. After she’d moved out he’d called her a couple of times at her parents’ place where she’d been staying. Later, when she’d gotten a place of her own, leaving instructions with her parents that he wasn’t to have her new phone number, he tried her at the office, but he only did that once because it was all too apparent there was nothing left to say.
“Get on with your life, Hunter,” she’d told him that day. “That’s all we can do now. Just get on with our lives.”
What life? Hunter had wanted to ask her, because without her, there suddenly didn’t seem to be any. But he’d only said goodbye and hung up. Took the Christmas present he’d bought her and stuck it away on a shelf in the back room of the store.
Leaning against the wall by the front door of the community center, he found himself thinking about all of that now. Maybe everything hadn’t ended when Ria walked out the door. He just had to put some meaning back into his life, some import that didn’t depend on anyone else for its worth. Easier said than done, he knew, but at least it was something to shoot for. And it sure beat the idea of wallowing in self-pity as he’d been doing for the past few weeks.
Donal and Ellie and a few of the others were going out to a coffee shop, now that the cleanup was done. When Miki asked if he was coming, he decided he might as well tag along. Not because Miki was going, because something might work out between them. And not even because of Ellie, who was gorgeous and smart and seemed to like him; he’d been in her company for most of the evening now and found that he’d quite enjoyed being there. He was going along with them for himself.
So he was waiting for the last of the musicians’ gear to be packed away, errant scarves and jackets, parkas and snow boots to be tracked down, final swallows of beer to be finished before the cans went into the recycling bins in the kitchen.
Dancing tonight, he’d used more muscles than he remembered having. It had been a long time since he’d let himself relax enough to become one of what Jilly called the “mad, ballyhooing bohos” that she claimed the band needed to carry the music up to new heights. Polkas were obviously the general favorites—not the German beer garden variety, but the Irish ones that seemed to require twice the energy and steps of a reel. Or at least they did with this crew.
Tomorrow he’d definitely be feeling each and every one of those unused muscles. He knew, because he could already feel them aching. He appreciated this moment to catch his breath, to be alone for a few moments before he was plunged back into the pleasant maelstrom of their infectious camaraderie. When the door opened beside him, he barely registered the man who stepped through until he stood directly in front of him.
It was one of Donal’s hard men.
Up close like this, Hunter decided the appellation was a good one. The man had intense eyes, cold and dark, and a slit of a mouth that one could easily imagine had never attempted a smile. His suit smelled of old cigarette smoke and something else Hunter couldn’t quite identify. It wasn’t until much later that he remembered the last time he’d experienced that odor. It had been at the zoo. A musky, wild dog scent that had hung around the wolves’ enclosure.
“An dealbhóir,” the man said. His voice was thickly accented. “The sculptor.”
The only sculptor here was Ellie, Hunter thought.
“What about her?” he asked.
“She’s not for you,” the man said, his dark gaze boring into Hunter. “Do you understand?”
Hunter shook his head. He was feeling somewhat nervous now, not to mention slightly tipsy and definitely out of his league.
“She has other work to do,” the man told him.
Hunter swallowed thickly, cleared his throat. “And this is somehow your business—?”
The man gave him a quick, sucker punch to the kidneys. It happened so fast, Hunter never saw the blow. He gasped at the sudden pain and had to lean against the wall to stop from keeling right over. Hand on his side, he stared incredulously at his attacker.
“What—?”
“Careful now,” the hard man said. “You don’t want to fuck with us, you little shite.” He grabbed a handful of hair and pulled Hunter’s head up, bent his own dark face close. “Keep sniffing around her, and I’ll have to have another little chat with you and it’s my thought you’ll be enjoying it even less than the one we’ve had tonight.”
“But—”
The man jerked Hunter’s hair. “Might we have an understanding now, do you think?”
“Hey!”
Hunter recognized Donal’s voice, but it seemed to come from far away. Beside him, the hard man glanced over, then gripped Hunter by the shoulders and held him upright.
“Your man here seems to be feeling ill,” the hard man told Donal. “Can’t hold the drink.”
He gave Hunter a little push in Donal’s direction. While Donal was busy trying to keep Hunter from falling, the hard man did a quick fade out the door and was gone.
“Are you all right?” Donal asked.
Hunter nodded, feeling anything but. He straightened up, taking his weight from Donal’s support, and backed up until he could lean against the table that stood by the door. Earlier, a couple of members of the Newford Traditional Music Society had been sitting behind it, collecting money and stamping the backs of people’s hands once they’d paid. Now, in place of the cashbox and flyers describing the society’s upcoming concerts, there were only a few jackets piled on the table, along with somebody’s knapsack. Without the table to help hold up his weight, Hunter was sure he’d have fallen down.
Donal’s gaze went to the door where the hard man had made his quick exit, then returned to Hunter.
“What happened?” he asked. “Are you really feeling sick?”
It was odd, Hun
ter found himself thinking. One could see far worse fights on a TV show or in a movie. But where in those choreographed brawls the participants were back on their feet in moments, all he felt like doing was curling up on the floor. He wasn’t sure which was worse: the adrenaline crash, now that the moment of danger was past, or the sharp pain in his side.
“Was your man there giving you some trouble?” Donal said.
“He was … warning me away,” Hunter finally managed. “From Ellie.”
“From Ellie?”
Hunter nodded. “And then he … hit me.”
Donal’s gaze dropped to where Hunter was holding his side. He gave Hunter a sympathetic look.
“Jaysus and Mary,” he said. “You’re going to be pissing blood for a few days.”
“Lovely.”
“It could’ve been worse. The lot of them could have waited and jumped you outside.”
Hunter nodded. Donal was right, though it didn’t make him feel all that much better.
“What do you suppose he wanted with Ellie?” Donal asked.
“I have no idea.” Hunter thought for a moment, playing the conversation back in his head. “He didn’t exactly mention her by name—he just said ‘the sculptor’—but I knew who he meant.”
“There’s a half-dozen sculptors here tonight,” Donal told him.
“Maybe. Only I wasn’t talking to any of them except for her.”
Donal nodded, a frown furrowing his brow.
“Look,” he said. “Do us a favor and don’t mention this to Ellie, would you? There’s no point in upsetting her until we know more.”
“And how are we supposed to do that?”
“I don’t know yet, but I’ll think of something.” Donal gave him a critical once-over. “You still up for the cafe?”