"What I want to know, what the Bible doesn't bother to tell me, is what Isaac thought when his father set him down on that altar in the middle of nowhere. What he felt when his father touched a blade to his neck. Whether he cried, whether he wet his pants. The person who got lost in this story is a child. Now, as a good Christian, you're supposed to respect Abraham for doing what he was told. But I'll tell you something. As a human being, I do not respect that man at all. I have contempt for a God that uses a child in such a manner. And I'd be a far piece more likely to pledge myself to a parent who stands between a despot--even an allegedly heavenly one--to keep him from reaching a child." He raises his brow as the camera moves in for his close-up. "I only hope that Miz White--mother of Faith--pays heed to this."
Someone calls out "Cut!" and Ian turns away, grabbing a towel from an assistant and wiping the makeup and sweat from his face. He collects his notes from another assistant and stalks back toward the Winnebago, oblivious to the murmuring of the crowd that was listening.
Either they got it or they didn't.
There are two ways to read his broadcast, and Ian damn well knows it. Either people will believe that his final line was meant to accuse Mariah of being like Abraham, prostituting her child just because God and the media want it that way. Or else people will hear Ian praising Mariah for not being like Abraham, for taking her daughter away, even fleetingly, from these same greedy powers.
He doesn't much care how his fans perceive it, actually. The only reactions he cares about are Mariah's and James's. He wants Mariah to have heard it one way, and James to have heard it the other.
The door opens and closes behind his executive producer. James sits down at the table and props up his feet. "Nice broadcast," he says easily. "But I thought you might talk more about the kid."
"Isaac?"
"Faith White." James shrugs. "Just on account of us being here for a few weeks now. I think viewers are expecting more."
"More what?"
"More...I don't know. More heart. More guts. More proof than theatrics."
Ian feels a muscle tic in his jaw. "Just say what you mean to say, James."
The producer holds his hands up. "Jesus H. Christ, don't jump down my throat here."
"You know that rumor about me being a temperamental asshole? I'd like to cash in on it right now."
"All I'm telling you, Ian, is that you called me from the road and intimated that you were onto something regarding the White case. And then you come home and do two live shows and barely mention it. Faith White is the cash cow here, Ian. The mother lode. Isaac and Abraham? Yeah, they're nice, but you can save them for when you've got a contract renewed with a network." He peers into Ian's face. "There better be something going on. Something that's going to go up like a bottle rocket, with you holding right onto its tail." When Ian remains impassive, James scowls. "You hear me?"
Ian's head swivels slowly, his eyes connecting with James's. "Boom," he says.
"That's Betelgeuse," Faith says, pointing. "The red one that's part of Orion." From her position on the ratty football blanket, Kenzie blinks at the night sky. She wraps her winter coat more tightly around her. "That's Taurus," Faith adds. "The reason it's so close is because Orion is trying to shoot it."
"You know a lot about stars."
"We studied them in school before I stopped going. And my dad used to show me constellations sometimes, too."
It is the first time Faith has ever brought up Colin without being prompted. "Did you like looking at stars with your father?"
"Yes," Faith murmurs.
Kenzie draws up her knees and tries a different tack. "My father used to play hockey with me. Ice hockey, actually."
Faith laughs, surprised. "You played ice hockey?"
"Yeah, I know. I pretty much sucked at it. But I had five older brothers, and I don't think my father ever actually noticed that I was a girl." At Faith's giggle, she's glad she's said it, but that doesn't keep Kenzie from recalling the sting of feeling unwanted by her family.
"Were you the goalie?"
Kenzie smiles. "Most of the time I was the puck."
Faith rolls to her side, propping up on an elbow. "Does your dad still live around here?"
"He lives in Boston. I don't see him very often." She hesitates only a moment before adding, "I miss him."
"I miss my dad, too." The words are as quiet as the night, absorbed into the sway of the trees around them. "I don't want to, but that doesn't keep it from going away."
"Why don't you want to?"
"Because he did something awful," she says, low. "Something that made my mom cry."
"And what was that?"
Faith doesn't speak. After a moment Kenzie realizes that she is weeping silently. "Faith?"
The girl turns away, burying her face in her own shoulder. "I don't know!" she sobs. "I was talking to him, and then there was this other lady in the bathroom, and he left. He left, and I think it was because I said something wrong."
"You said nothing wrong, honey. It was a problem between your mom and your dad."
"No, he just doesn't want to live with me."
"Your father does want to live with you," Kenzie explains. "And so does your mother. They both love you very much. That's why a judge and I have to help decide which house you should go to." Involuntarily, she recalls the Sunday-school legend of King Solomon. When two women claimed they were both the mother of one baby, he suggested cutting the infant in half with a sword, to discover which parent would relinquish her claim on the child rather than see it hurt. Textbook wisdom: problem solved, and no drop of blood shed. But that was just a story. In the real world, often both parents were completely worthy, or completely unworthy. In the real world, there were mitigating circumstances. In the real world, children were often the ones who swept up the messes their parents had left behind.
November 15, 1999
Malcolm Metz comes into the conference room where Lacey Rodriguez has been told to wait and props a hip against the edge of the table. "You bring me any?" he asks.
She pauses, her turkey and coleslaw on rye hovering before her mouth. "Nope. As it is, you're funding this one."
Malcolm grunts. "What's black and tan and looks good on a lawyer?"
"I don't know. What?"
"A doberman." He grins, takes the sandwich from her hand, and stuffs one end into his mouth. "Very nice. I never would have thought of the coleslaw." He wipes his lips with her napkin and hands back the sandwich. "So what have you got?"
She taps a sheaf of papers. "What do you know about Kansas City?"
"Everything's up to date there. Hell, I don't know. Isn't that why I'm paying you?"
Lacey grins. "Not nearly enough, Malcolm. My contact at the airlines came through. Guess where Mariah White went into hiding last week?"
Metz takes the list she offers, scans the list of names. "Big deal," he says. "The whole world knows she was gone with the girl."
Lacey stands up and flips to the first page of the list, to the first-class passengers. "Does the whole world know that Ian Fletcher was on the same plane?"
"Fletcher?" Metz considers his earlier meeting with the man, the teleatheist's assertion that something big, something Metz was not privy to, would be used to expose Faith as a sham. They'd gone over testimony, and Fletcher had never mentioned this little morsel. Clearly, this trip has something to do with his grand plan.
Metz smiles, silently filing this trump card in his mind. Fletcher might think his secret is safe, but he isn't thinking along the lines of the law. Once Fletcher's on the witness stand, Metz can ask him anything at all. Once Fletcher's under oath, he has no choice but to tell the truth.
Mariah has made a dedicated attempt to stay out of Kenzie's way when she's visiting Faith. If Kenzie is in the kitchen, Mariah finds something to do in the living room. If they head upstairs, Mariah goes to the basement. She is too nervous around the guardian ad litem, too certain she will say something she will later regret.
br /> Today Kenzie has promised to French-braid Faith's hair. "We're playing beauty parlor today," she tells Mariah. "You're welcome to join us."
"Oh, that's all right."
"No--really. I'd like you to. Part of my evaluation involves watching you interact with Faith."
Mariah ducks her head. It will only be for a little while. And surely it will look worse if she refuses. "Okay," she says, and then she grins. "As long as you don't give me a perm."
Kenzie follows her up the staircase to Faith's room. As soon as she knocks, the door swings open. "I'm ready!" Faith shouts. "I washed my hair and conditioned it and everything." Kenzie sits on the bed and begins to stroke Faith's hair. It slides through her hands like silver. "You want an outside braid or an inside braid?"
Faith glances at her mother, and they both shrug. "We're about at the ponytail stage," Mariah confesses. "Anything would be a treat."
Kenzie separates the hair at Faith's crown into three segments. "When I was Faith's age, my hair was about an eighth of an inch long all the way around my head."
"Her father wanted her to be a boy," Faith whispers to Mariah.
Kenzie nods. "It's true. Of course, the first thing I did when I got old enough was grow my hair down past my butt."
Faith giggles. "Ma," she says in a stage whisper. "Kenzie said butt."
"Oops." She braids sections of hair, feeding in a strand from the side of Faith's head. Mariah watches intently, as if she will be called upon to recite the procedure from memory.
"I grew up in Boston," Kenzie says breezily. "You ever been to Boston, Faith?"
"No." Faith squirms on her heels. "But I went to Kansas City."
Kansas City. The words strike her like a blow, so much so that Mariah finds herself short of breath. Mariah hasn't been dishonest with Kenzie, but she hasn't volunteered information about her attempt to take Faith away either. She is certain that the things she does not want to tell Kenzie are written all over her face--her involvement with Ian, Ian's brother, Faith's effect on Michael. "You went to Boston when you were little, sweetie," she says, desperate to change the subject. "You just don't remember."
"I remember Kansas City," Faith says.
"Honey...we don't need to bore Kenzie with that."
"Oh, I'm just braiding. Go right ahead. When did you go to Kansas City?"
"Last week," Faith says.
Kenzie lifts her head. "I took her away from here. From this," Mariah adds softly.
"What made you decide to leave then, rather than earlier?" Kenzie asks.
Mariah turns away. "It had been going on too long. It was time."
"It would have nothing to do with the fact that your ex-husband said he'd be filing for a change of custody?"
Mariah scrambles to think of what she can tell the guardian ad litem without making herself look as if she had been dodging the law. Which, of course, would be the truth. She glances at Faith, intent to steer off the topic before her daughter blurts out that they stayed with Ian. "It wasn't intentional," Mariah answers. "I just wanted to make things easier."
"Why Kansas City?"
"It was the first plane that left the airport."
Faith bounces on the bed. "Yeah, and guess who was in first class--"
"Faith." The word, sharply spoken, brings the little girl up short. Mariah tightens her mouth, fully aware of Kenzie's stare set square on her, of Faith's confusion. "We came back; that's what matters. When I heard about papers being served, we came back."
Kenzie does not blink. Mariah feels sweat bead under the collar of her shirt; she reads the GAL's eyes as clearly as if her impression were written across them: This woman is lying. But to tell Kenzie more is to admit to running from Colin's threat of a lawsuit. To make public her relationship with Ian. To violate his privacy. She stares at Kenzie, unwilling to back down this time.
To her surprise, Kenzie does. She doesn't whip out a notepad or ask more questions or rebuke Mariah at all, but instead shifts the slightest bit away from Mariah on top of Faith's bed. Then she bends back toward her task, humming softly, winding Faith's beautiful hair through her fingers like yarn through a loom. And all Mariah can do is watch as Kenzie wraps together all the loose ends.
"Ian, oh, God. I'm so glad you called."
He curls his hand around the receiver, smiling. "That's one hell of a reception, sugar."
"I think she knows. The guardian ad litem. She was asking questions today and Faith blurted out something about Kansas City and--"
"Mariah, calm down. Take a deep breath.... There you go. Now, what happened?" He listens, frowning as she recounts the conversation with Kenzie van der Hoven. "Well, I don't think that's anything conclusive. All she knows is that someone who struck Faith's fancy was on the plane. That could mean one of the Backstreet Boys, or Prince William."
"But she knows what day we left, and when Colin filed the papers."
Ian gentles his voice. "She was gonna find that out anyway. The best defense you have is that you came back with Faith." He hesitates, thinking of his meeting with Metz. "I told you not to worry, Mariah. I told you that I'd figure this out. Don't you trust me?"
For one horrible moment, she does not answer. And then Ian can feel it, a rush of warmth that reaches through the phone connection before her voice does. "I do, Ian."
He tries to respond, and finds that there are no words.
"I'm sorry that I brought you into this," Mariah adds.
Ian closes his eyes. "Sugar," he says, "there's nowhere else I'd rather be."
November 16, 1999
On the day that Kenzie meets with Millie Epstein, the blue-plate special at the cafe in the center of New Canaan is fish and chips. "Very bad," Millie says, clucking over the menu. "You don't even know if it's done in canola, or what."
It seems like the perfect introduction, so Kenzie leans forward, elbows on the scarred table of the booth. "I guess you're pretty careful about what you eat these days."
Millie glances up. "Why should I be? If I croak again, I'll just call for Faith instead of a paramedic." Watching the younger woman's jaw drop, Millie smiles. "I'm kidding. Of course I'm careful. But I was careful before the heart attack, too. I ate well, took my medicine like clockwork. Let me ask you something: Did you see my hospital records?"
"I did."
"Do you believe I was resurrected?"
Kenzie flushes. "I don't know if 'resurrected' was the term for it, exactly--"
"Then what is the term for it? A miracle?"
"I was thinking more along the lines of an extremely irregular nervous-system response."
"Aha," Millie murmurs. "Do you believe in God, Ms. van der Hoven?"
"That's not the issue here. And I think I'm the one who's supposed to be asking the questions, Mrs. Epstein."
The older woman continues blithely. "It makes me a little antsy, too. I'm not a praise-be-to-Jesus type--probably wouldn't be even if I was a Christian."
"The issue in this custody hearing is where the best home is for Faith, ma'am. With all due respect, that doesn't leave a lot of room for God."
"See, I don't agree with you." Millie picks at her teeth with her thumbnail and shakes her head. "A more religious woman would say that there's always room for God, but that's neither here nor there. To me, you can't do your job without asking yourself whether or not you believe. Because if you don't, then Faith must be lying--and that's going to affect your decision about where she belongs."
"Mrs. Epstein, you aren't a guardian ad litem."
Millie looks at Kenzie squarely. "No. But you're not her grandma."
Before Kenzie can respond, the waitress arrives. "How you doing, Millie?" she says, with the familiarity of a town where one can walk down the street and actually recognize people.
"Irene, do they do up the fish and chips in canola oil?"
The waitress laughs. "You think this is The Four Seasons? Far as I know, it comes out of a Mrs. Paul's freezer box."
Millie reaches across the table
and pats Kenzie's hand. "Go with the soup. It won't make you sick later."
But Kenzie orders only a Coke. "What we need here is a deli," Millie muses. "You have any idea how long it's been since I had good pastrami?"
Kenzie's lips twitch. "A lifetime?"
Millie laughs. "Touche," she says, then runs her forefinger along the edge of a packet of Equal. "I used to have tea parties with Faith when she was about three. She'd come over my house, and we'd take out all my grandmother's linens, and we'd dress up in old bathrobes I had from the forties--the ones with those pink feathers on the cuffs and collar, what is that called?"
"Marabou."
"That's right. Marabou. Isn't that some kind of reindeer?"
"That's caribou." Kenzie smiles. "Mrs. Epstein, I appreciate your concern for your granddaughter. You can rest assured that I'm only trying to make a decision in her best interests."
"Well, if you think Faith's lying, then it must be pathological and contagious. Because her mother believes her, and so do about five hundred people camped outside, not to mention a host of doctors who saw my heart stop beating."
Kenzie is silent for a moment. "Remember the broadcast of War of the Worlds?"
"Of course. My husband and I were just as scared as anyone."
"That's all I'm saying, Mrs. Epstein. People hear what they want to hear. They believe what they want to believe."
Millie slowly sets down her glass of water and unconsciously rubs her hand over her heart. "What do you want to believe, Ms. van der Hoven?"
Kenzie does not hesitate. "That whatever I recommend will be right for Faith. And you, Mrs. Epstein? What do you want to believe?"
That time can be turned back. That nightmares stop. That Colin never entered my daughter's life. "I want to believe there's a God," Millie says clearly. "Because I sure as hell know there's a devil."
"Hunstead," Metz calls from his throne at the end of the conference table, "you and Lee get confirmation. I want a copy of the ticket that got her to Kansas City--"