Now the first eddies of the distant storm assailed them. The mass of metal heaved gently up, pressing itself against the operator's limbs; and then it seemed to melt away, leaving him for some seconds floating in the darkness, levitated. He clung to the steel bulwarks with both hands. The red lamp in the cockpit was all that remained to him of the world of men and he shuddered to know himself descending helpless into the dark heart of night, with only a little thing, a miner's safety lamp, to see him through. He dared not disturb the pilot to ask his plans; he tightened his grip on the steel ribs and bending forward, fixed his eyes upon the pilot's shadowed back.
In that obscurity the pilot's head and shoulders were all that showed themselves. His torso was a block of darkness, inclined a little to the left; his face was set toward the storm, bathed intermittently, no doubt, by flickering gleams. He could not see that face; all the feelings thronging there to meet the onset of the storm were hidden from his eyes; lips set with anger and resolve, a white face holding elemental colloquy with the leaping flashes ahead.
Yet he divined the concentrated force that brooded in that mass of shadow, and he loved it. True, it was carrying him toward the tempest, yet it shielded him. True, those hands, gripping the controls, pressed heavy on the storm, as on some huge beast's neck, but the strong shoulders never budged, attesting vast reserves of force. And after all, he said to himself, the pilot's responsible. So, carried like a pillion-rider on this breakneck gallop into the flames, he could relish to its full the solid permanence, the weight and substance implicit in that dark form before him.
On the left, faint as a far revolving light, a new storm center kindled.
The wireless operator made as if to touch Fabien's shoulder and warn him, but then he saw him slowly turn his head, fix his eyes a while on this new enemy and then as slowly return to his previous position, his neck pressed back against the leather pad, shoulders unmoving as before.
VIII
Riviere went out for a short walk, hoping to shake off his malaise, which had returned. He who had only lived for action, dramatic action, now felt a curious shifting of the crisis of the drama, toward his own personality. It came to him that the little people of these little towns, strolling around their bandstands, might seem to lead a placid life and yet it had its tragedies; illness, love, bereavements, and that perhaps--His own trouble was teaching him many things, "opening windows," as he put it to himself.
Toward eleven he was breathing more easily and turned back toward the offices, slowly shouldering his way through the stagnant crowds around the cinemas. He glanced up at the stars which glinted on the narrow street, well-nigh submerged by glaring sky signs, and said to himself : "Tonight, with my two air mails on their way, I am responsible for all the sky. That star up there is a sign that is looking for me amongst this crowd--and finds me. That's why I'm feeling out of things, a man apart."
A phrase of music came back to him, some notes from a sonata which he had heard the day before in the company of friends. They had not understood. "That stuff bores us and bores you too, only you won't admit it!"
"Perhaps," he had replied.
Then, as tonight, he had felt lonely, but soon had learnt the bounty of such loneliness. The music had breathed to him its message, to him alone amongst these ordinary folk, whispered its gentle secret. And now the star. Across the shoulders of these people a voice was speaking to him in a tongue that he alone could understand.
On the pavement they were hustling him about. "No," he said to himself, "I won't get annoyed. I am like the father of a sick child walking in the crowd, taking short steps, who carries in his breast the hushed silence of his house."
He looked upon the people, seeking to discover which of them, moving with little steps, bore in his heart discovery or love--and he remembered the lighthouse-keeper's isolation.
Back in the office, the silence pleased him. As he slowly walked from one room to another, his footsteps echoed emptiness. The typewriters slept beneath their covers. The big cupboard doors were closed upon the serried files. Ten years of work and effort. He felt as if he were visiting the cellars of a bank where wealth lies heavy on the earth. But these registers contained a finer stuff than gold--a stock of living energy, living but, like the hoarded gold of banks, asleep.
Somewhere he would find the solitary clerk on night duty. Somewhere here a man was working that life and energy should persevere and thus the work goes on from post to post that, from Toulouse to Buenos Aires, the chain of flights should stay unbroken.
"That fellow," thought Riviere, "doesn't know his greatness."
Somewhere, too, the planes were fighting forward; the night flights went on and on like a persistent malady, and on them watch must be kept. Help must be given to these men who with hands and knees and breast to breast were wrestling with the darkness, who knew and only knew an unseen world of shifting things, whence they must struggle out, as from an ocean. And the things they said about it afterwards were--terrible! "I turned the light on to my hands so as to see them." Velvet of hands bathed in a dim red dark-room glow; last fragment, that must be saved, of a lost world.
Riviere opened the door of the Traffic Office. A solitary lamp shone in one corner, making a little pool of light. The clicking of a single typewriter gave meaning to the silence, but did not fill it. Sometimes the telephone buzzed faintly and the clerk on duty rose obedient to its sad, reiterated call. As he took down the receiver that invisible distress was soothed and a gentle, very gentle murmur of voices filled the coign of shadow.
Impassive the man returned to his desk, for drowsiness and solitude had sealed his features on a secret unconfessed. And yet--what menace it may hold, a call from the outer darkness when two postal planes are on their way! Riviere thought of telegrams that invaded the peace of families sitting round their lamp at night and that grief which, for seconds that seem unending, keeps its secret on the father's face. Waves, so weak at first, so distant from the call they carry, and so calm; and yet each quiet purring of the bell held, for Riviere, a faint echo of that cry. Each time the man came back from the shadow toward his lamp, like a diver returning to the surface, the solitude made his movements heavy with their secret, slow as a swimmer's in the undertow.
"Wait! I'll answer."
Riviere unhooked the receiver and a world of murmurs hummed in his ears.
"Riviere speaking."
Confused sounds, then a voice: "Til put you on the radio station."
A rattle of plugs into the standard, then another voice: "Radio Station speaking. I'll pass you the messages."
Riviere noted them, nodding. "Good.... Good..."
Nothing important, the usual routine news. Rio de Janeiro asking for information, Montevideo reporting on the weather, Mendoza on the plant. Familiar sounds.
"And the planes?" he asked.
"The weather's stormy. We don't hear them tonight."
"Right!"
The night is fine here and starry, Riviere thought, yet those fellows can detect in it the breath of the distant storm.
"That's all for the present," he said.
As Riviere rose the clerk accosted him: "Papers to sign, sir."
Riviere discovered that he greatly liked this subordinate of his who was bearing, too, the brunt of night. "A comrade in arms," he thought. "But he will never guess, I fancy, how tonight's vigil brings us near each other."
IX
As he was returning to his private office, a sheaf of papers in his hand, Riviere felt the stab of pain in his right side which had been worrying him for some weeks past.
"That's bad...."
He leaned against the wall a moment.
"It's absurd!"
Then he made his way to his chair.
Once again he felt like some old lion fallen in a trap and a great sadness came upon him.
"To think I've come to this after all those years of work! I'm fifty; all that time I've filled my life with work, trained myself, fought my way, altered the co
urse of events and here's this damned thing getting a hold of me, obsessing me till it seems the only thing that matters in the world. It's absurd!"
He wiped away a drop or two of sweat, waited till the pain had ebbed and settled down to work, examining the memoranda on his table.
"In taking down Motor 301 at Buenos Aires we discovered that ... The employee responsible will be severely punished."
He signed his name.
"The Florianopolis staff, having failed to comply with orders..."
He signed.
"As a disciplinary measure Airport Supervisor Richard, is transferred on the following grounds..."
He signed.
Then, as the pain in his side, slumbering but persistent, new as a new meaning in life, drove his thoughts inward toward himself, an almost bitter mood came over him.
"Am I just or unjust? I've no idea. All I know is that when I hit hard there are fewer accidents. It isn't the individual that's responsible but a sort of hidden force and I can't get at it without--getting at every one! If I were merely just, every night flight would mean a risk of death."
A sort of disgust came over him, that he had given himself so hard a road to follow. Pity is a fine thing, he thought. Lost in his musings, he turned the pages over.
"Roblet, as from this day, is struck off the strength...."
He remembered the old fellow and their talk the evening before.
"There's no way out of it, an example must be made."
"But, sir.... It was the only time, just once in a way, sir ... and I've been hard at it all my life!"
"An example must be made."
"But ... but, sir. Please see here, sir."
A tattered pocketbook, a newspaper picture showing young Roblet standing beside an airplane. Riviere saw how the old hands were trembling upon this little scrap of fame.
"It was in nineteen ten, sir. That was the first plane in Argentina and I assembled it. I've been in aviation since nineteen ten, think of it, sir! Twenty years! So how can you say...? And the young 'uns, sir, won't they just laugh about it in the shop! Won't they just chuckle!"
"I can't help that."
"And my kids, sir. I've a family."
"I told you you could have a job as a fitter."
"But there's my good name, sir, my name ... after twenty years' experience. An old employee like me!"
"As a fitter."
"No, sir, I can't see my way to that. I somehow can't, sir!"
The old hands trembled and Riviere averted his eyes from their plump, creased flesh which had a beauty of its own.
"No, sir, no.... And there's something more I'd like to say."
"That will do."
Not he, thought Riviere, it wasn't he whom I dismissed so brutally, but the mischief for which, perhaps, he was not responsible, though it came to pass through him. For, he mused, we can command events and they obey us; and thus we are creators. These humble men, too, are things and we create them. Or cast them aside when mischief comes about through them.
"There's something more I'd like to say." What did the poor old fellow want to say? That I was robbing him of all that made life dear? That he loved the clang of tools upon the steel of airplanes, that all the ardent poetry of life would now be lost to him ... and then, a man must live?
"I am very tired," Riviere murmured and his fever rose, insidiously caressing him. "I liked that old chap's face." He tapped the sheet of paper with his finger. It came back to him, the look of the old man's hands and he now seemed to see them shape a faltering gesture of thankfulness. "That's all right," was all he had to say. "That's right. Stay!" And then--He pictured the torrent of joy that would flow through those old hands. Nothing in all the world, it seemed to him, could be more beautiful than that joy revealed not on a face, but in those toil-worn hands. Shall I tear up this paper? He imagined the old man's homecoming to his family, his modest pride.
"So they're keeping you on?"
"What do you think? It was I who assembled the first plane in Argentina!"
The old fellow would get back his prestige, the youngsters cease to laugh.
As he was asking himself if he would tear it up, the telephone rang.
There was a long pause, full of the resonance and depth that wind and distance give to voices.
"Landing ground speaking. Who is there?"
"Riviere."
"No. 650 is on the tarmac, sir."
"Good."
"We've managed to fix it up, but the electric circuit needed overhauling at the last minute, the connections had been bungled."
"Yes. Who did the wiring?"
"We will inquire and, if you agree, we'll make an example. It's a serious matter when the lights give out on board."
"You're right."
If, Riviere was thinking, one doesn't uproot the mischief whenever and wherever it crops up, the lights may fail and it would be criminal to let it pass when, by some chance, it happens to unmask its instrument; Roblet shall go.
The clerk, who had noticed nothing, was busy with his typewriter.
"What's that?"
"The fortnightly accounts."
"Why not ready?"
"I ... I..."
"We'll see about that."
Curious, mused Riviere, how things take the upper hand, how a vast dark force, the force that thrusts up virgin forests, shows itself whenever a great work is in the making! And he thought of temples dragged asunder by frail liana tendrils.
A great work....
And, heartening himself, he let his thought flow on. These men of mine, I love them; it's not they whom I'm against, but what comes about through them.... His heart was throbbing rapidly and it hurt him.... No, I cannot say if I am doing right or what precise value should be set on a human life, or suffering, or justice. How should I know the value of a man's joys? Or of a trembling hand? Of kindness, or pity?
Life is so full of contradictions; a man muddles through it as best he can. But to endure, to create, to barter this vile body....
As if to conclude his musings he pressed the bell-push.
"Ring up the pilot of the Europe mail and tell him to come and see me before he leaves."
For he was thinking: I must make sure he doesn't turn back needlessly. If I don't stir my men up the night is sure to make them nervous.
X
Roused by the call, the pilot's wife looked musingly at her husband. I'll let him sleep a bit longer, she thought.
She admired that spanned bared chest of his and the thought came to her of a well-built ship. In the quiet bed, as in a harbor, he was sleeping and, lest anything should spoil his rest, she smoothed out a fold of the sheet, a little wave of shadow, with her hand, bringing calm upon the bed, as a divine hand calms the sea.
Rising, she opened the window and felt the wind on her face. Their room overlooked Buenos Aires. A dance was going on in a house near by and the music came to her upon the wind, for this was the hour of leisure and amusement. In a hundred thousand barracks this city billeted its men and all was peaceful and secure; but, the woman thought, soon there'll be a cry "To arms!" and only one man--mine--will answer it. True, he rested still, yet his was the ominous rest of reserves soon to be summoned to the front. This town at rest did not protect him; its light would seem as nothing when, like a young god, he rose above its golden dust. She looked at the strong arms which, in an hour, would decide the fortune of the Europe mail, bearing a high responsibility, like a city's fate. The thought troubled her. That this man alone, amongst those millions, was destined for the sacrifice made her sad. It estranged him from her love. She had cherished him, watched over him, caressed him, not for herself but for this night which was to take him. For struggles, fears, and victories which she would never know. Wild things they were, those hands of his, and only tamed to tenderness; their real task was dark to her. She knew this man's smile, his gentle ways of love, but not his godlike fury in the storm. She might snare him in a fragile net of music, love, and flowers, but, at e
ach departure, he would break forth without, it seemed to her, the least regret.
He opened his eyes. "What time is it?"
"Midnight."
"How's the weather?"
"I don't know."
He rose and, stretching himself, walked to the window. "Won't be too cold. What's the wind?"
"How should I know?"
He leaned out. "Southerly. That's tophole. It'll hold as far as Brazil anyhow."
He looked at the moon and reckoned up his riches and then his gaze fell upon the town below. Not warm or kind or bright it seemed to him; already in his mind's eye its worthless, shining sands were running out.
"What are you thinking about?"
He was thinking of the fog he might encounter toward Porto Allegre.
"I've made my plans. I know exactly where to turn."
He still was bending down, inhaling deeply like a man about to plunge, naked, into the sea.
"You don't even seem to mind it! How long will you be away?" she asked.
A week or ten days, he couldn't say. "Mind it?" Why should he? All those cities, plains, and mountains.... In freedom he was going out to conquer them. In under an hour, he thought, he would have annexed Buenos Aires and tossed it aside!
He smiled at his thoughts. This town ... it will soon be left behind. It's fine starting out at night. One opens out the gas, facing south, and ten seconds later swings the landscape roundabout, heading up north. The town looks like the bottom of the sea.
She thought of all a man must lay aside to conquer. "So you don't like your home?"
"I do like my home."
But his wife knew that he was already on his way and even now his sturdy shoulders were pressing up against the sky.
She pointed to the sky. "A fine night. See, your road is paved with stars!"
He laughed. "Yes."
She rested her hand on his shoulder and its moist warmth disquieted her; did some danger threaten this young flesh of his?
"I know how strong you are, but--do take care!"
"Of course I'll take care."
Then he began dressing. For the occasion he chose the coarsest, roughest fabrics, the heaviest of leather--a peasant's kit. The heavier he grew, the more she admired him. Herself she buckled his belt, helped to pull his boots on.