We set off in stately procession down the aisle. God, Shaz looked rough. Had that air of intense concentration to prevent anyone noticing hangover. Walk seemed to go on for ever to the tune of:
Here comes the bride Sixty inches wide.
See how she wa-ddles from side unto side.
I mean, why oh, why?
"Bridget, Your foot," hissed Shaz.
Looked down. Shazzer's Agent Provocateur lilac bra with fur on was attached to the heel of my satin kittenheel shoe. Considered kicking it off but then bra would be left lying tellingly in aisle throughout ceremony. Instead tried unsuccessfully to flip it under my dress causing brief interlude of awkward leaping gait with little result. Was blessed relief when got to front and could pick bra up and stuff it behind bouquet during hymn. Vile Richard looked great, really confident. He was just wearing an ordinary suit which was nice - not all dressed up in some insane morning suit-style outfit as if one of the extras from the film Oliver singing 'Who Will Buy This Wonderful Morning?' and doing a high-kicking formation dance.
Unfortunately, Jude had made the - it was already beginning to seem - crucial mistake of not excluding tiny children from the wedding. Just as the actual wedding ceremony began, a baby started crying at the back of the church. It was top-level crying, of the sort when they start it off, then there's a pause while they draw breath like waiting for the thunder to come after the lightning, then a huge primal scream follows. Cannot believe middle-class modern mothers. Looked round to see this woman was jigging the baby up and down, rolling her eyes smugly at everyone as if to say 'Durrrr!'. It didn't seem to enter her head that it might be nice to take the baby out so the audience could hear Jude and Vile Richard pledge their souls together for a lifetime as one. A swish of long shiny hair at the back of the church caught my eye: Rebecca. She was wearing an immaculate soft grey suit and craning her neck in the direction of Mark. Beside her was a glum-looking Giles Benwick, holding a present with a bow on top.
"Richard Wilfred Albert Paul . . ." said the vicar in a resounding tone. Had no idea Vile Richard had so many Vile names. What were his parents thinking of?
"... Wilt thou love her, cherish her. . ."
Mmmm. Love the wedding ceremony. V. heartwarming.
"... Comfort and keep her..."
Dumph. A football crashed down the aisle into the back of Jude's dress.
", . . For better, for worse ..."
Two tiny boys, wearing, I swear, tap-dancing shoes, broke free from their pews and tore after the ball.
". . . So long as you both shall live?"
There was a muffled noise, then the two boys started having an increasingly loud whispered gibberish conversation while the baby started crying again.
Above the din could faintly hear Vile Richard say "I will', though could possibly have been "I won't" apart from the fact that he and Jude were beaming at each other gooily.
"Judith Caroline Jonquil. . ."
How come I have only got two names? Has everyone except me got great long lists of gibberish after their name?
"... Wilt thou take Richard Wilfred Albert Paul. .." Was vaguely aware of Sharon's prayer book starting to sway out of the corner of my left eye.
"... Hapag. . ."
Shazzer's prayer book was definitely swaying now.
Looked round in alarm, just in time to see Simon, in full morning dress, rush forward. Shazzer's legs started to fold under her in a slow-motion-type curtsey and she collapsed in a heap, straight into Simon's arms.
". .. Wilt thou love him, cherish him. . ."
Simon was now dragging Shazzer shiftily towards the vestry, her feet trailing along the ground out of the lilac puffball as if she were a dead body.
". . . Honour and obey ... "
Obey Vile Richard? Briefly considered following Shazzer into the vestry to see if she was OK but what would Jude think if she turned round now in her worst hour of need, to find Shazzer and I had buggered off?
". . . So long as you both shall live?"
There was a series of bumps as Simon manhandled Shazzer into the vestry.
" I Will. "
The vestry door slammed shut behind them. "I now declare you. . ."
The two little boys emerged from the font area and set off back down the aisle. God, the baby was really yelling now.
The vicar paused and cleared his throat. Turned round to see the boys kicking the football against the pews. Caught Mark's eye. Suddenly he put down his prayer book, stepped out of the pew, picked one of the boys up under each arm and marched them out of the church.
"I now declare you man and wife."
The whole church burst into applause and Jude and Richard beamed happily.
By the time we emerged from signing the register the atmosphere amongst the under-fives was positively festive. There was, effectively, a children's party going on in front of the altar and we walked back down the aisle behind a furious Magda carrying a screaming Constance out of the church going "Mummy will smack, she will smack, she will smack."
As we emerged into freezing rain and high winds, I overheard the mother of the footballing boys saying nastily to a bemused Mark, "But it's wonderful having children just being themselves at a wedding. I mean that's what a wedding is all about, isn't it?"
"I wouldn't know," said Mark cheerfully. "Couldn't hear a bloody thing."
Returned to Claridge's to find Jude's parents had unbridledly pushed the boat out and the ballroom was festooned with bronzed, be-leaved and be-fruited streamer things and copper-coloured pyramids of fruit and cherubs the size of donkeys.
All you could hear, when walked in, was people going: "Two hundred and fifty grand."
"Oh come on. It must have been at least 300,000."
"Are you kidding? Claridge's? Half a million."
Caught sight of Rebecca, looking frantically round the room with a fixed smile like a toy with a head on a stick. Giles was nervously following her, his hand hovering round her waist.
Jude's father, Sir Ralph Russell, a booming 'don't worry, everyone, I'm a fantastically rich and successful businessman', was shaking Sharon's hand in the line.
"Ah, Sarah," he roared. "Feeling better?"
"Sharon," corrected Jude, radiantly.
"Oh yes, thank you," said Shaz, a hand delicately fluttering to her throat. "It was -just the heat ... "
Nearly spurted out laughing considering it was so fridge-like that everyone was wearing thermal underwear. "Are you sure it wasn't the tightness of your stays
against the Chardonnav, Shaz." said Mark, at which she stuck a finger up at him, laughing.
Jude's mother smiled icily. She was stick thin in some sort of encrusted Escada nightmare with unexplained fins sticking out around the hips, presumably to make it look as if she had some. (Oh joyous deception to be in need of.)
"Giles, don't put your wallet in your trouser pocket, darling, it makes your thighs look big," snapped Rebecca.
"Now you're being co-dependent, darling," said Giles, putting his hand towards her waist.
"I'm not" said Rebecca, brushing his hand away crossly, then putting back the smile. "Mark" she cried. She looked at him as if she thought the crowd had parted, time had stopped still and the Glen Miller Band was going to strike up with 'It Had to be You'.
"Oh hi..." said Mark, casually. "Giles, old boy! Never thought I'd see you in a waistcoat!"
"Hello, Bridget," said Giles, giving me a smacking kiss. "Lovely dress."
"Apart from the hole," said Rebecca.
I looked away in exasperation and spotted Magda at the edge of the room looking agonized, obsessively pushing a non-existent strand of hair from her face.
"Oh that's part of the design," Mark was saying, smiling proudly. "It's a Yurdisb fertility symbol."
"Excuse me," I said. Then reached up and whispered in Mark's car, "There's something wrong with Magda."
Found Magda so upset she could hardly speak. "Stop it, darling, stop it," she was saying vaguely as Con
stance tried messily to push a chocolate lolly into the pocket of her pistachio suit.
"What's wrong"'
"That ... that ... witch who had the affair with Jeremy last year. She's here. If he so much as dares fucking speak to her - "
"Hey, Constance? Did you enjoy the wedding?" It was Mark, holding out a glass of champagne for Magda. "What?" said Constance, looking up at Mark with round eyes.
"The wedding? In the church?"
"The parpy?"
"Yes," he said laughing, "the party in the church."
"Well, Mummy took me out," she said, looking at him as if he were an imbecile.
"Fucking bitch" said Magda.
"It was supposed to be a parpy," Constance said darkly.
"Can you take her away?" I whispered to Mark.
"Come on, Constance, let's go find the football."
To my surprise, Constance took his hand and happily pottered off with him.
"Fucking bitch. I'm gonna kill 'er, I'm gonna. . ."
I followed Magda's gaze to where a young girl, dressed in pink, was in animated conversation with Jude. It was the same girl I'd seen Jeremy with last year in a restaurant in Portobello and again outside The Ivy one night, getting into a taxi.
"What's Jude doing inviting her?" said Magda, furiously. "Well, how would Jude know it was her?" I said, watching them. "Maybe she works with her or something."
"Weddings! Keep you only to her! Oh God, Bridge." Magda started crying and trying to fumble for a tissue. "I'm sorry."
Saw Shaz spot the crisis and start hurrying towards us. "Come on, girls, come on!"Jude, oblivious, surrounded by enraptured friends of her parents, was about to chuck the bouquet. She started ploughing her way loudly towards us, followed by the entourage. "Here we go. Ready now, Bridget."
As if in slow motion, I saw the bouquet fly through the air towards me, half caught it, took one look at Magda's tear-stained face and chucked it at Shazzer, who dropped it on the floor.
"Ladies and gentlemen." A ludicrous be-knickerbockered butler was banging a cherub-shaped hammer on a bronze flower-decked lectern. "Will you please be silent and upstanding as the wedding party makes its way to the top table."
Fuck! Top table! Where was my bouquet? I bent down, picked up Jude's from Shazzer's feet and, with a gay fixed grin, held it up in front of the hole in my dress.
"It was when we moved to Great Missenclen that Judith's outstanding gifts in the freestyle and butterfly strokes . . ."
By 5 o'clock Sir Ralph had already been talking for twenty-five minutes.
"...Became strongly apparent not only to us, her admittedly biased.." - he looked up to elicit a dutiful faint ripple of pretend laughter - "parents, but to the entire South Buckinghamshire region. It was a year in which Judith not only attaincd first place for the butterfly and freestyle sections in three consecutive tournaments in the South Buckinghamshire Under-Twelves Dolphin League but obtained her Gold Personal Survival Medal just three weeks before her first year exams!".
"What's going on with you and Simon?" I hissed to Shaz.
"Nothing," she hissed back, staring straight ahead at the audience.
"...In that same very busy year Judith obtained a distinction in her Grade 11 Associated Board Examinations on the clarinet - an early indication of the rounded 'Famma Universale' she was to become. . ."
"But he must have been watching you in church otherwise he wouldn't have rushed up in time to catch you."
"I know, but I was sick in his hand in the vestry."
"... Keen and accomplished swimmer, deputy head girl - and frankly this, as the headmistress privately admitted to me, was an error of judgement since Karen Jenkins' performance as head girl was ... well. This is a day for celebration, not for regret, and I know Karen's, er, father is with us today . . ."
Caught Mark's eye and thought was going to explode. Jude was a model of detachment, beaming at everyone, stroking Vile Richard's knee and giving him little kisses for all the world as if the cauchemarish cacophony were not happening and she had not, on so many occasions, slumped drunkenly on my floor incanting "Commitmentphobic bastard. Vile by name, and Vile by nature, 'ere, ave we run out of wine?"
"..Second lead clarinetist in the school orchestra, keen trapezer, Judith was and is a prize beyond rubies. . ."
Could see where all this was leading. Unfortunately it took a further thirty-five-minute trawl through Jude's gap year, Cambridge triumph, and meteoric rise through the corridors of the financial world to get there.
"...And finally, it only remains for me to hope that, er..."
Everyone held their breath as Sir Ralph looked down at his notes for really beyond all sense, beyond all reason, beyond all decorum and good English manners, too long.
"Richard!" he said finally, "is suitably grateful for this priceless gift, this jewel, which has today been so graciously bestowed upon him."
Richard, rather wittily, rolled his eyes, and the room broke into relieved applause, Sir Ralph seemed inclined to continue with another forty pages, but mercifully gave up when the applause didn't.
Vile Richard then gave a short and rather endearing speech, and read out a selection of telegrams, which were all as dull as bricks apart from one from Tom in San Francisco, which unfortunately read: "CONGRATULATIONS: MAY IT BE THE FIRST OF MANY."
Then Jude got to her feet. She said a few very nice words of thanks and then - hurrah! - started reading out the bit that me and Shaz had done with her last night. This is what she said. As follows. Hurrah.
"Today I bade farewell to being a Singleton. But although I am now a Married I promise not to be a Smug one. I promise never to torment any Singletons in the world by asking them why they're still not married, or ever say 'How's your love life?"' Instead, I will always respect that that is as much their private business as whether I am still having sex with my husband."
"I promise she will still be having sex with her husband," said Vile Richard and everyone laughed.
"I promise never to suggest that Singletondom is a mistake, or that because someone is a Singleton there is anything wrong with them. For, as we all know, Singletondom is a normal state in the modern world, all of us are single at different times in our lives and the state is every bit as worthy of respect as Holy Wedlock."
There was a ripple of appreciation. (At least I think that's what it was.)
"I promise also to keep in constant contact with my best friends, Bridget and Sharon, who are living proof that the Urban Singleton Family is just as strong and supportive, just as there for you, as anyone's blood family-"
I grinned sheepishly as Shazzer dug her toe into mine under the table. Jude looked round at us and raised her glass.
"And now I'd like to raise a toast to Bridget and Shazzer: the best friends a girl could have in the whole world."
(I wrote that bit.)
"Ladies and gentlemen - the bridesmaids."
There was a huge roar of applause. Love Jude, love Shaz, I thought as everyone rose to their feet.
"The bridesmaids," said everyone. Was marvellous having all the attention. Saw Simon beaming at Shaz and looked across at Mark to see him beaming at me too.
Was all a bit hazy after that, but remember seeing Magda and Jeremy laughing together in a corner and catching her afterwards.
"What's going on?"
Turned out the trollop works in Jude's company. Jude told Magda all she knew was that the girl had had this distraught affair with a man who was still in love with his wife. She nearly died when Magda told her it was Jeremy, but all agreed we should not be horrible to the girl because it was really Jeremy who had been the fuckwit.
"Bloody old bugger. Anyway, he's learned his lesson now. Nobody's perfect and I love the old fart really." "Well, look at Jackie Onassis," I said encouragingly.
"Well, exactly," said Magda.
"Or Hilary Clinton."
We both looked at each other uncertainly then started laughing.
Best bit was when I went ou
t to the loo. Simon was snogging Shazzer with his hand up her bridesmaid dress! There are sometimes those relationships that once you
see them starting you just know, click: that's it, it's perfect, it's going to work, they'll go for the long haul usually the sort of relationships you see starting between your immediate ex, who you were hoping to get back with, and somebody else.
I slipped back into the reception before Sharon and Simon saw me, and smiled. Good old Shaz. She deserves it, I thought, then stopped in my tracks. Rebecca was clutching Mark's lapel, talking passionately to him. I darted behind a pillar and listened.
"Don't you think," she was saying. "Don't you think it's perfectly possible for two people who ought to be together, a perfect match in every way - in intellect, in physique, in education, in position - to be kept apart, through misunderstanding, through defensiveness, through pride, through . . ." She paused, then rasped darkly, "the interference of others and end up with the wrong partners. Don't you?"
"Well yes," murmured Mark. "Though I'm not quite sure about your list of . . ."
"Do you? Do you?" She sounded drunk.
"It so nearly happened with Bridget and me."
"I know! I know. She's wrong for you, darling, as Giles is for me ... Oh, Mark. I only went to Giles to make you realize what you feel for me. Perhaps it was wrong but ... they're not our equals!"
"Um . . ."said Mark.
"I know, I know. I can sense how trapped you feel. But it's your life! You can't live it with someone who thinks Rimbaud was played by Sylvester Stallone, you need stimulus, you need. . ."
"Rebecca," said Mark quietly, "I need Bridget."
At this, Rebecca let out a horrifying noise, which was something between a pissed wail and an angry bellow. Gently determined not to feel any shallow sense of triumph, nor gloating, unspiritual glee that the two-faced, stick-insect-legged snooty bitch from Bogoffland had got her comeuppance, I glided away, beaming smugly all over my face.