Doro stood uncomfortably disoriented, mildly sick to his stomach, the hand of his newly acquired body still clutching its bloody knife. On the floor lay the body that Doro had been wearing when he came in. It had been strong, healthy, in excellent physical condition. The one he had now was nothing beside it. He glanced at Rina in annoyance. Rina shrank back against the wall.
“What’s the matter with you?” he asked. “Do you think you’re safer over there?”
“Don’t hurt me,” she said. “Please.”
“Why would you beat a three-year-old like that, Rina?”
“I didn’t do it! I swear. It was a guy who brought me home a couple of nights ago. Mary woke up screaming from a nightmare or something, and he—”
“Hell,” said Doro in disgust. “Is that supposed to be an excuse?”
Rina began to cry silently, tears streaming down her face. “You don’t know,” she said in a low voice. “You don’t understand what it’s like for me having that kid here.” She was no longer slurring her words, in spite of her tears. Her fear had sobered her. She wiped her eyes. “I really didn’t hit her. You know I wouldn’t dare lie to you.” She stared at Doro for a moment, then shook her head. “I’ve wanted to hit her though—so many times. I can hardly even stand to go near her sober anymore. …” She looked at the body cooling on the floor and began to tremble.
Doro went to her. She stiffened with terror as he touched her. Then, after a moment, when she realized that he was doing nothing more than putting his arm around her, she let him lead her back to the couch.
She sat with him, beginning to relax, the tension going out of her body. When he spoke to her, his tone was gentle, without threat.
“I’ll take Mary if you want me to, Rina. I’ll find a home for her.”
She said nothing for a long while. He did not hurry her. She looked at him, then closed her eyes, shook her head. Finally she put her head on his shoulder and spoke softly. “I’m sick,” she said. “Tell me I’ll be well if you take her.”
“You’ll be as well as you were before Mary was born.”
“Then?” She shuddered against him. “No. I was sick then too. Sick and alone. If you take Mary away, you won’t come back to me, will you?”
“No. I won’t.”
“You said, ‘I want you to have a baby,’ and I said, ‘I hate kids, especially babies,’ and you said, That doesn’t matter.’ And it didn’t.”
“Shall I take her, Rina?”
“No. Are you going to get rid of that corpse for me?” She nudged his former body with one foot.
“I’ll have someone take care of it.”
“I can’t do anything,” she said. “My hands shake and sometimes I hear voices. I sweat and my head hurts and I want to cry or I want to scream. Nothing helps but taking a drink—or maybe finding a guy.”
“You won’t drink so much from now on.”
There was another long silence. “You always want so damn much. Shall I give up men, too?”
“If I come back and find Mary black and blue again, I’ll take her. If anything worse happens to her, I’ll kill you.”
She looked at him without fear. “You mean I can keep my men if I keep them away from Mary. All right.”
Dora sighed, started to speak, then shrugged.
“I can’t help it,” she said. “Something is wrong with me. I can’t help it.”
“I know.”
“You made me what I am. I ought to hate your guts for what you made me.”
“You don’t hate me. And you don’t have to defend yourself to me. I don’t condemn you.” He caressed her, wondering idly how she could want life badly enough to fight as hard as she had to fight to keep it. In producing her daughter, she had performed the function she had been born to perform. Doro had demanded that much of her as he had demanded it of others, her ancestors long before her. There had been a time when he disposed of people like her as soon as they had produced the number of offspring he desired. They were inevitably poor parents and their children grew up more comfortably with adoptive parents. Now, though, if such people wanted to live after having served him, he let them. He treated them kindly, as servants who had been faithful. Their gratitude often made them his best servants in spite of their seeming weakness. And the weakness didn’t bother him. Rina was right. It was his fault—a result of his breeding program. Rina, in fact, was a minor favorite with him when she was sober.
“I’ll be careful,” she said. “No one will hurt Mary again. Will you stay with me for a while?”
“Only for a few days. Long enough to help you move out of here.”
She looked alarmed. “I don’t want to move. I can’t stand it out there where I was, by myself.”
“I’m not going to send you back to our old house. I’m just going to take you a few blocks over to Dell Street where one of your relatives lives. She has a duplex and you’re going to live in one side of it.”
“I don’t have any relatives left alive around here.”
He smiled. “Rina, this part of Forsyth is full of your relatives. Actually, that’s why you came back to it. You don’t know them, and you wouldn’t like most of them if you met them, but you need to be close to them.”
“Why?”
“Let’s just say, so you won’t be by yourself.”
She shrugged, neither understanding nor really caring. “If people around here are my relatives, are they your people too?”
“Of course.”
“And … this woman I’m going to live next door to—what is she to me?”
“Your grandmother several times removed.”
Rina’s terror returned full force. “You mean she’s like you? Immortal?”
“No. Not like me. She doesn’t kill—at least not the way I do. She’s still wearing the same body she was born into. And she won’t hurt you. But she might be able to help with Mary.”
“All for Mary. She must be important, poor kid.”
“She’s very important.”
Rina was suddenly the concerned mother, frowning at him worriedly. “She won’t just be like me? Sick? Crazy?”
“She’ll be like you at first, but she’ll grow out of it. It isn’t really a disease, you know.”
“It is to me. But I’ll keep her, and move, like you said, to this grandmother’s house. What’s the woman’s name?”
“Emma. She started to call herself Emma about one hundred fifty years ago as a joke. It means grandmother or ancestress.”
“It means she’s somebody you can trust to watch me and see that I don’t hurt Mary.”
“Yes.”
“I won’t. I’ll learn to be her mother at least … a little more. I can do that much—raise a child who’ll be important to you.”
He kissed her, believing her. If the child had not been such an important part of his breeding program, he would not have put a watch on her at all. After a while he got up and went to call one of his people to come and get his former body out of the apartment.
Emma
Emma was in the kitchen fixing her breakfast when she heard someone at her front door. She hobbled through the dining room toward the door, but before she could reach it, it opened and a slight young man stepped in.
Emma stopped where she was, straightened her usually bent body, and stared a question at the young man. She was not afraid. A couple of boys had broken in to rob her recently and she had given them quite a surprise.
“It’s me, Em,” said the young man, smiling.
Emma relaxed, smiled herself, but she did not let her body sink back into its stoop. “What are you doing here? You’re supposed to be in New York.”
“I suddenly realized that it had been too long since I checked on one of my people.”
“You don’t mean me.”
“A relative of yours—a little girl.”
Emma raised an eyebrow at him, then drew a deep breath. “Let’s sit down, Doro. Ask me the favor you’re going to ask me from a comfortable
chair.”
He actually looked a little sheepish. They sat down in the living room.
“Well?” said Emma.
“I see you have someone living in your other apartment,” he said.
“Family,” said Emma. “A great-grandson whose wife just died. He works and I keep an eye on the kids when they get home from school.”
“How soon can you move him out?”
Emma stared at him expressionlessly. “The question is, will I move him out at all? Why should I?”
“I have a youngster who’s going to be too much for her mother in a few years. Right now, though, her mother is too much for her.”
“Doro, the kids next door really need my help. Even with guidance, you know they’re going to have a hard time.”
“But almost anyone could help those children, Em. On the other hand, you’re just about the only one I’d trust to help the child I’m talking about.”
Emma frowned. “Her mother abuses her?”
“So far, she only lets other people abuse her.”
“Sounds as though the child would be better off adopted into another family.”
“I don’t want to do that if I can avoid it. She’s probably going to have a strong need to be among her relatives. And you’re the only relative she has that I’d care to trust her with. She’s part of an experiment that’s important to me, Em.”
“Important to you. To you! And what shall I do with my great-grandson and his children?”
“Surely one of your apartment complexes has a vacancy. And you can pay a babysitter for the kids. You’re already providing for God knows how many indigent relatives. This should be fairly easy.”
“That’s not the point.”
He leaned back and sat looking at her. “Are you going to turn me down?”
“How old is the child?”
“Three.”
“And just what is she going to grow up into?”
“A telepath. One with more control of her ability than any I’ve produced so far, I hope. And from the body I used to father her, I hope she’ll have inherited a few other abilities.”
“What other abilities?”
“Em, I can’t tell you all of it. If I do, in a few years she’ll read it in your mind.”
“What difference would that make? Why shouldn’t she know what she is?”
“Because she’s an experiment. It will be better for her to learn the nature of her abilities slowly, from experience. If she’s anything like her predecessors, the more slowly she learns the better it will be for the people around her.”
“Who were her predecessors?”
“Failures. Dangerous failures.”
Emma sighed. “Dead failures.” She wondered what he would say if she refused to help. She didn’t like having anything to do with his projects when she could help it. They always involved children, always had to do with his breeding programs. For all but the first few centuries of his four-thousand-year life, he had been struggling to build a race around himself. He existed apparently as a result of a mutation millennia past. His people existed as a result of less wildly divergent mutations and as a result of nearly four thousand years of controlled breeding. He now had several strong mutant strains, which he combined or kept separate, as he wished. And behind him he had an untold number of failures, dangerous or only pathetic, which he had destroyed as casually as other people slaughtered cattle.
“You must tell me something about your hopes for the girl,” Emma said. “Just what kind of danger are you trying to expose me to?”
He laid a hand on her bony shoulder. “Very little, Em. If you have a hand in raising the girl, she should come out reasonably controllable. In fact, I was thinking of giving you the whole job of raising her.”
“No! Absolutely not. I’ve raised enough children. More than enough.”
“That’s what I thought you’d say. All right. Just let me move her and her mother in next door, where you can keep an eye on them.”
“What are you going to do with her after she’s matured?—if she’s a success, I mean.”
He sighed. “Well, I guess I can tell you that. She’s part of my latest attempt to bring my active telepaths together. I’m going to try to mate her with another telepath without killing either of them myself. And I’m hoping that she and the boy I have in mind are stable enough to stay together without killing each other. That will be a beginning.”
Emma shook her head as he spoke. How many lives had he thrown away over the years in pursuit of that dream? “Doro, they’ve never been together. Why don’t you leave them alone? Let them stay separate. They avoid each other naturally when you’re not pushing them together.”
“I want them together. Did you think I had given up?”
“I keep hoping you’ll give up for the sake of your people.”
“And settle for the string of warring tribes that I’ve got now? Not that most of them are even that united. Just families of people who don’t like their own members much even though they usually need to be near them. Families who can’t tolerate members of my other families at all. They all tolerate ordinary people well enough, though. They would have merged back into the general population long ago if I didn’t police them.”
“Perhaps they should. They would be happier.”
“Would you be happier without your gifts, Emma? Would you like to be an ordinary human?”
“Of course not. But how many others are in full control of their abilities, as I am? And how many spend their lives in abject misery because they have ‘gifts’ that they can’t control or even understand?” She sighed. “You can’t take credit for me, anyway. I’m almost as much of an accident as you are. My people had been separated from one of your families for hundreds of years before I was born. They had merged with the people they took refuge among, and they still managed to produce me.”
And Doro had been trying to duplicate the happy accident of her birth ever since. She had known him for three hundred years now, had borne him thirty-seven children through his various incarnations. None of her children had proved to be especially long-lived. Those who might have been were tortured, unstable people. They committed suicide. The rest lived normal spans and died natural deaths. Emma had seen to that last. She had not been able to keep track of her many grandchildren, but her children she had protected. From the beginning of her relationship with Doro, she had warned him that if he murdered even one of her children, she would bear him no more.
At first Doro had valued her and her new strain too much to punish her for her “arrogance.” Later, as he became accustomed to her, to the idea of her immortality, he began to value her as more than just a breeder. She became a companion to him, a wife to whom he always returned. Both he and she married other people from time to time, but such matings were temporary.
For a while, Emma even believed in his race-building dream. But as he allowed her to know more of his methods of fulfilling that dream, her enthusiasm waned. No dream was worth the things he did to people.
It was his casually murderous attitude that finally caused her to tire of him, about two centuries into their relationship. She had turned away from him in disgust when he murdered a young woman who had borne him the three children he had demanded of her. For Emma, it had finally been too much.
But, by then, Doro had been a part of her life for too long, had become too important to her. She could not simply walk away from him, even if he had been willing to let her. She needed him, but she no longer wanted him. And she no longer wanted to be one of his people, supporting his butchery. There was only one escape, and she began preparing herself to take it. She began preparing herself to die.
And Doro, startled, alarmed, began to mend his ways somewhat. He gave her his word that he would no longer kill breeders who became useless to him. Then he asked her to live. He came to her, finally, as one human being to another, and asked her not to leave him. She hadn’t left him. He had never commanded her again.
 
; “Will you take the mother and child, Em?”
“Yes. You know I will. Poor things.”
“Not so poor if I’m successful.”
She made a sound of disgust.
He smiled. “I’ll be seeing you more often, too, with the girl living next door.”
“Well, that’s something.” She reached out and took one of Doro’s hands between her own, observing the contrast. His was smooth and soft. The hand of a young man who had clearly never done any manual labor. Her hands were claws, hard, skinny, with veins and tendons prominent. She began to fill her hands out, smooth them, straighten the long fingers until the hands were those of a young woman, attractive in themselves but incongruous on the ends of withered, ancient arms.
“I wish the child were a boy instead of a girl,” she said. “I’m afraid she isn’t going to like me much for a while. At least not until she’s old enough to see you clearly.”
“I didn’t want a boy,” he said. “I’ve had trouble with boys in … in the special role I want her to fill.”
“Oh.” She wondered how many boy children he had slaughtered as a result of his trouble.
“I wanted a girl, and I wanted her to be one of the youngest of her generation of actives. Both those factors will help keep her in line. She’ll be less likely to rebel against my plans for her.”
“I think you underestimate young girls,” said Emma. She had filled out her arms, rounding them, making them slender rather than skinny. Now she raised a hand to her face. She passed her fingers over her forehead and down her cheek. The flesh became smooth and flawless as she went on speaking. “Although, for this girl’s own sake, I hope you’re not underestimating her.”
Doro watched her with the interest he had always shown when she reshaped herself. “I can’t understand why you spend so much of your time as an old woman,” he said.
She cleared her throat. “I am an old woman.” She spoke now in a quiet, youthful contralto. “And most people are only too glad to leave an ugly old woman alone.”
He touched the newly smooth skin of her face, his expression concerned. “You need this project, Em. Even though you don’t want it. I’ve left you alone too long.”