“It is a great thing getting control of Balkan Liberation shifted here from Cairo.”
“Yes, almost the whole Middle East set-up was hopelessly compromised with royalist refugees. We shall be able to use the few reliable men. The others will be found more suitable employment.”
“Iceland?”
“Iceland will be perfectly suitable.”
Lists were produced of the proposed liaison missions.
“De Souza got a very good report from the parachute school.”
“Yes. You don’t think he’ll be wasted in the field? He could be very useful to us here.”
“He can be very useful in the field. Gilpin failed. We can use him here until we open a headquarters in Italy.”
“Once our fellows get to Italy they’ll be harder to keep under our own hand. They’ll come under command of the army for a good many things. We’ve been accepted on the top level but we still have to establish confidence lower down. What we need is a good backing of conventional regimental soldiers in the subordinate posts. I see Captain Crouchback’s name here, crossed off. I know him. I should have thought he was just what we need—middle-aged, Catholic, no political activities, a Halberdier, good record, excellent report from the parachute school.”
“Bad security risk, apparently.”
“Why?”
“They never give reasons. He is simply noted as unsuitable for employment in North Italy.”
“Entanglements with women?” suggested the brigadier.
“I should doubt it.”
There was a pause while Sir Ralph considered the fatuity of the security forces. Then he said: “Only in North Italy?”
“That is what the report says.”
“In fact there would be no objection to his going to the Balkans?”
“Not according to this report.”
“I think he and de Souza might make a satisfactory team.”
XI
For very many years Peregrine Crouchback’s Christmases had been dismal occasions for himself and others. Bachelors, unless dedicated to some religious faction or deluded by vice, are said to be unknown among the lower races and classes. Peregrine Crouchback was a bachelor by nature and the feast of the Nativity was to him the least congenial in the calendar. It had become habitual, almost traditional, for Uncle Peregrine to spend Christmas with some distant cousins of his mother, older than himself, named Scrope-Weld, who inhabited an agricultural island among the industrial areas of Staffordshire. The house was large, the hospitality, when he first went there, lavish, and one unloved, middle-aged bachelor less or more—“Old Crouchers” even then to them, his seniors—did not depress the spirits of the 1920s. A forlorn relation was part of the furniture of Christmas in most English homes.
Mr. and Mrs. Scrope-Weld died, their son and his wife took their places; there were fewer servants, fewer guests, but always Uncle Peregrine at Christmas. In 1939 the greater part of the house was taken for a children’s home; Scrope-Weld went abroad with his regiment; his wife remained with three children, four rooms and a nanny. Still Peregrine Crouchback was invited and he accepted. “It is just the sort of thing one must not give up,” said Mrs. Scrope-Weld. “One must not make the war an excuse for unkindness.”
So it was in 1940, 1941, and 1942. The children grew sharper.
“Mummy, do we have to have Uncle Perry here to spoil Christmas every year until he dies?”
“Yes, dear. He was a great friend and a sort of relation of your grandmother’s. He’d be very hurt if he was not asked.”
“He seemed awfully hurt all the time he was here.”
“Christmas is often a sad time for old people. He’s very fond of you all.”
“I bet he isn’t fond of me.”
“Or me.”
“Or me.”
“Will he leave us any money?”
“Francis, that’s an absolutely disgusting question. Of course he won’t.”
“Well, I wish he’d hurry up and die anyway.”
And yearly as Peregrine Crouchback left on the day after Boxing Day he reflected: “Well, that’s over for another year. They’d be awfully hurt if I didn’t come.”
So it was in 1943. On Christmas Eve, as always, they attended Mass. On Christmas Day they all made a formal visit to the library, now the common-room of the paid “helpers,” commended the sprigs of holly that they had disposed along the book-shelves and picture-frames and drank sherry with them before retiring to eat a middle-day dinner of turkey, an almost nefarious bird at that date, long cosseted, with rationed foodstuffs. “I feel so guilty eating it alone,” said Mrs. Scrope-Weld, “but it would go nowhere with the helpers and we couldn’t possibly have reared another.” The children gorged. Peregrine and nanny nibbled. That evening there was a Christmas tree for the “evacuees” in the staircase hall.
Later he went for a long, damp walk with his hostess. She said: “You’re really the only link with Christmas as it used to be. It is sweet of you coming so faithfully. I know it isn’t a bit comfortable. Do you think things will ever be normal again?”
“Oh, no,” said Peregrine Crouchback. “Never again.”
*
Meanwhile Guy and Virginia were together in London. Virginia said: “Thank God H.O.O. doesn’t make a thing about Christmas. Peregrine’s away?”
“He always goes to the same people. Did he give you a present?”
“No. I wondered whether he would. I don’t think he knew what would be suitable. He seemed less loving after our fish dinner.”
“He told me you had Designs.”
“On him?”
“On me.”
“Yes,” said Virginia. “I have. Peregrine had designs on me.”
“Seriously?”
“Not really. The thing about you Crouchbacks is that you’re effete.”
“Do you know what that means? It means you’ve just given birth.”
“Well, it’s the wrong word then. You’re just like Peregrine correcting my pronunciation of homosexual.”
“Why on earth were you talking to him about homosexuals? You don’t think he’s one, do you?”
“No, but I think all you Crouchbacks are over-bred and undersexed.”
“Not at all the same thing. Think of Toulouse-Lautrec.”
“Oh, damn, Guy. You’re evading my Designs.”
It was all as light as the heaviest drawing-room comedy and each had a dread at heart.
“You’re dying out as a family,” she continued. “Even Angela’s boy, they tell me, wants to be a monk. Why do you Crouchbacks do so little—ing?” and again she used without offense that then unprintable word.
“I don’t know about the others. With me I think, perhaps, it’s because I associate it with love. And I don’t love anymore.”
“Not me?”
“Oh, no, Virginia, not you. You must have realized that.”
“It is not so easy to realize when lots of people have been so keen, not so long ago. What about you, Guy, that evening in Claridge’s?”
“That wasn’t love,” said Guy. “Believe it or not it was the Halberdiers.”
“Yes. I think I know what you mean.”
She was sitting beside his bed, facing him. Between them lay the wicker table-tray on which they had been playing piquet. Now she ran a hand, light, caressing, exploring, up under the bed-clothes. Guy turned away and the pain of the sudden, instinctive movement made him grimace.
“No,” said Virginia. “Not keen.”
“I’m sorry.”
“It’s not a nice thing for a girl to have a face made at her like that.”
“It was only my knee. I’ve said I’m sorry,” and indeed he was, that he should so humiliate one whom he had loved.
But Virginia was not easily humiliated. Behind her last, locust years lay deep reserves of success. Almost all women in England at that time believed that peace would restore normality. Mrs. Scrope-Weld in Staffordshire meant by “normality” having her husband at
home and the house to themselves; also certain, to her, rudimentary comforts to which she had always been used; nothing sumptuous; a full larder and cellar; a lady’s maid (but one who did her bedroom and darned and sewed for the whole family), a butler, a footman (but one who chopped and carried fire-logs), a reliable, mediocre cook training a kitchen-maid to succeed her in simple skills, self-effacing house-maids to dust and tidy; one man in the stable, two in the garden; things she would never know again. So to Virginia normality meant power and pleasure; pleasure chiefly and not only her own. Her power of attraction, her power of pleasing was to her still part of the natural order which had been capriciously interrupted. War, the massing and moving of millions of men, some of whom were sometimes endangered, most of whom were idle and lonely, the devastation, hunger and waste, crumbling buildings, foundering ships, the torture and murder of prisoners; all these were a malevolent suspension of “normality”; the condition in which Virginia’s power of pleasing enabled her to cash checks, wear new clothes, lave her face with its accustomed unguent, travel with speed and privacy and attention wherever she liked, when she liked, and choose her man and enjoy him at her leisure. The interruption had been prolonged beyond all reason. The balance would soon come right, meanwhile—
“What did Peregrine say about my Designs?”
“He didn’t specify.”
“What do you think he meant? What do you think of me?”
“I think you are unhappy and uncomfortable and you’ve no one you’re specially interested in at the moment and that for the first time in your life you are frightened of the future.”
“And none of that applies to you?”
“The difference between us is that I only think of the past.”
Virginia seized on the, to her, essential point. “But there’s no one you’re specially interested in at the moment, is there?”
“No.”
“And you’ve absolutely loved having me round the place the last few weeks, haven’t you? Admit. We get along like an old Darby and Joan, don’t we?”
“Yes, I’ve enjoyed your visits.”
“And I’m still your wife. Nothing can alter that?”
“Nothing.”
“I don’t exactly say you’ve a duty to me,” Virginia conceded.
“No, Virginia, you hardly could, could you?”
“You thought I had duties to you once—that evening in Claridge’s. Remember?”
“I’ve explained that. It was being on leave from camp, wearing a new uniform, starting a new life. It was the war.”
“Well, isn’t it the war that’s brought me here today, bringing you, as I thought, a lovely Christmas present?”
“You didn’t think anything of the kind.”
Virginia began to sing a song of their youth about “a little broken doll.” Suddenly both of them laughed. Guy said: “It’s no good, Ginny. I am sorry you are hard up. As you know, I’m a little better off than I was. I am willing to help you until you find someone more convenient.”
“Guy, what a beastly, bitter way to talk. Not like you at all. You would never have spoken like that in the old days.”
“Not bitter—limited. That’s all I’ve got for you.”
Then Virginia said: “I need more. There’s something I’ve got to tell you and please believe that I was going to tell you even if this conversation had gone quite differently. You must remember me well enough to know I was never one for dirty tricks, was I?”
Then she informed him, without any extenuation or plea for compassion, curtly almost, that she was with child by Trimmer.
*
Ian and Kerstie Kilbannock returned to London from Scotland on the night of Childermas. He went straight to his office, she home, where Mrs. Bristow was smoking a cigarette and listening to the wireless.
“Everything all right?”
“Mrs. Troy’s gone.”
“Where?”
“She didn’t say. Gone for good, I wouldn’t be surprised. She packed up everything yesterday morning and gave me a pound. You’d have thought either it would be something more or just friendly thanks after all this time. I nearly told her tipping’s gone out these days. What I mean we all help one another as the wireless says. A fiver would have been more like, if she wanted to show appreciation. I helped her down with the bags too. Well, she’s lived a lot abroad, hasn’t she? Oh, and she left you this.”
“This” was a letter:
Darling
I am sorry not to be here to say good-bye but I am sure you will be quite pleased to have me out of the house at last. What an angel you have been. I can never thank you or Ian enough. Let’s meet very soon and I’ll tell you all about everything. I’ve left a little token for Ian—a silly sort of present but you know how impossible it is to find anything nowadays.
All love
Virginia
“Did she leave anything else, Mrs. Bristow?”
“Just two books. They’re upstairs on the drawing-room table.”
Upstairs Kerstie found Pyne’s Horace. Kerstie was no bibliophile but she had haunted the sale rooms and recognized objects of some value. Like Mrs. Bristow’s tip, she considered, it might have been something less or more. The elegant volumes were in fact Virginia’s only disposable property, an inappropriate and belated Christmas present from Uncle Peregrine.
Kerstie returned to the kitchen.
“Mrs. Troy left no address?”
“She’s not gone far. I didn’t catch what she said to the taxi-driver but it wasn’t a railway station.”
The mystery was soon solved. Ian telephoned. “Good news,” he said. “We’ve got rid of Virginia.”
“I know.”
“For good. She’s been a sensible woman. I knew she had it in her. She’s done just what I said she should—found a husband.”
“Anyone we know?”
“Yes, the obvious man. Guy.”
“Oh, no.”
“I assure you. She’s in the office now. She’s just handed in official notification that she is giving up war-work to be a housewife.”
“Ian, she can’t do this to Guy.”
“They’re going round to the registrar as soon as he can hobble.”
“He must be insane.”
“I’ve always thought he was. It’s in the family, you know. There was that brother of his.”
There were depths of Scotch propriety in Kerstie, hard granite very near the surface. Life in London, life with Ian, had not entirely atrophied her susceptibility to moral outrage. It happened to her rarely but when shocked she suffered no superficial shiver but a deep seismic upheaval. For some minutes after Ian had rung off she sat still and grim and glaring. Then she made for Carlisle Place.
“Oh, good morning, my lady,” said Mrs. Corner, very different in her address from Mrs. Bristow, “you’ve come to see Captain Guy, of course. You’ve heard his news?”
“Yes.”
“No surprise to me, I can assure you, my lady. I saw it coming. All’s well that ends well. It’s only natural really, isn’t it, whatever the rights and wrongs were before, they are man and wife. She’s moved in here in the room down the passage and she’s giving up her work so she’ll be free to take care of him.”
Throughout this speech Kerstie moved towards Guy’s door.
She did not sit down. She waited until Mrs. Corner had left them.
“Guy,” she said, “I’ve only got a minute. I’m due at my office. I had to stop and see you. I’ve known you a long time if never very well. It just happens you’re one of Ian’s friends I really like. You may think it’s no business of mine but I’ve got to tell you”; and then she delivered her message.
“But, dear Kerstie, do you suppose I didn’t know?”
“Virginia told you?”
“Of course.”
“And you’re marrying her in spite of—?”
“Because of.”
“You poor bloody fool,” said Kerstie, anger and pity and something near love
in her voice, “you’re being chivalrous—about Virginia. Can’t you understand men aren’t chivalrous anymore and I don’t believe they ever were. Do you really see Virginia as a damsel in distress?”
“She’s in distress.”
“She’s tough.”
“Perhaps when they are hurt, the tough suffer more than the tender.”
“Oh, come off it, Guy. You’re forty years old. Can’t you see how ridiculous you will look playing the knight errant? Ian thinks you are insane, literally. Can you tell me any sane reason for doing this thing?”
Guy regarded Kerstie from his bed. The question she asked was not new to him. He had posed it and answered it some days ago. “Knights errant,” he said, “used to go out looking for noble deeds. I don’t think I’ve ever in my life done a single, positively unselfish action. I certainly haven’t gone out of my way to find opportunities. Here was something most unwelcome, put into my hands; something which I believe the Americans describe as ‘beyond the call of duty’; not the normal behavior of an officer and a gentleman; something they’ll laugh about in Bellamy’s.
“Of course Virginia is tough. She would have survived somehow. I shan’t be changing her by what I’m doing. I know all that. But you see there’s another—” he was going to say “soul”; then realized that this word would mean little to Kerstie for all her granite propriety—“there’s another life to consider. What sort of life do you think her child would have, born unwanted in 1944?”