A Whole Lotta Beautiful
By Jason Wallace
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A Whole Lotta Beautiful
Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace
I got someone new to hold
The hand of a long lonely man,
Sittin’ by me, beside me, lookin’
Like a whole lotta beautiful.
We could take a drive
On this do nothin’ kinda night,
Ride through the countryside,
See through the dark before we park,
Get a bit farther than where we are,
Knowin’ that when the mood hits us with all its might,
Nothin’ could be wrong because
It’s been only just completely right.
My jacket’s in the back; it
Could never leave me cold
Cuz I got you, a whole lotta beautiful.
I could ask you where you’ve been
My whole life
Until this moment, now,
But I won’t because I don’t
Care – what, where,
Or even how that led to this
Or what life used to hold.
I could never miss the least of it.
I got you for a while, and it’s always full
Of a whole lotta beautiful.
This crisp air,
Your long hair,
Your soft kiss,
Your sweet lips, fingertips
Running down my arm again,
Everything the night brings,
The right things
That leave me lost in a whirlwind,
And I don’t wanna go back to when
I never knew
A girl that could make me choose
Between nothingness and this absence
Of all my cares in a world where
I feel so incomplete, without any sense.
You know it’s you, the most wonderful,
And you’re only a whole lotta beautiful.
I could ask you where you’ve been
My whole life
Until this moment, now,
But I won’t because I don’t
Care – what, where,
Or even how that led to this
Or what life used to hold.
I could never miss the least of it.
I got you for a while, and it’s always full
Of a whole lotta beautiful.
You’re a whole lotta beautiful,
More than a little more
Than the one I’ve been waiting for,
All I could have hoped in a helpless moment of
Chaos in my mind, no longer sure of much anymore
Except that you’re the best, better than any of the rest before,
You’re the one out of so many that’s worth the risk
Of losing and being turned loose after such a toll
Because you’re a whole lotta beautiful.
I’ll give up
When my time’s up.
So little lasts forever.
If you’ve had enough,
You can say enough,
And I’ll try to understand
Why we can’t be together.
I won’t complain; I hope I don’t.
I know this time is like it’s somethin’ that I stole,
Not really for me with such a whole lotta beautiful.
My Whole Life Through
I wish that you could see
That you should be with me.
I could fill in the holes
Left of you from
All of those bitter memories.
When you smile that smile,
I nearly lose my mind.
I can’t take the eyes off of you
That never thought they’d find
Someone that looks the way you do,
Whose lips seem like they’re
Sweet to consume.
If there is still room
In the heart left behind,
What’s not torn up inside,
Nobody would ever love you
The way I’d love you my whole life through.
I know he walked away from it all,
Passed up everything I wish I had.
He threw you away and never bothered to say
That he was sorry he tore your life in half.
He was everything to you.
He got to do all I want to do.
He could hold you. I’m sure he told you,
So many times, “I love you.”
I can’t see how
When you’d smile that smile,
Or when you’d start to cry
How he ignored all of the love he gained
Or the pain he caused and let it remain.
I ask myself, “Why? Oh, why?”
How could he give you up like that?
How could he be your other half
And then act as though
The thought of it made him laugh.
He was a fool.
I’ve been one, too,
But then again, I’ve never had you.
When you smile that smile,
I nearly lose my mind.
I can’t take the eyes off of you
That never thought they’d find
Someone that looks the way you do,
Whose lips seem like they’re
Sweet to consume.
If there is still room
In the heart left behind,
What’s not torn up inside,
Nobody would ever love you
The way I’d love you my whole life through.
If you were my life,
If I could have been him,
And you’d been my wife,
I would have never
Let us not be together.
I would have given my all
To make it alright.
When you smile that smile,
I nearly lose my mind.
I can’t take the eyes off of you
That never thought they’d find
Someone that looks the way you do,
Whose lips seem like they’re
Sweet to consume.
If there is still room
In the heart left behind,
What’s not torn up inside,
Nobody would ever love you
The way I’d love you my whole life through.
If I could be with you,
I’d love you my whole life through.
I’d never regret it
And never let it
Be anything I’d abuse.
I’d be too afraid to lose
The one that could make me smile,
The one that would be so worthwhile.
I can’t deny, though I don’t know why,
You’re all I want; I don’t lie; it’s far too true.
When you smile that smile,
I nearly lose my mind.
I can’t take the eyes off of you
That never thought they’d find
Someone that looks the way you do,
Whose lips seem like they’re
Sweet to consume.
If there is still room
In the heart left behind,
What’s not torn up inside,
Nobody would ever love you
The way I’d love you my whole life through.
If you could only see me there
And only know what I feel,
I’d do my best to beat all the rest
And show you that feeling like that
Can still be real.
I’d never give up
on you.
I’d never be unfaithful or untrue.
I’d love you with all of my broken heart,
And I’d love you my whole life through.
The World to Me
Tonight, I played that song.
You know the one
You loved
To dance to
Something neither of us
Ever knew.
I still can’t believe
That all I did was blink,
And you weren’t there with me.
You fought so hard
To get away,
So I let you go,
Though I was the only one
Of us who could ever know
Just what you meant to me.
You could not be
Anymore in love with me.
Now that you’re marrying him,
I wish you all the best.
All of my hopes and dreams
Are all wearing thin,
So much so, so I put it all aside.
You’d have never guessed
That I can’t begin
To tell you
What I even kind of feel inside.
You never did see
That you were the world to me.
You were the one and only and only one
That was ever more than just for fun
Or for denying what I really needed ever at all,
And until not long ago, if you’d ever called,
I would have dropped everything
Just to come running to the one who tore
Open my soul
And left me for dead and thought it
Did not mean a thing.
I Miss You More Than You Know
I miss you more than you know
I love you more than I show
Because I can't show it to someone
Who's never around
Though I let you go
I can't really let go
I've lost all of my hope
And I am so broken down
I miss you more than you see
Because you don't talk to me
Except when you
Need another to make you believe
That you still have control
And you can take a piece
And leave an aching hole
I still try
To find some reason why
It all had to go this way
Every tear that I cry
Is another knife in my eye
Leaving me with even more
That I wish I could say
You almost act
Like you kind of want me back
You told me you're not really done
The most painful fact
Is that what you think I lack
is what you see in another someone
Even though he's been playing you
You told me it's true
You're the one that's afraid to be alone
You give me hope I haven't known
And then take more away and leave me with none
I look for some excuse
So that we can talk
But it's of no use
I'm fading away to a place I cannot come back from
I imagine a day
When you might feel as I do and say
That the pain can be undone
And you'll forget why it ended and we can fix it
And you'll let me be your one
But that won't happen
It's only imagined
I miss you now so much
You're still my great passion
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