She covered her face with her hands. She was so taken by surprise that her brain reeled. Here indeed was the answer to her prayer, yet all she could say was: ‘Please leave me. I must think, sir; I cannot answer you now. I know that I ought to refuse your offer, but such is the hopelessness of my position that I dare not even do that without a pause for calm reflection. I must see Juliana; I can scarcely believe that all is indeed as you say.’
He picked up his hat at once. ‘I will withdraw, ma’am. Pray think well over what I have said. I shall remain at my present lodging until noon to-morrow, then, if I do not hear from you, I shall depart from Paris. Permit me to wish you good night.’ He bowed, and left the room, and after a few moments Miss Challoner rose, and went slowly up to her bedchamber.
She heard her hostess and Miss Marling come in an hour later, and presently got up out of her bed, and slipped on a dressing-gown, and went to scratch softly on Juliana’s door.
Juliana called her to come in. A sleepy tirewoman was undressing her, and closely as she scrutinised the vivid little face Mary could perceive nothing in it but a natural weariness.
‘Oh, is it you, Mary?’ Juliana said. ‘You should have come; it was vastly entertaining, I do assure you.’ She began to chatter of the people she had met, and the dresses she had seen. Her eyes were bright and hard, her good spirits perhaps rather feverish, but she deceived her friend. She sent the abigail to bed when her dress was safely hung in the wardrobe, her jewels locked up, and her hair brushed free of powder, and Mary ventured to ask whether Mr Comyn had been at the ball.
Juliana jumped into bed, saying: ‘Oh, don’t speak to me of that man! I cannot conceive how I was ever fool enough to fancy myself in love with him. ’Tis all over between us; you cannot imagine how glad I am!’
Mary looked at her worriedly. ‘But, Juliana, you did love him – you do still!’
‘I?’ Miss Marling gave a scornful laugh. ‘Lord, how solemn you are, my dear! I thought it would be famous good fun to let him think I’d elope with him, but if you must know, I never meant to marry him at all.’ She shot a quick look at Miss Challoner’s grave face. ‘I shall marry Bertrand de Saint-Vire,’ she said, to clinch the matter.
This announcement startled Miss Challoner almost as much as it would have startled the Vicomte, had he been privileged to hear it. She said: ‘How can you talk so, Juliana? I don’t believe you!’
Miss Marling laughed again. ‘Don’t you, my dear? I make no doubt you think me monstrous heartless. Oh, yes, I can see you do! Well, we don’t have hearts in our family, as you’ll discover, I fear.’
‘You need not fear for me,’ said Mary calmly. ‘I am not going to marry Lord Vidal, I assure you.’
‘You don’t know my cousin,’ replied Juliana. ‘He means to wed you, and he will – in Uncle Justin’s teeth, too! Lord, I would give a guinea to see my uncle’s face when he hears! Not that it would tell me much,’ she added pensively. She clasped her hands round her knees. ‘You’ve not yet met his grace, Mary. When you do –’ she paused. ‘I can’t advise you. I am for ever making up my mind just what I shall say to him, and then when the time comes I am not able to.’
Miss Challoner ignored this. ‘Juliana, be frank with me: have you quarrelled with Mr Comyn?’
‘Lord, yes, a dozen times, and I thank heaven this is the last!’
‘You will be sorry in the morning, my dear.’
‘It don’t signify in the least. My mamma would never permit me to marry him, and though it is very good sport to plan an elopement it would be amazingly horrid to be really married to someone quite outside one’s own world.’
‘I did not know you were as selfish as that, Juliana,’ said Miss Challoner. ‘I’ll bid you good night.’
Juliana nodded carelessly, and waited until the door was firmly shut behind her friend. Then she cast herself face downwards on her pillows and wept miserably.
Meanwhile Miss Challoner sought her own bed, and lay thinking of the strange proposal she had received.
Her disgust at Juliana’s behaviour was untempered by surprise. By now she had reached the conclusion that the manners of the whole family of Alastair were incomprehensible to a less exalted person. My Lord Vidal was reckless, prodigal, and overbearing; his cousin Bertrand appeared to be a mere pleasure-seeker; Juliana, too, in whom Miss Challoner had suspected a warmer heart, was frivolous and calculating. From Juliana’s and Vidal’s conversation she had gleaned what she believed to be a fair estimate of the remaining members of the family. Lady Fanny was worldly and ambitious; Lord Rupert apparently wasted his time and substance on gambling and other amusements; his grace of Avon seemed to be a cold, unloving and sinister figure. The only one whom Miss Challoner felt any desire to know was the Duchess. She was inclined to think that Mr Comyn was well rid of a bad bargain, and this conclusion brought her back once more to the consideration of her own difficulties.
It seemed ridiculous in an age of civilization, but Miss Challoner had no doubt that in some way or other Vidal would contrive to carry her off to Dijon. She believed that he was prompted more by his love of mastery than by his first chivalrous impulse. What he had said he would do he must do, reckless of consequence. He could not, she realised, drag an unwilling bride to the altar, but if he succeeded in transporting her all the way to Dijon she felt that she would be then in so much worse a predicament that marriage with him would be the only thing left to her. Against this marriage she was still firmly set. God knew she would ask nothing better than to be his wife, but she had sense enough to know that nothing but unhappiness could result from it. If he had loved her, if she had been of his world, approved by his family – but it was useless to speculate on the impossible.
She might steal away from this house very early in the morning, and lose herself in some back-street of Paris. She could not forbear a smile at her own simplicity. She would certainly lose herself, but it seemed probable that his lordship, who knew Paris, would have little trouble in finding her. She was without money and without friends; if she left the protection of Mme. de Charbonne’s house she could see only one end to her career. Marriage with Mr Comyn would be preferable to that. At least his degree was not immeasurably superior to hers; he did not seem to be a gentleman of very passionate affections, and she felt that she could succeed in making him tolerably happy. After all, she thought, neither of us is of a romantic disposition, and at least I shall be rid of this dread of sudden exposure.
Mr Comyn was eating his breakfast some hours later when a surprised serving-maid ushered Miss Challoner into the room. The visit of a young and personable lady, quite unattended, and at such an unseasonable hour, roused all the abigail’s curiosity. Having shut the door on Miss Challoner, she naturally put her ear to the keyhole. But as the conversation inside the room was conducted in English she soon withdrew it.
Mr Comyn got up quickly from the table, and laid aside his napkin. ‘Miss Challoner!’ he said, coming forward to greet her.
Mary, who was dressed in the grey gown and hooded cloak she had worn on the night of her abduction, gave her hand into his, and as he bent to kiss it, said in her quiet way: ‘Please inform me, sir, now that you have had time in which to reflect, do you not desire to return to Miss Marling?’
‘Indeed, no!’ said Mr Comyn, releasing her hand. ‘Is it possible – do you in fact come in the guise of an envoy?’
She shook her head. ‘Alas, no, sir.’
He was careful not to allow the disappointment he felt to creep into his voice. ‘I imagined, ma’am, that you had come to give me your answer to my offer. I need hardly assure you that if you will accept of my hand in marriage I shall count myself extremely fortunate.’
She smiled, but rather wanly. ‘You are very kind, sir. I do not feel that I have any right to accept what I can only regard as a sacrifice, but my situation is desperate, and I do accept it.’
/> He bowed. ‘I shall endeavour to make you comfortable, ma’am. We must now decide what were best to do. Will you not be seated?’
‘You are breakfasting, sir, are you not?’
‘Pray do not regard it, ma’am; I have had all I need.’
Miss Challoner’s eyes twinkled. ‘I, sir, on the other hand, am fasting.’
He slightly pressed her hand. ‘Believe me, I perfectly understand that food at this moment is repugnant to you. Let us be seated by the fire.’
Miss Challoner said meekly: ‘Food is by no means repugnant to me, Mr Comyn. Pray allow me to share your breakfast. I am very hungry.’
He looked rather surprised, but at once handed her to a chair by the table. ‘Why, certainly, ma’am! I will send to procure you a clean cup and plate.’ He went to the door and nearly fell over the serving-maid, who had not yet abandoned hope of catching a phrase spoken in her own tongue. His command of the French language being what it was, he was unable to deliver a rebuke, but he managed to ask for a cup and plate.
When these were brought Miss Challoner poured herself out some coffee, and spread butter on a roll. She proceeded to make a hearty meal. Mr Comyn was assiduous in plying her with food, but he could not help feeling in a dim way that her attitude in face of a dramatic situation was a trifle mundane. Miss Challoner, biting a crust with her little white teeth, had also her private thoughts, and remembered other meals partaken in the company of a gentleman. This gave her a heartache, and since she had no notion of indulging in such a weakness, she said briskly: ‘Where are we to be married, sir? How soon can we leave Paris?’
Mr Comyn poured her out another cup of coffee. ‘I have considered the matter, ma’am, and I have two plans to submit to you. It must, of course, be as you wish. We can, if you like, return to England, where I apprehend there will be no difficulty in arranging our immediate nuptials. I should point out to you, however, that in England our marriage must necessarily give occasion for comment. The alternative is to travel to Dijon, and there to find the English divine, whose direction was given to me by Lord Vidal. Should you choose this course, ma’am, I suggest that following upon the ceremony we should journey into Italy for a space. Against this scheme must be set my natural scruples, which urge me not to make use of the information provided by his lordship.’
‘I don’t think that need trouble you,’ said Miss Challoner matter-of-factly. ‘Which of these plans do you prefer?’
‘It is entirely for you to decide, ma’am.’
‘But really, sir –’
‘Whatever you choose will be agreeable to me,’ said Mr Comyn.
Miss Challoner, feeling that the argument might be interminable if embarked on, gave her vote for Dijon. She had no desire to return to England until comment had died down. Mr Comyn then found several points in favour of her choice, and promised that they should set forward before noon. Miss Challoner informed him that she would need to buy herself some few necessities, as she had nothing but the clothes she stood in. Mr Comyn was quite shocked, and asked her very delicately whether she had sufficient money for her needs. She assured him that she had, and while he went to order a post-chaise, she sallied forth to the nearest shops. Pride had forbidden her to bring any of the clothes of the Marquis’s providing. She had, perforce, worn them at the Hôtel de Charbonne, but they were all carefully packed away now; gowns of tiffany with blonde scallops, gowns of taffetas, of dimity, of brocaded satin, cloaks richly trimmed with black lace, négligées so soft and fine they slid through the fingers; lawn shifts, point-lace tuckers, Turkey handkerchiefs – all the fineries of a lady of fashion, or – she thought, with a wry smile – of a light-of-love. She would not keep so much as one comb or haresfoot.
Shortly before noon they set forth on their journey. Both were rather silent, and until the chaise drew out of Paris they sat looking absently out of the windows, each one thinking sadly of the might-have-been.
Mr Comyn roused himself at last from his abstraction to say: ‘I think it only right to tell you, ma’am, that I left a billet to be delivered to my Lord Vidal.’
Miss Challoner sat bolt upright. ‘What, sir?’
‘I could not but consider that I owed it to him to inform him of your safety and my intentions.’
‘Oh, you should never have done that!’ Miss Challoner said, horrified. ‘Good God, what a fatal mistake!’
‘I regret that you should disapprove, but I remembered that his lordship had made himself responsible for your well-being, and I could not reconcile it with my conscience to make this journey without apprising him of our contract.’
Miss Challoner struck her hands together. ‘But don’t you see, sir, that we shall have him hard on our heels? Oh, I would not have had you tell him for the world!’
‘I beg you will not distress yourself, ma’am. Much as I dislike the least appearance of secretiveness I thought it advisable to write nothing of our destination to his lordship.’
She was only partly reassured, and begged him to order the postillions to drive faster. He pointed out to her that greater speed would court disaster, but when she insisted he obediently let down the window, and shouted to the postillions. Not immediately understanding what he called to them these worthies drew up. Miss Challoner then assumed the direction of affairs, and whatever doubts the postillions had had concerning the nature of the journey were set at rest. Upon the chaise resuming its progress Mr Comyn, pulling up the window, said gravely that he feared the men now suspected an elopement. Miss Challoner agreed that this was probably true, but maintained that it did not signify. Mr Comyn said with a touch of severity that by informing the men, as well as he could, that he was her brother he had hoped to avert the least suspicion of impropriety.
Miss Challoner’s ever lively sense of humour was aroused by this, and she slightly disconcerted Mr Comyn by chuckling. She explained apologetically that after the events of the past week considerations of propriety seemed absurd. He pressed her hand, saying with feeling: ‘I believe you have suffered, ma’am. To a delicately nurtured female Lord Vidal’s habits and manners must have caused infinite alarm and disgust.’
Her steady grey eyes met his unwaveringly. ‘Neither, sir, I do assure you. I don’t desire to pose as a wronged and misused creature. I brought it all on myself, and his lordship behaved to me with more consideration than perhaps I deserved.’
He seemed to be at a loss. ‘Is that so, ma’am? I had supposed, I confess, that you had suffered incivility – even brutality – at his hands. Consideration for others would hardly appear to be one of his lordship’s virtues.’
She smiled reminiscently. ‘I think he could be very kind,’ she said, half to herself. ‘I am indebted to him for several marks of thoughtfulness.’ Her smile grew, though her eyes were misty. ‘You would scarcely credit it in one so ruthless, sir, but his lordship, though excessively angry with me at the time, was moved to provide me with a basin on board his yacht. I was never more glad of anything in my life.’
Mr Comyn was shocked. ‘It must have been vastly disagreeable to you, ma’am, to be – ah – unwell and without a female companion.’
‘It was quite the most disagreeable part of the whole adventure,’ agreed Miss Challoner. She added candidly: ‘I was vilely sick, and really I believe I should have died had his lordship not forced brandy down my throat in the nick of time.’
‘The situation,’ said Mr Comyn austerely, ‘seems to have been sordid in the extreme.’
Miss Challoner perceived that she had offended his sensibilities, and relapsed into a disheartened silence. She began to understand that Mr Comyn, for all his prosaic bearing, cherished a love for the romantic, which Lord Vidal, a very figure of romance, quite lacked.
The journey occupied three days, and neither the gentleman nor the lady enjoyed it. Miss Challoner, of necessity the spokesman at every halt on the route, found h
erself comparing this flight with her previous journey to Paris, when the best rooms at all the inns were prepared for her, and she had nothing to do but obey my lord’s commands. Mr Comyn, in his turn, could not but feel that his companion behaved with a matter-of-factness quite out of keeping with the circumstances. She seemed more concerned with the ordering of meals at the inns, and the airing of sheets which she declared to be damp, than with the unconventional daring of the whole expedition. A natural female agitation would have given his chivalry more scope, but Miss Challoner remained maddeningly calm, and, far from betraying weakness or nervous fears, assumed the direction of the journey. The only betrayal of uneasiness which she permitted herself was her continual plea to travel faster. Mr Comyn, who did not at all care to be bumped and jolted over bad roads, and who thought, moreover, that such a feverish pace made their progress appear like an undignified flight, several times remonstrated with her. But when he condemned the speed as dangerous, Miss Challoner laughed, and told him that if he had ever travelled with the Marquis he would not consider himself to be moving fast now.
This remark, and various others which had all to do with his lordship, at last induced Mr Comyn to observe, not without a touch of asperity, that Miss Challoner did not seem to have disliked her late abduction so much as he had supposed. ‘I confess, ma’am,’ he said, ‘that I had imagined you desperate in the power of one whose merciless violence is, alas, too well known. Apparently I was mistaken, and from your present conversation I am led to assume that his lordship behaved with a respect and amiability astonishing in one of his reputation.’
Her eyes twinkled a little. ‘Respect and amiability…’ she repeated. ‘N-no, sir. His lordship was peremptory, overbearing, excessively quick-tempered, and imperious.’
‘And yet, ma’am, not repugnant to you.’
‘No. Not repugnant to me,’ she said quietly.