Badly she wanted to draw—something. Her fingers twitched, as the Investigator’s fingers twitched, with the need to collect, to record. In this forbidden place, in particular. Where they moved like wraiths, undercover.
The Intern, as “Sabbath McSwain,” had had an art exhibit, with two other young women artists, at the Females Without Borders center at the Temple Park. After a long absence of creating art—of feeling the wish to create art, still less the energy and hope of such effort—the Intern had worked for several exhilarated weeks on intricately rendered pen-and-ink drawings, not of Escher-like visionary subjects but of individuals she’d observed close-up, and intimately: some of them had been customers in the failing bookstore, faces that had appealed to her, a kindred loneliness in them as in herself, and that peculiar yearning.
The instinct for abstraction had waned in her. The instinct for a witty acquisition of being, through quantification and repetition. Now, she seemed to care mostly for individual faces: quirky, homely, unself-conscious, unique. Millions of individuals, very few of any particular distinction yet all of them unique. Here was the mystery!
The Investigator hadn’t wanted an assistant who was creative. The Intern would hide from him this impulse, never would she confide in him that she’d had an exhibit at the Females Without Borders center. (Which possibly the Investigator had seen, though he wouldn’t have remembered her name attached to twenty-five pen-and-ink portraits of extreme simplicity.)
The Intern smiled: overhearing one of the young women in the tour-group murmur to a companion that the Investigator—“that man, there—with the white hair”—was “some kind of retired chief justice”—a remark which, the Intern thought, would amuse her employer when she told him.
“Any questions, folks? If not, follow me!”
The Lieutenant had finished the opening passages of his tour-speech. Now he was leading his fifteen visitors across the courtyard and into the stucco chapel.
“This is our ‘non-denominational’ house of worship, folks. We are very proud of our chapel.”
The interior was spartan, with pinewood pews, a low ceiling, sputtering candles against a wall and a plain T-cross, not a crucifix, elevated at the front of the room. There was a pulpit banked with artificial calla lilies and behind the pulpit stood a light-skinned black man in blue prison uniform, about thirty-five years old, nervously waiting to address the group. He had a boyish face, eager eyes. The Lieutenant introduced him as “Juan-Carlos”—a “lifer”—that is, the inmate had been given an indeterminate prison sentence—“thirty years to life”—from which he might, at some point in the future, be paroled.
Juan-Carlos spoke rapidly, staring out into the pews with shining eyes. His voice had a gospel-lilt. Telling of how he’d made a “bad choice” as a boy, joining a gang, in Miami, drug-dealing-gang—“thown my own life away like garbage”—and ever after, “tryin to retrieve it through the help of Christ Our Lord.”
Aged fifteen he’d been initiated into the gang. He’d been involved in a “cutting”—later, a “killing”—though he hadn’t killed anyone himself he’d been present at an execution of two men and so he was guilty—“felony murder.”
Also his own loving mother, he’d stolen from, and struck in the face—she’d died, of some junkie beating on her, he understood it was his fault.
Every day praying, Juan-Carlos said, for the men he’d seen die. Bled to death on the street. For the families of the boys. Every day praying for his momma. And for himself, his soul. Every day twenty-two years, eight months since the men died.
The New Year of that year, that followed, when he was seventeen years old and Jesus had come into his soul like a “blinding comet.”
The Intern was moved by Juan-Carlos’s words. The Intern would have liked to press her hands against her ears, not to hear more.
Thown my life away.
Garbage.
The chapel-talk was ending. The Lieutenant stood in the aisle asking the tour-visitors if they had questions for Juan-Carlos.
At first no one spoke. Then, the woman professor lifted her hand to ask what had been Juan-Carlos’s “gang-affiliation” but the Lieutenant interrupted—“Sorry, ma’am! That can’t be revealed.”
Several others asked questions, about parole. Juan-Carlos said that he’d been interviewed by the parole board twice, and turned down twice, but that he would not give up—he would re-apply, next year.
“Every day I pray to God, to thank Him, I was not sentenced to death. For it might have happened—and I would be on Death Row this morning, and not here speakin with you. Amen!”
The Investigator raised his hand to ask a question. All looked at him—the white-haired gentleman in the expensive-looking suit, white shirt and tie, of whom it was rumored he was a retired judge.
But the Investigator’s question was not a sensational one. He asked only if Juan-Carlos was taking courses in the prison? High school courses, vocational courses?
Juan-Carlos shook his head, no. There were no courses for inmates in Orion, right now.
“So you don’t have a high school diploma, obviously. So if you are paroled—what will you do, outside?”
Juan-Carlos smiled at the Investigator. Juan-Carlos said he’d worked in the “license-plate” shop, he had experience there.
“Reading skills? Writing? Math?”
Juan-Carlos would have attempted an answer except the Lieutenant interrupted, irritably: “Thank you, sir, for your question. It’s a very good question, we will think about it. But now—time to move on.”
Juan-Carlos was ushered from the pulpit by a guard in a dun-colored uniform. The Lieutenant led his tour-group out of the chapel in two columns, back to the cobblestone courtyard. Overhead the sky remained white-glowering and opaque. Like a thin rubber film stretched tight.
The Intern shielded her eyes with her fingers. The inmate’s words had been moving to her, she’d had a wish to draw his face, his lanky figure. Along his right leg were the white vertical letters P R I S O N E R which rendered all that the man said somehow diminished, as if a clown were speaking, to entertain his captors.
The Intern didn’t want to glance at her watch, to see how little time had passed in the chapel. Already she could see that time moved with infinite slowness inside the prison walls.
The Lieutenant herded his visitors in the direction of a squat dull-granite memorial stone with a double column of engraved names—“COs who died in the line of duty here at Orion. From 1907 to 2010.”
Beside the memorial stone was an American flag hanging at perpetual half-mast.
Many questions were asked about these deaths in the line of duty. The Lieutenant said that he had himself seen, with his own eyes, fellow COs attacked, beaten, even killed by prisoners “on a rampage”—narrowly he’d escaped being taken hostage, in the 1980s, in a “prison uprising.”
The Lieutenant told of the “most violent ten minutes” in the prison’s history, in 1969—an attempted breakout when a Black Panther defense attorney smuggled an automatic revolver into the prison, to leave with his client who smuggled it inside his clothing and, as he was being escorted back to his cell block, suddenly began shooting wildly, killing several COs and fellow inmates until he was rushed by tower-guards and shot down dead.
“Ten minutes, and ten people killed. That’s what we live with every hour of every day in this facility—what can happen to us at any time.”
One of the visitors asked what had happened to the defense attorney? Had he been arrested for smuggling the weapon into the prison?
“No. He was not arrested. He fled the country—went to Cuba. Far as I know, he’s still there.”
The Lieutenant spoke bitterly, vehemently. The Intern knew that the Investigator would have liked to question the man further: how did the “Black Panther defense attorney” smuggle the weapon through the metal-detector? How had the attorney so easily escaped the country? There had to be more to the account than what the Lieutenant had said.
But the
Investigator allowed the moment to pass. It was not his strategy to arouse antagonism, still less suspicion, in any individual whom he confronted while undercover.
In one of the newer buildings was the infirmary, but the Lieutenant wasn’t going to lead the tour-group inside.
“It ain’t the safest place. It don’t smell good. Like, lots of germs from sick people. ‘Infections.’ Last November there was swine flu, then shingles, and chicken pox—half the facility was quarantined. Lots of COs were hit—including me. Sick as a dog and lost like twenty pounds. But worst you can get in here is T.B.—some new kind of strain, there ain’t the medicine to combat it.”
Visitors asked how many “physicians” were on call at Orion.
Visitors asked if “seriously sick” prisoners were removed from the facility, to hospitals.
The Lieutenant answered these questions with a sly razor-flash of a smile. The Lieutenant said it was the “most usual thing to expect,” a man would die in the infirmary if he was an old man, a lifer.
“That’s what you have to expect, folks. If you ‘do the crime, you gotta do the time.’ If you are sent to Orion ain’t unreasonable to expect you might-be gonna die in Orion.”
Someone began to object—there should be “health and medical options” for all prisoners—but one of the older men who’d been silent until now, though grimly nodding at every remark of the Lieutenant’s, interrupted to say that it was “ridiculous” to expect maximum-security prisoners to have first-rate medical treatment any more inside prison than they’d have had outside prison.
“Taxpayers are tired of coddling these people. One in one hundred U.S. citizens is ‘incarcerated’—or will be—and one in less than ten—males—in the ‘African-American’ community is incarcerated, or will be. You can see it here at Orion—in the ‘Yard’ . . . Can’t blame the prison-system for that that’s to do with breakdown in families, family-values . . .”
The speaker was fleshy-jowled and flush-faced and had the righteous-exasperated look of a school superintendent in a troubled school-district or maybe the look of a minister of a Protestant sect just-this-side-of-respectable-middle-class. The chuckling Lieutenant agreed with the fleshy-jowled man as if to pique the more liberal-minded of his visitors—(the university professor and her students? The white-haired gentleman scribbling in his little notebook?).
“Sir, you are absolutely correct. Can’t blame the prison-system for the population that’s crammed in it.”
They were being led along a coarse-gravel path that pained the Intern’s feet, even in hiking boots. At the rear of a building they stood observing inmates working with metal—“license-plate manufacture”—and with wood—“furniture-manufacture.” The inmates were of all ages including surprisingly old—“lifers” in their fifties, sixties—some of them with straggling beards, bald heads and canes; amid the younger men, of whom the majority were dark-skinned, here and there were “disabled”—canes, walkers, even wheelchairs. The Intern was distracted from the Lieutenant’s words staring at these men who were oblivious—(or wished to give that impression)—to being rudely observed by civilian-strangers.
Her heart beat rapidly. She hoped they would not—would not turn, to see her.
Criminals, they were—“convicts.” Yet she had to suppose they were very likely veterans—“wounded in action.”
The woman professor standing close beside the Intern turned to her, with a look of concern.
“Excuse me? Are you—feeling faint?”
The Intern had been breathing strangely. The Intern had been feeling very shaky.
As if blood were draining from her head. Sensation draining downward out of her brain.
“Yes. No. Thank you. I am—fine.”
The Intern made an effort to listen to the Lieutenant questioning his fellow COs in charge of furniture-and-license-plate manufacture in the facility. Their exchanges had the air of much-repeated words yet were not uninteresting nonetheless.
The tour-group civilians were lavish in their praise like doting parents or grandparents confronted with the work of brain-damaged children.
“Gosh this is very good work! This is just—excellent work.”
“This is—these are—pieces of furniture I would buy myself. I could imagine, buying . . .”
“. . . this table, is it maplewood? It looks really solid . . .”
“. . . for our sons’ room, I would buy a bureau like this. Good and solid and . . .”
“So smooth and shiny. It’s like, shellacked?—no slivers . . .”
They were informed that most government offices in the state of Florida were furnished by furniture-makers at one or another of the prison facilities. A number of schools, community colleges.
“Y’see, prison is a ‘learning opportunity.’ It ain’t just taking courses like how to read, write—it’s learning a trade, too.”
The Lieutenant seemed to be addressing the Investigator who was inspecting the furniture at close hand, with an expression of affable scrutiny.
“Some men get paroled from Orion, they’re hired right-away by furniture companies—ain’t no problem them getting back in the job market.”
Next, the Lieutenant led his charges on a hike uphill. Soon a number of the tour-visitors were panting. At the corner of a high gaunt building they were led abruptly left, and down an incline—in front of them, a sudden expanse of open land, part-pavement and part-scrubby grassland, the “Yard.”
The civilians stared. Hundreds—could it be hundreds?—of inmates were in the Yard, under the supervision of what appeared to be, to the casual eye, a very few guards.
Though there were guards in the watch-towers of course. Stationed at intervals along the fifteen-foot electrified wire fence.
The Lieutenant explained how gangs of inmates—African-Americans, Puerto Ricans, Dominicans, Cubans, “whites”—with now, more recent in past decades, “Chinese”—had taken possession of particular parts of the Yard, that were off-limits to all other gangs. “Inside, it’s your skin-color that matters. Not one other thing so much. That never changes.”
They were surprised to see a number of older inmates—the Investigator’s age, at least. Several had long white wispy beards and walked with canes on the dirt track while younger inmates jogged past them. Elsewhere inmates were shooting basketballs at netless rims, lifting weights, doing exercises; standing about, pacing—restless. You were aware of “race”—skin color. It was as the Lieutenant had said, the men were self-segregated by skin color and the fact was a depressing one yet unmistakable, unarguable. The Intern would have liked to confront the Investigator: Where is your idealism about race blindness now?
For the Investigator was far more idealistic than the Intern. The Investigator placed his faith in the future—in “a” future—in which social justice had at last been eradicated as one might wish to eradicate, in the state of Florida, for instance, a particular plant- or animal-invader that was devastating native species.
The tour-group was quiet now as they followed the Lieutenant blindly through the Yard. Not all of the inmates had noticed the tour- group but those who had were staring, some of them openly, others covertly like children. In the Yard, on the scrubby ground, cloud-shadows passed swift and fleet as the shadows of predator birds.
“Folks, this way. Don’t stare, ain’t po-lite to stare, ain’t that been explained to you? ‘No-eye-contact’—‘no fraternization with inmates’—you got it, right?”
Briskly the Lieutenant led the visitors along another rough-gravel path. This one was protected by the open expanse of the Yard by a ten-foot wire-mesh fence. In the near distance were open urinals—the Intern was astonished to see, as other (female) individuals in the tour-group were astonished to see—about which the Lieutenant said, chiding, “ ‘Open urinals’—don’t look. It’s a protocol—don’t look. The inmates know to keep their eyes to themselves, but visitors have got to be reminded of good manners. Just don’t look. Any man using any open urinal, he??
?s invisible, like. Monkey-don’t-see, monkey-don’t-do.”
What did this mean? Was the Lieutenant teasing, scolding? Threatening? Quickly the Intern looked away from the open urinals.
“Anyway just step-along here, folks. No need to linger here.”
Yet the Intern saw: inmates’ eyes shifting in their sockets, across a considerable distance. They were noting the presence of females.
How, the Intern wondered, were they counting her?
Ugly ugly ugly. That one.
Gloating to think that ugliness is a shield.
Ugliness attracts no sex-desire.
“Inmates allowed in the Yard like this, their daily exercise, they value it highly and would not jeopardize it. Dangerous felons you will not see, mostly—they are in solitary, or a special cell block, or Death Row. To get Yard rights, a man has got to show good behavior. There’s gangs out there but not the worst members. Long as nobody pushes in anybody else’s territory, there won’t be trouble. Don’t worry they’re looking at us—they don’t want nothing to do with us. The prison don’t negotiate hostages—that’s known. A CO like myself, I am not carrying a firearm. You will note, I am not carrying a firearm. So that a firearm can’t be taken from me. And if anybody tried to get around this fence, the tower-guards would see them right away. I mean, a half-second. The tower-guards call in a bullhorn—EVERYBODY DOWN! EVERYBODY DOWN! And if they do, you throw yourself down. You don’t think twice, you don’t try to figure what the hell it is, is it serious danger, or whatever it is, you hear that command and you throw yourself down and if you don’t, folks, if you’re still standing, you’re a candidate for getting shot down. That’s why we tell visitors not to wear anything remotely like blue, you don’t want to be confused with an inmate in a time of emergency. A tower-guard will shoot you down, that is his authority. The fact is—‘No Warning Shots.’ A civilian can be killed out of ignorance. If some kind of uprising started, and no warning. But look—chances are, nothing is gonna happen, see they’re just watching us without making any move, they’re too smart to make any move, broad daylight like this is. Like I said the worst guys are not out in the Yard—they’re lucky they get one hour in forty-eight for ‘exercise’ outside their cell—and it ain’t in any Yard—and a shower—and that’s it. Some of them, sheer animals, crazy-like, they’d tear your throats out with their teeth if they could, so you don’t see them, a visitor is spared the sight of them. So ladies, don’t worry! Truth is no tour-group has ever been threatened at Orion. No hostages! Not on my watch. And I been leading tours for—hell, twenty years now. Not that this is the main CO work I do, it is not, but guided-tour is what I guess not everybody at Orion is suited for, or has the talent for, so the warden counts on me and I ain’t gonna let him down. Any questions?”