He so spoke because beneath his outward coldness he himself felt a secret rage against this lightness which, as he saw things, had its parallel in another order of trivial unawareness in more important places and larger brains. Feather started and drew somewhat nearer to him.
“How hideous! What do you mean! Where was the party?” she asked.
“It was a small dance given by the Duchess, very kindly, for Robin,” he answered.
“For Robin!” with open eyes whose incredulity held irritation. “The old Duchess giving parties to her ‘useful companion’ girl! What nonsense! Who was there?” sharply.
“The young fellows who would be first called on if there was war. And the girls who are their relatives. Halwyn was there—and young Dormer and Layton—they are all in the army. The cannon balls would be for them as well as for the Tommies of their regiments. They are spirited lads who wouldn’t slink behind. They’d face things.”
Feather had already forgotten her moment’s shock in another thought.
“And they were invited to meet Robin! Did they dance with her? Did she dance much? Or did she sit and stare and say nothing? What did she wear?”
“She looked like a very young white rose. She danced continually. There was always a little mob about her when the music stopped. I do not think she sat at all, and it was the young men who stared. The only dance she missed—Kathryn told her grandmother—was the one she sat out in the conservatory with Donal Muir.”
At this Feather’s high, thin little laugh broke forth.
“He turned up there? Donal Muir!” She struck her hands lightly together. “It’s too good to be true!”
“Why is it too good to be true?” he inquired without enthusiasm.
“Oh, don’t you see? After all his mother’s airs and graces and running away with him when they were a pair of babies—as if Robin had the plague. I was the plague—and so were you. And here the old Duchess throws them headlong at each other—in all their full bloom—into each other’s arms. I did not do it. You didn’t. It was the stuffiest old female grandee in London, who wouldn’t let me sweep her front door-steps for her—because I’m an impropriety.”
She asked a dozen questions, was quite humorous over the picture she drew of Mrs. Muir’s consternation at the peril her one ewe lamb had been led into by her highly revered friend.
“A frightfully good-looking, spoiled boy like that always plunges headlong into any adventure that attracts him. Women have always made love to him and Robin will make great eyes, and blush and look at him from under her lashes as if she were going to cry with joy—like Alice in the Ben Bolt song. She’ll ‘weep with delight when he gives her a smile and tremble with fear at his frown.’ His mother can’t stop it, however furious she may be. Nothing can stop that sort of thing when it once begins.”
“If England declares war Donal Muir will have more serious things to do than pursue adventures,” was Coombe’s comment. He looked serious himself as he said the words, because they brought before him the bodily strength and beauty of the lad. He seemed suddenly to see him again as he had looked when he was dancing. And almost at the same moment he saw other scenes than ball-rooms and heard sounds other than those drawn forth by musicians screened with palms. He liked the boy. He was not his son, but he liked him. If he had been his son, he thought—! He had been through the monster munition works at Essen several times and he had heard technical talks of inventions, the sole reason for whose presence in the world was that they had the power to blow human beings into unrecognisable, ensanguined shreds and to tear off limbs and catapult them into the air. He had heard these powers talked of with a sense of natural pride in achievement, in fact with honest and cheerful self gratulation.
He had known Count Zeppelin well and heard his interesting explanation of what would happen to a thickly populated city on to which bombs were dropped.
But Feather’s view was lighter and included only such things as she found entertaining.
“If there’s a war the heirs of great families won’t be snatched at first,” she quite rattled on. “There’ll be a sort of economising in that sort of thing. Besides he’s very young and he isn’t in the Army. He’d have to go through some sort of training. Oh, he’ll have time! And there’ll be so much emotion and excitement and talk about parting forever and ‘This may be the last time we ever meet’ sort of thing that every boy will have adventure—and not only boys. When I warned Robin, the night before she went away, I did not count on war or I could have said more—”
“What did you warn her of?”
“Of making mistakes about the men who would make love to her. I warned her against imagining she was as safe as she would be if she were a daughter of the house she lived in. I knew what I was talking about.”
“Did she?” was Coombe’s concise question.
“Of course she did—though of course she pretended not to. Girls always pretend. But I did my duty as a parent. And I told her that if she got herself into any mess she mustn’t come to me.”
Lord Coombe regarded her in silence for a moment or so. It was one of the looks which always made her furious in her small way.
“Good morning,” he said and turned his back and walked out of the room. Almost immediately after he had descended the stairs she heard the front door close after him.
It was the kind of thing which made her feel her utter helplessness against him and which enraged all the little cat in her being. She actually ground her small teeth.
“I was quite right,” she said. “It’s her affair to take care of herself. Would he want her to come to him in any silly fix? I should like to see her try it.”
Chapter 3
Robin sat at the desk in her private room and looked at a key she held in her hand. She had just come upon it among some papers. She had put it into a narrow lacquered box when she arranged her belongings, after she left the house in which her mother continued to live. It was the key which gave entrance to the Gardens. Each householder possessed one. She alone knew why she rather timidly asked her mother’s permission to keep this one.
“One of the first things I seem to remember is watching the gardeners planting flowers,” Robin had said. “They had rows of tiny pots with geraniums and lobelia in them. I have been happy there. I should like to be able to go in sometimes and sit under the trees. If you do not mind—”
Feather did not mind. She herself was not in the least likely to be seized with a desire to sit under trees in an atmosphere heavy with nursemaids and children.
So Robin had been allowed to keep the key and until to-day she had not opened the lacquer box. Was it quite by accident that she had found it? She was not quite sure it was and she was asking herself questions, as she sat looking at it as it lay in her palm.
The face of the whole world had changed since the night when she had sat among banked flowers and palms and ferns, and heard the splashing of the fountain and the sound of the music and dancing, and Donal Muir’s voice, all at the same time. That which had happened had made everybody and everything different; and, because she lived in this particular house and saw much of special people, she realised that the growing shudder in the life about her was only the first convulsive tremor of an earthquake. The Duchess began to have much more for her to do. She called on her to read special articles in the papers, and to make notes and find references. Many visitors came to the house to discuss, to plan, to prepare for work. A number of good-looking, dancing boys had begun to come in and out in uniform, and with eager faces and a businesslike military air which oddly transformed them. The recalcitrant George was more transformed than any of the rest. His eyes looked almost fierce in their anxious intensity, his voice had taken on a somewhat hard defiant ring. It could not be possible that he had ever done that silly thing by the fountain and that she had splashed him from head to foot. It was plain that there were young soldiers who were straining at leashes, who were restless at being held back by the bindings of red tape, and who e
very hour were hearing things—true or untrue—which filled them with blind fury. As days passed Robin heard some of these things—stories from Belgium—which caused her to stare straight before her, blanched with horror. It was not only the slaughter and helplessness which pictured itself before her—it was stories half hinted at about girls like herself—girls who were trapped and overpowered—carried into lonely or dark places where no one could hear them. Sometimes George and the Duchess forgot her because she was so quiet—people often forgot everything but their excitement and wrath—and every one who came in to talk, because the house had become a centre of activities, was full of new panics or defiances or rumours of happenings or possibilities.
The maelstrom had caught Robin herself in its whirling. She realised that she had changed with the rest. She was no longer only a girl who was looked at as she passed along the street and who was beginning to be happy because she could earn her living. What was every girl in these days? How did any girl know what lay before her and those who protected the land she lived in? What could a girl do but try in some way to help—in any way to help the fight and the fighters. She used to lie awake and think of the Duchess’ plans and concentrate her thought on the mastering of details. There was no hour too early or too late to find her ready to spring to attention. The Duchess had set her preparations for future possibilities in train before other women had quite begun to believe in their existence. Lady Lothwell had at first laughed quite gaily at certain long lists she found her mother occupied with—though this, it is true, was in early days.
But Robin, even while whirled by the maelstrom, could not cease thinking certain vague remote thoughts. The splashing of fountains among flowers, and the sound of music and dancing were far away—but there was an echo to which she listened unconsciously as Donal Muir did. Something she gave no name to. But as the, as yet unheard, guns sent forth vibrations which reached far, there rose before her pictures of columns of marching men—hundreds, thousands, young, erect, steady and with clear eyes—marching on and on—to what—to what? Would every man go? Would there not be some who, for reasons, might not be obliged—or able—or ready—until perhaps the, as yet hoped for, sudden end of the awful thing had come? Surely there would be many who would be too young—or whose youth could not be spared because it stood for some power the nation needed in its future.
She had taken out and opened the lacquered box while thinking these things. She was thinking them as she looked at the key in her hand.
“It is not quiet anywhere now,” she said to herself. “But there will be some corner under a tree in the Gardens where it will seem quiet if one sits quite still there. I will go and try.”
There were very few nursemaids with their charges in the place when she reached it about an hour later.
The military element filling the streets engendered a spirit of caution with regard to nursemaids in the minds of their employers. Even those who were not young and good-looking were somewhat shepherded. The two or three quite elderly ones in the Gardens cast serious glances at the girl who walked past them to a curve in the path where large lilac bushes and rhododendrons made a sort of nook for a seat under a tree.
They could not see her when she sat down and laid her book beside her on the bench. She did not even open it, but sat and looked at the greenery of the shrubs before her. She was very still, and she looked as if she saw more than mere leaves and branches.
After a few minutes she got up slowly and went to a tall bush of lilac. She plucked several leaves and carried them back to her bench, somewhat as if she were a girl moving in a dream. Then, with a tiny shadow of a smile, she took a long pin from under the lapel of her coat and, leaning forward, began to prick out a pattern on the leaf she had laid on the wooden seat. She was in the midst of doing it—had indeed decorated two or three—when she found herself turning her head to listen to something. It was a quick, buoyant marching step—not a nursemaid’s, not a gardener’s, and it was coming towards her corner as if with intention—and she suddenly knew that she was listening as if the intention concerned herself. This was only because there are psychological moments, moods, conditions at once physical and mental when every incident in life assumes the significance of intention—because unconsciously or consciously one is waiting.
Here was a crisp tread somehow conveying a suggestion of familiar happy eagerness. The tall young soldier who appeared from behind the clump of shrubs and stood before her with a laughing salute had evidently come hurriedly. And the hurry and laughter extraordinarily brought back the Donal who had sprung upon her years ago from dramatic ambush. It was Donal Muir who had come.
“I saw you from a friend’s house across the street,” he said. “I followed you.”
He made no apology and it did not even cross her mind that apology was conventionally necessary. He sat down beside her and his effect—though it did not express itself physically—was that of one who was breathing quickly. The clear blueness of his gaze seemed to enfold and cover her. The wonderfulness of him was the surrounding atmosphere she had felt as a little child.
“The whole world is rocking to and fro,” he said. “It has gone mad. We are all mad. There is no time to wait for anything.”
“I know! I know!” she whispered, because her pretty breast was rising and falling, and she had scarcely breath left to speak with.
Even as he looked down at her, and she up at him, the colour and laughter died out of him. Some suddenly returning memory brought a black cloud into his eyes and made him pale. He caught hold of both her hands and pressed them quite hard against his bowed face. He did not kiss them but held them against his cheek.
“It is terrible,” he said.
Without being told she knew what he meant.
“You have been hearing new horrible things?” she said. What she guessed was that they were the kind of things she had shuddered at, feeling her blood at once hot and cold. He lifted his face but did not release her hands.
“At my friend’s house. A man had just come over from Holland,” he shook himself as if to dismiss a nightmare. “I did not come here to say such things. The enormous luck of catching sight of you, by mere chance, through the window electrified me. I—I came because I was catapulted here.” He tried to smile and managed it pretty well. “How could I stay when—there you were! Going into the same garden!” He looked round him at the greenness with memory awakening. “It’s the same garden. The shrubs have grown much bigger and they have planted some new ones—but it is the same garden.” His look came back to her. “You are the same Robin,” he said softly.
“Yes,” she answered, as she had always answered “yes” to him.
“You are the same little child,” he added and he lifted her hands again, but this time he kissed them as gently as he had spoken. “God! I’m glad!” And that was said softly, too. He was not a man of thirty or forty—he was a boy of twenty and his whole being was vibrating with the earthquake of the world.
That he vaguely recognised this last truth revealed itself in his next words.
“It would have taken me six months to say this much to you—to get this far—before this thing began,” he said. “I daren’t have run after you in the street. I should have had to wait about and make calls and ask for invitations to places where I might see you. And when we met we should have been polite and have talked all round what we wanted to say. It would have been cheek to tell you—the second time we met—that your eyes looked at me just as they did when you were a little child. I should have had to be decently careful because you might have felt shy. You don’t feel shy now, do you? No, you don’t,” in caressing conviction and appeal.
“No—no.” There was the note of a little mating bird in the repeated word.
This time he spread one of her hands palm upward on his own larger one. He looked down at it tenderly and stroked it as he talked.
“It is because there is no time. Things pour in upon us. We don’t know what is before us. We can
only be sure of one thing—that it may be death or wounds. I don’t know when they’ll think me ready to be sent out—or when they’ll be ready to send me and other fellows like me. But I shall be sent. I am sitting in a garden here with you. I’m a young chap and big and strong and I love life. It is my duty as a man to go and kill other young chaps who love it as much as I do. And they must do their best to kill me, ‘Gott strafe England,’ they’re saying in Germany—I understand it. Many a time it’s in me to say, ‘Gott strafe Germany.’”
He drew in his breath sharply, as if to pull himself together, and was still a moment. The next he turned upon her his wonderful boy’s smile. Suddenly there was trusting appeal in it.
“You don’t mind my holding your hand and talking like this, do you? Your eyes are as soft as—I’ve seen fawns cropping among the primroses with eyes that looked like them. But yours understand. You don’t mind my doing this?” he kissed her palm. “Because there is no time.”
Her free hand caught at his sleeve.
“No,” she said. “You’re going—you’re going!”
“Yes,” he answered. “And you wouldn’t hold me back.”
“No! No! No! No!” she cried four times, “Belgium! Belgium! Oh! Belgium!” And she hid her eyes on his sleeve.
“That’s it—Belgium! There has been war before, but this promises from the outset to be something else. And they’re coming on in their millions. We have no millions—we have not even guns and uniforms enough, but we’ve got to stop them, if we do it with our bare hands and with walls of our dead bodies. That was how Belgium held them back. Can England wait?”
“You can’t wait!” cried Robin. “No man can wait.”
How he glowed as he looked at her!