teacher led us in a guided meditation and told us in one place to ask one question and see what our answer would be. I saw before my eyes the words being typed that read NEW MEXICO. It came across just as if a typewriter or keyboard had typed it, one letter at a time. I had asked where I was to live since I was forced to move.
Okay! Looks like I'm going to New Mexico! I was able to visit there with a friend before the move. I decided I had to be in the Espanola area. Only I needed to rent cheaply and the rents were not so cheap.
I had another workshop to go to and had to fly so instead of going out of Phoenix, I arranged to fly out of Albuquerque. I had two days to rent a place as when I came back from the workshop I had to be out of my apartment. There was an ad in the paper for renting a room in Alcalde, five miles north of Espanola. I had a good feeling about it even though I would have preferred a woman was renting it and not a man. Turned out he owned the house and lived there and was about the age of my sons. I just knew he was a good man and he was. I lived there for a year with another man who rented a room right after I moved in. I worked in the shoe department at the Espanola Walmart so once again my helpers took care of me. I could pay my rent!!!
Towards the end of my first year in Alcalde, I had a dream where my ex. in- laws who are on the other side were in it. Both of them came into the dream and each said to me that they were going to see my daughter in October in Colorado. I was also having those moving dreams. My landlord about the same time told me that he was thinking of selling his house. The signs were there for another move. At first I thought I was to get my own place in Colorado but another dream made it clear that I was to live with the family and help out. I could see why the guidance was telling me to go to Denver. My daughter works as a school social worker and has long hours. Her husband works full time. There were two children who needed to get to school so I became laundress, housekeeper, chauffeur and cook to give a break to the tired parents. As in New Jersey, I would have summers off when school was out and my daughter was home.
Since I was only needed the school year, one summer I drove cross country again to Maine. It was a karmic situation that drew me there and I still laugh about it. Talk about guidance! This helped me to clear up a past lifetime I had no clue about. I somehow landed near the only Unity Church in Maine and, in meeting the lady minister, I was triggered to later see a past life where my head had been chopped off due to the fact I wasn't a good cook in that life. The elite one I cooked for became annoyed with me and ordered my fate. As soon as that was cleared and healed with my inner work, I felt free to leave Maine. I was so glad that I went as I wondered why I was becoming nervous cooking for my daughter and her family. This explained it. I'd even be nervous cooking for company but not for my immediate family in years past. Now I understood and was thankful for the guidance to go to Maine.
No wonder I had nerves about cooking in Denver – the past life feelings were surfacing only I didn't know it.
From Maine I went to Niagara Falls and thought about living there in a senior apartment building and getting a job only my brother wasn't ready yet for me to help with his wife who was getting Alzheimer's. I left to visit my aunt and cousin in Alabama and then back out to Arizona to my son's so his family could go on vacation while I took care of all the pets.
From there I was led to go to North Carolina near Raleigh for four months until they put their house up for sale. Again a karmic situation where I could do the inner work and transmute our stuff. After that I went back to my aunt and cousin's place in Birmingham and thought I would like to live there as they had offered only my guidance sent me back out west. I helped my daughter's family for another school year after a summer of two weeks in Albuquerque and travel in southern Colorado with a friend. This time because the kids were older and needed to do more, my daughter and I decided it would be best for me to move on. I knew I was moving in October after a workshop in Atlanta, only I didn't know where. I had wanted to do a farm but the money was not there so it wasn't to be. The guidance came this time as a light bulb moment during a session with a friend over the phone. Lake Placid, NY, popped in and I knew of a senior apartment building there as a Utah friend had moved there. I felt elated with this as it was a place in nature with lakes, mountains and forests in the Adirondack State Park in the northeast part of New York state. It was another drive across the country doing affirmations, sending out healing and trying to beat the snow which I did. Lake Placid is a lovely, small mountain town in the high peaks area of the mountains. They have twice hosted the Winter Olympics and it is still a sports mecca. My guidance to come here has been a blessing and I have loved it here. The beauty is always uplifting. Even the winters are gorgeous and efficiently managed by road crews.
We attract to ourselves what we focus on. If we second guess our guidance or decide bad things will happen if we do it, we sabotage ourselves. Better to know and believe that only good comes to us. I know that only good comes to me. Beyond duality there is only love energy or God or a creative force.
Semantics is only words to try to describe this divine flow we are in. Doesn't matter what we call it. It is a real thing. Call it light, pure light, whatever – it is an energy we can flow in and with. What matters is our thinking and we watch our thoughts and change our negative ones. The so called bad things we encounter are only opportunity disguised as loss anyway. There is always a gift in the down time, our unhappy times. I have been told by many that they have made wrong choices. When they go deeply into it, there are reasons for it and looking back they can see how it made them stronger or wiser and how they became more confidant or braver. There are no mistakes they come to realize. Painful or not it was for their highest good. How does a soul refine itself without challenges? Wading through my divorce was extremely painful and yet coming out on the other side I was a different person and stronger. We set our pattern and our attitudes and the universe does its best to support us.
I believe that we are purposely guided into situations we don't like, painful ones and sticky ones or ouchy ones. We cannot move ahead if we do not deal with these parts of self that need to be changed or healed and forgiven. We need to look at these so called mistakes as our soul aspect, with our angels and guides leading us into them, showing the way to our mastery of self. Sometimes people are afraid to follow their guidance because when they did, it seemed a disaster. Doubt of self follows. Fear sets in and the disinclination is there to act on any guidance. Yet they need to understand that we don't learn or change when things are going great. We do our most growth when things are not going well. That's when we will change. So we are not to judge these upsetting times as bad. They are for our highest good and provide the most growth for us. We don't want to put ourself in a box we cannot get out of. Instead we need to change and reprogram our thinking and see the good in it and find the gift. Self-reliance, strength, fearlessness, faith, trust – any of these positive qualities can be our choice if we look for it. Even the attitude change of , “I can, I am able to, I am willing to do better. I will support myself and turn this around. I am able to succeed in all I do.” is all we need to do. The changes will come.
When I had my light bulb experience to go to Lake Placid, I left Denver exactly one week later. No time to second guess myself. No fear of the future. No concern I hardly had any money. I followed the guidance with a feeling of anticipation and knowingness. I made an affirmation for the trip: Thank you for my magical, mystical, marvelous, magnificent move to Lake Placid. I golden lighted my route before leaving and had the best trip. It all turned out better than I could ever have hoped for.
We are always led to our good if we follow our soul's prompting. It is best to pray or meditate on it and then do it.
Many times in the past I could have blasted myself for poor guidance only I knew I had to conquer my fears and do it anyway. When I moved into karmic situations and suffered for it, they were mine to heal.
They were not to run from. I came to really understand that there are no mista
kes and it is our subconscious steering us into these situations. We learn that as hard as we try we cannot control these
situations. The subconscious will have its way with us. It's as if the universe is in charge – hard as we may try to force things to be the way we want them to be. That's where having no expectations comes in handy. If we let go of expectations, then we do not set ourself up for disappointment. Everything will work out the way our high selves intended – like it or not. Our attitude needs to be one of allowing without resistance. We want to flow with it as the current in the river and not go against the current. We have to trust that a higher power is in charge and is at work here. We will feel a lot happier, I can guarantee you. Stress leaves as we let up on having things our way or on having to be right.
One helpful thing to do with others to practice giving and receiving advice or guidance is to have a few people or even just one other sit in a circle or facing each other if just two and quietly get centered or in a prayerful state. Surround yourselves in brilliant white light asking to be protected and for the highest good to