But how could she reach them? In one of Slayde’s ships.
Swiftly, she rose, gathering her skirts, preoccupied with one goal: to rush down to the wharf and be gone.
You owe it to Slayde to tell him first, her conscience warned.
Impossible, her urgency argued. Slayde is in London. I haven’t a clue when he’ll return. And I haven’t the time to wait.
Her common sense tried next. But it’s nearly night, the worst time of day to sail off to parts unknown.
I can’t let that—or anything else—deter me. I must go.
She’d taken but three steps when another internal voice resounded, this one halting her in her tracks. Patience, Courtney. It was Mr. Scollard, speaking as clearly as if he stood beside her. You must learn some. Now more than ever—you must.
“Mr. Scollard?” She looked about in bewilderment. Nothing but the gardens and trees met her scrutiny.
Listen with your heart, Courtney, the gruff, omniscient voice persisted. It won’t fail you.
With a resigned sigh, Courtney retraced her steps, sank back down into the chair. “Very well,” she acquiesced, somehow unsurprised by Mr. Scollard’s unseen presence. “I’ll try.”
She could almost see him smile.
She must have dozed.
Firm hands gripped her arms, shook her awake with gentle, but insistent motions. Disoriented, she cracked open her eyes and shivered, wondering why so cold a breeze permeated her bedchamber. “Matilda, would you mind closing the window?” she murmured. “It’s so chilly in here.”
“I’m not surprised,” Slayde’s deep voice replied. “It’s one a.m. and you’re sleeping in the garden wearing only a thin muslin gown.”
“Slayde?” Courtney blinked. “You’re home?”
“For hours.” He eased her forward, wrapping his coat about her shoulders. “Hours spent searching the manor for you. Everyone thought you were abed, which my visit to your chambers rapidly disproved. Everyone but Aurora, who wouldn’t divulge a bloody thing. I nearly bellowed her walls down before she finally told me your whereabouts. Evidently, you’ve been out here since midafternoon. Let’s get you inside before you become ill.”
“No.” Courtney shook her head, suddenly quite awake. “I need to talk to you. Alone.”
“If it’s about what I learned in London, trust me, it can wait until morning.” He scooped her into his arms.
“Please,” she whispered, with another shake of her head. “It’s not. It’s about…something else.”
Slayde paused, searching her face. Whatever he saw there made him comply. “All right.” He lowered himself to the chair, enfolding her in his coat—and his arms.
Besieged by weariness, Courtney nestled against him. “I missed you,” she murmured, abandoning any notion of remaining aloof. “I’m glad you’re home.”
He swallowed, audibly. “I thought of you a great deal. And I worried. You and Aurora together…I half expected my staff to have resigned during my absence.”
Courtney smiled. “I was under the impression you considered me a good influence on Aurora.”
“A wonderful companion. A good friend. But a good influence? Hardly. Remember? You filled me in on your past antics.” He smoothed her hair from her face. “You’re troubled. What is it? According to Matilda, you’ve been a model patient: visiting with Elinore, strolling the grounds with Aurora, and—oh, yes—Cutterton mentioned today’s trip to the lighthouse.”
An exasperated sigh. “Is there anything Cutterton doesn’t know?”
“No. Now, tell me. Did Mr. Scollard upset you in some way? He’s harmless enough, if a bit eccentric.”
“He’s extraordinary. So is his tea, which I’m convinced has healing powers. And, no, he didn’t upset me. But he did cause me to think.” She inhaled sharply, meeting and holding Slayde’s gaze. “I want to borrow a ship—a small one—preferably with a crew of one or two. I’m a fairly good navigator when my head isn’t thrust in the chamber pot. Unfortunately, that’s not very often. So I can’t go alone. But go I must. At first light.” Her fingertips brushed Slayde’s jaw. “Please. Don’t say no.”
Slayde’s features had grown harsher with each passing word. “Armon is dead,” he answered roughly. “What is it you’re seeking?”
“The spot where he boarded the Isobel. I need to be there again, to see where Papa went down. I’m not sure why, but it’s the only way I can find peace. Perhaps, since I never actually saw Papa go overboard, it’s easier for me to deny the inevitability of his death. I don’t know. I only know I must go. I considered doing so before you returned, but something Mr. Scollard said…” She wet her lips. “In any case, I waited. Please don’t make me sorry I did.”
Conflicting emotions warred on Slayde’s face. “Very well,” he said at last. “We’ll leave at first light.”
“We?” She sat bolt upright.
“We,” he repeated. “I’ll be damned if I’ll let you go alone. You need a crew? I’ll supply one: me. I’m one hell of a good navigator and I don’t require a chamber pot.” His silvery gaze narrowed in uncompromising decision. “That had best be acceptable, because it’s the only way I’ll lend you that ship.”
At that moment, Courtney loved him more than she’d ever believed it was possible to love anyone. “ ’Tis more than acceptable, my lord,” she breathed, pressing her lips to the hollow at the base of his throat. “ ’Tis another miracle.”
Chapter 11
THEIR KETCH LEFT DEVONSHIRE along with the last vestiges of darkness.
Courtney leaned against the railing, drawing her mantle more closely about her as the wind picked up, snapping the sails to life and propelling their small vessel toward its destination. She watched the Red Cliffs recede into a panoramic view, marveling at how beautiful this section of England was—how perfect for a cottage, a garden.
A home.
With a lump in her throat, she turned away, wondering if she dared any longer hope that dream could become a reality.
This trip would tell.
“Are you all right?” Slayde asked, glancing over from the helm.
“Fine.” She forced a smile. “My stomach has yet to begin lurching. When it does, you’ll see me dash below.”
“Maybe you should go to the cabin now,” Slayde returned soberly. “You look exhausted; did you shut an eye last night?”
“No.” There was no point in lying. “I couldn’t.” She walked over to stand beside him, clutching the mast and gazing out to sea. “Be careful maneuvering into the Channel. If I recall correctly, there are limestone sheets and sand traps somewhere in this area.”
Slayde arched a brow. “Thank you. But you needn’t worry. We’re heading south, away from Portland and the more precarious waters of Lyme Bay. I promise not to dash us on the rocks.”
Catching the teasing note in his voice, Courtney smiled—a genuine smile this time. “Forgive my interference. ’Twould seem you know the waters better than I.”
“Only those surrounding Devon,” he corrected. “By afternoon, I’ll be relying upon your knowledge of the Channel as it moves farther from the English shore.”
“I only hope I recall the spot where Armon attacked the Isobel.”
“You will.”
Courtney inclined her head, gazing up at him. “Elinore said you sailed a great deal as a youth.”
“I did. I enjoyed the utter solitude of being on my skiff.”
“And now?”
“Now?” He shrugged. “Mostly I travel as a passenger, to conduct business.”
“And to escape, just as you did then.”
His handsome features hardened. “Ofttimes escape is essential.”
“Other times it’s impossible.”
Silence.
“Will you tell me what you learned in London?” Courtney asked, wisely changing the subject.
“Not much. From the inquiries I made, no questionable shipments to any large European port have been arranged, nor have any large sums been re
portedly deposited or transferred. Of course, that doesn’t mean either of those two events didn’t occur. My contacts can’t ascertain the private dealings of every bank in London or the cargo of every vessel entering or leaving the city’s docks. Still, instinct tells me that had the black diamond been shipped from England, word would have leaked out. Between the huge sum involved and the age-old legend, ’tis too fascinating an occurrence to have transpired without a shred of gossip being spread.”
“What about the duke’s solicitor and banker?”
“Ostensibly, they did nothing other than meet with other prominent businessmen who are in London for the Season.”
Courtney chewed her lip thoughtfully. “Slayde, you yourself alerted Morland to the fact that you were delving into his activities. Is it possible he was aware you’d followed his colleagues to London and advised them to await your departure before taking action?”
“I suppose. In truth, it’s difficult for me to attribute such cunning to a weak drunkard like Morland. Then, again, he’s no longer the man I recall. And he is Chilton’s son.” Slayde gave a frustrated shake of his head. “Honestly, Courtney, I just don’t know.”
“What about Oridge?”
“Ah, Oridge. He’s the only one who’s managed to yield some results. We went our separate ways once we reached London, then met at an out-of-the-way pub on the day I left for Pembourne. According to his sources, a few disreputable men matching the descriptions you’d given him were seen peddling silver near London Bridge.”
“When was this?” Courtney demanded. “Is Mr. Oridge certain the men were Armon’s crew?”
“Two days before Oridge’s arrival, and yes. He confirmed it several times over. Which means his theory was right; Armon’s men didn’t immediately flee the country. Conceivably, they could still be in England or, at worst, they’ve traveled a short distance. Either way, Oridge will find them—and their ship. Of that, I have no doubt. The question is, what peace will that bring you? Who of your father’s crew might those filthy pirates have allowed to live?”
“I’ve asked myself those same questions, especially with regard to Lexley.” Courtney swallowed past the lump in her throat. “And the answers will doubtless be painful. But I must face them nonetheless.”
“I know.” Slayde stared out over the gently rolling waters. “In addition to the avenues my investigators are pursuing, I still want to check out that unsavory merchant, Grimes, to see if he was the contact Armon was en route to on the night he was killed. After you and I return from this excursion, I intend to head back to Dartmouth. Perhaps Grimes has slithered his way home from wherever the hell he was. If he knows anything, I’ll urge him to cooperate.”
Courtney’s insides surged, whether in reaction to their conversation or as the onset of her customary seasickness, she wasn’t certain. “I think I’d best go below,” she said shakily, her voice as unsteady as her stomach.
Slayde cast a swift glance at her. “Do you need my help?”
“No.” She was already on her way. “I just hope you had the good sense to provide a chamber pot in the cabin.”
The next hour was one Courtney would have liked to forget—just as she’d liked to forget the dozens of other times she’d spent crouched on a cabin floor heaving until her muscles ached. She was thankful she’d eaten very little the previous night, although her body seemed not to care, protesting the motion of the ship with wrenching spasms that went on long after her stomach was empty.
At last, the torment ended and she collapsed in an exhausted heap, too spent to even attempt sitting up. As if from a distance, she heard Slayde come in, and she murmured gratefully when he carried her to the berth, gently wiping her face and neck with a cool cloth.
“Rest,” he urged softly.
“But I have to…direct our way.” She felt as weak as a rag doll.
“You will. Soon. For a while, I’ll head in the general direction the Isobel would have taken—toward the Colonies. I’ll awaken you when I need you.”
“Slayde?” Courtney’s eyes drifted shut.
“Hum?”
“Thank you.” With that, she slept.
She jolted awake, a shaft of sunlight reminding her that the afternoon was well under way and her input would be needed in order to reach their destination. On wobbly legs, she arose, sagging with relief when she spied the basin of water Slayde had left. She drank and washed, then crept from the cabin and climbed topside, rejoining Slayde at the helm.
“Hello,” she greeted him, grateful to see the water was calmer.
His head jerked about, his eyes narrowing on her face. “I was just about to check on you. How do you feel?”
“Better.” A rueful smile. “As I said, I’m not much of a seafarer, although I’ve never before been quite this sick—not to the point where I fell into a dead sleep after being ill.”
“You’ve never before been recovering from severe injuries, body depletion, emotional turmoil, and physical fatigue,” he reminded her darkly. “Perhaps that had something to do with your reaction.”
“Perhaps.” She peered out to sea, trying to get her bearings. “What time is it?”
“A little past one. We’re lucky; the winds are with us and we’ve gone a lot farther than I anticipated.” Slayde rubbed his jaw. “You said the Isobel was three days out of port when Armon overtook you. How much of that time were you sailing along at a rapid pace?”
“If you’re asking what portion of those days were spent in open waters, not very much. ’Twas foggy when we left London. Halfway down the Thames, the winds turned against us. I recall Papa having a difficult time navigating the Downs, trying to avoid the Goodwin Sands. It wasn’t until we’d cleared the Strait of Dover that we began picking up speed.”
“The Goodwins can impede the very best of sailors. However, in this case, the fact that it inhibited the Isobel’s progress works in our favor. That, together with Devonshire’s western location and the beneficial winds now propelling us, convinces me we have very little westerly distance to cover before we reach the spot where your ship was attacked.”
“Yes, I can see you’re heading almost due south,” Courtney murmured thoughtfully. “I only pray my recollections come through when I most need them.”
Even as she spoke, Mr. Scollard’s voice sounded from somewhere inside her. Your memory will prevail, Courtney. Now call upon your strength. And remember to listen with your heart. It won’t fail you.
Three hours later, Mr. Scollard’s prophecy was confirmed.
The waters had grown rough over the past few miles. Now, harsh waves pounded at the ketch, rolling it from side to side, yet Courtney’s stomach went oddly and abruptly still. With a hoarse cry, she flew to the railing, her heart threatening to pound its way out of her chest. “Papa,” she whispered, staring into the inky depths of the Channel. She groped for her timepiece and clutched it, seeing fragments of a vision unfold in her mind’s eye: Armon boarding with his crew, Lexley fighting valiantly for his captain, her father, bound and gagged, weighted down, dragged toward…
“Papa,” she whispered again, hearing his scream, feeling his fear as he struck the water and went down. “Oh, God—Papa.”
A sudden wind whipped about her, reached inside her with an icy chill that had little to do with the temperature.
Slayde abandoned the helm, came to stand beside her. “This is the spot.” It was a statement, not a question.
“Yes.” She swallowed, pain lancing through her like a knife as she focused on the eddying waves. “The currents are strong.”
“Very strong.” Slayde’s fingers closed around hers.
“I knew they were,” she whispered. “But somehow I remembered them rushing in the opposite direction—toward England rather than away. Had that been the case, Papa might have been hauled closer to shore. As it is…” She squeezed her eyes shut, feeling her father’s presence in her heart, her soul—but nowhere she could touch. “He’s not here,” she stated simply, her lashes lif
ting. Reverently, she cradled the timepiece in her hands. “We can go back.”
Courtney didn’t speak the whole way home, nor did she cry. She simply stood on deck, feeling naught but a vast swell of emptiness and a profound sense of isolation. It was over. She’d made the trip, sought her answers, and excruciating though they might be, found them.
Later, she’d feel. But for now, there was nothing.
She blinked in surprise when twinkling lights came into view, alerting her to the fact that not only had night fallen, but their ship was nearing land.
“Where are we?” she managed, her voice sounding thin to her own ears.
“Cornwall.” Slayde veered the ketch inland. “It’s after midnight. We’ll spend the night at an inn and go on to Pembourne at dawn.”
Dazed, she glanced up at him. “Why?” Even as the word left her lips, she visualized the worried, well-meaning homecoming that awaited them. “Never mind,” she countered hastily. “An inn would be fine.”
She went through the motions, helping Slayde bring in the ketch, then accompanying him to a small local inn, where he took two adjoining rooms. She bid him good night, not even noting her surroundings as she woodenly undressed down to her chemise, sinking into the bed in the hopes that it would warm the chill permeating her body.
It didn’t.
Pressing her face into the pillow, Courtney, willed herself to cry. Anything would be better than this hollow ache. It was unbearable.
The adjoining door opened, then shut. She didn’t have to look to know it was Slayde. The bed gave beneath his weight as he sat beside her. “Courtney.” He smoothed her hair from her brow. “Don’t be afraid. The emptiness is part of the loss. It won’t last forever.”
“Won’t it?” She raised up on her elbows, searching his face. “It has with you.”
Agony slashed across his features. “You’re wrong.”
“I hope so.” She drew a shuddering breath. “I don’t think I can bear to live this way—so hollow, so cold.”