That did it. I had taken my foot off the brake, and we were barreling toward blackness. Soon we’d be a hideous, mangled mess. Mother lurched over the table and grabbed my wrist.
“I am not too old,” she said through her teeth. “You’re just jealous, and you know it. You’re lucky I didn’t throw you in a trash barrel, you little ingrate. I sacrificed everything for you, so don’t tell me what I am.”
I took a breath and tried to speak quietly. “You don’t mean that, Mother. Stop it. You’re making a scene.” I tried to pull my arm from her grasp. “And you’re hurting me.”
“I’m hurting you? Oh, that’s ripe. You ruined my body and tied me down during the best years of my life. I could have been famous. And you say I’m hurting you?” Mother released my arm, pushing it away from her. She leaned back against the booth and began digging in her purse. She pulled out a small flask and took a swig. “This is finally my chance, Jo, and I’m takin’ it.”
“Fine, take it.”
“I don’t think you understand. Don’t expect me to come back.”
“I understand. I just wish you’d find someone other than Cincinnati. He’s a no-good criminal, Mother. You don’t want to get messed up in that.”
“You don’t know anything about him.” She pulled a huge wad of bills from her purse and threw one on the table. “There. This one’s on me.”
Generous. I hadn’t ordered anything.
Mother stood up and smoothed her dress. “Don’t forget to tell Willie. I’ll try to write, but I’ll probably be too busy.” She put a hand under her curls and bounced them a bit. “Maybe you’ll read about me in the papers!” She kissed the air in my direction and then walked out.
I closed my eyes and clenched my teeth, hoping to stop any tears that might be forming. I hummed Patrick’s Rachmaninoff piece and felt my shoulders relax. I saw his torso swaying over the ivory keys, his father healthy again, standing and listening in the doorway. I saw Charlotte smiling and waving to me from the street and then suddenly, the image of Forrest Hearne, frantic, mouthing my name and waving the copy of Keats he had bought. I gasped at the image of Hearne and opened my eyes. Sonny was staring at me. The fluorescent lights buzzed and the ceiling fan creaked overhead.
ELEVEN
I snuck through the back door at Willie’s, dressed for Charlotte’s party. Dora’s boisterous laughter echoed from the kitchen as I hurried down the rear hallway. It would only take five minutes to iron my cream linen blouse. I couldn’t wear it to the party limp and full of folds. Since I didn’t own an iron, I generally ironed my clothes in the morning at Willie’s. I told myself I’d be in and out before anyone saw me.
I pushed through the laundry room door, startling Sweety, who was wearing a peach chiffon cocktail dress and talking to Sadie. Sweety stopped midsentence. They both turned to me, eyes wide.
“Jo, what are you doing here?” asked Sweety, her voice thick with concern. Sadie stared at me with her mouth hanging open.
“I—I’m going to a party, and I need to iron my blouse,” I stammered.
“What kind of party, honey?” said Sweety, still looking at me intently.
“Uptown,” I said. “A girl I met in the bookshop. I need to hurry.”
Sadie’s shoulders relaxed.
“Uptown? Well, how fun, Jo. Hurry and take your blouse off. The iron’s hot. Sadie, girl, put my sash aside. Let’s iron Jo’s blouse so she can be on her way,” said Sweety, gesturing with her slender arms. Even the way Sweety moved was gentle and lovely, like a ballerina. The sheer peach fabric swayed about her as she shifted out of the way. I couldn’t imagine her with fat, sweaty Walter Sutherland. I pushed the thought aside.
I unbuttoned my blouse and moved toward the ironing board. Sadie held up her hand and took the blouse from me. “Thanks, Sadie.”
“So, who are you going to the party with?” asked Sweety.
“A party?” boomed Dora, erupting through the door in a green satin robe with feathered slippers to match. She held a cup of coffee in one hand while dangling a cigarette in the other. Her makeup was freshly applied, and her red hair was piled high in rollers. “Now, who’s goin’ to a part—Jo, what are you doin’ here?” Dora’s eyes scanned my body, taking in my camisole, styled hair, and lipstick. “Why, baby girl, look at you. You’re puttin’ on the dog. Look at that new hairdo. Are you joining up—”
“Jo’s going to a party,” interrupted Sweety. “She’s in a hurry.”
Sadie nodded.
“Oh, good,” said Dora. “Well, who you goin’ with, doll?”
“Patrick Marlowe,” I replied.
“Mmm, mmm, now there’s a sweet thing,” said Dora. “Why doesn’t he ever come by the house so I can throw him around a bit?” Dora jostled her large chest and hooted. I just shook my head.
“He is a sweet boy. That’s why he doesn’t come here,” said Sweety. “You’d scare him right to death, Dora.”
“Well, Jo, you tell that gorgeous book boy that he needs to take lil’ ol’ Dora to a party sometime. I’d like to run my fingers through that shiny blond hair of his. He can read me some poetry from his bookstore.” She cleared her throat. “Roses are red, and Dora is green. Give her your dollars, and she’ll make you scream.”
We burst out laughing. I buttoned my warm blouse and thanked Sadie.
“Green and scream don’t exactly rhyme,” said Sweety.
“Of course they do! Now don’t you go criticizin’. I just might become a poet myself,” bellowed Dora, holding her coffee and cigarette in her best literary pose until we all started laughing again.
Willie walked through the door and folded her arms across her chest. Her platinum hair was pulled back tight, her pale face severe against the red lipstick and black dress she wore.
The laughter quickly died.
“Contrary to what you might think, Dora, I’m not running a rodeo. Get dressed, now!” barked Willie. She turned to me. “What the hell are you doing here?”
“I had to iron my blouse.”
“You’re supposed to do that in the morning. I’ve got dates coming.” Willie eyed my freshly pressed blouse. “Where are you going?”
“To a party.” I smoothed my skirt.
“And am I supposed to be a mind reader? What party? Where? With who?”
Dora made a face and ducked out of the room.
“Uptown. Prytania Street. With Patrick.” I rattled off some vague details about Charlotte Gates and her invitation.
“I don’t know of a Gates family Uptown,” said Willie, staring at me.
“No, Charlotte’s from Massachusetts. The party is at her aunt and uncle’s.”
“And do her aunt and uncle have a name?” pressed Willie.
“I didn’t ask. Charlotte gave Patrick the information. We won’t be there long.”
Willie nodded. “You’ll take Mariah.”
“No, thank you, Willie. We’re gonna take the streetcar.”
I hated Mariah, Willie’s big black Cadillac. It had red interior, whitewall tires, and stuck out like a sore thumb. Everyone in the Quarter knew Mariah was Willie’s car. I didn’t want to be seen in it. Cokie loved Mariah.
“Did you see your mother?” asked Willie. I nodded. “Well, what did she want?”
I hesitated, wondering how much of the conversation Sonny had heard and reported to Willie. Mother had told me not to tell Willie she was leaving until tomorrow, when she was gone.
“She wanted money,” I lied. I felt a twitching near my eye. “To have dinner at Antoine’s with Cincinnati. She wanted me to ask you for an advance. You know how she’s always talking about Antoine’s.”
“Like I’d give her a dime to do anything with that no-good hop, after what he pulled the other night.”
“Was Cincinnati responsible?” said Swee
ty.
“Responsible for what?” I asked.
“Get out of here,” said Willie, flipping her jewel-adorned fingers at me. “I have a business to run.” She left the room in a huff.
Sweety looked at me. “Your momma’s always loved Antoine’s.”
I nodded and pretended to fiddle with my purse. “What was Cincinnati responsible for this time?” I asked.
Sweety pulled the chiffon of her dress through her long fingers. “Say, you know what you need for your party, Jo? You need this string of pearls.” She removed her necklace. “Put that locket in your purse and wear these tonight. All the gals Uptown love pearls.”
“Oh, I don’t want to take your pearls, Sweety. They look so pretty with your dress,” I told her.
Sweety gave me a quiet smile. “Jo, honey. You and I both know that the fellas coming here don’t care anything about pearls.”
Sweety stood on her tiptoes, face-to-face with me while she fastened the clasp behind my neck. Her skin smelled like fresh honeysuckle. She was so kind and generous, it made me think of the line from David Copperfield, that a loving heart was better and stronger than wisdom. I stood staring at Sweety, wondering how she had ended up at Willie’s, wishing that she could have changed her course for something better, like Forrest Hearne.
“Those look perfect on you,” said Sweety. “Now, you go and have yourself a good time.”
I met Patrick on St. Charles Avenue, just in time to catch the streetcar.
“You look nice,” he said. “Where’d you get the pearls?”
“Sweety,” I told him. Patrick looked nice too. The bruise was less noticeable. He wore crisp khakis with a blazer and tie. The streetcar chugged along St. Charles. The closer we got, the more knotted my stomach became. I wouldn’t know a soul at the party, or worse, what if I did know someone? Either scenario was disastrous. The air suddenly felt thick, difficult to breathe.
“What if this is a horrible mistake?” I croaked.
“Oh, it’ll be horrible fine, just a bunch of pretentious rich people with shelves of expensive books they’ve never read.”
“Maybe we should go back.”
“C’mon, Jo, this is the stuff you pore over in the society page. You’ll finally be able to read about a party that you attended.”
“I don’t even know their name,” I whispered. “What am I doing?” I stared out the window, watching the streets become cleaner and less crowded as we rode Uptown.
“John and Lillian Lockwell,” read Patrick from the piece of paper Charlotte had given him. “This is our stop. Ready?”
TWELVE
We got off on St. Charles and walked one block down to Prytania. The first thing I noticed was how peaceful it was. The road felt so wide. No one was pushing, yelling, or selling things in the street. I wanted to throw open my arms and run across the pavement. Birds chirped, and the perfume of winter jasmine floated out onto the sidewalk, hanging around the shrubbery. Large oaks lined the street where wealthy shipbuilders, oil operators, and professional men lived. I stared at the enormous homes, the landscaping and flower beds immaculate. It was as if dollar bills, instead of leaves, hung from the trees. Carnival season was soon to begin and I imagined these homes flying flags of purple, gold, and green to symbolize prior queens or Carnival royalty. We passed a couple, who nodded and greeted us. I noted the woman’s posture and tried to straighten my back.
I had never been amongst such wealth. Just last week, I had stopped by the funeral of one of Cokie’s friends, a negro trumpet player named Bix who lived in the Quarter. His family was so poor they’d put a plate on the chest of the corpse, and people dropped coins in to pay for the undertaker and the brass band procession. Uptown, families rented half a dozen butlers just to serve drinks at their funerals. Tragedy was a big social event, and everyone wanted in on it. Sure, I saw wealthy people and tourists in the Quarter, but I had never been to their homes. I wondered if Forrest Hearne had lived in a neighborhood like this.
Patrick stopped in front of a sprawling Greek Revival mansion with double galleries and a long walkway lined with perfectly manicured hedges. The lights were ablaze, the house alive with guests and merriment.
“This is it,” said Patrick. He didn’t even pause, just marched toward the front steps, leaving me to scurry along behind him like a duckling chasing its mother.
The scent of Havana tobacco draped thick from the magnolia trees in the front yard. Ice cubes mingled and clinked against the sides of crystal tumblers. Patrick said hello to a group of men sitting on the veranda. I heard the pop of a champagne cork and laughter from inside.
We walked through the open door into an enormous entry hall that buzzed with activity. I clutched Patrick’s elbow, wishing I owned something better than my faded linen blouse. The tinkling of a piano drifted from a nearby alcove, and Patrick moved toward it as if pulled by a magnet.
We entered a beautiful drawing room with flocked wallpaper and plush sofas and chairs. People gathered in clusters around the room while a man in a black suit played “It’s Only a Paper Moon” on the piano. The furnishings were expensive, but different from Willie’s. Willie’s furniture had an exotic feel, with sensual colors and curves. This was elegant, refined, and so clean I could practically see my reflection in everything.
“Not a single smoke or bloodstain,” I whispered to Patrick.
“Not that you can see,” said Patrick out of the corner of his mouth.
A circular mahogany table was covered with sterling frames of all shapes and sizes, boasting the legacy that was the Lockwell family. There were photos of babies, teenagers, grandparents, a golden retriever, the family at the shore, at the Eiffel Tower, all with smiling faces advertising how happy and valuable their lives were. There was even a photo of Charlotte in a small oval frame.
I stared at the pictures. If someone meant something to you, you put their photo in a silver frame and displayed it, like these. I had never seen anything like it. Willie didn’t have any framed photos. Neither did Mother.
“Josephine!” Charlotte was suddenly at my arm, looking radiant in a mint green cashmere sweater, her auburn hair held neatly in place by a black velvet headband. “I’m so glad you’re here!”
“Thank you for inviting us.”
“Well, don’t worry. I won’t leave your side. I know it’s horribly uncomfortable to be at a function where you don’t know anyone.”
I nodded. Charlotte understood. It was as if she’d heard my thoughts on the way over. Or perhaps my face was splotched again.
“Hello, Patrick. Did you have any trouble finding the house?” asked Charlotte.
“Not at all. But then a place like this is hard to miss, isn’t it?” said Patrick.
“Yes, a quality that my aunt is all too proud of,” whispered Charlotte. “They’re not exactly the understated type, if you know what I mean.”
“That’s a lovely photo of you,” I said, pointing to the frame.
“Oh, that’s a couple years old now. I just had a new photograph taken at Smith. Here, let me introduce you.”
Charlotte pulled both Patrick and me over to an attractive middle-aged couple across the room. “Aunt Lilly, Uncle John, these are my friends Josephine Moraine and Patrick Marlowe.”
“How do you do?” said Mrs. Lockwell. “Marlowe, I know that name. John,” she said, swatting her husband’s arm, “why do we know the name Marlowe? Is your mother in the Junior League, dear?”
“No, ma’am,” said Patrick. “My mother lives in the West Indies.”
“Is your father an attorney?” asked Mr. Lockwell.
“No, sir, my father is an author and a bookseller. We own a bookshop in the Quarter.”
“Well, now isn’t that quaint. We just love books, don’t we, John?”
Mr. Lockwell paid little attention to his wife an
d instead looked about the room, eyeing all the other women. “And where are you in school, Patrick?” asked Mrs. Lockwell.
“I just finished up at Loyola,” said Patrick, gratefully accepting a beverage from one of the waiters that was circulating.
“And you, Josephine? Have I seen you at Sacred Heart with our Elizabeth?” asked Mrs. Lockwell.
“Josephine lives in the French Quarter, Aunt Lilly. Isn’t that exciting?” said Charlotte.
“The Quarter. Oh, my,” said Lilly Lockwell, putting an affected hand to her chest. “Yes it is. What did you say your last name was, dear?”
“Moraine.”
“John.” She swatted her husband’s arm. “Do we know the Moraines in the Quarter?”
“I don’t believe we do. What line of business is your family in, Josephine?”
Mr. Lockwell looked at me. Mrs. Lockwell looked at me. Charlotte looked at me. Their faces felt an inch from mine.
“Sales,” I said quietly.
“What a lovely piano,” said Patrick, quickly changing the subject. “A Steinway baby grand, isn’t it?”
“Why, yes. Do you play?” said Lilly, speaking to Patrick, but with her eyes still fixed on me.
Patrick nodded.
“Well, then you certainly appreciate a nice piano.” Mrs. Lockwell smiled, raising her glass in a private toast to her Steinway.
“Yes, I have a Bösendorfer grand,” said Patrick.
Aunt Lilly’s eyes snapped off of me and locked onto Patrick.
“A Bösendorfer? Well, well, now, that’s a piano!” roared Mr. Lockwell.
“Indeed. You must play for us tonight, Patrick. Don’t be shy, now,” said Lilly.
“Oh, Aunt Lilly, don’t steal my friends. I was just going to give them a tour of your magnificent house,” said Charlotte, pulling us away from her aunt and uncle, who stood, heads cocked, staring at Patrick and me.
Charlotte didn’t give us a tour of the house. She grabbed a plate of canapés from a server, pulled us into a library on the main floor, shut the doors, and flopped down on a sofa.