The dogs were trying their best to get up into the tree, and the men were considering whether to shoot the bobcat down, shoot a limb and make him jump down and fight the dogs, or what. They decided to try and kill the cat where he lay. Omar stood up and took his lamp over to the left. The cat crept a little ways out, following the light. Then Small Boy took aim and put a bullet just under the left foreleg and the bobcat dropped through the branches into the jaws of Becky and her companions.
There was a lot of life in the cat; he fought well until Calvin hollered the dogs away and shot it again, and once more, and then it was still.
They held the lamps over the carcass and groaned with pleasure at the size, the ferocity, the stillness of it. All four got down on their knees, pulling rope and knives, cutting a branch the width of a wrist, tying it and binding it for the long walk back.
They were so pleased with themselves it was some time before anybody remembered to ask Milkman what he was shooting at back there. Milkman hoisted the stake he was carrying a little higher and said, “I dropped the gun. I tripped and it went off. Then when I picked it up it went off again.”
They burst into laughter. “Tripped? What’d you have the safety off for? Was you scared?”
“Scared to death,” said Milkman. “Scared to death.”
They hooted and laughed all the way back to the car, teasing Milkman, egging him on to tell more about how scared he was. And he told them. Laughing too, hard, loud, and long. Really laughing, and he found himself exhilarated by simply walking the earth. Walking it like he belonged on it; like his legs were stalks, tree trunks, a part of his body that extended down down down into the rock and soil, and were comfortable there—on the earth and on the place where he walked. And he did not limp.
They met dawn in King Walker’s gas station for a rehash of the night they had spent. Milkman was the butt of their humor, but it was good-humored humor, quite unlike the laughter the trip had begun with. “Lucky to be alive. Cat wasn’t the problem; this here nigger was the problem. Blastin away at us while we got a mean cat gettin ready to chew us and the dogs up both. Shootin all through the woods. Could have blown his own head off. Don’t you city boys know how to handle yourself?”
“You country niggers got it all over us,” Milkman answered.
Omar and Small Boy slapped him on the shoulders. Calvin hollered to Luther, “Go get Vernell. Tell her to get breakfast ready. Soon’s we skin this cat, we comin in there with a appetite and she better be ready to meet it!”
Milkman went with them to the back of the station, where, on a small cemented area covered by a corrugated tin roof, the dead bobcat lay. Milkman’s neck had swollen so it was difficult for him to lower his chin without pain.
Omar sliced through the rope that bound the bobcat’s feet. He and Calvin turned it over on its back. The legs fell open. Such thin delicate ankles.
“Every body wants a black man’s life.”
Calvin held the forefeet open and up while Omar pierced the curling hair at the point where the sternum lay. Then he sliced all the way down to the genitals. His knife pointed upward for a cleaner, neater incision.
“Not his dead life; I mean his living life.”
When he reached the genitals he cut them off, but left the scrotum intact.
“It’s the condition our condition is in.”
Omar cut around the legs and the neck. Then he pulled the hide off.
“What good is a man’s life if he can’t even choose what to die for?”
The transparent underskin tore like gossamer under his fingers.
“Everybody wants the life of a black man.”
Now Small Boy knelt down and slit the flesh from the scrotum to the jaw.
“Fair is one more thing I’ve given up.”
Luther came back and, while the others rested, carved out the rectal tube with the deft motions of a man coring an apple.
“I hope I never have to ask myself that question.”
Luther reached into the paunch and lifted the entrails. He dug under the rib cage to the diaphragm and carefully cut around it until it was free.
“It is about love. What else but love? Can’t I love what I criticize?”
Then he grabbed the windpipe and the gullet, eased them back, and severed them with one stroke of his little knife.
“It is about love. What else?”
They turned to Milkman. “You want the heart?” they asked him. Quickly, before any thought could paralyze him, Milkman plunged both hands into the rib cage. “Don’t get the lungs, now. Get the heart.”
“What else?”
He found it and pulled. The heart fell away from the chest as easily as yolk slips out of its shell.
“What else? What else? What else?”
Now Luther went back into the stomach cavity and yanked the entrails out altogether. They sucked up like a vacuum through the hole that was made at the rectum. He slipped the entrails into a paper bag while the others began cleaning up, hosing down, salting, packing, straightening, and then they turned the cat over to let the blood drain down on its own hide.
“What are you going to do with it?” asked Milkman.
“Eat him!”
A peacock soared away and lit on the hood of a blue Buick.
Milkman looked at the bobcat’s head. The tongue lay in its mouth as harmless as a sandwich. Only the eyes held the menace of the night.
Hungry as he was, he couldn’t eat much of Vernell’s breakfast, so he pushed the scrambled eggs, hominy, fried apples around in the plate, gulped coffee and talked a lot. And, somehow, he had to get around to the purpose of his visit to Shalimar.
“You know, my grandfather came from somewhere near here. My grandmother too.”
“Did? From around here? What’s their name?”
“I don’t know her maiden name, but her first name was Sing. Any of you ever know anybody with a name like that?”
They shook their heads. “Sing? No. Never heard of nobody name that.”
“I had an aunt live down this way too. Name of Pilate. Pilate Dead. Ever hear of her?”
“Ha! Sound like a newspaper headline: Pilot Dead. She do any flying?”
“No. P-i-l-a-t-e, Pilate.”
“P-i-l-a-t-e. That spell Pie-late,” Small Boy said.
“Naw, nigger. Not no Pie-late. Pilate like in the Bible, dummy.”
“He don’t read the Bible.”
“He don’t read nothin.”
“He can’t read nothin.”
They teased Small Boy until Vernell interrupted them. “You all hush. You say Sing?” she asked Milkman.
“Yeah. Sing.”
“I believe that was the name of a girl my gran used to play with. I remember the name cause it sounded so pretty. Gran used to talk about her all the time. Seem like her folks didn’t like her to play with the colored children from over this way, so her and my gran used to sneak off and go fishin and berry-pickin. You know what I mean? She’d have to meet her in secret.” Vernell eyed Milkman carefully. “This Sing girl was light-skinned, with straight black hair.”
“That’s her!” Milkman said. “She was mixed or Indian, one.”
Vernell nodded. “Indian. One of old Heddy’s children. Heddy was all right, but she didn’t like her girl playin with coloreds. She was a Byrd.”
“A what?”
“A Byrd. Belonged to the Byrd family over by the ridge. Near Solomon’s Leap.”
“Oh, yeah?” said one of the men. “One of Susan Byrd’s people?”
“That’s right. One of them. They never was too crazy ‘bout colored folks. Susan either.”
“Do they still live there?” asked Milkman.
“Susan do. Right behind the ridge. Only house back in there with a brick front. She by herself now. All the others moved out so they could pass.”
“Can I walk it?” he asked.
“Most folks could, I reckon,” said Omar. “But after last night I don’t recommend it for you.” He lau
ghed.
“Can you drive a car through?”
“Part of the way you can. But the road is narrow and messy back up in there,” said Vernell. “Horse, maybe, but not no car.”
“I’ll make it. Might take me a week, but I’ll make it,” said Milkman.
“Just don’t carry no guns”—Calvin cooled his coffee in his saucer—“and you’ll be all right.” They all laughed again.
Milkman thought about that. Guitar was out there someplace, and since he seemed to know everything Milkman was doing or getting ready to do, he’d also know he was going out to some ridge. He touched his swollen neck. He didn’t want to go anywhere alone without a gun.
“You ought to have a rest before you go trottin off anywhere,” Omar said, looking at him. “There’s a nice lady up the road a ways. She’d be proud to take you in.” The look in his eyes was unmistakable. “Pretty woman too. Real pretty.” Vernell grunted and Milkman smiled. Hope she’s got a gun, he thought.
She didn’t, but she had indoor plumbing and her smile was just like her name, Sweet, as she nodded her head to Milkman’s query about whether he could take a bath. The tub was the newest feature in the tiny shotgun house and Milkman sank gratefully into the steaming water. Sweet brought him soap and a boar’s-bristle brush and knelt to bathe him. What she did for his sore feet, his cut face, his back, his neck, his thighs, and the palms of his hands was so delicious he couldn’t imagine that the lovemaking to follow would be anything but anticlimactic. If this bath and this woman, he thought, are all that come out of this trip, I will rest easy and do my duty to God, country, and the Brotherhood of Elks for the rest of my life. I will walk hot coals with a quart of kerosene in my hand for this. I will walk every railroad tie from here to Cheyenne and back for this. But when the lovemaking came, he decided he would crawl.
Afterward he offered to bathe her. She said he couldn’t because the tank was small and there wasn’t enough water for another hot bath.
“Then let me give you a cool one,” he said. He soaped and rubbed her until her skin squeaked and glistened like onyx. She put salve on his face. He washed her hair. She sprinkled talcum on his feet. He straddled her behind and massaged her back. She put witch hazel on his swollen neck. He made up the bed. She gave him gumbo to eat. He washed the dishes. She washed his clothes and hung them out to dry. He scoured her tub. She ironed his shirt and pants. He gave her fifty dollars. She kissed his mouth. He touched her face. She said please come back. He said I’ll see you tonight.
Chapter 12
At four o’clock he knocked on the door of the only house back of the ridge with a brick front. Fresh and shining in the army fatigues Sweet had washed and pressed, he had tramped along feeling ready for anything. But he didn’t think Guitar would jump him in the daytime on a winding path (which they called a road) that cut through hilly land that was nevertheless tilled and had a smattering of houses and people. If he did confront him (with anything other than a gun) Milkman was sure he could take him, but it would be best to get back before nightfall. He didn’t know what was on Guitar’s mind, but he knew it had something to do with the gold. If he knows I’m here and where I have been and what I did in each place, then he must know that I’m trying to get it, doing just what I said I would do. Why would he try to kill me before I got it or even found out what happened to it? Most of it was a total mystery to him, but the part that was clear was enough to keep him alert and jittery all the way.
The Byrd house sat on a neat lawn separated by a white picket fence from the field grass on either side of the property. A child’s swing dangled from a cedar tree; four little steps painted blue led up to the porch, and from the window, between fluttering curtains, came the smell of gingerbread baking.
A woman who looked to be about his mother’s age answered the door.
“Miss Byrd?” Milkman asked her.
“Yes?”
“How are you? My name is, uh, Macon, and I’m visiting here for a few days. I’m from Michigan and I think some of my people lived here a long time ago. I was hoping you’d be able to help me.”
“Help you what?” She sounded arch and Milkman had the distinct impression that this lady did not like the color of his skin.
“Find them. I mean find out about them. We’re all split up, my family, and some folks in town thought you might know some of them.”
“Who’s that, Susan?” Another woman’s voice came from behind her.
“Somebody to see me, Grace.”
“Well, why don’t you ask him in? Don’t make him state his business on the steps.”
Miss Byrd sighed. “Please come in, Mr. Macon.”
Milkman followed her into a pleasant living room full up with sunshine. “Excuse me,” she said. “I didn’t mean to be rude. Please have a seat.” She motioned to a gray velvet wing-back chair. A woman in a two-piece print dress came into the room, clutching a paper napkin in her hand and chewing on something.
“Who’d you say?” She addressed her question to Miss Byrd, but ran inquisitive eyes over Milkman.
Miss Byrd held out a hand. “This is a friend of mine—Miss Long. Grace Long—Mr….”
“How do you do?” Grace held out her hand to him.
“Fine, thank you.”
“Mr. Macon, is it?”
“Yes.”
“Susan, perhaps Mr. Macon would like some refreshment.” Miss Long smiled and sat on the sofa facing the gray chair.
“Well, he just stepped foot in the door, Grace. Give me time.” Miss Byrd turned to Milkman. “Would you like a cup of coffee or some tea?”
“Sure. Thanks.”
“Which one?”
“Coffee’s all right.”
“You’ve got butter cookies, Susan. Give him some of those butter cookies.”
Miss Byrd gave her friend a tired frown. “I’ll just be a minute,” she said to Milkman, and left the room.
“Yes, well. Did I hear you say you were visiting in these parts? We don’t see too many visitors.” Grace crossed her ankles. Like Susan Byrd, she wore black laced shoes and cotton stockings. As she made herself comfortable, she inched her dress up a little.
“Yes, visiting.”
“You in the service?”
“Ma’am? Oh, no. I was hunting last night. Some friends lent me these.” He smoothed the seam Sweet had made in the fatigues.
“Hunting? Oh, Lord, don’t tell me you’re one of them. I can’t stand those hunting people. They make me sick, always prowling round other people’s property. Day and night they’re shooting up the world. I tell my students—I’m a schoolteacher, you know, I teach over at the normal school. Have you seen it yet?”
“No, not yet.”
“Well, there’s nothing to see, really. Just a school, like any other. But you’re welcome to stop by. We’d be pleased to have you. Where you from again?”
“Michigan.”
“I thought so. Susan!” She turned around. “He’s from up North.” Then back to Milkman: “Where are you staying?”
“Well, nowhere yet. I just met a few people in town and…”
Susan Byrd came in with a tray of coffee cups and a plate of wide pale cookies.
“He’s from Michigan,” said Grace.
“I heard him. How do you take your coffee?”
“Black.”
“Black? No cream or sugar at all?” asked Grace. “Wish I could do that; maybe I could get back into a twelve. But it’s never going to happen now.” She pressed one hand on her hip and smiled at Milkman.
“What did you want to see me about?” Susan Byrd placed a mild but clear stress on the word “me.”
“I’m trying to locate anybody who might have known my grandmother. Her name was Sing.”
Grace clapped her hands to her mouth and gave a little squeal. “Relatives! You all are relatives!” Milkman put his cup down. “Well, I’ll be!” Grace’s eyes were lit and dancing.
“You’ve come to the right place,” said Susan, “but I
doubt if I can help you any.”
“What are you talking about, Susan? Your mother was named Sing, wasn’t she?”
“No, she wasn’t, Grace, and if you let me finish a sentence you might learn something you don’t know too.”
“I thought you said—”
“My mother’s name was Mary. M-a-r-y, Mary.”
“Well, excuse me.”
Susan turned to Milkman. “My father, Crowell Byrd, had a sister named Sing.”
“That must be her! My grandmother! Sing. Did she marry a man named—”
“I knew there was somebody in your family named Sing!”
“She didn’t marry anybody that I know of.” Susan interrupted them both.
“Oh, this is really something. A stranger walks right into your house and he’s your own …what? Cousin? I hate to say it, but this is a small world. Isn’t it? You have got to visit my class, Mr. Macon.”
Milkman joined Susan Byrd in ignoring Grace Long. “Where did she live?” he asked her.
“The last time my father saw her, she was on a wagon headed for Massachusetts to a private school up there. A Quaker school.”
“Your people Quakers? You never told me that. See, Mr. Macon, what your friends hide from you? I bet she’d hide you too.”
“And she never married?” Milkman couldn’t take the time to acknowledge Grace’s attentions.
“Not anybody we heard of. After she went to that Quaker school they lost track of her. I believe they tried to locate her, mostly because my grandmother—her name was Heddy—she was so torn up about it. I always believed the same thing my father believed: that she didn’t want to be found after she left that school.”