Messed Up
Jerry’s dad got him a job even though he had to be 16, they paid under the table. It was really chill, he just had to clean up at the oil change place, like, that would sound bad to most people but he got to learn about how to change oil and tires and hang out with some pretty chill guys. Plus of course he was banking some coin and that was awesome. He wasn’t even spending it that much. There really wasn’t that much to spend it on.
It used to be he would have spent it all in a week going out with friends but obviously not right now.
Most days now instead of hanging out with anyone after school he was heading off to the shop, even when he didn’t need to. There were a couple of guys there and this one girl who were only a couple of years older and they were always making jokes and it was cool, except sometimes he wasn’t in a laughing mood because he was thinking about it all and he knew he would never forgive himself.
But anyways it was also cool because now he had more time on Friday nights to go to RC car shows with his dad, because nothing else was happening on Friday nights. Well, maybe stuff was happening on Friday nights? But nobody was telling him about it.
Nobody was telling him about anything. They weren’t talking to him. Nothing was happening on Insta. Tim was being kind of weird and Cole was on the track team, and Maya and the other girls from the old Q Squad were being super weird.
Well, or maybe he was the one who was weird. He was the one who had messed it all up.
He thought about her all the time, of course. Like, even when he was taking out the garbage at the shop he thought about her. Not because of taking the trash out, obviously, not that, but just that he was thinking about her all the time.
Maybe it was better this way? It was at least theoretically possible that she was way happier in her new house wherever it was, he forgot the name.
If she had stayed maybe they would have fought and stuff and not lasted and had to be each other’s exes. Kind of like Mike and Maya, whatever that was about. People took that stuff so seriously.
Jerry did, too. He totally knew that if Sabrina had stayed he would have totally been in love with her and been a really good boyfriend, but she had left and she hadn’t even said goodbye.
The guys at the shop said let it go, it doesn’t matter, but the girl, Brenda, said that you guys don’t know how it is, young love, you never get over it. Jerry knew they were all just messing with him but it still hurt.
But also his dad and him had gotten a new drone, which was sick, they flew it on this one Saturday like all day long and it was awesome. Really smooth controls and Jerry realized that he could definitely see being a photographer some day.
It was too bad about Sabrina, though. He had tried really pretty hard to fix that. Like, as best as he knew how. But it was kind of an epic fail. Maybe some things just never got fixed.