"Why does everyone look like they're going into battle?" I asked Maara.
"To show the enemy our strength," she said.
With the others we went outside the earthworks to wait. The air was clear and cold, and we saw in the distance, dark against the snowy landscape, the column of weary warriors coming home. Though they were still far away, the trees that lined the road were leafless now and could not conceal them.
The younger men hurried ahead of the others. When they started up the hill, the waiting warriors drew their swords and beat them upon the leather covers of their shields, a steady marching cadence to lighten the steps of the men trudging up the hill.
When they reached us, cups of ale were brought out to them. They were eager to tell everyone about the battle, but they all spoke at once, and each one told only what had happened to him and to his comrades beside him. I gave up trying to make sense of all their stories.
When they ran out of listeners, they went indoors to warm themselves before the fire.
The rest of our warriors, encumbered by their prisoners, were still far away. Namet came and stood beside me. She shaded her eyes with her hand and peered into the distance.
"What do you see, child, with your young eyes?" she said. "I can hardly make them out."
The glare of sunlight on the snow made my eyes water, and I was having trouble seeing them myself.
"There's a large group of them, all walking close together," I told her. "They seem to be bound together, so I suppose those are the prisoners. Our warriors are behind them."
"Are there any wagons?"
"No, Mother."
She must be thinking of the wounded. Then I thought about the similarity of her name and Eramet's.
"Is Eramet kin to you?" I asked her.
"Eramet is my daughter," she replied.
"Oh," I said. "I'm sorry she was hurt."
Namet slipped her arm around my shoulders. Tears glistened in her eyes that were not from looking at the snow.
As the prisoners drew near, I saw that they were loosely bound with rope that looped around their upper arms and behind their backs. When they reached the bottom of the hill, our warriors again drew their swords. This time they didn't beat a marching cadence. They pounded on their shields and raised their voices in a battle cry. Their breath hung like smoke in the cold air. The voices of the men deepened the cry into a roar. It was a dreadful sound.
The din continued until our warriors and their prisoners had climbed the hill and stood before us. I was amazed to see that almost all the prisoners were men. I saw only two women among them, though they might have been beardless boys. All of them wore tunics and trousers of fur or skins that gave them a ragged look. Long hair straggled out from under their fur caps. They had no boots. Their feet were wrapped in skins bound about their feet and legs with leather thongs. Although their beards hid their faces, I could see that their cheeks were hollow and their faces gaunt. They were taken to the men's house, where a place had been made for them in the common room.
For several hours the healer kept me busy. There were no serious wounds to tend among our own warriors, only some slight cuts and bruises and a little frostbite. A few who were feverish with winter sickness were warmed and put to bed. If any of the prisoners needed tending, it was not our place to do it. They would have to tend their own or do without.
Long after the household had gone to bed, I waited. Maara waited with me, although I had told her more than once to go on to bed. We sat together by the embers of the fire in the great hall. Namet had gone up to her room, but I doubted she was asleep.
Sparrow hadn't come home with the warriors. I didn't expect her to. She would be with Eramet.
"They may have stopped for the night," Maara said.
"They won't stop," I said. "They'll bring her home."
I heard the groaning of axles and the tread of oxen's feet when they were halfway up the hill. By the time they drove the wagon in through the cattle gate, Maara and I were waiting for them. The night air was so cold it made my eyes ache. When the wagon stopped, we pulled back the covering of oxhide that was stretched between the high sideboards of the wagon. A young warrior and his companion sat behind the driver. The warrior's head was wrapped in a bloody bandage, but he seemed to be already on the mend.
At first I saw no one else. Maara brought a torch, and when she lowered it closer to the wagon bed, I saw them. On a pile of empty grain sacks, Sparrow lay with Eramet in her arms. She looked up at me. Her eyes were wild.
"She died," she said.
The wagon driver got down from his seat and pulled the tailboard off the wagon. I jumped in and knelt down next to Sparrow. I touched Eramet's face. It was as cold as the night air.
"Come inside," I said.
Sparrow didn't move. I felt Maara get into the wagon. She knelt beside me and tried to lift Eramet, but Sparrow's arms tightened around her and wouldn't let her go.
"We have to get you both inside," I said.
I don't think Sparrow heard or understood me. She was very cold. She had been lying with Eramet's body in her arms for half the night, and Eramet's blood had frozen on her clothing.
Maara handed me the torch and moved behind Sparrow, so that she could slip her hands under Sparrow's arms and lift her away from Eramet. She set her by the tailboard of the wagon and jumped out. Then she took Sparrow up in her arms and carried her into the house.
There was no doubt that Eramet was dead. Her arms and legs had begun to stiffen. Her skin was white and hard, and a dusting of frost lay over her hair and eyebrows. There was nothing I could do for her, so I went inside, to do what I could for Sparrow. Maara had set her down on the hearthstone and was building up the fire.
"We need to warm her," she said.
I brought a wooden tub from the laundry room and set it by the hearth. While I brought in buckets of warm water to fill it, Maara got Sparrow out of her frozen clothing. We put her in the tub and poured water over her until she was warm again. Then Maara carried her upstairs.
I stayed behind to clean up the mess we'd made. When I went upstairs, I found Maara in Eramet's room. She had put Sparrow into Eramet's bed and was standing in the doorway looking like she didn't quite know what to do. Sparrow lay on her side facing the wall, with both arms over her head as if to ward off a blow. She was making a soft keening sound.
Maara said in a low voice close to my ear, "I'll go see to Eramet," and left the room.
I didn't know what to do for Sparrow. I sat with her a while. Then I took off my boots and trousers and slipped into the bed beside her. I put my arms around her, to warm and comfort her. Soon her keening stopped, and she fell asleep.
12. Grief
When I woke in the morning, Sparrow was still asleep. She was hot with fever. I got up and dressed myself, and still she didn't wake. Before I went downstairs, I stopped by my warrior's room. There was no sign she had been there. I found her in the kitchen, sitting at a table with Namet. She looked like she'd been up all night.
I had forgotten about Namet.
"I'm sorry for your grief, Mother," I told her.
"Thank you, child," she said.
She too looked as if she had not yet been to bed.
"Can I get you something?" I asked her.
She shook her head.
I turned to Maara. "Sparrow has a fever."
"I can fend for myself today," she said. "Do what you can for her."
I made Sparrow a bowl of soft porridge and milk, something she could swallow easily, and brewed her a tea of willow bark and rose hips. When I returned to her room, she was awake. She lay in the bed staring up at the ceiling.
"She died," she said.
"I know."
"She died."
This time it was a whisper. It was as if, by saying so, she might convince herself that it was true.
I sat down beside her and handed her the bowl of tea. It seemed such a small thing to offer her.
I looked in on Sparrow as
often as I could that day. When I found her sleeping, I didn't wake her. To let her sleep was the kindest thing I could do for her. Whenever I found her awake, I brought her soft food and tea and sat with her a while. Although she didn't want to talk, she seemed to take some comfort from my presence. I stroked her hair and rubbed her back until she slept again.
Maara slept for several hours that morning. She had been up all night with Namet, listening to her stories of her only child. She would say no more to me than that about it.
While Maara was sleeping, I went to the companions' loft. I hoped I hadn't missed hearing about the battle, but I shouldn't have worried. The companions who had been there were delighted to tell the story over and over again to anyone who cared to listen.
"The snow began three days ago."
"I thought it was two," I said.
"No. Three."
"It began day before yesterday here."
"Well, it began three days ago at the ravine," said Taia.
Taia was an apprentice. In another year, she would be a warrior. Her green eyes and copper hair set her apart from the others even more than her height, although she was the tallest woman in Merin's house.
"Vintel had our warriors strung out up and down the riverbank for over a mile," she said, "but we waited all day for nothing. They never came."
"You should have heard the fights that night around the campfires," said Bec with glee. Bec loved a fight.
"Some said there was no need to freeze there by the river for another night," said Taia, "that the northerners weren't coming. Others said we should wait and see."
"If the strange one had been there," said Bec, "they would have had the truth out of her one way or the other."
It was the first time I had heard my warrior called 'the strange one.' I was indignant. "They had the truth out of her already."
Bec brushed a shock of thick, black hair out of her eyes and gave me a scornful look. "Well, we know that now, but how were we to know it then?"
"At any rate," Taia said, "the next morning Vintel sent everyone back to their places to wait. We couldn't see a thing. The mist was so thick you could have walked off a cliff before you knew it. My warrior and I were hidden in a copse not ten paces from the river, and we couldn't see where the water met the shore."
"We heard the sound of the oars long before we saw the boats," said Bec.
"And someone almost made a bad mistake."
Taia glared at her, and Bec's face turned red, whether from embarrassment or anger I couldn't tell.
"We thought they'd seen us," she said. "The first boat landed next to us. We heard them talking to one another, though we couldn't make out a word of what they said. They walked right past us. I was sure they'd seen us, and my warrior gave the curlew's call. That was our signal. The northerners must have heard it, but they went by us in the mist."
"Vintel thought they would send just one boat at first," Taia said, "to scout our side of the river and let the others know it was safe to cross. Vintel was right. After they'd been ashore a while, we heard them call to their friends across the river. By the time the next boat arrived, Vintel and Eramet had taken everyone in the first boat prisoner."
"We captured six of them," Gnata boasted. "There were only four of us, two warriors and two companions, and we captured six of them."
Gnata was younger than I and had always seemed to me to be rather frail. It surprised me that her warrior had taken her along.
"How were they to know there were only four of you?" said Taia. "The mist was so thick that a score of warriors could have been right behind you."
"But there weren't. We captured six of them all by ourselves."
"How did you take them without a fight?" I asked Taia.
"We waited for them to get out of their boats," she replied. "Before they could send the boats back across the river, we walked out of the mist and told them to surrender their swords."
"They did too," said Bec smugly. "They had no stomach for a fight."
"They had our swords at their necks before they knew what was happening," Taia said. "What else could they do?"
"They were too cowardly to fight," said Bec.
Taia turned on her. "Give them an even chance and see for yourself how cowardly they are. I doubt you'd stand long against any of them."
Bec scowled. If Taia had been smaller, Bec might have challenged her, but she thought better of it and held her tongue.
Little by little they pieced together the story for me. I couldn't imagine how the northerners had carried boats with them. I was thinking of the boats made from hollowed logs used by the fisher folk who fished with nets on the calmer stretches of the river. Taia explained that the boats were made of oxhide stretched over a framework of willow branches. The hides they could have carried with them, and willows grew everywhere along the riverbank.
After our warriors had captured a dozen boats, no more came. From time to time they heard voices calling from the other side of the river. None of the prisoners dared answer. Then one of them broke free of his captors and ran to the water's edge. Before he could scramble into one of the boats and make his escape, our warriors pursued him and struck him down.
Finally I asked them how it happened that Eramet was wounded. I couldn't help being curious, but I didn't like to ask Sparrow about it. They were all quiet for a moment. The reminder of a life lost spoiled their delight in the story.
"Two boats came across close together," Taia said. "Vintel and Eramet took the first one. They didn't see the other so close behind it, and there was an archer in that boat. We heard the sound of the arrow as it left the bow. Then Eramet fell."
"Where was Sparrow?" I asked.
"Right beside Eramet," said Taia.
"Sparrow caught Eramet as she fell," said Bec, "or Eramet might have drowned, even in the shallow water by the shore."
No one else was eager now to add to the story. Only Bec still relished the telling.
"Vintel waded into the water up to her waist," she said. "The archer shot half a dozen arrows at her before she reached his boat, but she caught them all on her shield. She put her sword through the oxhide cover of the boat. When it capsized, she seized the archer and dragged him ashore."
Bec stopped and looked around at the others to make sure she had their attention. Gnata's eyes slid away from her, as if by not looking she could avoid hearing what Bec would say next.
Bec lowered her voice to a whisper. "Then Vintel struck off his hand."
The thought of it made me queasy.
"Where is Sparrow?" Taia asked me.
"She's feverish with winter sickness. She's in Eramet's room, asleep."
"Is she all right?"
"As all right as she can be."
They all knew, as I did, that Sparrow loved Eramet.
"How many of the northerners were killed?" I asked.
"Only the one, that I know of," Taia said. "The one who tried to run."
"What about the man who lost his hand?"
"Still alive, I suppose."
I thought about the pain that man must be suffering and wondered if the northerners had brought with them any medicines to ease it.
"Did any get away?" I asked.
"Vintel didn't think so," said Taia. "By midafternoon the mist lifted enough that we could search up and down the riverbank for several miles. There was no sign that anyone else had come ashore."
"Will they try again?" I asked.
"They might," said Taia. "A score of our warriors are still at the ravine. When the river starts to freeze, they'll come back home."
"What if the northerners walk across the ice?"
Several of the girls laughed.
"When the lakes at home freeze," I said, "we can travel over the ice more easily than we could walk through the snowdrifts on land."
Taia was patient with me. "Mountain lakes are calm," she said, "and the water freezes smooth and solid. The river is always moving. Only the water along the shore freezes
. The swifter water in the middle breaks off chunks of ice from the edges and carries them along. Even the solid ice is always moving. It opens and closes and the cracks can lie unseen under the snow. Once the river starts to freeze, no one can cross it."
I thought of the ragged men who had dared to cross that river.
"What will happen to the prisoners?" I asked.
Taia shrugged. "That's the Lady's business."
"If there had been a fight, we wouldn't have the trouble of keeping so many," said Bec.
"If there had been a fight," Taia replied, "we would mourn more than Eramet." She turned back to me. "We might ransom them back to their people, I suppose."
"Their people have nothing. That's why they came here."
"We could sell them as slaves," said Bec.
"We could," Taia said, "but then we'd have to feed them all winter before we could get rid of them."
"The Lady will think of something," said Bec.
The fate of the prisoners held less interest for them than the part each girl had played in their capture. I stayed and listened to their stories for a while longer. The more I heard, the more relieved I was that I had stayed at home. At first the thought of warriors from the north invading Merin's land had frightened me, but once I'd seen them, they looked so thin and ragged that I was moved with pity for them. Even the death of Eramet couldn't make me hate them. I felt troubled in my spirit for what they had to risk just to live. Why couldn't the Mother keep us all?
Late that afternoon, the household assembled for Eramet's burial. The healer closed her wound, so that she would be whole again. Namet and Vintel prepared her body. They washed her and wrapped her in a shroud of white woolen cloth. Then they tied her onto a small sled, so that we wouldn't have to carry a litter through the snow. Vintel sent me up to Eramet's room to get what personal belongings I could find. Sparrow was awake.
"What would Eramet want to have with her?" I asked.
"Are they taking her for burial?"
I nodded.
"Where are my clothes?" She started to get out of bed.
I had burned the bloody clothes she came home in. The rest of her things were in the companions' loft, but I had no intention of letting her get dressed.