When I got home, Mom was still Mom, which made me beyond happy. While she prepared dinner, The Pogues played throughout the house. I sat on my bed with the letter from Dad and the gift from Aria. I’d been debating which one I should open first, and after a little too much back and forth, I went for Aria’s gift.
I ripped the wrapping paper off and saw a painting she’d made for me. Attached to the canvas was a picture of my dad and me when I was a kid. We were smiling bright with our fishing poles, and I was holding up the old hiking boot that I caught that summer day.
Aria had painted the same photograph using her abstract skills, running yellows and oranges through the skies, making it look like the canvas was exploding with life.
I texted her right away.
Me: I – noun, often capitalized often attributive | ˈī : Levi Wesley Myers.
Me: Love – noun | ˈləv : a feeling of strong or constant affection for a person.
Me: You – pronoun|[yoo; unstressed yoo, yuh] : Aria Lauren Watson.
Aria: Ditto – noun | dit·to | ˈdi-(ˌ)tō: I love you, too.
I picked up the letter and opened it as knots formed in my gut.
Lee,
I’m a shit father.
I’m a shit person.
And I don’t know how to start to tell you how much I hate myself daily. I’m not going to sit here and tell you I’m sorry because you would probably think it’s just the cancer and the fear talking.
Which might be true.
I’m afraid to die. I’m afraid to die, and it’s not a surprise because I was afraid of living too. I’m afraid that I’m leaving this place with no one who will remember me. And if they do remember, it will be memories of things I wish I hadn’t done. I treated this town, these people like shit. I’ve treated you even worse.
But still you came back to me. You loved me when I didn’t deserve to be loved.
I was afraid to get close to you again knowing I was dying. I was afraid it would hurt you even more when I passed away. The happiest days of my life were with you sitting inside of that tree house. You are the best thing that ever happened to me.
I’m not a good person, I was never a decent friend or husband or father, but somehow I got one thing right. Somehow I didn’t screw everything up, because I know this to be true:
You’re the only thing left of me that’s good.
I’ll love you well after the end.
-Dad
I sat there with the letter in my hand, rereading it ten times over.
I love you too, Dad.
* * *
During our homeschooling violin lessons, Mom and I sat outside in the forest playing. In front of me was a music stand holding the new song Mom was teaching me. The branches of the tree swayed back and forth, casting shadows over us. She kept frowning at me every few seconds.
“Okay, stop, stop, stop.” She slapped her hand to her forehead before leaning against a tree. “What in the world happened?”
“What do you mean? I played all of the right notes.”
“Hitting the right notes doesn’t matter if you play the music without putting your soul into it. Otherwise it’s just noise.” Her head tilted to the left. “What’s on your mind?”
I sat down my violin in the case, and shrugged. “It doesn’t make sense. I don’t understand why Dad ever stopped writing me or having me come up to visit him. And now knowing that I’ll never find out the answers…I don’t know. It’s just eating at me.”
“I see.” She pushed herself off of the tree trunk and headed into the house. When she came back, she had a small box. “He made me promise that I wouldn’t tell you about these. I was in a really bad place, Levi. I don’t know how to explain it but, I felt like I was losing you to him. I thought you would leave me to go stay with him. My mind was unstable. When I was doing better and wanted to give these to you, your dad asked me not to.”
“Why?”
“He didn’t want you to hate me.”
I took the box and started going through the cards. Holiday cards, birthday cards. Five and a half years of cards that I never knew existed. I read them over and over again as Mom stood across from me. “I wouldn’t hate you, Mom.”
“He’s the one who talked me into going to St. John’s. He paid for it all himself, too. He pretty much convinced me that the only way you would come home this time was if I went to the treatment center. The deal was if I went in for treatment, he would send you back to me after I started doing better. Plus, he didn’t want you to watch him get sicker.”
“Why would he do that?”
“Because he knew his life was ending. He didn’t want you to lose us both.”
There was so much about my father that I didn’t know. I had questions that would never be answered by him, but the one thing I’d always wondered about was answered.
He never stopped loving me.
And that was good enough for me.
“He left you something, Levi.”
“What do you mean?” I asked.
She started walking toward the house and said, “Come inside. You might want to be seated for this one.”
46 Aria
Simon and his family boxed up all of their things to leave Wisconsin in June. They attended Mike’s graduation, where James gave a fantastic valedictorian speech about past mistakes and future opportunities.
We all went back to our house for Mike’s graduation party, where we laughed, cried, and said our goodbyes.
They were leaving that night to start their long drive to Washington, and a part of me wasn’t sure how to deal with losing my best friend.
Simon, Abigail, and I sat on his front porch as Keira buckled Easton into his car seat.
“So this is it, eh?” I smiled at Simon.
He took off his glasses and pinched the bridge of his nose. “I guess so.”
He turned to Abigail and placed four kisses on her lips before they said their goodbyes, promising to text each other the whole way to Washington. As they held each other in a long hug, I walked over to the car and kissed Easton’s forehead four times, in honor of his new big brother.
After one last kiss, I pulled away from the car and hugged Keira and Paul.
Simon walked over to me and didn’t hug me four times like I thought he would. It was simply one long, tight, loving hug that almost made me cry.
“Oh wait!” I said, running over to his porch and picking up the guitar case that was behind the railing. “This is Easton’s. It’s his air guitar. I want you to make sure he learns to play it when he’s old enough. Promise you’ll teach him?”
He nodded. “Promise.”
“Promise you’ll take care of him?” I whispered.
“Promise,” he whispered back.
Abigail and I stood beside one another, arms locked as we watched the car drive off down the road. “I guess it’s just you and me now, huh?” Abigail smiled.
“Pretty much.”
“Do you think I should be worried about him finding another girlfriend?”
“What? No way. Simon is crazy about you.”
“I know. I’m kind of a great thing. I wanted to seal the deal of our commitment to each other, but we decided not to have sex seeing as how, ya know, his best friend kind of got knocked up her junior year and that was all dramatic and stuff. So I just gave him a hand job in the bathroom last night.”
“Oh my gosh, Abigail!”
“Not to toot my own horn, but I was pretty good at it, too, after all the things I read on hand jobs.”
“What?! You read stuff on giving hand jobs?”
“Google, Aria!” She snickered as we began walking back toward my house. “Seriously, how many times do I have to tell you about that?”
I had a good feeling that I wouldn’t be too lonely with this girl around.
* * *
Abigail and I pretty much stuck side by side each day during the summer. It was different, but a good kind of different. I’d never had a close girl friend before, and
it was great to have her and her odd behavior.
When I wasn’t hanging out with her, I was in the woods at six in the morning feeding the deer. It seemed as if they didn’t fully trust me. Levi was much better at feeding them, but I wouldn’t give up.
On the first day of July, I stood in the woods with a handful of berries. The deer was staring my way, stepping closer and closer. He was inches away from me, about to take the berries. A branch snapped from behind me, sending the deer running. I turned around and my breath caught in my throat as I stared down at a pair of blue Chucks, which were kicking around invisible rocks.
I started kicking around the invisible rocks, too.
My eyes moved up to lock with Levi’s and he gave me that silly smile that always made me happy.
“Sorry about scarin’ off the deer.” He stepped closer to me. “I didn’t know anyone would be out here.” He held his pinkie finger toward me.
I locked it with mine.
“What are you doing here?” I questioned.
“My mom and I arrived late last night. It turns out my dad left us his house in the will. It’s a bit of a fixer upper, but Mom said it was always meant to be our home.”
My chest tightened and I moved in closer to him. We were so close, our lips almost touching. I felt his warm breaths brushing against my skin, against my soul. “Are you all right?” I asked.
“I’m all right,” he replied. “Are you all right?” he asked.
“I’m all right,” I replied. My heart flipped, kicked, and fumbled around inside of my chest. “Are you really staying here?”
He combed my hair behind my ear. “I’m really staying here.” His lips lightly danced across mine, sending shivers down my spine. He kissed me with all of him and I kissed him back with all of me. With a soft voice, the boy with the beat-up blue Chucks spoke two words that made tears fall against my cheeks. “Hi, Art.”
I blinked once before staring up into the most beautiful pair of brown eyes.
I loved him. I loved him so, so much. I loved him with no regrets of yesterday and no fears of tomorrow. I loved him in the moment, quietly, with secret whispers of love that only our young spirits could comprehend.
With one small breath and one full heart, I whispered back, “Hi, Soul.”
The End.
Acknowledgments
Always and forever I thank each and every reader who took a chance on me and my novels. There’s no way I can express how much you all mean to me! Thank you so much for your love of words.
To my family, for all of their love and support while I disappeared into my mind for many days on end. A special thanks to my mama who talked me through my panic attacks about the novel and told me to trust my heart.
To my best friends, Vickie, Kyle, and Amber, who still love me even though I missed one too many Friday wine nights to get this novel complete.
To my amazing group of critique partners who are easily some of the most amazing women I’ve ever came across. You all are beyond talented and I’m glad to have you each in my life!
To Stacey, Amy, Anitra, Karin, Allison, Michelle, and Adrienne: the best betas I could’ve asked for. Each and every one of you helped me in so many ways! I’m so thankful!
Thank you to my amazing editor Caitlin at Edits by C. Marie—for dealing with all of my crazy! Also a big thank you to my proofreader Emily Lawrence who went above and beyond.
To Danielle Allen and Olivia Linden: My soul sisters. I love you both so much!
To Kristen Hope Mazzola: My author best friend who told me to trust my heart and listened to me complaining about starting and stopping this story over a million times. I love you!
To those who made my novel beautiful: Lauren Perrywinkle from Perrywinkle Photography for the lovely cover image, and my cover designer, Staci, from Quirky Bird.
A GIANT thanks to all of the bloggers who spread the word on my novels and even give little ol’ me a chance! I cannot express how much you all mean to me! Thank you!
And a final thank you to YOU, whoever you are, for being you. XoXo!
About the Author
Brittainy C. Cherry is an Amazon Bestselling author who has always been in love with words. She graduated from Carroll University with a Bachelors Degree in Theatre Arts and a minor in Creative Writing. Brittainy lives in Milwaukee, Wisconsin with her family. When she's not running a million errands and crafting stories, she's probably playing with her adorable pets.
Other novels by Brittainy C. Cherry include: Loving Mr. Daniels and The Space in Between.
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Blurb:
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