“Did you find an insect bite-mark on him anywhere?”
“Actually no,” Babble said.
“A possible spot where a plant leaf might have speared him?”
“No,” Babble said, “but that isn’t an important aspect of such a determination. Some of the insects here are so small that any sting-spot or bite-spot wouldn’t be visible without a microscopic examination, and that would take days.”
“But you’re satisfied,” Belsnor said, also coming up; he stood with his arms folded, rocking back and forth on his heels.
“Absolutely.” Babble nodded vigorously.
“You know what it would mean if you’re wrong.”
“How? Explain.”
“Oh Christ, Babble,” Susie Smart said, “it’s obvious. If someone or something deliberately killed him then we’re in just as much danger as he was—possibly. But if an insect stung him—”
“That’s what it was,” Babble said. “An insect stung him.” His ears had turned bright carmen with stubborn, irritable anger. “Do you think this is my first autopsy? That I’m not capable of handling pathology-report instrumentation that I’ve handled all my adult life?” He glared at Susie Smart. “Miss Dumb,” he said.
“Come on, Babble,” Tony Dunkelwelt said.
“It’s Dr. Babble to you, sonny,” Babble said.
Nothing is changed, Seth Morley said to himself. We are as we were, a mob of twelve people. And it may destroy us. End forever our various separate lives.
“I feel a vast amount of relief,” Susie Smart said, coming up beside him and Mary. “I guess we were becoming paranoid; we thought everyone was after us, trying to kill us.”
Thinking about Ben Tallchief—and his last encounter with him—Morley felt no sympathetic resonance within him to her newly refreshed attitude. “A man is dead,” he said.
“We barely knew him. In fact we didn’t know him at all.”
“True,” Morley said. Maybe it’s because I feel so much personal guilt. “Maybe I did it,” he said aloud to her.
“A bug did it,” Mary said.
“May we finish the prayer, now?” Maggie Walsh said.
Seth Morley said to her, “How come we need to shoot a petition-prayer eighty thousand miles up from the planet’s surface, but this sort of prayer can be done without electronic help?” I know the answer, he said to himself. This prayer now—it really doesn’t matter to us if it’s heard. It is merely a ceremony, this prayer. The other one was different. The other time we needed something for ourselves, not for Tallchief. Thinking this he felt more gloomy than ever. “I’ll see you later,” he said aloud to Mary. “I’m going to go unpack the boxes I’ve brought from our noser.”
“But don’t go near the nosers,” Mary warned him. “Until tomorrow; until we have time to scout out the plant or bug-”
“I won’t be outdoors,” Morley agreed. “I’ll go directly to our quarters.” He strode from the briefing room out into the compound. A moment later he was ascending the steps to the porch of their joint living quarters.
I’ll ask The Book, Seth Morley said to hmself. He rummaged through several cartons and at last found his copy of How I Rose From the Dead in My Spare Time and So Can You. Seated, he held it on his lap, placed both hands on it, shut his eyes, turned his face upward and said, “Who or what killed Ben Tallchief?”
He then, eyes shut, opened the book to a page at random, put his finger at one exact spot, and opened his eyes.
His finger rested on: the Form Destroyer.
That doesn’t tell us much, he reflected. All death comes as a result of a deterioration of form, due to the activity of the Form Destroyer.
And yet it scared him.
It doesn’t sound like a bug or a plant, he thought starkly. It sounds like something entirely else.
A tap-tap sounded at his door.
Rising warily, he moved by slow degrees to the door; keeping it shut he swept the curtain back from the small window and peered out into the night darkness. Someone stood on the porch, someone small, with long hair, tight sweater, peek-n-squeeze bra, tight short skirt, barefoot. Susie Smart has come to visit, he said to himself, and unlocked the door.
“Hi,” she said brightly, smiling up at him. “May I come in and talk a little?”
He led her over to The Book. “I asked it what or who killed Tallchief.”
“What did it say?” She seated herself, crossed her bare legs and leaned forward to see as he placed his finger on the same spot as before. “The Form Destroyer,” she said soberly. “But it’s always the Form Destroyer.”
“Yet I think it means something.”
“That it wasn’t an insect?”
He nodded.
“You don’t want to go to bed with me? You’d enjoy it, despite your initial prudery and reservations. I’m very good. I know a lot of ways. Some which you probably never heard about. I made them up myself.”
“From years of experience,” he said.
“Yes.” She nodded. “I started at twelve.”
“No,” he said.
“Yes,” Susie said, and grabbed him by the hand. On her face he saw a desperate expression, as if she were fighting for her life. She drew him toward her, straining with all her strength; he held back and she strained vainly.
Susie Smart felt the man pulling away from her. He’s very strong, she thought. “How come you’re so strong?” she asked, gasping for air; she found herself almost unable to breathe.
“Carry rocks,” he said with a grin.
I want him, she thought. Big, evil, powerful … he could tear me to pieces, she thought. Her longing for him grew.
“I’ll get you,” she gasped, “because I want you.” I need to have you, she said to herself. Covering me like a heavy shade, a protection from the sun and from seeing. I don’t want to look any more, she said to herself. Weigh me down, she thought. Show me what there is of you; show me your real being, without benefit of clothes. Fumbling behind her she unsnapped her peek-n-squeeze bra. Deftly she tugged it out from its place within her sweater; she pulled, strained, managed to drop it onto a chair. At that the man laughed. “Why are you laughing?” she demanded.
“Your neatness,” he said. “Getting it onto a chair instead of dropping it onto the floor.”
“Damn you,” she said, knowing that he, like everyone else, was laughing at her. “I’ll get you,” she snarled, and pulled him with all her strength; this time she managed to move him a few tottering steps in the direction of the bed.
“Hey, goddam it,” he protested. But again she managed to move him several steps. “Stop!” he said. And then she Susie banged the door shut. “Is that all you can say? It’s taken me a month to make it look like this.”
“‘Nice’ was your word for it, not mine.”
She laughed. “I can call it ‘nice,’ but since you’re a visitor you have to be more lavish about it.”
“Okay,” he said, “it’s wonderful.”
“That’s better.” She seated herself in a black canvas-backed chair facing him, leaned back, rubbed her hands together briskly, then fastened her attention on him. “I’m waiting,” she said.
“For what?”
“For you to proposition me.”
“Why would I do that?”
Susie said, “I’m the settlement whore. You’re supposed to die of priapism because of me. Haven’t you heard?”
“I just got here late today,” he pointed out.
“But somebody must have told you.”
“When someone does,” he said, “he’ll get his nose punched in.”
“But it’s true.”
“Why?” he said.
“Dr. Babble explained to me that it’s a diencephalic disturbance in my brain.”
He said, “That Babble. You know what he said about my visit with the Walker? He said most of what I said was untrue.”
“Dr. Babble has a keen little maliciousness about him. He loves to put down everyone and everything.?
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“If you know that about him,” Seth Morley said, “then you know enough not to pay any attention.”
“He just explained why I’m that way. I am that way. I’ve slept with every man in the settlement, except that Wade Frazer.” She shook her head, making a wry face. “He’s awful.”
With curiosity, he said, “What does Frazer say about you? After all, he’s a psychologist. Or claims he is.”
“He says that—” She reflected, staring up pensively at the ceiling of the room, meantime chewing abstractedly on her lower lip. “It’s a search for the great world-father archetype. That’s what Jung would have said. Do you know about Jung?”
“Yes,” he said, although in fact he had only heard little more than the name; Jung, he had been told, had in many ways laid the groundwork for a rapprochement between intellectuals and religion—but at that point Seth Morley’s knowledge gave out. “I see,” he said.
“Jung believed that our attitudes toward our actual mothers and fathers are because they embody certain male and female archetypes. For instance, there’s the great bad earth-father and the good earth-father and the destroying earth-father, and so forth … and the same with women. My mother was the bad earth-mother, so all my psychic energy was turned toward my father.”
“Hmm,” he said. He had, all at once, begun to think about Mary. Not that he was afraid of her, but what would she think when she got back to their living quarters and found him gone? And then—God forbid—found him here with Susie Dumb, the self-admitted settlement whore?
Susie said, “Do you think the sexual act makes a person impure?”
“Sometimes,” he responded reflexively, still thinking about his wife. His heart labored and he felt his pulse race. “Specktowsky isn’t too clear about that in The Book,” he mumbled.
“You’re going to take a walk with me,” Susie said.
“Now? I am? Where? Why?”
“Not now. Tomorrow when it’s daylight. I’ll take you outside the settlement, out into the real Delmak-O. Where the strange things are, the movements that you catch out of the corner of your eye—and the Building.”
“I’d like to see the Building,” he said, truthfully.
Abruptly she rose. “Better get back to your living quarters, Mr. Seth Morley,” she said.
“Why?” He, too, confused, rose to his feet.
“Because if you stay here your attractive wife is going to find us and create chaos and open the way for the Form Destroyer, who you say is loose outside, to get all of us.” She laughed, showing perfect, pale teeth.
“Can Mary come on our walk?” he asked.
“No.” She shook her head. “Just you. Okay?”
He hesitated, a flock of thoughts invading his mind; they pulled him this way and that, then departed, leaving him free to make an answer. “If I can work it,” he said.
“Try. Please. I can show you all the places and life forms and things I’ve discovered.”
“Are they beautiful?”
“S-some. Why are you looking at me so intently? You make me nervous.” “I think you’re insane,” he said.
“I’m just outspoken. I simply say, ‘A man is a sperm’s way of producing another sperm.’ That’s merely practical.”
Seth Morley said, “I don’t know much about Jungian analysis, but I certainly do not recall—” He broke off. Something had moved at the periphery of his vision.
“What’s the matter?” Susie Smart asked.
He turned swiftly, and this time saw it clearly. On the top of the dresser a small gray square object inched its way forward, then, apparently aware of him, ceased moving.
In two steps he was over to it; he snatched up the object, held it gripped tightly in the palm of his hand.
“Don’t hurt it,” Susie said. “It’s harmless. Here, give it to me.” She held out her hand, and, reluctantly, he opened his enclosing fingers.
The object which he held resembled a tiny building.
“Yes,” Susie said, seeing the expression on his face. “It comes from the Building. It’s a sort of offspring, I suppose. Anyhow it’s exactly like the Building but smaller.” She took it from him, for a time examined it, then placed it back on the dresser. “It’s alive,” she said.
“I know,” he said. Holding it, he had felt the animate quality of it; it had pushed against his fingers, trying to get out.
“They’re all over the place,” Susie said. “Out there.” She made a vague gesture. “Maybe tomorrow we can find you one.”
“I don’t want one,” he said.
“You will when you’ve been here long enough.”
“Why?”
“I guess they’re company. Something to break the monotony. I remember as a child finding a Ganymedian toad in our garden. It was so beautiful with its shining flame and its long smooth hair that—”
Morley said, “It could have been one of these things that killed Tallchief.”
“Glen Belsnor took one apart one day,” Susie said. “He said—” She pondered. “It’s harmless, anyhow. The rest of what he said was electronic talk; we couldn’t follow it.”
“And he’d know?”
“Yes.” She nodded.
Seth Morley said, “You—we—have a good leader.” But I don’t think quite good enough, he said to himself.
“Shall we go to bed?” Susie said.
“What?” he said.
“I’m interested in going to bed with you. I can’t judge a man unless I’ve been in bed with him.”
“What about women?”
“I can’t judge them at all. What, do you think I go to bed with the women, too? That’s depraved. That sounds like something Maggie Walsh would do. She’s a lesbian, you know. Or didn’t you know?”
“I don’t see that it matters. Or that it’s any of our business.” He felt shaky and uneasy. “Susie,” he said, “you should get psychiatric help.” He remembered, all at once, what the Walker-on-Earth had said to him, back at Tekel Upharsin. Maybe we all need psychiatric help, he thought. But not from Wade Frazer. That’s totally, entirely out.
“You don’t want to go to bed with me? You’d enjoy it, despite your initial prudery and reservations. I’m very good. I know a lot of ways. Some which you probably never heard about. I made them up myself.”
“From years of experience,” he said.
“Yes.” She nodded. “I started at twelve.”
“No,” he said.
“Yes,” Susie said, and grabbed him by the hand. On her face he saw a desperate expression, as if she were fighting for her life. She drew him toward her, straining with all her strength; he held back and she strained vainly.
Susie Smart felt the man pulling away from her. He’s very strong, she thought. “How come you’re so strong?” she asked, gasping for air; she found herself almost unable to breathe.
“Carry rocks,” he said with a grin.
I want him, she thought. Big, evil, powerful … he could tear me to pieces, she thought. Her longing for him grew.
“I’ll get you,” she gasped, “because I want you.” I need to have you, she said to herself. Covering me like a heavy shade, a protection from the sun and from seeing. I don’t want to look any more, she said to herself. Weigh me down, she thought. Show me what there is of you; show me your real being, without benefit of clothes. Fumbling behind her she unsnapped her peek-n-squeeze bra. Deftly she tugged it out from its place within her sweater; she pulled, strained, managed to drop it onto a chair. At that the man laughed. “Why are you laughing?” she demanded.
“Your neatness,” he said. “Getting it onto a chair instead of dropping it onto the floor.”
“Damn you,” she said, knowing that he, like everyone else, was laughing at her. “I’ll get you,” she snarled, and pulled him with all her strength; this time she managed to move him a few tottering steps in the direction of the bed.
“Hey, goddam it,” he protested. But again she managed to move him several steps. “Stop!”
he said. And then she had tumbled him onto the bed. She held him down with one knee and rapidly, with great expertise, unsnapped her skirt and pushed it from the bed, onto the floor.
“See?” she said. “I don’t have to be neat.” She dove for him then; she pinned him down with her knees. “I’m not obsessive,” she said, as she removed the last of her clothing. Now she tore at the buttons of his shirt. A button, ripped loose, rolled like a little wheel from the bed and onto the floor. At that she laughed. She felt very good. This part always excited her—it was like the final stage of a hunt, in this case a hunt for a big animal which smelled of sweat and of cigarette smoke and of agitated fear. How can he be afraid of me? she asked herself, but it was always this way—she had come to accept it. In fact she had come to like it.
“Let—me—go,” he gasped, pushing upward against her weight. “You’re so darn—slippery,” he managed to say as she gripped his head with her knees.
“I can make you so happy, sexually,” she told him; she always said this, and sometimes it worked; sometimes the man gave in at the prospect which she held open to him. “Come on,” she said, in rapid, imploring grunts.
The door of the room banged open. Immediately, instinctively, she sprang from the man, from the bed, stood upright, breathing noisily, peering at the figure in the doorway. His wife. Mary Morley. Susie at once snatched up her clothes; this was one part which she did not enjoy, and she felt overwhelming hatred toward Mary Morley. “Get out of here,” Susie panted. “This is my room.”
“Seth!” Mary Morley said in a shrill voice. “What in the name of God is the matter with you? How could you do this?” She moved stiffly toward the bed, her face pale.
“God,” Morley said, sitting up and smoothing his hair into place. “This girl is nuts,” he said to his wife in a plaintive, whining tone. “I had nothing to do with it; I was trying to get away. You saw that, didn’t you? Couldn’t you tell I was trying to get away? Didn’t you see that?”
Mary Morley said in her shrill, speeded-up voice, “If you had wanted to get away you could have.”
“No,” he said imploringly. “Really, so help me God. She had me pinned down. I was getting loose, though. If you hadn’t come in I would have gotten away by myself.”