Lottie thought it might be a less than prudent moment to remind him that she now belonged in his bed. "I was in my bed. But how was I to sleep with all of that frightful noise? It was enough to wake the dead."
She regretted the words the instant she said them, but it was too late to summon them back. Although she would have thought it impossible, Hayden's face grew even more closed. "I don't know what you're talking about."
"Why, of course you do! You must have heard it. The wailing?" She waved a hand at the door behind them. "Then someone in there playing the piano as if their poor heart was breaking?"
"I heard nothing," he said flatly, refusing to so much as glance at the door.
"What about the jasmine? You can't deny that you smelled the jasmine."
He shrugged. "One of the maids must have passed through here earlier with some fresh cut blooms from the garden. I simply mistook their fragrance for your perfume."
Lottie didn't waste her breath reminding him that in this barren and windy clime, jasmine probably wouldn't bloom until June, if then. "And I suppose the wailing I heard was just the wind whistling down a crack in one of the chimneys."
"Have you a better explanation?" he asked, his gaze a direct challenge.
Lottie moistened her parched lips with her tongue before blurting out, "I thought perhaps it might be a ghost."
Hayden simply stared at her for a long moment, then snorted. "Don't be a silly goose. Despite what the scandal sheets print to sell their miserable rags, there are no such things as ghosts. What did you think?" he asked. "That my dead wife had returned from the grave to warn you away from me?"
"I don't know. You tell me. Was she given to fits of jealousy?" As Lottie surveyed the pagan beauty of his thick brows and unshaven jaw, it was hard to imagine any woman not being jealous of such a man.
"When she didn't get her way," he replied softly, "Justine was given to all manner of fits."
Shamed by his candor, Lottie pressed a hand to her still thudding heart. "It wasn't the ghost who nearly frightened me to death. It was you."
"Well, that's one method of murder no one's ever accused me of. I doubt your family would have been amused, but I'm sure the gossipmongers would have found it a novelty." He leaned against the wall, giving her a mocking glance from beneath his dark lashes. "So tell me, Carlotta, if I had frightened you to death, would you have come back to haunt me?"
She considered the question for a moment before nodding. "I most certainly would. But I wouldn't drift about moaning and wailing or play some pretty piece on the piano. I'd bang on the bottom of a kettle and sing all seven verses of 'My Wife's a Wanton Wee Thing' at the top of my lungs."
Her reply startled a laugh out of him. His open smile transformed his face, deepening the boyish crinkles around his eyes and restoring a wayward dimple to his cheek. As he studied her, the lingering warmth in his eyes suddenly made her acutely aware of her own appearance.
He had a rare gift for catching her at a disadvantage. While she had wanted to appear the very height of sophistication the next time they came face-to-face, here she stood in her ragged cotton nightdress and bare feet with her hair tumbling around her shoulders like a little girl's. But he wasn't looking at her as if she were a little girl. He was looking at her as if she were a woman.
"You really ought to be ashamed of yourself," she told him. "This is the second time today that you've ambushed me."
His smile faded, leaving Lottie with a keen sense of loss. He picked up a delicate vase from a marble-topped pier table, turning it over in his hands. "If I could have sent word of our nuptials ahead, I would have. But I didn't dare risk Allegra finding out I'd taken a wife from one of the servants. She would have run away before we even arrived." He spoke as if that were a common occurrence.
"Why didn't you tell me about her? Were you afraid I'd run away as well?"
"Would you have?"
"I don't know," she responded truthfully. "But I do know that I might have handled the situation with a bit more grace if you had warned me that I was to become a mother as well as a wife."
"If you'll recall, when we met I wasn't looking for either."
What Lottie recalled was that moment in Mayfair when he had turned to look at her in front of the fire. Whatever he'd been looking for, in that moment she would have almost sworn he'd found it. If the woman from Mrs. McGowan's had arrived a few minutes before she had, would he have looked at her the same way? Would he have framed her powdered face in his hands and kissed her rouged lips as if she were some long lost piece of his soul he'd never known he was missing? Lottie wondered if he would ever look at her that way again and what she might do if he did.
He returned the vase to the table. "As you may have guessed by now, I traveled to London to seek a governess for my daughter. She's getting to be too much for even Martha to handle."
Remembering the woman's firm grip on Allegra's ear, Lottie found that doubtful.
"She's always been a difficult child, but in the past few months, she's grown utterly impossible."
"I seem to recall hearing the same thing about myself on occasion," Lottie confessed.
"Imagine that," he replied dryly.
"There are some fine establishments that specialize in making the impossible possible. Have you ever considered sending her away to school?"
"Of course I have." He raked a hand through his hair, the gesture fraught with frustration. "I'd like nothing better than to get her away from this place, this house…" Me. Lottie heard the word as clearly as if he'd said it aloud. "But she simply won't hear of it. Every time the subject is broached, she throws such a terrible tantrum that I fear for her health. Last month when I mentioned a school in Lucerne, she nearly stopped breathing altogether and the doctor had to be summoned. Which is why I decided to journey to London and take matters into my own hands." A bitter smile twisted his lips. "But thanks to the efforts of the gossipmongers and scandal sheets, I met with little success. After all, what respectable woman would accompany a man with my reputation to Cornwall?"
Lottie gazed at him, realization slowly dawning. "No respectable woman, I suppose, but perhaps one
who'd lost her respectability? One whose reputation was in ruins?"
Without replying, he shifted his gaze to the shadows.
After a moment of awkward silence, she asked softly, "Why marry me at all? Why didn't you simply hire me?"
"Even with a chaperone, I could hardly bring an unmarried young woman into my home to teach my daughter." The uncharacteristic gentleness of his words only deepened their sting. "Especially one I'd allegedly compromised."
Lottie told herself she should be grateful for his honesty. At least he'd disabused her of any girlish romantic notions before she could make even more of a fool of herself than she already had.
Thankful that she'd always landed the leading role in the amateur theatricals at Mrs. Lyttelton's, she managed a brittle smile. "I'm gratified to learn that you gained something from our little marriage of inconvenience besides an unwanted bride. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'd like to get back to my bed before the wind starts whistling down the chimney again or playing the 'Hallelujah Chorus' on the piano."
As she made to brush past him, he closed his hand over her arm, tugging her to a halt. "If you expected more from our union, my lady, then I'm deeply sorry."
Gently but firmly disengaging her arm from his grip, Lottie tipped her head back to meet his gaze. "Don't be, my lord. After all, the only thing you promised me was your name."
* * *
Without so much as a candle or a ghostly melody to guide her, it took Lottie four tries to retrace her path back to her bedchamber. A wailing white lady would have been a welcome distraction, but she encountered nothing more frightening than a small, forlorn mouse who looked as lost as she felt. For the first time it occurred to her how curious it was that not a single servant had come to investigate the mysterious noises. They would all have to be stone deaf or drunk in their beds not
to have heard those rending cries.
By the time she finally found her chamber, Lottie was feeling quite cross. Tripping over Mirabella, then stubbing her bare toe on one of the unpacked trunks hardly improved her temper. She had no right to be angry, she told herself as she limped back to the bed. Hayden had promised her his name, not his heart.
Stroking Mr. Wiggles, she huddled against the headboard and gazed into the waning flames of the fire. At least she wouldn't have to waste any more of her precious time lying around waiting for a wedding night that would never come. Hayden could deny believing in ghosts all he liked, but when he had snatched her up in his arms with that unholy light glowing in his eyes, he had only proven that his passion would never be for her, but only for his dead wife. She would never be anything more to him than a glorified governess.
Miss Terwilliger's puckered face rose in her vision. Was she to share the old woman's fate after all? Was she to squander her youth trapped in a musty schoolroom until both her blood and her passions ran as dry as chalk dust through her veins?
Her own eager words to her family came back to haunt her: I don't have to be a wife or a governess. Why, I could be a writer just as I've always dreamed! All I would require is some ink, some paper, and a small cottage by the sea somewhere.
Lottie sat up, gripped by a new excitement. Wasn't a mansion by the sea preferable to a humble cottage?
Even among the room's chaos, it didn't take Lottie long to find the small leather case she was seeking. Her movements brisk with determination, she unpacked paper, pen, and a brand-new bottle of ink. After stirring up the fire and lighting a fresh candle, she settled herself before the rosewood writing desk in the corner, a purring Pumpkin in her lap.
She nibbled on the end of the pen for a minute, then scrawled,THE BRIDE OF LORD DEATH by Carlotta Anne Fairleigh across the top of the paper, finishing her name with a majestic flourish. After another moment's contemplation, she drew a bold line through the whole thing and wrote just beneath it LORD DEATH'S BRIDEby Lady Oakleigh. If her husband had nothing to offer her but his name, then she might as well make use of it. Every publisher in London would be clamoring for such a manuscript. Even Miss Terwilliger would no longer be able to deny her talent.
Mercilessly squelching a pang of conscience, Lottie drew a clean page in front of her. It took no feat of imagination to conjure up Hayden's face in that moment when he had pinned her against the door, both his eyes and his hands blazing with passion. Her pen all but flew across the page as she wrote, I'll never forget the moment I first laid eyes on the man who planned to murder me. His face was both terrible and irresistible, its dark beauty reflecting the blackness of his soul…
Chapter 10
If he was the Master of Hell, then I was now its mistress…
LOTTIE DECIDED THE NEXT MORNING THAT IF it was a governess her husband wanted, then it was a governess he would have. Scorning the shimmering rose poplins and rich blue velvets that she adored, she unearthed a silvery gray morning gown from one of the trunks. By ripping away the striped sash and popping off the silk rosettes that trimmed the hem, she created a frock as unrelentingly gray and stark as the sky outside her window.
She tugged her hair into a painfully tight chignon, ruthlessly stripping it of its curls. Not a single tendril was allowed to escape.
She surveyed her reflection in the cheval glass that stood in the corner, her generous lips compressed into a stern line. All she needed was a pair of wire-rimmed spectacles and a fat hairy mole on her chin and she might be mistaken for Miss Terwilliger. She looked quite ancient — at least twenty-four.
While she waited for the breakfast hour to arrive, she began to dig through her boxes and trunks. Perhaps this place wouldn't feel so strange once she surrounded herself with familiar things. She had emptied two trunks and filled every nook and cranny of the walnut tallboy in the corner when she became aware of a most curious sensation. Although she'd read about it in numerous Gothic novels and even written about it a time or two in her own stories, she'd never truly experienced it.
The hair on the back of her neck actually stood on end.
The stocking she was holding slipped through her fingers as Lottie slowly turned, wondering if she was about to come face-to-face with the ghost of Hayden's first wife.
Judging from the hair hanging in its eyes and the dirt smudging its slender nose, the creature peeping around the doorframe was definitely mortal. Sensing that her visitor was only a friendly smile away from bolting, Lottie quickly returned her attention to the trunk.
"Good morning, Allegra," she said coolly. "Would you care to come in?"
From the corner of her eye, she saw the girl sidle into the room, her feet dragging in their unlaced boots. Lottie was thankful that the first chapter of her manuscript, finished shortly before dawn, was tucked beneath a false panel at the bottom of her writing case, safe from prying eyes.
After a moment of awkward silence, Allegra blurted out, "Do you love my father?"
Lottie couldn't have said why the question gave her pause. After all, she barely knew the girl's father.
While she was struggling to frame a suitable answer, Allegra scuffed the toe of her boot against the floor. "I shouldn't blame you if you didn't. He's quite insufferable."
Lottie was spared from either scolding or agreeing by Mirabella, who came bouncing out from under the bed like a rabid dust bunny. She pounced on one of Allegra's bootlaces with demonical glee.
Lottie expected Allegra to fuss and croon over the kitten just as any other little girl would have, but the child was staring at the object Lottie had just fished out of the trunk.
Lottie held up the battered doll, a fond smile curving her lips. "My sister bought her for me on her very first trip to London when I was around your age. Laura thought she looked just like me. Can you believe the poor dear was once nearly as lovely as the doll your father had made for you?"
The doll had originally sported a topknot of long golden curls, but Lottie had scorched half of them away in an overzealous session with the curling tongs. The roses in her cheeks had faded. The ruffles of her petticoat were tattered and stained, her snub nose chipped. She wore a black silk patch over one eye.
"After she lost her eye in a tragic archery accident, my brother George and I used to play pirates with her," Lottie explained. "We used to make her walk the plank out of the barn loft — hence the chipped nose."
Allegra continued to study the doll, a thoughtful expression on her serious little face. "I like her," she finally said. "Might I play with her?"
Lottie was taken aback by the bold request. But Allegra's uncompromising gaze was impossible to resist. Despite what Hayden had told her about Allegra's tantrums, Lottie got the distinct impression that the child asked for little and expected even less.
Smoothing the doll's skirt, Lottie reluctantly handed her over. "I don't suppose you can do her any more harm than I already have."
"Thank you." Without another word, Allegra tucked the doll beneath her arm and marched from the room.
* * *
Lottie arrived at breakfast to find Hayden waiting for her at the head of a mahogany monstrosity of a table long enough to hold a cricket tournament atop its gleaming surface. Devonbrooke House had boasted just such a table, but when it was only the family dining, Sterling had insisted that they gather at one end or the other, the better to enjoy each other's company and conversation. As a footman escorted Lottie to the lone chair situated at the foot of the table, she could only assume that Hayden had no interest in either.
He did have enough manners to rise when she entered the room.
"Good morning, my lord," she said primly, sliding into her seat.
"My lady," he returned, surveying her staid attire through hooded eyes.
He dropped back into his chair, drawing a watch from his waistcoat pocket. At first Lottie thought the gesture was meant to reproach her for her tardiness, but then she realized there was one more place set at the table. r />
Exactly halfway between the two of them.
Hayden barely had time to snap his watch shut before Allegra appeared. Instead of dragging her feet, the girl was practically skipping. She'd dressed for breakfast by pulling up one grimy stocking and smearing the dirt from her nose to her cheek. Humming beneath her breath, she made a great production of shoving one of the heavy chairs closer to her own and settling her burden into it with the tender consideration usually reserved only for the aged or the infirm.
Hayden scowled at the chair, unable to hide his consternation. "What on earth is that thing?"
"She's my new doll. Mummy gave her to me." Allegra turned and beamed at Lottie. The sunny smile transformed her face. For an elusive instant, she wasn't just striking, she was beautiful.
The little monster.
As Hayden shifted his gaze to Lottie, she felt her stomach sink to the vicinity of her knees. "How very generous of Mummy," he said smoothly, his eyes glittering as he lifted his cup of coffee to her in a mocking toast.
Generous indeed for Lottie to give his child a well-worn and well-loved toy to pamper while his own lovely and expensive gift moldered in her plush coffin of a trunk.
"It's just one of my old playthings," Lottie hastened to explain. "Allegra came in while I was unpacking and took a fancy to her."
The girl folded her napkin into a makeshift bib and tucked it into the doll's ruffled bodice. "Mummy said the doll looks just like she did when she was my age."
Hayden thoughtfully studied the doll's fuzzy, scorched curls, chipped nose, and pirate's patch. Despite her many travails, her remaining blue eye had never quite lost its smug twinkle, nor her rosebud lips their smirk. "I, for one," he said, "can still see a marked resemblance."
Fortunately for him, the same little red-haired maid who had brought Lottie her supper came bustling in with a steaming tureen of porridge at that moment, blocking Lottie's outraged glare. As they ate, the tense silence was broken only by Allegra's crooning as she lifted her spoon to the doll's lips to offer her some porridge. Lottie downed her own hot chocolate in a single gulp, rather wishing it was strychnine.