Still holding her from behind, he buried his face in the sweet-smelling softness of her hair, taking deep, shuddering breaths as he fought for control. Despite the surging demands of his body, Hayden would have been content just to hold her forever. Her skin was the warmth his flesh so desperately craved, her hair the golden light that defied the darkness, her heartbeat the music that had been missing from his life ever since she'd left Oakwylde.
Lottie lolled against Hayden's broad chest, murmuring his name over and over in a breathless litany. She could feel all the blood in her body rushing through her veins to that place where their bodies were joined. It took up the rhythm of her heart, pulsing around his thickness until she could no longer bear the exquisite tension.
Bracing the backs of her thighs against the front of his, she eased herself up, then down, riding the rigid length of his shaft.
Hardly daring to believe his wife's delectable boldness, Hayden arched up to meet her on the next stroke, rocking deeper inside of her with each powerful thrust of his hips. He kept one arm fixed firmly around her waist while the greedy fingers of his other hand tore at her drawers, widening the slit in the silk to give him unfettered access to her. Forcing her thighs even farther apart with his own, he gently flicked his thumb back and forth over the taut bud nestled in her damp curls.
A broken sob escaped Lottie's lips. To be taken so thoroughly, yet caressed so tenderly all at the same time was sweet torment. Just when she thought she couldn't bear another moment of it, Hayden cupped his hand hard against her, pushing her downward as he surged upward. His other arm still locked around her waist, he pounded into her in a driving, inescapable rhythm.
As a blinding wave of ecstasy broke over both of them at the same time, something happened that neither one of them had anticipated.
Lottie screamed.
* * *
"Allegra! Allegra, wake up!"
Allegra slowly opened her eyes to find Ellie kneeling beside her bed, her round eyes gleaming in the dark. "What is it?" she whispered, sitting up on her elbow.
"You're not going to believe who's here. It's your papa!"
"Don't be silly." Clutching Lottie's doll, Allegra rolled over to her other side. She'd spent the entire evening in her room sulking because Miss Terwilliger had pronounced her and the other children too young to attend the ball. "My father is in Cornwall."
Undaunted, Ellie scrambled around to the other side of the bed. "No, he's not. He's right here at Devonbrooke House!"
Allegra sat up, rubbing her eyes. "Are you sure you haven't been dreaming again? Remember what happened the last time you ate two servings of plum pudding at supper? You swore you saw a giant peering in your bedchamber window."
Ellie shook her head. "I was dreaming earlier, but I'm wide awake now. Aunt Lottie's scream woke me up."
Allegra's eyes suddenly widened in alarm. "Lottie screamed?"
Ellie nodded, her topknot bobbing. "It was a frightful sound. I thought someone was being murdered so I put on my slippers and sneaked downstairs. When I got down there, the guests were all milling everywhere at once and my mama and Aunt Diana were crying and Uncle George and Uncle Thane were threatening to break down the parlor door and my papa was shouting at Addison to bring him his pistols."
"Was he going to shoot Lottie?"
"Of course not, silly! He was going to shoot your papa."
Allegra tossed back the blankets and swung her legs over the side of the bed.
"Don't worry," Ellie said, patting her on the knee. "Before Addison could arrive with the pistols, Aunt Lottie came strolling out of the parlor just as calm as you please, with your papa right behind her."
"Why did she scream, then? Did he make her angry? Was she throwing a tantrum?"
"She claims she saw a mouse." Ellie curved her hands into claws. "A very large mouse with blood-red eyes and enormous fangs. It must have embarrassed her to cause such a ruckus over a mere mouse. She was terribly flustered. I've never seen her face quite so pink."
"That's odd." Allegra drew her feet back into the bed, peering nervously into the shadows. "With all the cats around here, you wouldn't think there'd be any mice. So where is my father now?"
"In Aunt Lottie's bedchamber. After they went upstairs together and all the guests left, Cookie made me a warm milk posset and let me sit in the kitchen with her and Addison for the longest time."
Allegra sat chewing on her lip, the furrow between the silky dark wings of her brows slowly deepening. She finally climbed down from the bed without a word.
"Where are you going?" Ellie demanded as Allegra jerked on her dressing gown.
"To see my pa — my father. He needn't think he can come all this way and not even trouble himself to say hello."
"You were sleeping," Ellie reminded her.
"Then he can say good-night!" Allegra snapped. Cinching her dressing gown, she went storming from the chamber, her small nose fixed firmly in the air.
* * *
Lottie lay with her cheek pillowed on her husband's chest, listening to his thundering heart slowly settle back into an even cadence.
Heaving an enormous sigh, he tightened his arm around her and touched his lips to her hair. "I'm so glad your brother-in-law didn't shoot me. I would have hated to miss that."
"It does rather give one a reason for living, doesn't it?" Still suffering aftershocks of delight, Lottie reached down and drew the blankets over their entwined limbs, then snuggled deeper into the warmth of Hayden's arms. Just as she did, she heard a faint creak coming from the direction of the door.
"Did you hear that?" she whispered, lifting her head.
"Perhaps it was a mouse." Hayden's serious expression would have been more convincing if his chest hadn't started to quake with suppressed laughter. "A really large mouse with glowing red eyes and razor-sharp fangs still dripping blood from the mangled throat of his last victim."
Lottie grabbed one of the feather bolsters and swatted him with it. "I was trying to save your life. I thought it was a very impressive effort myself."
"Indeed it was," he admitted, laughing aloud. "But you might have been more persuasive if your corset laces hadn't been caught on the heel of your slipper."
"At least we gave the gossipmongers something new to whisper about. I'm sure it will be in all the scandal sheets tomorrow— 'MM and HH Caught In Flagrante Delicto After Being Terrorized by Rabid Mouse!' "
As she settled back into his arms, sighing with contentment, moonlight spilled across her bed, bathing them in a hazy glow. Hayden was silent for so long that she thought he might have drifted off. But when she sat up on one elbow, thinking to enjoy the stolen pleasure of watching him sleep, he was gazing up at the ceiling, his expression pensive.
As if sensing the weight of her curious gaze, he slowly turned to look at her. "I need to tell you about Justine."
Shaking her head, Lottie reached to stroke his cheek. "I already know everything I need to know. You don't have to do this."
He captured her hand in his, pressing a moist kissto her palm. "I believe I just might. If not for you, then for me."
She slowly nodded, sinking back into his arms.
When he spoke again, his voice was eerily detached, as if he was describing something that had happened to someone else in another lifetime. "After we'd been home from London for nearly three months, Justine realized she was with child. What she didn't realize was that the child was Phillipe's."
Lottie closed her eyes briefly. Thanks to Ned, she didn't have to ask him how he knew the child wasn't his.
"Justine still believed that I was the one who had come to her bed that night in London. I never had the heart to tell her the truth. When she discovered she was going to have another child, she was as happy as I had ever seen her. She spent hours stitching little bonnets and composing lullabies and telling Allegra all about the new baby brother she was to have. She was convinced the child was going to be a boy, the heir she'd always dreamed of giving me. I had no choice but
to go along with the charade, to pretend I was as overjoyed as she was."
"What an agony that must have been for you," Lottie whispered, stroking his arm.
"I didn't know what else to do. I could hardly blame an innocent babe for the circumstances of its birth. I was determined to keep Justine secluded in Cornwall until the worst of the gossip died down." His jaw tightened. "But one of the servants brought a scandal sheet back from London and she happened to stumble across it. It was all there between those pages, every ugly word of it — her infidelity, the duel, Phillipe's death."
For the first time, Lottie truly understood the depth of his contempt for those who sold scandal for profit. "What did she do?"
"She lapsed into a terrible depression. It was beyond melancholy, beyond despondency, beyond anything I'd ever seen. She refused to leave her bed except late at night, when she would wander the corridors of the manor as if she was already a ghost. She spent the days locked in her chamber. Although it broke Allegra's little heart, she refused to see either one of us. I think she was too ashamed to face us." He shook his head. "I tried to tell her that she wasn't to blame for what had happened. That I was the one who had left her alone that night, when she needed me the most."
Lottie bit her lip until she tasted blood, knowing it wouldn't do any good to try to convince him otherwise. Not now. Not yet.
"Then one stormy night she vanished. We searched the house, then the grounds. I thought my heart was going to stop when I finally spotted her standing at the very edge of the cliffs. I called out her name, fighting to be heard over the wind and the rain. When she turned and I saw her face, I froze. I knew I didn't dare take another step.
"She stood there without a hint of madness in her eyes — so beautiful, so calm, like an eye in the middle of the storm. I was the one raging like a madman. I begged her to think of Allegra, to think of the childgrowing inside of her. To think of me. Do you know what she said then?"
Lottie shook her head, unable to choke a single word past the lump in her throat.
"In that one moment of perfect clarity, she looked at me with all the love in the world in her eyes and she said, 'I am.' I lunged for her, but it was too late. She didn't even scream. She just disappeared into the mist without a sound."
A shuddering sob escaped Lottie. "But you told the authorities it was an accident — that she slipped and fell."
He nodded. "I wanted to spare Allegra the scandal of her mother's suicide. I didn't realize until it was too late that an even more damning scandal would arise. And I never dreamed that Allegra would come to blame me for her mother's death. But I didn't do it just for her. I did it for Justine as well. I wanted my wife buried in hallowed ground." He clenched his teeth as his composure began to crack. "I couldn't bear the thought of God condemning her to an eternity of damnation when her brief life had contained so much torment. So I stood on the edge of that cliff, blinded by rain and tears, and I vowed that no one would ever know the truth about her death. And no one has. Until now." He turned to look at Lottie then, his eyes fierce in the moonlight. "Until you."
Lottie leaned over him, wetting his face with her tears. Their salty warmth was the only balm she had to offer for wounds so fresh and so deep. She gently kissed his brow, his eyelids, his cheeks, the bridge of his nose, and finally, his mouth, seeking to draw all the pain and bitterness out of his soul.
Groaning her name as if it was the answer to a long forgotten prayer, Hayden wrapped his arms around her and rolled her beneath him. As Lottie opened both her arms and legs to him, offering him a solace that was beyond tears or words, neither one of them heard the bedchamber door creak softly shut behind them.
Chapter 23
Was it possible, Dear Reader, that one night of scandal could lead to a lifetime of love?
SOMEONE WAS BANGING ON THE DOOR OF Lottie's bedchamber. That might not have been so jarring if the culprit hadn't also been shouting her name at the top of his lungs.
Startled from a sound sleep, Hayden sat bolt upright in the bed, muttering an oath. Lottie simply rolled over to her stomach and moaned in protest, refusing to abandon their cozy nest of rumpled blankets and entwined limbs.
But the banging and shouting showed no signs of ceasing.
Clutching a pillow to her naked breasts, Lottie sat up and raked a tousled curl out of her heavy-lidded eyes. "I do believe it's Sterling. Whatever is the matter with him? Did I scream again?"
Sliding his arms around her waist, Hayden nuzzled the downy skin at the nape of her neck and murmured, "No, but if he's willing to wait, it can be arranged."
The banging persisted.
When Lottie tried to wiggle out of his grasp, Hayden simply shoved her back among the pillows. "I warned you that if I ever got you into a proper bed, my lady, I was never going to let you out of it. You stay right where you are. I'll handle him this time." His expression stern and his hair poking out in all directions, Hayden clambered from the bed, sweeping a quilt around his lean hips.
"Careful," she warned. "He might be armed."
"If he is, then he'd best be prepared to choose his second because this time I have every intention of accepting his challenge."
Lottie might have been more alarmed by her husband's threat if she hadn't been distracted by how scrumptious he looked garbed in nothing but a quilt. Sighing dreamily, she admired the masculine roll of his hips as he swaggered to the door and threw it open.
Sterling opened his mouth, but before he could utter a word, Hayden shook a finger in his face. "I've had it up to here with your meddling, Devonbrooke. Carlotta is not a child anymore. She's all grown up and she doesn't need you poking your arrogant nose in her business. You may still be her brother-in-law, but you're no longer her guardian. She's mywife now and she's right where she bloody well belongs and intends to stay — in my bed!"
Frowning in bewilderment, Sterling peered over Hayden's shoulder at Lottie. Warmed by a thrill of pride, Lottie grinned and wiggled her fingers at him.
Sterling shifted his gaze back to Hayden, something in his expression making Lottie's smile fade. "I didn't come here about Lottie. It's your daughter. She's gone missing."
* * *
After hastily tossing on their scattered garments, Lottie and Hayden hurried downstairs to find most of the family gathered in the drawing room. Sterling was pacing in front of the secretaire. Laura perched on the edge of the cream-colored sofa, her pretty face etched with strain. Harriet sat on the divan, while George leaned against the hearth behind her, his indolent posture belied by the fitful drumming of his fingernails on the mantel.
Hayden strode directly to the black-garbed figure sitting in the corner. "Where is she?" he demanded. "Where is my daughter?"
Miss Terwilliger looked even more shrunken than usual, as if she was in danger of being swallowed altogether by the overstuffed wing chair. Her gnarled knuckles curled around the head of her cane, she peered up at Hayden over the top of her spectacles, her rheumy blue eyes rimmed with red. "When Allegra failed to show up for her lesson this morning, I went to awaken her. But when I drew back her blankets, all I found was this." She reached into the chair beside her and held up the doll Hayden had given his daughter.
Hayden took the doll from her withered hands, tenderly smoothing one of its shimmering raven curls. "You were supposed to look after her," he said, raising accusing eyes to the old woman. "How could you let this happen?"
"No, Hayden," Lottie reminded him grimly. "I was supposed to look after her."
Before he could reply, Cookie came marching into the drawing room with Ellie in tow. Judging from the little girl's swollen eyes and reddened nose, she appeared to have been weeping for a very long time.
"Go on, child," Cookie commanded, tugging the girl in front of her. "Tell them what you know."
"But she made me promise I wouldn't!" Ellie wailed.
Laura swiftly rose and slipped an arm around her daughter's shoulders. "I would never ask you to break a promise, Eleanor, but the marqu
ess here is very frightened for his little girl. He loves her just as much as we all love you and if he doesn't find her soon, it will make him very sad. Can you tell us where she's gone?"
Scuffing the toe of her slipper on the carpet, Ellie gave Hayden a shy glance. "I told her you were here last night. At first she didn't believe me, but after I told her about the mouse and Aunt Lottie turning all pink, she knew I was telling the truth."
Lottie could feel herself turning pink all over again. "What did she do then?"
"She said she was going to see her papa. But then a little while later, she came to my bedchamber and asked for her doll back." Ellie frowned at the doll in Hayden's hands. "When she told me where she was going, I thought she was going to take it with her."
"Where?" Hayden asked desperately. "Where did she tell you she was going?"
"To Cornwall. She told me she was going home to Cornwall."
Relief washed over Hayden's face. "She's only ten years old. If she set off for Cornwall, she couldn't have gone very far." His pleading gaze swept them all, finally coming to rest on Lottie. "Could she?"
"The mail coach," Harriet whispered.
Since her blank expression never changed, it took everyone a minute to realize she had even spoken.
"What was that, Miss Dimwinkle?" George asked, leaning over her shoulder.
"The mail coach!" Harriet repeated, her eyes lighting up behind the thick lenses of her spectacles. "Allegra knew that was how I ran away to Cornwall. She was always asking me questions about my journey. She said it sounded like a fine adventure."
Sterling collapsed against the secretaire, pressing his fingertips to his brow. "Dear Lord! If the child managed to wrangle herself a seat on one of the mail coaches that departed last night, she could be halfway to Cornwall by now."
Hayden raked a hand through his hair, looking dazed. "This still makes no sense whatsoever. If she knew I was here, then why in the name of God would she go there?" Kneeling in front of Ellie, he gently clasped the child by the shoulders. "Think, sweetheart. Think very hard. Did Allegra say why she was going to Cornwall?"